my toxic trait is that if i ever met a famous person, i would tell them how the only “famous people” i’ve met are mormon church leaders.
and then i would info-dump about my mormon religious trauma
I guess the real glorious evolution was the homoerotic yearning we made along the way
I hold my grief in my scalp.
I hold it on my ears, the tip of my tongue.
It is not always pain, more an itch.
I scratch
But muscle memory makes me think I itch when I do not.
It is simply the act, the motion of itching, scratching, pinching, scraping.
It is not calming, it is not painful, I do not enjoy or hate it.
Instead I itch.
My sister holds her grief in her hands.
Her elbows, her teeth.
Hers is pain.
She hates her grief and so she holds it with her fists,
tight, but moving and flinching with her elbows.
She wants to bite it, make it painful so the hurt becomes more real.
She wants a reason to hurt.
My mother holds her grief in her feet.
In her words, in her spine.
It is not good to hold grief in the feet and spine, it makes it much harder to walk.
But
Unlike my sister, she lets it go, very easily.
Pushing it away. Giving it up.
But it takes ears to be heard, to get rid of the grief. It takes thick skin, it takes silence.
And so I hold my grief in my heart, to make room for my mother’s.
I think this might be my new magnum opus
shoutout to season ten of WOE.BEGONE
gotta be the least confusing of them all, the most gut-wrenching (except for season 9’s ep 99. The Bear is Dead), and honestly my personal favorite.
*cowboy voice*
this here’s the ballad of cowboy jaAMM
who didn’t know they were a cowboy yet
and you call it madnessss ahh but i caall it looveee
i love doodling little screampin guys because i dont actually know how to draw mouths or eyes or anatomy in general
Today I mistook Kayne for Will Wood.
That got me thinking about all that killing your alternates mess, he got himself into and I thought that Will Wood is the only alternate Kayne couldn’t kill. Because Will just beat him up in his skibidi sigma rizz rap battle and Kayne got so upset that he ate Will’s mike and ran off to some other alternative universe, wiping the humiliation of the minds.
Basically Kayne is the reason why Will don’t remember 2012, yeah, how could we not see it.
I had a stupid idea
The Steven Universe fandom might be “cringe” and “bad” but imagine a fandom so bad that a bunch of fandom members had ran a scheme to say “if you pay us money, your blorbo will know you’re valid” and the fandom permanently split over a 95 paragraph callout post of these people.
Wait, if wearing the pallid mask can make you see John, did Daniel see him while looking at the tentacle thing?
That would be even better proof honestly.
Oh! This gives me good ideas for like, Noel/John fanfiction. That would be cool. If I wrote anything anymore.