Doing Homework Early In The Morning While Listening To Vids About Non-binary People And Pansexuality...

My brother was diagnosed with depression years before I was, and because of that he started therapy years before I did.

I still remember when I was a young teen and he was playing a Nirvana song and he stopped it at this one line: “I miss the comfort of being sad”

He told me that when you start to get better, there’s a part of you that misses being sad and that if you start feeling that way you have to be extra extra aware and careful because if you indulge the feeling you’ll go down a self-destructive spiral

And even though that was years and years ago, I think about it all the time. Especially when I’m reading discourse on the idea of getting so attached to mental illness as an identity that you don’t want to improve things because you feel safe in it and don’t know who you are without it

I always think of that line “I miss the comfort of being sad” and my brother’s warning

How cruel it is for a person to find himself in a situation he never imagined… to transform from a professional, from a person who works hard to earn a living with dignity, to someone who extends his hand begging for help, not because he wants to, but because he is forced, coerced, trapped between hunger, injustice and betrayal.

Begging… is not just asking for money, but it is the loss of a part of the self, the breaking of the spirit that used to give instead of waiting for giving. We did not get here because we made a mistake, we did not choose this path, but it was imposed on us by force.

Since when did we run after screens, looking for a glimmer of hope in donation links, sending message after message, enduring embarrassment, facing rejection, being expelled from some people’s conversations as if we were a burden? Since when did this become the reality we have to live?

Do you know what is harder than hunger? Not the lack of food, nor the loss of money… but to have your dignity taken away in broad daylight, to find yourself being fought from all sides, to feel that the whole world wants you to break, to become just a beggar on the doorsteps of organizations and donations.

But we no longer expect anything from the world… not from governments, nor from politicians, nor from those who draw maps with our blood. All that remains for us is you… you are the ones who feel for us, who understand our suffering, who realize that what we are living is not life, but a daily struggle for survival.

So excuse us… we have no trick, no power, except with God and then with you.

I was writing to myself on the drafts this instantaneous writings I called:

"Why did they make us like this?!"

I'm sorry and G.N 😓💓

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Much love

random 4town headcanons:

tae young and robaire LOVE bubble tea and every friday at 5:30 pm after practice, they go out on what they call “bubble tea dates.”once aaron t said he wanted to try and went with them. he took one sip and choked on one of the bubbles, spitting it out onto robaires face. aaron t never joined them on their “dates” again, saying “i cant stand the feeling of balls in my mouth.” not that robaire or tae mind, they like when its just the two of them anyways.

the aarons are never really seen apart. aaron t follows aaron z everywhere. aaron z says that he doesn’t like it but wherever aaron t goes he’ll follow him as well. the two of them share everything. if z cant find anything he knows t took it. they’ll even drink from the same straw, which tae thinks is a showing of their strong friendship, jessie just thinks its gross.

tae young has a wall full of fanart and letters hes gotten over the years from fans. once the wall didn’t have anymore space, he put the rest in a special box he decorated with glitter and stickers.

jessie is about 19- early 20s. his kids were unexpected and kind of an accident. when the mother of his kids got pregnant with twins in their last year of high school, he didn’t abandon her. he made sure that both of them could raise those kids together. the mother of the kids and jessie are not in a relationship currently but they are very very close and consider each other best friends. they both love their kids and try their best to give them the happiest life possible.

aaron t definitely had a job as a pizza delivery boy before he joined the band. he actually loved that job with his whole heart and soul. he would constantly tell his mother that he wants to be a pizza delivery boy for the rest of his life and she told him he could be whatever he wanted, but in her head she honestly really hoped he’d be something else.

aaron z is the heaviest sleeper of the group, making him the most difficult to wake up. it’s usually a pain but, aaron t found a bright side to it. when aaron z works too hard he might pass out on the couch giving the boys the opportunity to draw and mark up his face. while robaire and aaron t draw stupid things all over his face, jessie takes out his paint set and paints pretty things on his arms and legs. tae brings over his nail set and paints z’s nails all different colors, humming quietly to himself while robaire and t giggle like idiots about the penis they drew on z’s forehead.

when aaron z finally wakes up he goes to the kitchen to find the boys looking at him and trying not to laugh. he groans and realizes what they did. “are you serious? again? really?” and the boys start to double over laughing as aaron rolls his eyes and walks to the bathroom to clean off his face and body. the only thing that he likes to keep its tae’s nail polish, even if all the bright colors don’t really match his style.

when aaron z screams from being frightened it sounds like an ambulance is driving by but got into an intense car crash so the siren is barely working.

robaire has an odd obsession with collecting socks. he has every kind of pair you can think off: pizza socks, cat socks, exclusive jessie 4town socks, wine socks, basically any kind of socks you can think of. he constantly tries to get the members into it but the only person who’s remotely into it is tae young.

tae young is the best at video games and beats his members at every video game imaginable.

once tae young told the stupidest joke and the only person that laughed was aaron z: tae: “whats the best time to go to the dentist!?” jessie: “dude please stop looking up ‘worlds funniest dad jokes’ theyre not fun-” tae: “tooth hurt-y!!!” aaron z: *hysterical laughing* arron t: (who’s been trying to make him laugh for weeks) *jumps up from his seat* “ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!?!? THATS WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH-” aaron z: *keeps laughing as he holds on to robaire for support* “i-i cant BREATHEE”

now tae young tells his stupid dad jokes to aaron z to make him laugh, and it works every time, which the rest of the team just can’t understand.

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Every. Single. One. Of. You.

First Ramadan Iftar in Gaza, Palestine.

Somebody pls make a TYRUS version of this 😆😙💚🍋