Andreil kiss doodle
In four days, this picture will have been posted ten years ago. This was me as a 15 year old in high school. I had starved and abused my body to make it thinner. I hated myself. The only value I felt was my proximity to thinness. I was severely depressed and suicidal. I had endured abuse and trauma as a child, and that left me vulnerable to being taken advantage of by my "friend" on the right who abused and traumatized me further before throwing me away as soon as I told her "No."
I look even thinner in this picture, yet my face was still and always will be fat. My face was one of the biggest signs that my body I starved was meant to be fat from the beginning. The "friend" I mentioned in the other photo is cosplaying Nemo here. The 22 year old woman cosplaying Gill in this photo had an intimate relationship with me at this time when I was 15 years old. I was extremely vulnerable and grieving unbearable loss, and she used that to groom me. I look at these pictures and see a 15 year old girl who was suffering and only had her proximity to thinness to feel pride in. There was no happiness. So many points in my life I was close to developing a full on eating disorder because I had been told for two decades that my body was ugly, disgusting, and the physical equivalent of sin.
This is me ten years later at my brother's wedding. I gained back all of the weight I lost back then and am heavier than any past moment of my life. I still have mental disorders that make my life painful and difficult to live, but I am no longer suicidal. I no longer am fruitlessly chasing the thin body I was always told I was supposed to have. I have a healthier relationship with my body than I ever did in the past, and I'm making immense progress on my recovery. I don't starve myself anymore. I don't exercise for two hours a day on high levels that are dangerous for me. I intuitively eat and know that diet culture and fatphobia are wrong. I am closer to fully recovering than I've ever been.
(Fat fetishists, porn blogs, and thinspo blogs: Do not reblog this post or I will destroy you.)
Something I made on my tablet while I was out
we need to start a new movement where we fight back against toxic "alpha males" by mansplanning omegaverse lore to them and kin-assigning them a role.
I'm at the Bumble part.
My stomach dropped as soon as I realized this was the moment it was happening. I think we as a fandom know what's coming up next, but I do wanna make sure to ring it up again.
Bumble is violently assaulted by the father of Turtle Tail's kittens, Tom. She is a canonical... "survivor" of domestic violence. "Survivor" because she does not survive.
She is constantly called fat and clumsy through the text on these pages. It is up there with Spottedleaf's Heart as a shockingly insensitive portrayal of a serious, dark issue.
I will be tagging #tw abuse and #tw fatphobia, if you need those things filtered.
Be warned and be safe.
after event
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Now this is a the way to close a store