Ah Shit, Here We Go Again...

SHNIIIIIFF😭🤧💙💙💙💙

I'm finally satisfied with how illustration of Blind turned out. It only took me four attempts haha

Closeups under the cut

Haha hiiii, sorry for reposting my own works, but tumblr seems to have deleted my previous account (hlo-pok-hopey) bc I can't access it or find my posts anywhere:)

Anyway, if u guys liked my art and want to see more of it, u can follow this blog. Apparently i will have to post my art here from now on. It's just, I remember some people who left very nice and touching comments under my Sphinx drawing and I miss u guys😭💚

Hello, friends!

I'm sorry to tell you that I'm having a burnout. It's a bit more than one month till the end of the semester and I have A LOT of stuff to finish now. It's been like that for a while and I'm just tired, mostly mentally. I have a few ideas left from before the burnout, but I kinda don't have the energy to want to draw them (does that make sense?? idk).

What I'm saying is, I'm taking a timeout. YES, AGAIN. I will draw, because I literally can't live without creative activities. I NEED to draw or else i will explode. But I don't want to add the pressure of posting stuff online to the pile. I'm sorry. I hope to be back with you by the end of June.

Until then, take care🫶

hello beloveds ☺️

I think he's a very dysfunctional autistic😞

He displays a lot of symptoms:

- intense special interests (engineering, robotics, that scary clown is probably a thing im their world too, so it counts)

- stimming. Lucas can be seen shaking his leg and humming to himself in Not a Hero. Vocal stimming seems to be a common thing for him. He makes a lot of funky noises

- social withdrawal

- He only wears loose comfy clothes, which may be an indication of sensory issues.

- he also doesn't like being touched (he tells Zoe to get out of his face when she clings too much in Daughters)

- or when his stuff is touched (annoyed when Eveline is taken to his old room; also that fuck you list entry about Jack throwing some of Lucas' stuff out on the veranda)

- sensory issues with food (kinda? He complains about his mom's cooking, doesn't like it even when the whole family is fucked up with mold lmao)

- difficulty with neurotypical communication patterns. Lucas is very direct with expressing his discomfort. Takes things very literally (like in that fuck you list entry about him looking in on Zoe when she was doing yoga. She called him a pervert, most likely JOKINGLY, but Lucas took it seriously)

- tendency to systematise and categorise (the fuck you list and childhood journals)

I can think of a few more symptoms of autism (+adhd) that he shows, but they're either based off his general vibes or my speculations

Aaanyway-

Due to mental health neglect, Lucas is dysfunctional and unaware of his autism, which leads to internal turmoil, low self-esteem and sense of emptiness. Idk it's me speculating here again, but I just enjoy diving deep into psychology, so I dare to assume that Lucas tried to get rid of this emptiness and self-hatred by projecting it onto others and killing people

I'm experiencing curiosity so

Lucas Baker enjoyers, what mental illnesses to you think he's coded with and why?

I've seen a few, I've definitely seen ADHD coded behaviors but I've seen a few people theorize he could be schizophrenic. I'm just overall curious to what people think and their reasons, especially since I haven't analyzed too far into it.

Remember how Doey said that if they didn’t work they’d be stuck in the prison yard and the guards would go, “We only got food for one of ya this week” “Which of you will it be?”

Well comes the Hour of Joy, how funny would it be to reverse the roles :3

Also I personally believe that Doey would be a menace during the Hour of Joy…like all we gotta do is kill the people that hurt us and we’re free??? HECK YEAH!!! (Might draw more of this)

Local doughy cryptid in a poncho and nice yellow wellies is having fun in the fresh air <3

Fyi: yes he's an octopus mutant in my au

Golden Wasteland: Then vs Now

What do you think it used to be called, before industrialization, when Alef was just a boy with a dream of creating a brighter tomorrow? Before the pipes and turrets in the name of "safety" and "modernity."

At what point did the name shift? Was it generations after the war laid waste and left the area in ruin? Or were there hushed whispers in the far corners of the realms of how certain areas were becoming desolate wastelands, uninhabitable by any Creature of the Light, even as King Resh reigned?

As for the workers who built the turrets brick by brick, laid the pipes across the vast expanse of grassy knolls, and hand-painted the sun and diamond motifs on their historic buildings - do you think they questioned it at all? Were there quiet mutterings of doubt and disapproval of the King's orders, followed by the uneasy silence and warningful glances of friends, family, co-workers?

Were there activists? Of course there was the whole resistance, but we always frame it as the realms fighting one another - what about the people living within the realms of prosper and privilege? Were there none who noticed the ecological turmoil beginning to take hold around them? Surely there was infighting amongst the higher classes and elites as the effects of industrialization were becoming more and more apparent.

Who would have received word of these complaints? Would people be punished for speaking out? Or would the concerns be raised to the proper authorities? And who were those authorities? The Elders?

So many questions, so few answers. I desperately need Sky: The Two Embers to be out, like, now.

What I want now😞

(not Lucas with a gator plushie, although that would be nice too- I want SLEEP. It's currently 8am where I live and this dummy (me) hasn't gone to bed yet)

Why tf is this my most popular post😭

Could you please maybe like my art as well?😭😭💔

Has this been done yet?