No Shame, Just Genuinely Asking

things i’m excited for in my drs:

youtuber dr

- creating music!

- living in a cute ass house

- being a polyglot

- my bf

- school being super easy

- generally having a laid back life

- going to harvard

- being well known in the music community

- hanging out w my bf's viewers on stream

pjo dr

- seeing my childhood in real life

- MEETING CARTER KANE THE LOML

- powers!!

- having present siblings

- my dad living IN chb (hes forced to be there but STILL)

- seeing all the different mythologies around the world

- going on adventures

- fucking with percy (we’re frenemies)

- taking care of the apollo children bc they are overworked and underpaid (not paid at all)

- visiting valhalla

fame dr

- not being socially awkward

- acting

- making music (again)

- the fame (duhh)

- chilling with my brother

- the compilations of "k being fucking stupid for 10 mins straight"

- having a platform for change

marauders dr

- seeing the hogwarts castle IRL (universal is just not the same)

- buying shit at hogsmeade (again, universal is just not the same)

- meeting my friends

- having house parties

- the dinners!!

- PLAYING QUIDDITCH.

- living the old money dream (the riddle fam is part of the sacred 28😜😜)

- raising adopted children (it’s literally just my brother matteo + anyone he brings home)

- i have an adoption problem

- teaching potions FUCK YOU SNAPE

batfam/mcu dr

- fucking with the justice league

- being famous (bruce wayne is the 3rd richest man alive)

- being rich

- PETER PARKER 😜❤️💕🫃

- having a big ass family that just keeps growing

- galas

- actually helping gotham

- fucking with the avengers

- remembering peter parker because BITCH im a biblically accurate angel i have too many eyes to just forget

- also the entire batfam is made up of cryptids, eldritch horrors, semi-demigods, and bruce wayne who is surprisingly the scariest of the family

- not recognizing any other famous ppl/heroes bc im busy with SAVING GOTHAM??

- being one of the only known gotham vigilantes bc duke and i r daylighters and everyone else are cryptids to ppl outside of gotham

things i ALWAYS script:

- i am 6'1

- my skin is always clear

- im buff but not body builder

- im charismatic and can hold a conversation (guys. im so awkward here.)

- i am a musical genius (IM A BAND, CHORUS, AND THEATER KID. TRIPLE HOMICIDE)

- im fluent in at least 3 languages (i just like languages bro)

- i can able to do school work extremely quick and i dont even have to think about it (i hate school)

- my teachers love me and suspect nothing of me (i hate school)

- i always have perfect attendance and grades (i hate school)

- sneaking out is super easy

- cigarettes dont affect me (stfu i like being cool without lung problems)

- people think im hilarious

- im extremely clever

- i know how to shoot a gun (im american /derog)

- a marching band (GUYS IM SORRY IM A BAND KID AND I CANT LIVE WITHOUT FLIPPING MY LITTLE FLAG)

- i never embarrass myself (i already stay up at night bc of my cr ok)

-i never run out of money (guys...)

- i never say or do anything problematic

- a musical career (if im not persuing music here, im persuing music everywhere else)

Hello! Any advice for manifesting? 🩵

definitely fake it til you make it

i’m not someone who really doubts my ability to manifest, i just woke up one day and decided that i would get what i wanted when i wanted it

but if you are, once you manifest something, act like you already got it instead of being like “damn now i gotta wait and see if it works” literally just assume that you already got it

the way i think about it, its like placing an order. you bought it, you’re just waiting for it to arrive to your house. that’s literally what i do, i go, “better skincare pls” and then wait for someone to gift me w new shit like i’m ordering at a restaurant

shifttok is so obsessed with rationalizing shifting. literally everything they say is trying to justify why they didnt shift.

"i didnt shift last night because i just said affirmations and went to sleep" BITCH. people do that ALL THE TIME and they DO shift

"i didnt shift because i put my dr on a pedestal" people put their dream colleges on a pedestal. THEY STILL GO TO THOSE COLLEGES make it make sense

"i didnt shift because blah blah blah" bro.. you didnt shift because you're imposing these rules upon yourself that didnt exist in the first place.

think about it. you're jogging on a clear path at a nice pace, you know that you're gonna get to your destination soon. SUDDENLY you start putting down hurdles you have to jump over and holes that you have to avoid. does that make sense to you?

you can shift. everybody can shift. i spent literally 4 years trying to figure out how to shift when i already knew. fucking take a breather and just do what feels right.

the first time i shifted i turned on a sub and went to sleep. no affirmations, no method.

"i dont like doing affirmations, i get distracted." then dont! no one said u needed to

"i have trouble focusing on my method and i keep wandering off" then do that! just let go

you will shift because thats just what happens. this isnt some superpower. instead of searching for the key, realize that you are the key.

MINI SHIFTING STORY

so basically i was sleeping and i woke up before my alarm which like never happens and i was kinda panicked because i was like, "omfg i need to go record with stefan" which struck me as weird because

1. i dont make videos??

2. who the fuck is stefan

so when i really started waking up, i feel someone behind me trying to keep me in bed so immediately i was like, oh i shifted.

but as soon as i realized i was like, "aw i was really looking forward to doing smth in my cr today" and i ended up back here soooo..

extra:

stefan is part of the teosgame gang and he hasn't been featured as much on the channel anymore which is why i thought it was so weird i thought of him

the method i used was quite literally just gaslighting myself. i'm in college in my dr and since i fall asleep really fast i just go like

"i need to sleep early i have 12 pm classes tmr and i wake up really late"

"i need to remember to post my vid tmr morning bc i have a competition and i cant post it in the afternoon"

"i need to practice my routine, i dont have that rifle toss down yet"

stuff like that

No one asked and I dunno what’s going to come out of this but I’m going batshit so fucking have at thee.

Jason creates lightning storms. It crackles across his skin, glows inside his veins. Thunder cracks the sky when he screams. He howls and prowls the ground like a wolf, hunched over and licking his teeth. His eyes glow. He’s haunting. He speaks to birds, coaxes them in close before snapping at them whole, scarfing down blood and bones and meat. Doesn’t care the mess on his mouth. Doesn’t care the mess on his hands.

Tornados ripple when he’s mad, rolling up from every angered breath he exhales. Summons lightning bolts from the sky and wields them in calloused reddened hands like swords and spears and daggers and bows and shields. It rains when he cries. Pours down viciously the longer his sadness last. The louder he cries, the harder it hits the ground. Forming hail that breaks the earth.

Manipulates the wind around him to run fast. One minute he’s there, the next he’s gone. He can pin you down with a look, steal the breath form your lungs and hold it vicious above your head as you wheeze and sob without sound and die.

His father is the god of justice and order and it’s like switch goes off in his mind. The Underworld conducts fairness on what it sees in your soul, the life you lived. He conducts justice on what he wants, what he thinks you deserve and Cupid screams as everything burns, his blood boiling under the heat of lightning wrapped around his body, as Jason floats above him, empty-eyed and rippling like a storm, until Nico screams at him to stop it. Pulls him down with shadowy tendrils, grabs the scepter, and drags Jason away into the shadows.

It’s only when Cupid no longer in his line of sight, his range of smell, his hearing perimeter, that he switches back on. Happy kind Jason who holds Nico’s hands and asks if he’s okay with gentle tones and assures him that no one will hate him if he chooses to come out with his feelings and Nico stares at bloodied teeth and glowing eyes and know it’s true because Jason wouldn’t let them.

When you ask him why he feels the need to bloody his hands and teeth and burn electricity along the skin of those who’ve done wrong, he will simply say, “They deserved it.” Camp quickly beats this out of him with demands of regality and logic and snappish tongues and people cowering away from him so harshly he gets upset but there are moments where his eyes glow a bit too much and they fear the return of a bloodied six year old sitting hunched over like a dog atop a pile of groaning, moaning, dying bodies because they dared to call his friend names.

He’ll torture you and see nothing wrong with it. Find the electricity inside your skin and electrocute you without touching. Ramp it up by ten, by a hundred and watch you cook from the inside out. Grappling him down does nothing. He shouts and you splatter.

He’s inhuman, a god among demigods, a wolf among sheep. A predator through and through. He smiles more than stares the older he gets but the campers know what he is and they watch him emerge from Mount Othrys thrumming with the same kind of energy he had when the wolves threw him to them. Blood smeared on his mouth and hands, golden as the weapons that they grip tighter in their hands with every pounding step he takes forward.

And he smiles and laughs and it’s manic and horrifying and with the thrill of defeating a Titan single-handed still rolling through him like a live wire, everyone else goes down. All enemies burned out and emptied. Gasping for breaths that never come. Struck down by lightning. Blown apart by determined bursts of air.

And Jason is standing there in the carnage, delighted. His laughter sounds like howls. The wind rockets against him, the air, the sky, the rain, the clouds - it all twists against his skin and heals his wounds, heals his bruises, invigorates him over and over again to burn, to break, to destroy, until all their enemies are justly defeated and he can confidently declare the war is won.

Order, they realize, comes in many forms.

This is Jason’s.

the way shifting made me love existing is just so ??? like who would've ever thought.

it makes me wanna look at that hurt version of myself who loathes the very thought of her own existence and tell her 'seeeeee? i told youuu'

album idea to script:

dividers: @dollywons

NORTH STAR:

- leaving a life behind for better things

MY REALITIES!

RIORDANVERSE — son of orphic dionysus

- ambassador of the hellenic underworld

GOTHAM — daylight vigilante

- batman's favorite child

2000’S FAME — teen rockstar

- bill kaulitz’s sweetheart

YOUTUBER — minecraft youtuber

- hermitcraft’s finest

MHA — crime fighting vigilante

- UA's favorite dropout

MARAUDERS — lord riddle

- hogwart's first competent potions master

"i can't shift bc.."

blah blah blah dont care

no more excuses. if i ever see ur consciousness here again you will not be safe