I Realize These Are Actually Really Obvious But It Was Uncomfortable For Me When I First Learnt These

Awkward Confession - Jesskas Fanfic

So I wrote this really late at night so it's not the best but I was really nervous last night for no reason so I needed something to relax so here you guys go! Enjoy! It's Male!Jesse x Lukas btw.

Lukas let out a yawn, rubbing his eyes tiredly. He had stayed up all night working on his book. He looked outside to see the sun coming up already, and he sighed, knowing he had things to do. He closed the book and just laid in bed, just trying to relax for a bit. Then he heard a soft knock at his door. He pulled himself out of bed reluctantly. Nobody usually visited him. He opened the door to be surprised with Jesse.

“Jesse! What are you doing here so early in the morning?” he greeted and invited him inside.

“Oh, I just wanted to come down and see you. I guess I didn't really think about the time,” Jesse said, his tone a bit jittery as if he was hiding something. “I was lucky you were awake,”

“Well, I'm really glad to see you. I know we don't have much time now a days to hang out, so these little moments are always great,” Lukas smiled, giving him a small hug. He sat down on the ground, Jesse following suit and taking a place next to him.

“How's your book going?” Jesse asked, curiosity evident in his voice.

“Glad you asked. It's actually going really good so far, just needing a few revisions, and I'm hoping to add at least six more chapters,” he looked proud of his work, his blue eyes beaming.

“I can't wait until it's finished. It'll be a great read, Lukas,” he praised, Lukas becoming a bit flustered and uttered a ‘thanks.’ Jesse opened his mouth to say more, but closed it shut right after. He looked nervous, continuously fidgeting and scratching his head.

“Jesse, you look kind of off. You know you can tell me anything, right?” he reassured, patting his back. Jesse gave him a weak smile of gratitude.

“Well, I just really missed you. I just don't know what to say anymore. It's weird,” he admitted, his face growing pink. “I mean, not that I'm uncomfortable around you, hehe,” he added on quickly. Lukas raised an eyebrow at him, knowing that's not the whole truth. Jesse's eyes darted around the quaint little house anxiously, as he began to sweat.

“Uh.. Well. I guess I kind of like you?” he looked like he was about to die. Lukas froze for a second, then ‘very intelligently’ answered.

“Well, I like you too! You're my best friend!” Which received a facepalm from Jesse. Confused, Lukas tilted his head.

“Gosh, why do you have to be so cute?” Jesse whispered to himself, not so quietly. He immediately froze, smiling fakely in embarrassment. Lukas then understood what he meant earlier, turning a dark red.

“Haha.. you really think that way, huh?” Lukas teased, trying to play it off but failing miserably. “I guess me too?”

Jesse nearly fell over while sitting down. Incredible.

“You do?” he was very excited, but still had a bright pink dusting his cheeks.

“...Yeah.. yeah I do. Oh my gosh, I do!” Lukas didn't even realize he felt this way. He was freaking out in his sudden awareness of his feelings.

“Great!” Jesse threw his arms around Lukas, laughing at his reaction. Lukas managed to chill out a bit, hugging him back. Impulsively, he brought his face closer to Jesse's, their faces just inches apart.

They were very red, and very, very awkward.

“Umm, sorry..?” Lukas said.

Jesse just laughed slightly, then closed the gap between them, their lips colliding. Lukas' eyes widened, then closed slowly as he deepened the kiss.

After what felt like eternity, they seperated.

“Should I put this in the book or-”

“No please don't.”

“What’s your name, little dragon?”

“Martin. My name was Martin.”

oops my hand slipped and made a whole one shot about this that somehow got angsty

Hawkmoth smacked his cane down in anger, as he watched his son call Marinette just a friend once more. He whacked his face with his hand, sighing at Adrien's obliviousness. He pitied the poor girl as her face put on a fake smile, when she was clearly heart broken because he couldn't see she loved him. There was nothing he could do, sadly, for he didn't want to akumatize her, since she would go after Adrien, therefore endangering him. So, he rubbed his chin while he was lost in thought. Then the idea hit him. If his ship wouldn't work in the real world, why not the fiction world?

“Nooroo, dark wings fall!” he shouted, his suit disappearing to be replaced with his civilian attire. He seemed eager for an odd reason, which made Nooroo tilt his head to the right slightly in confusion.

“Master, why are you so excited?” he asked innocently, his small, frail voice breaking the silence in the room. Gabriel looked at Nooroo, a smirk on his lips. The kwami felt uneasy, worrying for his owner's sanity.

“I am going to write fanfiction!” he declared loudly, making Nooroo jump at the booming noise. Gabriel walked to the elevator, as his kwami flew to his side as they ascended. Natalie was there, a tablet in her hand.

“Natalie, when Adrien gets home, tell him to come to my office,” he says dismissively, and heads to his office. He settles himself into his seat, and cracked his fingers in preparation for the typing that was about to ensue.

‘Adrien walked into the classroom, his eyes immediately darting to Marinette,’ was the first sentence he wrote. The rush he felt was invigorating. This was his world. Anything could happen. He chuckled evilily, continuing the writing. The clicking of the keys as his fingers swiftly tapped them, forming his wonderful story.

Adrien poked his head through the doorway cautiously. He was afraid he had stepped in at the wrong time, for he looked so busy as he clattered away. His suspicions were proven wrong, when his father had spoken.

“Adrien! My son!” he said, a strange energetic beat in his usually cold tone. Adrien raised an eyebrow, his green eyes studying him carefully. He looked a lot more happy and upbeat. “Come have a seat,” he invited, gesturing to the chairs in front of his desk.

“What did you need, father?” he was fiddling with his ring anxiously. Had he done something wrong? No, because he wouldn't be so.. weird if he had.

“I need you to stop calling Marinette ‘just a friend!’ It's ruining my ship!” he cried out, slamming his fist on the desk in a sudden burst of rage. Adrien was wondering if his father was okay. How did he know he called Marinette that? What was a ship?

“Father, what do you mean?” He was genuinely scared for his father's mental state. He knew he was messed up after his mother left, but not this bad! Was he going insane? Gabriel just folded his hands together cynically.

“I mean that you should realize you love her, and she loves you! So my shop can be canon!” he explained, and Adrien looked at Natalie, who was standing by the door, for help. Natalie simply shrugged. He was blushing furiously, his skin turning red. This caused Gabriel to smirk at him, mischief dancing in his eyes. Natalie was just a bystander. Who was trying not to yell at her boss for not seeing she loved him. Like father, like son.

“M..Marinette's just a f..friend!” he stammered nervously, squirming under his burning gaze. Then he placed his face into his hands, while holding back screams.

“Haha.. There's that famous line!” he laughed hysterically. Adrien wanted to get out of here. He felt Plagg pinch him. Plagg was with Gabriel. His chosen was so blind, just like everyone else. But this man was an exception. He knew how painful it was to watch them, all the awkwardness, flirting, and just plain idiocy. Until he realized, how did he know? Oh well, he was just glad someone agreed with him. He had to stop himself from phasing through his jacket and start ranting along with him.

“Son, you love her,” he got up out of his seat and wandered to Adrien's side. He placed his hands on his shoulders. “You have to see it!” he yelled, shaking him. “Please! I need Adrienette to be canon!”

“Um.. haha.. oh, beep beep! My miracu- I mean phone is ringing someone must be calling me!” he said flustered, as he ran out of the room. His father noticed the slip up, and the realization dawned on him. HE WAS CAT NOIR!!!! This made it all the more complicated. He loved Ladybug! But, this means Ladrien and Marichat and Ladynoir!! He squealed in delight, and started dancing in his office. Natalie could barely believe she loved this man.

“Sir, please calm down!” she received a crazed look from Gabriel as he ran out the room. She sighed, and pushed her glasses up.

“ADRIENETTE! LADRIEN! MARICHAT! LADYNOIR!” he shouted, then saw the flaw in his chanting. He didn't know who Ladybug was! Marinette and Ladybug were competing! He couldn't have that! So he decided to set out to reveal her identity.

He was standing in his hideout once more, as he was watching his akuma do its work. It was harmless, to avoid hurting Cat Noir, but it was agile and could get the miraculouses or reveal Ladybug's identity! Then the akuma threw Cat Noir far away. (HOW DID THAT HAPPEN I CLEARLY STATED NOT TO HURT HIM) The akuma also managed to grab one her earrings. Her transformation was fading, the pink light appearing as her suit dissipated. He caught a glimpse of her face without the mask, and gasped dramatically. It was Marinette! Yes! Now all his ships were canon!! He was jumping around in joy. He didn't care about the miraculous anymore. He made him drop it and revoked the akuma. Now that his ship was canon, he had decided to quit evil, for the sake of his son and his future daughter in law.

Ladybug was panicking as she lost one earring, but she got a grip on herself, and swung the yo-yo at the akuma. She was able to stop it before it hit them, because they were already de evilized. She was dazed, after losing one part of the miraculous and now the akuma was gone. She didn't even see Cat Noir come up.

“Oh my goodness.. Marinette?!” he screamed, for he had accidentally seen her face. THE GIRL HE LOVED WAS MARINETTE?!?!? She was brought back to reality when he screamed, and she had forgotten to collect the earring. Her blue eyes widened in shock, and she started running around wildly. She just revealed her identity. NOOOO!!

“M’lady..” he breathed, unable to comprehend what happened. She wasn't any better, if not worse. She quickly grabbed the remaining part of her miraculous in order to hide her face again. She also remembered that THE AKUMA VICTIM WAS STILL HERE!! She picked up the guy, and lowered them down to the ground. She was distraught, but she had a job to do.After, she returned to Cat Noir.

“So, yeah, I am Marinette. Surprise?” she admitted, her brave attitude she had as Ladybug now breaking away to show her Marinette. Now that he knew, he could see the similarities. Her sense of justice, her confidence, her kindness. He saw it all.

“I just can't believe, that the girl who say behind me was you..” he said mindlessly. She stiffened and placed her hands on her heads.

“ADRIEN?!?!” she shrieked, and he placed his hand over his mouth at his mistake. She had reverted back to freaking out.

Hawkmoth was proud. He had finally united the two. He left the lair, a happiness he hadn't felt in a long time in his heart. He was happy his son had finally found his love. He looked to Nooroo.

“Nooroo. Thank you for assisting me. But I will no longer need you for I am giving up being a villain,” the kwami was swelling with pride and happiness. Though Gabriel could be terrible to him, they had unconsciously bonded each time he transformed. He flew away into the brooch, and was placed into the box. He looked at the painting of his wife. “I'm sorry, Emilie.. I love you..” he lowered his head. He missed her so much. But he had to focus on the future. He reached inside for the peacock miraculous.

“Son,” he called to Adrien, who was trying to sneak through the door with Marinette. He stopped in his tracks.

“Oh, h..hey father!” he grinned anxiously. He had been caught. His father had a warm smile upon his face. He went to Marinette, and placed the two boxes in her hands. They were unaware of what he was doing, and they exchange a look of questioning.

“I'm sorry, Adrien. I've been a terrible father. But return this to the guardian,” he said, right before giving him a tight hug. Adrien gasped, tears welling in his viridescent eyes. He returned the embrace, holding him. Marinette was nearly crying too. It was great his father had seen his wrongs. But what did he mean return to the guardian? She took a peek of what was inside.

There was the missing miraculouses. The butterfly and the peacock. “H..Hawkmoth?” she choked out. He nodded, guilt contorting his face. Adrien pulled away, and hurt filled his eyes.

“I understand if you hate me. I just wanted your miraculous to bring your mother back,” he turned to walk away, but Adrien grabbed his arm. Gabriel was afraid he would be angry, but he knew that what he had done was irredeemable.

“Father.. I forgive you,” he said, those words taking him surprise. “Me too,” Marinette added. He never thought they would accept it so well. After all, he had massacred the city so many times. Endangered thousands.

“You do?”

“Of course,” he smiled at him, tears flowing down his cheeks. He was just happy to get his father back. He missed the way he was before his mom was gone. He wanted her back. But he had his father and Marinette. And he was perfectly content with them.

“High school. The arena of teenage angst.”

Hawkmoth

Why So Much Salt?!

So this might actually be a controversial post since so many people in the Miraculous Ladybug fandom love salt and hating on the creators, but I think the fandom has crossed the line.

It seems like every episode I see so many post hating on the writing and characters and ultimately there is always a post coming at Thomas Astruc himself. Mind you, a lot of these post are brutal and show literal hate to the author of the show for little details here and there that people don’t really like, no matter how opinion based these issues are.

I don’t understand how all these basic manners the fandom excels at when it comes to fan writings and fan art are all thrown out the window when someone manages to have their original ideas actually publicized. When it comes to fan written work, if people don’t like it, they just ignore it and don’t write hateful things in the comment section. If they enjoy most of it, but have a few places here and there they don’t care for, they still usually like the work and make nice comments. However, when it comes to Thomas, or any other publized creator for that matter, because I feel like this does not just happen with MLB, people feel free to spew their hate on the smallest little details instead of just commenting on what they like or enjoyed about the episode. Thomas gets direct hate thrown at him for people’s opinion on little details all the time.

Look, at the end of the day, this is Thomas’ show, and these are his characters. This is his original story, his original world, and his original project. He got the funding to make his original idea come to life and people of all ages all over around the globe have loved it! Even if you think your fan fictions, one-shots, or AUs are better than the actual show, they would not exist without Thomas and his original idea. Even if you think you can write the characters better, they are his characters, and not yours. We can have fun using the characters and the universe he created, and we can add some of our own originality by coming up with AUs or adding changes to characters, but at the end of the day, the original story is his, and he can do what he wants with it. We as a fandom should respect him like we would fellow tumblr writers in the sense that even if we do not like his work, we just ignore it, and move on, because it’s not our baby, it’s his. If you do not like the actual show, feel free to stop watching it and only consume fan fiction based off of his idea. That way, people who enjoy the show do not have to deal with seeing hateful comments after every episode from people who should have stopped watching long ago if they really feel the way they say.

cringe culture

so i used to be apart of the cringe culture. i only did because i was part of the 'cringy' fandoms like fnaf and undertale, even mlp and minecraft. i was like 9, just got a phone. i was gullible and followed the mainstream ideas. even now it's still stuck with me. i used to bully people because their art was bad or if they liked something. i remember i even went after a 7 year old, and now i wish i could take it back. i knew what i was doing; i was just desperate to have friends. it's hard to get over such a toxic mindset. a majority of people who participate in cringe culture are teens and kids who want to be liked. the only cringy things are toxic fans, those who attack others for differing opinions. i did that shit too. i now am hopefully getting over that phase of hatred. i now love shit like miraculous, minecraft, minecraft story mode, warriors, all that stuff. this stuff helps people get through things. i personally got through a lot of stuff because of minecraft and miraculous. moral of the story, like what you want, don't listen to what others think of it. just don't be toxic either. i understand i still have this mindset and as long as you recognize what's wrong and try to change that's great!! let people make ocs, let them make rainbow ponies. you can critique, but not criticize. love urself!!

The Theme of Final Space  SPOILERS AHEAD

Before you read any further make sure you watch all episodes of Final Space since I will be talking about the whole first season.

I was watching the documentary that was released today where Olan goes into the theme of loneliness in the show and I started to realize how all of the characters are brought together by loneliness.

Gary is obvious. His father died when he was young and he was basically exiled in space for five years with a bunch of robots. He has a desperation to get out of that state by befriending anyone he comes across no matter their past. In the end, however, he is essentially back to where he started since the majority of his friends are either dead or MIA and his only comfort before death is talking with his AI friend HUE, someone he didn’t consider company when a prisoner.

Quinn is lonely in that she, at the time, was the only one in the Infinity Guard to defy The Lord Commander. She was betrayed by the very organization she based her whole life around and has a hard time trusting anyone else in the event she might be hurt again.

Avocato is lonely because he feels that no one would ever empathize with him. He’s hesitant about being close to anyone because he knows once people know about his history and how he was The Lord Commander’s second in command, they would never give him the time of day so he shuts down any friendly gestures at first. Avocato even anticipates his son will never forgive him for the things he’s done. He’s lonely in that he anticipates everyone will hate him.

Little Cato is another obvious one. Hell, he even says it in episode 7. He’s lonely because he never really had a family. Even when Avocato was alive, he was mostly separated from him and it is implied that Avocato was cold outwardly towards him when working for The Lord Commander. He had one moment of feeling whole again with his father and then it was suddenly ripped from his arms when Avocato sacrificed himself. His guilt for his father’s death makes him feel even more alone and would surely eat him if it weren’t for Gary.

Mooncake is lonely because as Nightfall and Lord Commander put it, “everywhere he goes, death follows.” No matter who he befriends with, it will always end in tragedy. In the end when everyone is dead due to people trying to protect him or when he himself uses his powers, he will be back to square one and wander in the loneliness of space.

KVN is actually a pretty relatable form of loneliness in that no one believes in him. Gary constantly makes it a point that he absolutely loathes KVN to the point it physically pains him to give him a thumbs up when he does something good. HUE even acknowledges that no one has any faith in KVN when he is in the process of saving the Galaxy One from the Infinity Guard. I feel that KVN is well aware that no one really believes in him but puts on a smile (even though he doesn’t have a mouth) to hide his insecurities. All he wants is approval and friends, but due to his annoying nature, it’s hard for people to actually take him seriously. 

HUE is pretty simple in that him being a stereotypical “unfeeling AI”, he feels that he is destined to be lonely and friendless. However, over time, he develops a very close bond towards Gary and is probably the closest friend Gary has since they both had to live with each other for five years. He overcomes the loneliness of his programming by discovering a bit of humanity inside of him via his care for Gary. When Gary dies he actually feels loss and thus alone inside the helmet of his deceased friend. It’s basically how Cortana felt between Halo 3 and Halo 4 after John freezes himself for 4 years in space and she has no company but the frozen body of her closest friend. 

The Lord Commander even has some loneliness inside of him and I feel that this is going to play a huge part in season 2. The Lord Commander, or Jack, is lonely due to the fact that he was always in the shadow of someone else and felt unimportant. He was the co-pilot of the great John Goodspeed but history only remembers John and not Jack on that fateful flight. His rise to power is a desperation for him to be remembered, but in doing so, he is regarded as one of the vilest beings in the universe. His value for loyalty is another desperation to get out of a lonely state since he wants everyone to pay attention to him and not anyone else. His insecurities really take form in the last episode when he insists that he got his powers because he was chosen and therefore important and therefore noticed. However, Gary lays the hard truth on him and tells him that his powers were a mistake and he is still a nobody which in turn infuriates Jack. In the end, the Titans choose Earth and leave Jack to suffer alone with his illness with no one to care for him. 

I’m super excited where Season 2 is going to go but I hope the theme of loneliness continues throughout the show because I think its a very multi-layered and important theme to explore in fiction. :)

What I love most about Skyrim (and TES in general) is how, once the surface is at all scratched, you’re confronted with the most buckwild lore in the history of ever. Like, Skyrim’s baseline experience is: you are a person born with the soul of a dragon, which means you can absorb their souls and speak their language. Fair enough! There are two moons! And vampires! Giants herd mammoths across the plains!

But then! Dig a little deeper, and it’s all “yeah, there are two moons, but they aren’t really moons, they’re the corpse of the god who tricked all the other gods into creating the world, and mortals just interpret them as moons”, and “an entire race created technology that runs on souls, and they accidentally erased themselves from existence while trying to become gods, well at least that’s our best guess” and “some dudes replaced their hearts with plants and you can pickpocket the plant-heart right out of their chest” and “here’s a weapon that sometimes turns your enemies into pastries”. 

What a game, you guys. 

no... jauffre.. please come back

bro... that is messed up....