I Need To Be Held Back And Put In Isolation.

what i've learnt in my very limited years here on the earth so far, is that life is miserable but holy fuck man life is so beautiful. like i get to walk outside and see the sunset. i get to hang out with my friends and giggle and cry and gossip. i get to hug my family. whatever comes before or after this life does not matter. here right now is so beautiful. does the make the world any less fucked up? no. but that just makes me realise more as to how privileged i am to have all that i do. i will probably forget this in a few hours and start worrying about what i don't have. but i'm always grateful for what i do have. life's beautiful man. talk to your friends, go on a walk.

max verstappen we all know what you are.

rain always makes me think of brocedes

you all hate on max like it's fucking normal. it's not. it's fucking mental that you think it's normal to send death threats to a guy who should be disappointed. his team didn't listen to him and fucked him over. i can hundred percent assure you that if any of us were in his place, we would be raging. think. before. you. speak.

I see a lot of Max fans being critical towards him for today and I'm not saying that you can't be critical of him, but maybe we should actually start to think about why he's so damn angry and frustrated?

I know Max comes across as if nothing ever affects him, but let's remember all of the drama RBR has been through pretty much since the passing of Mateschitz, but especially in the past few months. Besides the power struggles and whatnot, do you think it's easy for him to try and handle his father and his boss being at each other's throats all the time? Both of them being in the RBR garage? Seeing their star designer leave in the midst of it all? Seeing their advantage completely disappearing in the span of a few months time? Having to carry the team on his back because the car is just not performing and he has no teammate to help him out either?

Then whenever he gets into an incident the entire world seems to turn against him. No matter if he's at fault or not. Not to mention FIA or the public never seeming to give a fuck whenever someone makes dodgy moves against him, but when he does it he gets penalties and hit pieces.

Then when he can usually at least rely on good strategy even that is letting him down right now.

He's been keeping it together very well up until now and has handled everything with class, patience and maturity. But he's only human and at some point things will start to catch up to him.

Yes, maybe was too angry and frustrated today, but I honestly feel like we should regard him with a bit more sympathy and understanding instead of judgement.

Mental health is a thing for everyone. Even Max.

so i've been reading a lot of ana huang books recently. and by a lot, i mean the whole twisted series and the first book in the kings of sin series. the way ana huang writes her characters and the way she connects them and the way they flow seamlessly together is something i feel like i will never find in any romance series or books really. i mean i also haven't read a lot of romance. so it could be that. okay so to the real deal ranking the men i've read so far about. I have two lists actually so please bear with me.

what my logical brain which is good at reasoning and has good self preservation says:

1. Rhys Larsen

2. Dante Russo

3. Josh Chen

4. Christian Harper

5. Alex Volkov

what my heart wants:

1. Josh Chen

2. Dante Russo

3. Rhys Larsen

4. Christian Harper

5. Alex Volkov

okay that's that and i understand why y'all hate Josh. but i feel like i understand why he did what he did. and also they were both in the wrong equally as compared to the other books. like i understand what he did was horrible but i can't help it I love him.

as for my least liked Alex, I don't know I just find him very bland and meh. like yeah the sex was a-fucking-mazing to read and I love sweet sunshine Ava. but he just didn't do anything for me. Alex stans don't come for me. i don't hate him completely I promise.

and i cannot and will not stop raving about Dante Russo. he is my ideal man. the man of my dreams. i would sell all my organs if it meant i could have a man like him.

Rhys Larsen is perfect. that's it.

and Christian was an interesting person for me to read. I don't know how to feel about him. like obviously what he did was so horrible. if I was Stella I would chop his dick off. but again it's all fictitious so whatever. i feel like i could not tolerate him. he was more interesting to read than Alex though, since the higher ranking.

I will read the other kings of sin books and keep you guys updated because i love reading romance and smut obviously.

was re-watching maxton hall and ruby and james give me lestappen vibes

him getting mad on getting one wrong. nerd <3

redbullracing: putting Max's knowledge of cat breeds to the test!

so i'm back, hi. pls update me on whatever the fuck has happened this off season and the beginning of the season because what?

do some of you genuinely have nothing better to do than hate on another person? just because they're disappointed and are openly displaying their disappointment? do you think that if you were in place of that boy, you wouldn't be disappointed and disheartened? of course he's gonna be hungry to win more. that's the point of all sports. do you think your favs will be happy to see you talk absolute bullshit and be cruel to another one of their friends? max and lando said they were fine. SO THEY'RE FINE. how hard is it for all of you to move on? and even if they aren't fine, IT'S NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS. i keep saying this again and again, please stop hating on others, funnel that energy towards supporting your favs.

all this shit about anti-lando norris is just fucking cruel. of course he's upset. some of you make me fucking sick in the stomach and you should be ashamed of yourself that you have nothing better in your life than hate on someone. this goes to not just lando haters but every single one of the people who just hate online. it makes me sad that you're so full of hatred and miserable. go out and touch grass. reconnecting with nature will help.

anyways,

MY KING WON. sir lewis hamilton. back on the top step. i cried for like half an hour. he deserves this so so so much. and max never fails to amaze me with his absolute fucking monster talent. he's a machine. and of course lando p3. mclaren fucked up during the pitstops. but a 3-4 is really not bad. mclaren seem to be doing very well so far.

and i am so fucking pissed at ferrari. idek what the fuck they think they're doing. and ofcourse george. i cried when thaat happened. but hey again, it's racing.

all in all i'm so proud of all of the boys. one of my fav races of 2024, for sure.

I FUCKING CALLED IT OH MY GOD CONGRATULATIONS TO THEM!!!!!