Nie Powinnam Czytać Tego Zaraz Przed Egzaminem Z Matmy But Here We Are

based on how i reacted to midnights specifically YOYOK two years ago im scared for the visceral reaction that im gonna have to TTPD but im excited for the immense comfort the album is (hopefully) going to bring me

I will dance on ai grave in general

Reblog to kill it faster

😭😭😭

When I was 24 I sat in a backstage dressing room in London, buzzing with anticipation. My backup singers and bandmates gathered around me in a scattered circle.Scissors emerged and I watched in the mirror as my locks of long curly hair fell in piles on the floor. There I was in my plaid button down shirt, grinning sheepishly as my tour mates and friends cheered on my haircut. This simple thing that everyone does. But I had a secret. For me. It was more than a change of hairstyle. When I was 24. I decided to completely reinvent myself.

How does a person reinvent herself, you ask? In any way I could think of. Musically, geographically, aesthetically, behaviorally, motivationally. And I did so joyfully. The curiosity I had felt the first murmurs of while making red had amplified into a pulsing heartbeat of restlessness in my bars. The risks I took when I toyed with pop sounds and sensibilities on red? I wanted to push it further. The sense of freedom I felt when traveling to big bustling cities? I wanted to live in one. The voices that had begun to shame me in new ways for dating like a normal young woman? I wanted to silence them.

You see, in the years preceding this, I had become the target of slut shaming, the intensity and relentlessness of which would be criticized and called out if it happened today. The jokes about my amount of boyfriends. The trivialization of my songwriting as if it were a predatory act of a boy crazy psychopath. The media co-signing of this narrative. I had to make it stop because it was starting to really hurt.

It became clear to me that for me there was no such thing as casual dating, or even having a male friend who you platonically hang out with. If I was seen with him, it was assumed I was sleeping with him. And so I swore off hanging out with guys, dating, flirting, or anything that could be weaponized against me by a culture that claimed to believe in liberating women but consistently treated me with the harsh moral codes of the Victorian era.

Being a consummate optimist, I assumed I could fix this if I simply changed my behavior. I swore off dating and decided to focus only on myself, my music, my growth. And my female friendships. If I only hung out with my female friends, people couldn't sensationalize or sexualize that, right? I would learn later on that people could and people would.

But none of that mattered then because I had a plan and I had a demeanor as trusting as a basket of golden retriever puppies. I had the keys to my own apartment in New York and I had new melodies bursting from my imagination. I had Max Martin and Shellback who were happy to help me explore this new sonic landscape I was enamored with. I had a new friend named Jack Antonoff who had made some cool tracks in his apartment. I had the idea that the album would be called 1989. And we would reference big 80's synths and write sky high choruses. I had sublime, inexplicable faith and I ran right toward it, in high heels and a crop top.

There was so much that I didn't know then, and looking back I see what a good thing that was. This time of my life was marked by right kind of naïveté, a hunger for adventure. And a sense of freedom I hadn't tasted before. It turns out that the cocktail of naïveté, hunger for adventure and freedom can lead to some nasty hangovers, metaphorically speaking. Of course everyone had something to say. But they always will. I learned lessons, paid prices, and tried to… don't say it don't say it. I'm sorry, I have to say it. Shake it off.

I’ll always be so incredibly grateful for how you loved and embraced this album. You, who followed my zig zag creative choices and cheered on my risks and experiments. You, who heard the wink and humor in "blank space" and maybe even empathized with the pain behind the satire. You, who saw the seeds of allyship and advocating for equality in "Welcome to New York". You, who knew that maybe a girl who surrounds herself with female friends in adulthood is making up for a lack of them in childhood (not starting a tyrannical hot girl cult). You, who saw that I reinvent myself for a million reasons, and that one of them is to try my very best to entertain you. You, who have had the grace to allow me the freedom to change.

I was born in 1989. Reinvented for the first time in 2014, and a part of me was reclaimed in 2023 with the re-release of this album I love so dearly.

Never in my wildest dreams did I imagine the magic you would sprinkle on my life for so long. This moment is a reflection of the woods we've wandered through and all this love between us still glowing in the darkest dark.

I present to you, with gratitude and wild wonder, my version of 1989.

It’s been waiting for you.

no.

< Gwiles/Ghostflower headcanons >

Gwen and miles were long in a relationship before they told Rio, but she knew about them anyway.

Once Gwen re joins the Mary janes, miles becomes her personal gossip partner

Miles once said that his favourite colour is orange, and weirdly enough gwen started wearing orange nail polish a lot

They unironically love to play Roblox horror games

Taylor Swift exist in Gwen's universe, but she doesn't in miles'. He still knows all her songs tho

Gwen knows some Spanish, but she couldn't really speak it until miles started teaching her

Shoulder kisses, especially in emotional situations

Gwen's love language is physical touch and miles is a quality time guy

Jefferson Morales still calls Gwen emo

I was watching 10 things I hate about you and like mid way through I started writing randomly

and boom a year later I have 5 journals filled

“how did you get into writing” girl nobody gets into writing. writing shows up one day at your door and gets into you

lego batman is the best batman

argue with the wall tbh the lego batman solos

Most amazing spider verse artist out there

Yall we missed out on some great expressions bc of their masks

WAITING for 'loml' omg

'THE TORTURED POETS DEPARTMENT' has 7 explicit tracks

The Tortured Poets Department

Down Bad

But Daddy I Love Him

Florida!!! (feat. Florence + the Machine)

loml

I Can Do It With A Broken Heart

The Smallest Man Who Ever Lived

CAN WE FINALLY AGREE THAT MIGUEL IS JUST AS MUCH OF A VILLAN AS SPOT IS?

so, theres this thing ive been wanting to say for a while.

the spot has his sketch lines imported in his design:

you cant see them very clearly in these, but i dont have the patience to find anything else.

and, surprisingly, miguel has his sketch lines too

i know he looks disgusting (as always) but these are the ones that you can see the sketch lines better because yknow, he has features and isnt just a white figure with spots.

anyway, my point is that ive only noticed these two to have sketch lines in the movie. and im not saying they hinted us that miguel is the villain by importing the sketch lines on the designs of the villains only, but they hinted us that miguel is the villain by importing the sketch lines on the designs of the villains only.