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HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Today is my 23rd Birthday ✨

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I hate how a part of me still hopes that it was a joke or wrong feeling.

I decided to try and heal so I am trying to reconnect with friends that I ghosted so that I won't be that sad.

I am in luck actually that some still do want contact with me and are still there for me so we can hang out and I can ignore my pain and become a better version of myself.

I will be better but right now I am not okay and that is okay.

VENT

I hate the fact that I was the one not wanting to play the "I love you more" Game and then playing it cuz they wanted to play it and now I am the fucking winner.

I hate the fact that before they left for vacation, I asked them to not stop loving me jokingly and guess what. They stopped loving me.

What I love is still them and I hate how much it fucking hurts.

I love that we are still going to stay friends so that I can assure that they'll be happy but that hurts. It fucking hurts.

Maybe they'll fall in love with me again if I'll be around more often, be more better. I can't lose them...

I was starting to get my life together...

Why did no one tell me how much it hurts?

I am not able to tell them that I love them anymore. I won't hear it back. I won't be able to take them on dates anymore.

I don't know anything anymore.

Surviving Halloween with Psychosis

- The picture test: If you can’t tell if something is a hallucination or not, take a photo! If it shows up in the picture then you have a keepsake of that crazy creepy Halloween decoration. If not it’s a hallucination (or a vampire. No, i’m kidding it’s a hallucination.)

- Is some kid in mask causing paranoia? Ask them where they got their costume. Did they make it? How did they get the idea? Focusing on the person inside of the costume will help you remember that it’s just a person!

- Avoid haunted houses, haunted hayrides, ect. Actors will not stop scaring unless it’s an emergency, and I’ve yet to find a place that teaches actors how to deal with anything other than physical injuries. (I once met a haunted house actor who said causing a panic attack meant he was “doing his job right.”)

- There’s no shame in asking friends and relatives to avoid sending jump scare videos or anything else that could cause paranoia.

- Here are some tips on how to tell if a video is a screamer.

- (from freeasthepaperburns) Boggart it! If something is making you upset, make it silly. dance with the shadows, sing to the creepies, I bet if make a fish face at the scary face it’ll be a little less scary. I know this is harder than it sounds, but I’ve gotten better at it over the time, and find it helps!

Stay safe babes!

Just venting a little bit. :/

I was able to finish 4 painting yesterday.

Why the fuck is the thought of planning a fanfiction so fucking scary to me??? Like, ughhh. I fucking hate it.

I hoped that it would be less scary by making the paper pretty. :/

I wish therapists would take me in and not say that I am beyond help or that the only things that could help me are pills that remove my emotions or a fucking mental hospital.

Like- I know I am not that broken.

But it does get annoying and painful when 5 professionals say that to one. :/

Remember to be strict when training your werehog

Here's the uniform for the Au.

To Sonic, are you able to fight as a WereHog in battle?

Oh he can. The night we got Lavender home was a full moon. He saw the werehog and was terrified. He didn’t know it was Sonic, though. We had to wait for daylight to fully introduce ourselves.

'Perfect sense of direction + geography nerd' Sonic, anyone?