Break Out The L-word, Cas

I- I got Winchester Derangement Syndrome... What do I DO with this information???

let me diagnose you with an illness they made up for supernatural

Part one of a spn portrait series I’m working on

Sometimes I wonder a lot about why the people who did my autism assesment scored me high enough to be just below the criteria for autism, cause I thought I nailed that silly test.

Then I remember that I described the feeling of happiness as cold water running down my spine, and maybe they weren't so wrong after all...

(I still stand by that description tho, not my fault they aren't able to see it that way)

How the FUCK do people just KNOW where the eye belongs when drawing a face in profile????? With the straight on headshot there are RULES, the eyes are placed in the MIDDLE of the head vertically, fit an ENTIRE eye between them, AND an eye on either side (sometimes less depending on the lense zoom)

IT MAKES SENSE

But in profile??????, its still vertically halfway down, but THATS ALL YOU GET

HOW FUCKING WIDE IS IT

HOW TALL

HOW FAR AWAY FROM THE RIDGE OF THE NOSE

I absolutely HATE it here

Went to work on an empty stomach and a lil bit too little sleep today

The second I got to the register, not having had a second to get into my costumer service mindset, a woman came and asked for a ruler

I work in a bookshop

I handed her one of the rulers on the desk, as in, an unpacked, used one. Because my tired brain thought she desperately needed to measure something in the bookshop

She wanted to BUY a regular ruler.

Finally understood what she meant and lead her to where the rulers we actually have for sale are located

Never felt that stupid before, except maybe the time in my 11th grade maths class where I insisted "2+1 has NEVER been 3" in a silent classroom. (I was severely sleep deprived)

I feel like I need to share me and my family's pet and child history cause shit's getting crazy

2001 - my parents got a dog

2002 - I'm born

2005 - My sister's born

2009 - My other sister is born

2013 (ish) - The family dog dies of old age, the next day we adopt a cat

2014 (ish) - We get a new dog

2015 (ish) - I get my own cat

2016 - We adopt my friend (born in 2003) She becomes my sister

2021 - My cat dies from disease

2021 (later) - My family adopts a new cat, this time it belongs to my sister (05)

2022 - My mom gets a new puppy (the nephew of our current dog)

2023 - I move out and adopt another cat

2023 (now) - My family's oldest cat dissapears for a month, my mom rescues a kitten, this time belonging to my youngest sister (09), a week later the oldest cat returns

So in total me and my family has/had: 4 kids, 3 dogs and 4 cats. The current count for my parents is: 3 kids, 2 dogs and 3 cats. While the current count for me is: 1 roommate and 1 cat. At most we were 4 kids, 2 dogs and 2 cats under the same roof.

The queer youth today are being FED

I have a younger sister who recently came out as a lesbian (to nobody's surprise) and even though the world is still sorely lacking of lesbian content, queer content has gotten a massive boost these past 5 years.

When I was young and looking for queer rep I'd find it in the weirdest places. We obviously have fandoms, and fanfic and queerbaiting, but also the amount of movies I watched just for a single queer scene? I remember watching an adam sandler film about him having a billion kids solely because one of those kinds was matthew daddario playing a queer guy. Also watching teenwolf for the one very stereotypical gay side character. There were several others aswell, but I can't remember them at the moment

I remember the feeling of reading percy jackson and finding out Nico was gay, of reading the mortal instruments and finding out Alec was gay, I was so starved for any sort of representation that I held on to my small crumbs for dear life.

(Shoutout to the 100 for being one of very few, if any, tv shows with very natural queer rep and not a single hint of homophobia in show.)

My sister now has heartstopper, young royals, warrior nun, good omens, interview with the vampire (tho she's still a bit young for that one) and she has video game characters!!! She has ellie and dina, she has pretty much everyone in the life is strange games, and she even has aloy. I remember playing life is strange with my ex (the main game) and even though it has very queer undertones etc, it isn't very explicita, tbf it's a while since I played it so I might be wrong about that

My point is, we still have a very long way to go when it comes to queer rep in media, but goddamn it IS getting better.

Merman Cas from @malmuses fanfic “a fish out of water”, thanks to @lizleeships for the gorgeous art linked to the fanfic, it helped me a lot with the design

destiel anyone?

Finished Commission of Cas comforting poor, tired & scared Dean after being possessed by Micheal