Look, I know a good number of you are from the US and things aren't amazing there either, but my country is literally on the brink of collapse. So I'd love it if we could talk about that for a minute.
If you can't do anything else, please just read and reblog.
A second COVID wave has taken out the healthcare system. There are no more hospital beds. There's an oxygen shortage. There's a critical vaccine shortage. The Central Government has thrown its hands up and is passing the baton to the State Governments to do what they can.
There are over 16 million covid cases. A record 330,000 new cases reported yesterday - comparable to the US at its peak. 187,000 dead as of today.
There is no plan.
Mass cremations are taking place. The cremation grounds are running day and night and they are short on wood. People are watching their loved ones die while waiting for a hospital bed, and then they're unable to give them the proper burial rights.
Hospitals are overwhelmed. Patients are being confined, two to a bed. They're the lucky ones.
We are on the verge of people dying in the streets.
This is the second-most populous country in the world. The largest democracy. A country that encapsulates over 15,000 years of recorded human history and has endured everything from famine to invasion to colonisation.
We might be at the end. This might be the thing that does us in.
People are dying.
People are dying.
People are dying and there is no plan.
More good news? Variants are popping up. A double mutation strain has shown up. It is resistant to current vaccines. This will not go away. This is the devastation they warned of when the anti-maskers were out protesting the minor inconvenience of covering their face in public.
My country is on the verge of an emergency state. Our government has failed us. This is as dire a situation as it ever could be.
Look. I don't do much with my life. I write fics, some of you have read them and that's pretty much it. I spend my days with my head in the clouds because that's where I like to be.
But two days ago, my grandmother tested positive, had to be taken to hospital and the ambulance caught fire.
She barely made it to the urgent care she needs.
So, here I am, using whatever meager platform I have to cobble this request together. Because I have to do something.
If you can, donate.
Or spread the word.
Help. Please.
Fever in my head So comfortin If I wasn't dead I would kiss you again It feels like a storm I'm on a pressure plate It makes me feel better to write you again
My thoughts are all murky Misleadin me I could be a pirate But I'm lost without sea And when I'm woozy on the couch It's so true to me So lie to me and tell me That the trees never change
I don't buy it
And I wish I could give you Every story I had But these old wicked bones Didn't know of your care And I can't help but see you Cause I'm still goin mad And it's no fault of either But the clocks turn in squares
Fever in my heart Keep sleepin in I'll fade in these cushions Til I know you again Wanna drain my head S'all coploid here Was I your dear poet? You were my pioneer
It makes me feel summer Much harder, then Got all this freedom Got no way to spend You've got to feel cool With the wind again I'll be fine when it's over Just keep moving your pen
You're gonna be the best
And I wish I could give you Every story I knew But my brain would escape me When my hand was in yours And I woke from a nightmare I was waitin for you But I'm rudely aware we went through diff'rent doors
I still want to wait anymore
And my brains press the Walls of my skull And my trash doesn't Care who I am And the moss grows Inside my remorse Cause you're still Really wonderful And the murders remind me of you And I wonder which path was the mighta' been And it's not like we're that far away I just wish I could see you there And your hair It feels unfair
Fever face is close to a guinea hen I'm always surprised when you say I'm fantastic again
I'm sorry that I stared when I looked at you The things I want to say become hard around you
Well I been wastin’ here for weeks just simply thinkin bout the calories I know I’ve had it all before so what’s one more While you been sleepin’ on your car and dreamin’ bout the touch that broke your heart Your diner’s flickerin’ with light I hope you haven’t changed your mind about missin’ me
[CHORUS: And I’ll be with you soon Do you think it’s true then the kids come pourin’ in to the sink It’s my fault Kick it along and share the pain with me and I’ll be runnin’ along the fence Do your thing I know I missed the night so pois’nously with the tea It’s their fault K-keep it cold for me and I know I’ll be with you soon ]
Well you been floodin’ all the tubs and losin’ money on your reccin’ clubs I’m wearin’ sunscreen for the fun I ate a gun We can talk about your dad I missed the way your music makes me sad We’ll string our LEDs around a movie with no sound This building sounds like love
[CHORUS]
Another harbinger to go I swear your slapstick never let me go I’ll take your em’nate vertigo I want to go go go go go! You’ve got a cycle on your phone An’ your Manga Carta’s gonna take you home You feel the pavement on the lawn but you’ve brought the drinks in on and on and they disintegrate my bones
We’re tossin’ boulders on the shore Your clothes are kickin’ down the door And I love your belly button more Don’t tell me what your friends are for We’ll lose the bats in the sky You’ve met the perfect guy Don’t mind the way that you lie in the car with your head pointed out to the wind We’re drivin’ out into the wind
[CHORUS] x 2
I’ll be with you soon Yeah, keep it cold for me and I know I’ll be with you soon
Musical Lips by Levi Robinheart
Feels like I just woke up Where's that music comin from? I don't remember drivin' over but somethin' just told me I should get less comf'table 'Nd I never seem to say what I mean but I swear I mean it now Keep an eye on your friends Drink up your insecurities with me if you haven't got a number
Well you sang (you sang) your heart out, Miss Yesterday (Miss, Miss, Miss Yesterday) But you'll come back some other way And we'll blame all the rain on the door and the frame 'Cause life just happens anyway
It's almost New Year's Day Champagne has found its wings They're cryin' out for one more heartache One round of musical lips is passing by (yiay-yiay-yaiy-yiay-yiay-yiay-yiay)
Been watchin' him all night Oh, you gotta be quicker than that I pictured there'd be fewer bodies n' voices that I could save it and just talk to him He cannonballs on all my bills And I spent too much of my year just starin' at the dreams of livin' things I think my watch is broken
'Nd if I'm alone ('Nd if I'm alone) when it plays (when it plays) I get the privilege of my own face (my own face) 'Nd I'll save my hoorays for the mornin' bidet Hell, I'll just send it anyway
It's almost New Year's Day Champagne has found its wings They're cryin' out for one more heartache One round of musical lips is passing by I know it's okay I just hate to hear you say it once again Can't shake the question: "Will it ever be?" Babe, it's almost New Year's Day So here I'll stay
(sick kazoo solo)
I don't remember (don't remember) All the yesterdays (all the yester, all the yesterdays) What did I want? Honey, what did I say? Give me a moment while I pick up my pace with the truck that's been comin' up the highway
It's New Year's Day Champagne has found its wings They're cryin' out for one more heartache One round of musical lips is passing by I know it's okay I just hate to hear you say it once again Can't shake the question: "Will it ever be?" Baby, it's New Year's Day And nothing's changed
by Levi Robinheart
[VS1]: Rose chips are fallin' on a plate full of coffee grounds The sky is falling on our heads, but we're too busy with these clouds If I could just fall asleep on this bench right next to you If I could spend all my life in this aging month But our parents are callin'
[PC1]: I guess you're right I don't really think it matters either I've been taking empty pills all week But you paint my brain some pretty colors
[VS2]: Your eyes are too bright to hide, so don't apologize 'Cause I would rather waste my time with you inside this moment, petrified And by the way, I tried, and I'm sorry it took me so long There's something past the wall of mist that stands between us and the next few months
[PC1]
[CH1]: So let's rake these leaves and jump on in Let's dip our feet into the crick There's nothing like death to bring you to life So fill my bucket up with wonder Cut me open wide
[BR1]: I'll stand next to the road and You'll tell me where we'll go Tell me where to go My sock has a hole But I'm hopin' you can wrap me up and Feel the static beneath our feet Nustle up under the ghost-filled tree Slip into the blanket comfortably
[BR2]: We can pick up rocks and mud to build a pile of bones to hold us up Maybe someday they'll make a fortress filled with pictured buttercups But 'til then, let's run and play And we can dance between the skeletons Let's stop talking, a four-armed garden makes our bed (And the sky is fallin' on our heads)
[PC2]: I guess you're right I don't really think it matters either I've been taking empty pills all week But you paint my brain so pretty
[CH2]: So let's rake these leaves and jump on in Let's dip our feet into the crick There's nothing like death to bring you to life So cut me open, cut me open wide
[CH2]
(Cut me open wide)
*thoughtful whistling*
by Levi Robinheart
[VS1]: I woke up the Fosters They called out a curse I'm tired of weekdays My tongue's getting worse I like when it rains here I can't go outside I hope you still like me I'm scared in my mind
[PC1]: All the weather's out And every day feels like today Got no promises Attention is scrolling away Feel the rhythm hold me down I look outside and see
[VS2]: My friends are in safety They still make me laugh My surface is shaking He looks like a calf I hate when I sleep in I like when I sleep I don't wanna wait for you But at least I'll get to speak with you
[PC2]: Eyelids heavy now I only hear the things that you say Can't remember it But I can see the light in your face Feel the river hold me down I look outside and see There's sunflow'rs again There's sunflow'rs again
[VS3]: Not sure what I'm thinking It's harder to say Don't know what I'm feeling But you feel okay You're holding me forward I'll do what I can If I could move faster I'd stay where I am
[PC3]: Hold these doors There's more of 'em when you look away You're myself At least that's what I want you to say I feel you pull me down I look to you and see There's sunflow'rs again There's sunflow'rs again
[CH]: I'll put you away for the moment Can't sleep away what you've given me now I know I'll cry in the mornin' Keep wonderin' if you were even there I'll put you away for the moment Can't sleep away what you've given me now I know I'll cry in the mornin' Keep wonderin' how you were even there 'Til the flowers Come back
I’m up ‘cause you’re in my room I’ll keep-a myself from sleepin’ There’s nobody else in you Is it worth it to keep on dreamin’? Is it worth it to close my hair or brush my teeth in the mornin’? Is it worth it to go upstairs? I dunno, but I sure am thirsty
You woke me up inside your mind and said there’s nothin’ here to see I felt your ankles when they sprained but all I understood was grief I came to you in search of Hobbit holes, some earlobes, and a dream But all you said was “here’s a mess, go stuff it up and fix me!”
My sparrows told me there would come a day you’d paint yourself in blue Don’t disrespect the way you talk to me the way I talk to you I hear MacBeth within your eyes I read MacDuff around my feet I guess we all prefer our lies so I say damn the whole thing!
I don’t wanna sleep with you I’m not gonna take your reasons I wish I could keep my cool I guess we could call it even
[CHORUS:
I’m gonna be big someday I don’t know what’s so important I cry ‘cause I want my way I jump ‘cause I can’t ignore it I wanna be everything I’m not gonna live forever I can’t hope to live with me If I’m just gonna give you everything ]
I stopped sweating through my pores because the Sun just doesn’t give The man I use to start a war is not the man I use to live Twenty miles an hour and silent as the kingdoms in the Alps We’re just the corpses of the future kin we used to care about
The nights I stare myself to death The hours spent murdering my nose The mi’r exposes me yet it’s the mi’r of that I hate the most Oh, how we’re stranded in the Mississippi kickin’ at a can I may be toothless but I just don’t see the gun in your hand
I just came to walk away It don’t matter if you want me Go on then and stuff your face I’d rather be dry and starving
[CHORUS]
I want to tear my face apart I want to squeeze you into space I want to step on all the stars and make this medicine my grave I want to set this house on fire and swallow dollar bills and change But most of all I want to kill your thoughts and prove I’m not a waste
I want to sail across the sea and drown in paper cuts and lime I want to scrub out all my teeth and make ‘em sharper than the sky I want to knock out all my friends I want my friends to poison me But I’m still yellin’ in my room so I say fuck this whole thing
I’m gonna be big someday I don’t know what’s so important I cry ‘cause I want my way I jump ‘cause I can’t ignore it I wanna be everything I’m not gonna let me fear you I can’t hope to live with me Please repeat yourself, I can’t hear you!
[CHORUS]
[miscellaneous cheering and whooping]
Is it worth it to save a life? Is it worth it if it’s my own? Is it worth it to feel alright if it means I can find my home? I just wanna leave something and everything hurts like hell If nothing is anything then anything could be anything
Something strange to me must be something wrong Something that doesn’t care who for I can’t say anything anymore but everything in me was already said before
You’re a stranger daddy’s gotta getcha is daddy gonna getcha yet?
you don’t have any skin I feel big in this apparatus I been carrying this since I foundout how it happens I’m not scared, look at me don’t you be so sensetive don’t you look at her that way! don’t you love him anymore?
I don’t have the light in my eyes it’s just reflectin off the glasses You don’t seem so kinda weird until the particle passes
There’s no safety where you’re from it’s same and it’s different for me mad as hell to find a girl who doesn’t care about rights it’s all they expect from a clan I swear I could take you and they’d say it’s typical
cause you got too close I don’t get what I want enough I need daddy to say that I’m special cause he loves me, loves me, loves me, loves me just like a gun
how can this be the life? stayin in my hometown my whole life watchin the animals lie I know, that’s right Found her, I was sleepin on a rock this old rock that I never listen to but I love so dearly this old rock
She says I’m searchin for acceptance and investment rejected to me when I was in development ‘n that I’m the product of generations of misguided communication and the entitled adoration of an overzealous nation built upon intimidation and the lack of acknowlation of the feral sterilization by religious militarization and embration of what they don’t even know will hurt them
and I listened and I listened and all I could say was “I guess”
how can this be the life? theory wear for the thrill of anger throwin darts at a chalkboard ‘cause anythin’s better than dyin alone (I’m dyin alone)
is it okay to think this way about people you don’t give a shit about? is it alright to feel this way about someone you might give a shit about? is it okay to think this way about people you don’t give a shit about? is it alright to feel this way about someone you might give a shit about?
how bad can it get? how bad is this gonna get? is it too late for me to give up the ghost?
is there a way? is there any way? is there any way at all?
For All We Have by Levi Robinheart
[sung to the tune of Auld Lang Syne]
Keep me awake and ring me out of ars’nic and of love Fulfill my weary trav’ling wish reaffirm the skies above For all we have is fear and hope these ends will gather means And ‘spire new beauty for our world and all of life between For grave surrounding time and love take hold of what you need For all we have is fear and hope and all of life between
You’re a tunnel and the wind is your bully Blood-red wine will drip down your straws Your throat is coated in dust, mind you A testament to your sold-out heart
I’m a garage made for anyone to sleep in I’ll hold your boxes if you just shut the door Don’t wake the walker in his sleep, mind you He’d bound to cry another night for you
[CHORUS: I couldn’t tell if there’s too much I couldn’t tell if it’s not enough It’s so strange the way that the weather turns a dime I couldn’t say if that’s the way I felt but I’m sure glad that you’re here You can sew me up, I’ll be fine with that You just sew me up, I’ll be fine with that ]
Nobody gives the kid their orders Nobody gives the girl away Nobody’s old with the rest of them Somebody love Nobody’s body away
A phantom in the alley sings their heart out ‘cause they can’t find a single word to say And when the singin’s done and there’s nowhere else to go the Strawman brings his hat along the way
[CHORUS]
I bet a pencil could go writin’ through my forearm A squish would send me flat along the floor You’re here to kiss me, I’m here to kiss you too if to keep myself from headin’ out the door
My blood is low now and beauty seems so easy You make me wish that I was older by a day There’s nothin’ in my coat I wouldn’t give, mind you, to have the salt across my tongue another time
[CHORUS] x 2
You just sew me up, I’ll be fine with that
i know it’s gonna hurt i know your every word i can’t leave until i’m heard
i know you still think so for all i know, you do i’m not here to hear you say so i’m just breaking it to you
i don’t need anything i don’t need anything you don’t need everything
i don’t need anything i dnon’t need anything from you
i’m not yours anymore