I Have To Do Everything I Can To Help The Family.

A conversation in my head while studying for an exam:

Me: oh my god, I am so tired; I can‘t do this anymore! How do you expect me to know this ?! This doesn‘t make any fucking sense! I am giving up !!!!!!!

Also me: Shut the fuck up you little bitch! Kpop idols are probably in the aiport right now, just arriving from a concert on the other end of the world; they‘re on their way to a radio station to promote their album and after that they are gonna perform on a music show and practice the rest of the day; the last time they slept was 5 months ago!

People talk a great deal about being held accountable when it comes to others - particularly famous people. And I agree, everyone should face the consequences of their actions. But like, actions they did a year ago, two years ago, 3 years ago. And obviously the consequences should fit the actions.

But when y'all take out your pitchforks and prepare to burn someone at the stake for something they said or did (i.e. a racist/transphobic/homophobic/misogynistic/etc comment) ten years ago or longer, then that’s just stupid.

I said some pretty homophobic shit 5-6 years ago, I said some pretty racist shit some 5-6 years ago. Should I be tried for murder and receive the capital punishment? Should you?

Don’t defend celebrities with your life, you don’t know them, they don’t even know you exist, you owe them nothing. But don’t treat them like the “mortal” laws don’t apply to them simply because they’re famous, and “bring them to justice” for shit like this that happened a bazillion years ago.

Be angry and demand justice for those who sexually assaulted or murdered people 10+ years ago. Not people who made transphobic jokes 10 years ago or played Buddha in a movie when they were 29. IF it’s obvious they’re not the same person anymore and they’ve come a long way. It gains you nothing besides show how little sympathy and respect for growth you have.

[KOR/ENG LYRICS] AMYGDALA by Agust D

I don’t know your name

I don’t know your name

I don’t know your name

요즘 기분은 어때 How do you feel these days?

I don’t know your name (your name, your name)

기억들로 여행 Travelling through my memories

지우고픈 일들 Things I want to erase

요즘 기분은 어때 (어때 어때) How do you feel these days? (how do you feel, how do you feel)

1993 (1993)

내가 태어난 달 (내가 태어난 달) The month that I was born (the month that I was born)

엄마 심장의 수술 수술 수술 Mom’s heart surgery, surgery, surgery

별의별 일이 많았지 (별의별 일이 많았지) All sorts of things happened (all sorts of things happened)

뭐가 이리 다사다난한지 (뭐가 이리 다사다난한지) Why were there so many ups and downs? (why were there so many ups and downs?)

기억조차 안 나는 기억도 The memories that you don’t even remember

다 꺼내 보자고 하나씩 Let’s bring them out, one by one

다 꺼내 보자고 하나씩 Let’s bring them out, one by one

Oh oh (oh)

최선들의 선택 (최선들의 선택) The best choice (the best choice)

다음 차선들의 선택 (다음 차선들의 선택) And then the next best choice (and then the next best choice)

차차 선들의 선택 선택 선택 yeah The next next best choice, choice, choice, yeah

원치 않던 일들 (원치 않던 일들) Things I didn’t want to happen (things I didn’t want to happen)

내 통제 밖의 일들 (내 통제 밖의 일들) Things out of my control (things out of my control)

자 집어넣자 하나둘 Ok, let’s put them back, one and two

그래 하나둘 그래 하나둘 That’s right, one and two, that’s right, one and two

I don’t know your name (your name, your name)

기억들로 여행 (여행 여행) Travelling through my memories (travelling, travelling)

I don’t know your name (your name, your name)

자 지워보자 하나씩, 그래 하나씩 Ok, let’s erase it one by one, that’s right, one by one

My amygdala (my amygdala)

어서 나를 구해줘 어서 나를 구해줘 Hurry up and save me, hurry up and save me

My amygdala (my amygdala)

어서 나를 꺼내줘 어서 나를 꺼내줘 Hurry up and set me free, hurry up and set me free

My amygdala (my amygdala)

My amygdala (my amygdala)

이곳에서 구해줘 어서 빨리 꺼내줘 Save me from this place, hurry up and set me free now

Uh uh 그래 참 별의별 일이 많았지 Uh uh, that’s right, all sorts of things happened

Uh uh 귓가엔 엄마 심장 시계 소리 Uh uh, mom’s heartbeat, the clock’s ticking in my ear

Uh uh 전하지 못했던 내 사고 소식과 Uh uh, my accident that I couldn’t tell them about

스케줄 중에 걸려 온 전환 The phone call I got during work

아버지의 간암 소식 was the news of my father’s liver cancer

최선의 선택들이 맞았었길 I hope all the best decisions were right

그 또한 모두 지나가 버렸기에 And that too has all passed

그래서 이 수많은 고통은 날 위한 것일까 So was all of this misery meant for me?

끊임없던 시련은 날 죽이지 못했고 The neverending trials did not kill me

다시금 나는 연꽃을 피워내 I bloom into a lotus flower again

Oh oh (oh)

최선들의 선택 (최선들의 선택) The best choice (the best choice)

다음 차선들의 선택 (다음 차선들의 선택) And then the next best choice (and then the next best choice)

차차 선들의 선택 선택 선택 yeah The next next best choice, choice, choice, yeah

원치 않던 일들 (원치 않던 일들) Things I didn’t want to happen (things I didn’t want to happen)

내 통제 밖의 일들 (내 통제 밖의 일들) Things out of my control (things out of my control)

자 집어넣자 하나둘 Ok, let’s put them back, one and two

그래 하나둘 그래 하나둘 That’s right, one and two, that’s right, one and two

I don’t know your name (your name, your name)

기억들로 여행 (여행 여행) Travelling through my memories (travelling, travelling)

I don’t know your name (your name, your name)

자 지워보자 하나씩, 그래 하나씩 Ok, let’s erase it one by one, that’s right, one by one

My amygdala (my amygdala)

어서 나를 구해줘 어서 나를 구해줘 Hurry up and save me, hurry up and save me

My amygdala (my amygdala)

어서 나를 꺼내줘 어서 나를 꺼내줘 Hurry up and set me free, hurry up and set me free

My amygdala (my amygdala)

My amygdala (my amygdala)

이곳에서 구해줘 어서 빨리 꺼내줘 Save me from this place, hurry up and set me free now

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@mishi_embroidery

“I guess one of the cops thought I was the shooter.”

He saved the children at the risk of being racially profiled and mistaken for the shooter by the police all while the actual shooter was taken in ALIVE

#GlenOakleyIsAHero

I think we need to talk about the under appreciated Window Seat fandom

I mean really? With the book shelves?

It’s like an alcove of happiness.

You want a whole row of individual seats? Fine, here you go. 

Or how about a whole window bed for those snugglers out there.

Curtains.. Guys this one has curtains.

Seriously? This is basically a glass cube of bliss.

 You can even get them with corners! Not enough corners? Okay.

Ba-BAM!! Corners for cocooning. 

There’s also the Roman-esque themed seat for the historians out there. 

 If you don’t want to snuggle up in blankets with hot cocoa in this then I don’t even know why you’re on this planet. I mean dat stonework. 

This one’s an entire rectangle. Just imagine all the cuddling that could happen in there. It’s practically a fortress.

This one’s fucking curved okay? it’s just chillin, up of the ground, and curved for your lounging convenience. 

don’t like rectangles or square? Okay. Have a fucking trapezoid seat.

So the Queen of Nothing (Holly Black) and Nesta’s novel (SJM) are both coming out in 2020 and I’m calling it: 2020 is officially the Bad Bitches year.

SHINKAI MOVIES + FOOD

YOUR NAME (2016) WEATHERING WITH YOU (2019)

would it literally fucking kill yall to like… call people out for their bigotry and insult them that way instead of calling them a psychopath or sociopath or saying they lack empathy and just fucking throwing neurodivergent and mentally ill people under the bus?? like what the fuck yall? the fuck is your problem? calling someone a bigoted asshole somehow isnt enough of an insult to you so youve decided saying they have highly stigmatized mental illness is a worse insult than them being a FUCKING RACIST??? shut the fuck up. mentally ill people are not inherently bad people and should not be used as a fucking insult, certainly not in place of actual fucking bigotry and harm. 

Books read in 2018 I A Reaper at the Gates by Sabaa Tahir

Strange how monsters can reach from beyond the grave, as potent in death as they were in life.