Lately Ive Been Bedridden With A Terrible Case Of I Dont Wanna

sam: *very obviously struggles with bodily autonomy and feeling self control from numerous times where these things were violated*

dean: *tricks sam into saying yes to letting an angel (in which neither of them know at all) possess him, and then doesn’t tell sam about this until it’s too late*

sam: personally, same circumstances, i wouldn’t put you through something that i knew you would hate and that has basically traumatised you in the past just in order to keep you from dying when you were ready to go, just me though

fandom for some reason: can we talk about how disgusting sam is for saying he wants dean dead in a ditch and how he wants dean to feel selfish and miserable and depressed for eternity? he’s so ungrateful, dean saved his life, what an asshole

(meanwhile earlier in the show)

dean: *makes multiple gross comments about teenage girls*

fandom for some reason: fucking love this guy, he could no wrong. just a little puppy

season 4 dean is like “i’m fighting demons” and the whole time the demons are just bisexuality. meanwhile season 4 sam is like “i’m fighting demons” and they’re real and he’s drinking their blood

This is niche, but we're going over this talk again and I had to do it

you want to know why salt lake city was founded??? its bcs everywhere else the early saints tried to settle they were violently driven out of. the state of missouri had a fucking death warrant on them and other states were only marginally better. they were assaulted, tarred and feathered, their houses burned down. there's a reason utah exists and it's because ever other fucking state wanted my ancestors DEAD for their religion

a lot of people on tumblr and Ao3 seem to think Christianity (mainly Catholicism) is just a cool and sexy esthetic narrative force to make your characters guilty and repressed and I'm just like...

hey what about the grace? the grace of God? the grace God gave specifically so we wouldn't need to be guilty and repressed? God's grace? that grace? do they have that grace?

Now when we were there I saw a patient, an old woman.

AU WHERE JESS IS ONE OF THE SPECIAL CHILDREN!!! PLEASE!!!!!

Now I am stuck between my anger and the blame that I can't face.

stick season - noah kahan | supernatural 1.01

1x01 // 1x09

I vouch for Sammy a lot because so many people misunderstand him, but I will say that the most frustrating thing about his character in season 4 is he keeps. leaving. Dean.

He left Dean the same night he learned he was alive to go find Ruby. He left Dean when he was being attacked by the witches/demons because vengeance was more important than being with his brother (regardless of Sam actually getting to kill the monster). He left him after he fucking choked Dean out, to go find Ruby/get a lead that ended up being a ploy. Dean is dysfunctional so of course that’s not the reason he’s done with Sammy, but it would be enough for me if I was him. How do you claim to love your brother and then you leave him more than once? Of course Sammy loves Dean, but his love for his brother fell to the wayside for “more” but actually less important things. You best believe if my brother was dead for four months and came back to life from hell I’m never leaving his side again, he’d have to beat me with a stick to get me away.

This is why Dean says he can’t trust Sam. Because he can’t. Because his life was in his hands multiple times and Sam chose something else every time. Sammy fucked up royally and there’s no easy fix for it.