Lilylovesdietcoke111 - Justagirl

Freedom

dead inside

𝐂𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐚 𝐌𝐚𝐜𝐚𝐮𝐥𝐚𝐲

“Being the only female in what was basically a boys’ club must have been difficult for her. Miraculously, she didn’t compensate by becoming hard or quarrelsome. She was still a girl, a slight lovely girl who lay in bed and ate chocolates, a girl whose hair smelled like hyacinth and whose scarves fluttered jauntily in the breeze. But strange and marvelous as she was, a wisp of silk in a forest of black wool, she was not the fragile creature one would have her seem.“ - Donna Tartt, The Secret History

It's part of my routine

sometimes i feel so ugly that i want to rip my skin off

i often worry that i am incredibly off-putting, weird and unlikeable

i’m starting to absolutely hate being on my phone but i don’t know how else to distract myself from the horrors

need to actually KILL MYSELF