SORRY FOR THIS

jude following brother luke into the greenhouse (and into the truck, and into motel after motel)

me because i was actually not able to breathe by the end 🩷

Me back to when I finished Dear comrade AND Lispenard street in ONE sitting

imagine being harold and losing your son in law and knowing EXACTLY like EXACTLY what’s going to happen to your actual son and doing everything you can to keep him alive but just KNOWING that it’s all futile.

so i DID just have to stifle a scream whilst crying about willems last thoughts. i feel sick 😆

When your card declines at therapy so they remind you how Jude knows for certain how true the axiom of equality is, because he himself––his very life––has proven it. The person I was will always be the person I am, he realizes. The context may have changed: he may be in this apartment, and he may have a job that he enjoys and that pays him well, and he may have parents and friends he loves. He may be respected; in court, he may even be feared. But fundamentally, he is the same person, a person who inspires disgust, a person meant to be hated.

okay seriously what music do we think jude liked/would like

i think like

the smiths

the cure (i feel like JB forced him into this one)

he’d LOVEEEEEE nirvana at uni i know it oh and the smashing pumpkins

ELLIOTT SMITH.

STOP I CAN IMAGINE HIM BEING A HUGE BOWIE FAN AND GOING AS BOWIE FOR HALLOWEEN

rip jude st francis you would’ve loved mitski

hanya yanagihara lives in my head. she just gets it, and people don't like what she says because she doesn't sugarcoat things, she tell stories of tragic lives and unspeakable lives. People want and need to have an optimistic sight of life when that's not always the case. Sometimes it doesn't matter how much you work on yourself and how much you hope and how much you try, things that happened to you can't be heal or forget and the best you can do it's trying to live with it the best way you can, to accommodate the life that's left.

Things don't magically get better.

it’s thanksgiving so i’m remembering how much jude loved it </3