“What You Are To Me, I Could Not Hope To Explain, Or Ever Repay.”

Instead of worrying about it, I have decided to trust fearlessly in the process as it all unfolds. Worrying has no place here anymore. Just faith.

“You will never have to question my loyalty.”

— Unknown

“I can love only what I can place so high above me that I cannot reach it.”

— Franz Kafka

Have you ever just cried because you’re you?

Sorry for being obsessed with love. As if it's my fault

I feel like such a temporary person in everyone’s life

“At some point in life the world’s beauty becomes enough. You don’t need to photograph, paint or even remember it. It is enough.”

— Toni Morrison, Tar Baby

“I think Tumblr has changed my whole personality and lifestyle.”

—

Red satin draped over porcelain skin

She is smoking his cigarettes

Just to taste his lips

Baking his favorite cherry pie

Spraying on his cologne

Waiting so patiently

For him to come home

...

(he never came home)

༄ 𝐫𝐨𝐬𝐞 𝐛𝐫𝐢𝐤

I have been up for over 40 hours straight. God, I'm so tired, but everytime I try to close my eyes I'm reminded of all the things I've been running from. It's not so bad, really. I just sometimes wish things were a bit simpler. For most of my life I thought I was a freezer. When faced with issues or uncomfortable situations I wouldn't run, or fight, I'd just freeze. I would become an incomprehensible mess. But honestly I'm a runner. Maybe not in the most obvious or traditional of ways, but when I can't physically run, I run emotionally. I isolate, I push away, I retreat so deeply into myself, sometimes I wonder if I'll ever be able to find my way back out. In a way it's worse than freezing, because when you are frozen at least you're still. When you're running, there's no break, there's no pause button, it's just you in this ongoing whirlwind, pulling you further and further away from who you used to be.