Ig: @bedbugz444

I’m sorry, WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING?!?!?

Women light up the world. That's why it's called Broad daylight.

you need to live to be a weird funny old person whos weirdness was not broken by a rigidly formal world and to do that you must be a weird you now and not be broken despite it all

a little fanfic

can't sleep and I think it's bc I desperately need the tumblr world know that A Little Life by Hanya Yanagihara is: 1) camp (and brilliant camp, but that's a whole fucking dissertation); 2) fanfiction (which personally I would argue is inherently camp, so); 3) more specifically, Marauders fanfiction; & 4) even more specifically, remus/sirius aka wolfstar fanfic.

Jude is Remus, Willem is SIrius, J.B. is James, & Malcolm is Peter. I"m not talking strictly characterization or personality-wise (though there's some decent-ish overlap there), or saying that the plot of ALL has all that much to do with anything that happens to/among the Marauders in the plot of HP. But the relational dynamics, the tropes and archetypes solidifying these characters as a quartet, are so utterly parallel to mountains, fucking mountains of wolfstar fanfic. Precocious, quiet, tortured (not to mention literally scarred/self-harming) Remus/Jude; charming, effortlessly cool, hyper-protective Sirius/Willem; popular, charismatic, ringleader-ish James/JB; insecure, waffly, often-an-afterthought Peter/Malcolm. And the slow-burn love story between Jude & Willem - fucking wolfstar wolfstar wolfstar. The first, like, half-ish (idk, it's been a few months since reading?) of the book utterly teases the reader with subtextsubtextsubtext (or, in hp, canoncanoncanon) and then the rest of the novel actually *makes good* on that subext once Willem first realizes he's fallen in love with Jude (or, in hp, fanficfanficfanfic).

I have no idea if HY has ever read wolfstar and that is utterly beside my point because the author is dead and thank you for attending my brief lecture. also jesusfuckingchrist I have been holding this analysis in my little heart for so long bc no one irl even knows I know what fanfiction is lol.

don’t ask me how i know this but back in like 2017 when you used to search “depression” on tumblr it used to come up with a bunch of depressing shit (naturally) and triggering material but nowadays it comes up with inspirational quotes and stuff (as well as the hotlines that it has always done) which is pretty neat i think. good on you tumblr. helping us all through our healing eras fr

what people think alice oseman books are like: blushing awkward first meetings, little chaste first kisses, giggling teenage boys holding hands what alice oseman books are actually like: hey what if your entire personality is actually a carefully constructed facade to make other people like you and to disguise the fact that you don't actually know who you are. if you stripped away all the walls, all the artificial things that you think make you up, what would be left? what would happen if you stopped living for other people and started living for yourself? is there even a person in there or just a gaping void with nothing left in it? wouldn't that be fucked up? do you even know yourself? do you even have a real personality anymore?

no more marvel. no more booktok books with the same cover. no more poetry collections that are written solely for the quotes to circulate online. no more songs written with the intention of going viral. please i’m begging.