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Two things:
As usual, thereās historical and social context that I need explain! This lesson is not what sexuality is, or āhow to write being gay while Blackā. Thatās⦠not that different from you. What this lesson is, is context on how Blackness plays a role in our presentation and understanding of gender and sexuality (as well as your perception of it), and how thatās something you should consider in your characterization, writing, and character design.
I DO NOT KNOW EVERYTHING! The reason this took so long was because I read multiple books and wallowed in my remaining lack of understanding. I cannot join The Tumblr Discourse so do not ask. I tried to be as inclusive as I could, but I learn something new on this app every day, so if I miss something- and Iām bound to- I apologize in advance. Please have grace with me.
TW: Sexual assault mention, homophobia, misogynoir, cannibalism, misgendering
Iām putting the hardest part first; walk with me, youāll be fine!
I will be honest: this section here, while I do think you should know, I donāt really expect nonblack people to incorporate it in depth. Not because it cannot be done, but because it is a sensitive topic that we ourselves are still struggling with. If you have struggled with anything else while writing Black characters up to this point, this one certainly isnāt for you to touch. Just keep in mind!
Thereās an idea Iāve heard before on both sides that Black people are more likely to be homophobic, that queerness itself is white. That is a ridiculous belief, but the root of it ends up right back where you think it would: slavery! Iām sure that you saw me post while I was reading The Delectable Negro by gay Black author Vincent Woodard. I shared those increasingly uncomfortable quotes on purpose! If you have a desire to understand Black culture and Black thought, that means being willing to acknowledge Black pain. How can you avoid stereotypes if you avoid learning their source? Ā
While I will be using quotes from the entire book, the specific chapter of āEating Nat Turnerā is a succinct explanation of why admitting to the presence of homosexuality, gender fluidity, and queer identity within the Black community is so difficult for my people. While I highly, HIGHLY recommend reading this chapter yourself, it essentially comes down to how admitting to such a potential vulnerability in the armor of Blackness, in gender identity and particularly Black masculinity, would allow white supremacy to destroy us as a people, to do validate doing even more cruel things to us when in a position of power over us. Itās a defensive reaction based in trauma that disregards and discards the queer members of our own community as a threat, a liability when it comes to fighting against the ubiquitous presence of white supremacy.
āIntuitively, Black gay men understood the issue of homosexuality during slavery as a complex phenomenon shaped by a number of factors, including the nationās unresolved relationship to the legacy of slavery, Black liberatory ideology dating back to slavery, and, most importantly, the maintenance of traditional notions of family and community that originated in the eighteenth and nineteenth centuries. The legacy and memory of slavery had a powerful effect that left many Black gay men feeling isolated from and rendered invisible within Black communities.
Joseph Beam said it first and best: āI cannot go home as who I am. . . . When I speak of home, I mean not only the familial constellation from which I grew, but the entire Black community: the Black press, the Black church, Black academicians, the Black literati, and the Black left⦠I am most often rendered invisible, perceived as a threat to the family, or am tolerated if I am silent and inconspicuous.ā ⦠As Philip Brian Harper has noted, the Black homosexual functioned in the twentieth century as an index for Black masculine anxieties. These ranged from the very personal and painful anxieties of lynching, castration, and the denial of civil rights to a larger set of anxieties rooted in historical erasure and cultural genocide.ā
āSex and gender they also conflated with homosexuality, made out to equal effeminacy. Many Blacks linked homosexuality to castration and the recent history of Black men who had been lynched and Black women who had been raped in the Jim Crow South and in the North. Homosexuality, in its metaphoric power, had an exhaustive function: It is equated with the absence of family, hatred of Black people, estrangement from oneās kin and culture, and all of those horrific aspects of Black experience about which Black people would rather not speak.ā
An example of why nonblack people should consider the depth of such a topic- and their place to do so- before incorporating it into their story comes in the form of Styronās Confessions of Nat Turner, and the backlash he faced from the Black community for such a sensationalized story from a white author.
āThe ten Black male contributors [who wrote Ten Black Writers Respond] coupled cannibalism (overtly and covertly) with homoeroticism and effeminacy. For these Black men, homoeroticism became a way of circumventing and projecting their experiences and pain onto certain āeffeminateā Black men: the consumed Black man these Black men equated with the homosexual man. Homosexuality served as a means of containing certain unwieldy and historically difficult topics pertaining to Black masculinity, such as the need for intimacy, gender variance, sexual and emotional vulnerability, and violation. It was as if, in this very powerful and discursive moment, threads that had been all along winding through history wove together in a manner that illuminated the past as much as they clouded and blocked full access to its complicated meaning.ā
āOn the surface, at least, I do not disagree with these Black men and women. I think their analysis regarding historicity and the diminishment of Black communal ties was mostly correct. Styronās novel was historically inaccurate, depicting Turner as raised by whites rather than the Black parents and grandmother Turner spoke about in his original āConfessions.ā Styron depicts aspects of Turnerās sexual life that are not validated in any documentation coming from the time period, and Styronās exhaustive probing into the racial hatred and self-hatred of Turner clearly reflected something in his own psyche and white identity that he felt compelled to project onto Turner. Black men were put on the defensive by both the novel and by the institutions (literary production, the media) and individuals who supported Styron as an authentic interpreter of Black historical experience. Many Black men, like Bennett, felt that Styron was waging a literary war that paralleled the contemporary political and police state war against Black menā¦ā
The problem with this mindset and approach within the community is that, while it attempts to protect our community, it silences both the prosperity and the pain of an entire section of it, as well as shutting down important conversation that needs to be had even by nonqueer members. And itās doing it all to fight against a force- white supremacy- that is going to commit violence against us regardless! Respectability politics forces many Black people to stay silent, to not speak up on things that may rock the boat- but the boat needs to be rocked! Blaming fellow victims of racism is not going to save us!
āThat was the irony of this moment. Black people invoked the cannibal discourse that could have freed up and complicated Black male perspectives on everything from social consumption to homoeroticism only to defend Black masculinity and Black culture. Black men were not interested in, nor capable of dealing with, the complex legacy of cannibalism and homoeroticism that so powerfully shaped their responses to Styronās novel.ā
But that does NOT mean that itās a nonblack personās place to make that argument! While I cannot stop you, I do want you to keep in mind that- as always with sensitive topics- you may have to face Black people who may rightfully be offended by your depiction if not done with care. Styron studied James Baldwin himself- who faced backlash on his end for saying that it was time for the Black community to face such a conversation- and even then, he still projected his white pathology and opinions onto the story of such a prolific hero in our history. Tread lightly!
How many times have you heard this about a Black character? And if youāre Black and LGBTQ, how often have you heard it about people (or maybe even yourself?) How do we ānot seem gayā? What is gay supposed to be? Thereās this denial, almost, of Black LGBTQ folks, based in a complete disconnect of understanding of our own forms of gender expression and sexuality.
Itās extremely bizarre, because so much of pop gay culture as we know it is from Black LGBTQs (please refer to my infamous AAVE lesson), but⦠when we imagine an LGBTQ person, they're white.
If youāre Black and queer, you have to be this stereotypical, flamboyant RuPaul-esque figure. Canāt be regular degular. If youāre gay, you gotta be Uber Gayā¢. If youāre trans, you better pass with Complete Gender and Pizzazz. If youāre nonbinary, youāre not āandrogynousā enough. If youāre intersex or asexual, youāre practically not real. If you donāt fill this (white, western) mold, you must not be right. When all you have to be in order to be gay⦠Is be gay.
I shouldnāt have to put on extra performance to qualify as queer in your eyes! Do you know what looks are considered āandrogynousā in my community? What behaviors are deemed āmasculineā versus āfeminineā? Do you know anything about my queer culture, or are you subconsciously comparing it to your own?
I want you to recognize that whatever image of queerness you have in your mind for your favorite or original characters, if Black people of all shapes and sizes arenāt included, thereās a problem! Because what are you seeing in others, that youāre not seeing in us? Is that, perhaps, a you problem? And why are we not worth the added effort of queer layering that others are?
THAT SAID!
This one mostly- if not always- comes from white queer folk. Iāve linked The Last Interview with James Baldwin. Itās so short. PLEASE take the time to read it. Iāve always adored how James Baldwin expresses himself, and while I could never stand so close, I have studied how he conveys his thoughts. But thereās almost nothing I could say that he doesnāt say better.
āA Black gay person who is a sexual conundrum to society is already, long before the question of sexuality comes into it, menaced and marked because heās Black or sheās Black. The sexual question comes after the question of color; itās simply one more aspect of the danger in which all Black people live. I think white gay people feel cheated because they were born, in principle, into a society in which they were supposed to be safe. The anomaly of their sexuality puts them in danger, unexpectedly. Their reaction seems to me in direct proportion to the sense of feeling cheated of the advantages which accrue to white people in a white society.ā
The idea that āI know what itās like to experience this oppression as a Black person because Iām gayā is not true. Itās like saying āoh look at my tan, Iām as Black as you nowā. Stop it. Think back to that first section on history we discussed- no, you and I are not the same. We can discuss our existing connections, our intersection and have sympathy and empathy with one another on human dignity. We donāt have to act like weāre the same to do that! So donāt go headstrong into your writing (or life) saying āoh I get that completely, itās because Iām queerā. There are more tactful ways to express your intent of solidarity.
Weāre gonna nip this one in the bud, because weāre leaving that argument in 2024. You know the one- āsaying queer is like using the N-word- as a reclamation/slur!ā What this argument reveals, used by EITHER SIDE, is how yāall donāt actually have community with Black people.
It implies that either āwe donāt like itā or āwe doā. Yet another binary that does not exist! There are plenty of Black people that despise that word, regardless of context. That think it brings us down. And then there are those that use it as a reclamation of an identity that was used to demean and dehumanize. Either way, one party is not going to walk up to a stranger and force it on them- that would cause an actual fight! Itās not improving your argument. As a whole, I would say stop using Black politics in general to improve your arguments when you are unaware of the overlap, or maybe the lack thereof, between Blackness and queerness in your argument. It shows. Iām not your tool; Iām not your Negro!
Iām not here to tell anyone whether queer is a slur or not. I donāt use it as one, but I recognize when people are uncomfortable, when it is being used as one, and I will use different language when I am speaking directly to someone who says āI do not like that word, describe me as __ā. I am just here to say that weāre leaving that argument behind.
Blackness and the concept of Gender have a fraught, confusing history. Not human enough to have rights, but human just enough to fail to meet Eurocentric standards of gender.
One example of this is the term āstudā. Studs are an example of Black women traversing gender presentation, the origin of which is because Black people are perceived as having ālesser sexual dimorphismā- i.e. you canāt tell whoās a woman or not. Itās an in-community joke that doesnāt make sense spoken outside of its historical context (thus, no, your white butch is NOT a stud within this context).
Another example: Megan Thee Stallion is one of the most stunning, feminine women I have ever seen⦠And her entire career, people have called her a man. Because sheās brown-skinned, Black, confident, loud, and openly sexual, sheās deemed manly. I canāt stand it. Plus her height- and mind you, Taylor Swift, of the same height and probably a higher number of bodies over the years, has never once been called a man or lost any of her āfeminineā charm despite it. Why is that? If one of her men had shot in the foot, trying to kill her, there would be an uproar. Why is that?
There is an internal contradiction that being a Black woman is being inherently āgender nonconformingā. The first reason is that I will never be allowed to truly be a āwomanā because to be a woman is to be white while doing it. White Tears, Brown Scars by Ruby Hamad is an excellent book on this dynamic in all women of color, and Black activists like Angela Davis and Kimberle Crenshaw have written and discussed the topic as well.
The second reason is I have to play the role of whatever āgenderā is expected to get me through this life. I have to be more āmasculineā; strong, assertive, and proactive, a hard worker willing to sacrifice it all every day, in order to protect my family and myself in a world where a lack of resilience might kill me. I cannot allow weakness to stop me from taking care of my community, because Black women are supposed to show up and save the day. Find a Black woman! they say. Sheāll fix it! And odds are, I do know how to fix it because Iāve probably had to address it before.
But then Iām acting āout of a womanās placeā by being so āhardā and expecting people to listen to my authority. So in order to play a Black womanās place, I have to balance that with⦠Somehow not intimidating people by being more āfeminineā, submissive, vulnerable, sweet and motherly (because if Iām not a good breeder and mother, I am a bad woman). I scare people if I donāt. If I donāt do that, then Iām not a good Black woman. But if I donāt harden myself and be strong and assertive to protect everyone, and tough through everyoneās problems with infinite sacrifice, then Iām not a good Black woman⦠You see how the cycle gets confusing! (The Delectable Negro and Black on Both Sides also speak on this, and how this is rooted in the creation of the Mammy!)
I spoke about it earlier, but that same inability to be defined as a human, defined as white, haunts many Black men in their goals to be seen as āequalā to white men and receive equal treatment. By seeking to fit a standard of whiteness, they are never going to attain it (and often, that comes back home in not-so-good way)! E.g.: this is the original issue that Louis had in AMCs' IWTV- Louis never actually wanted to be a vampire, Louis wanted to be treated like an equivalent human- and that was unattainable to him not because he wasnāt a human being, but because he wasnāt a white one!
Sigh. If you are of this belief, but here to better your writing, I feel like I should say this to you. I want you to listen to me. (TBH, Iām going to delete anything asking me for opinions on this because I donāt want to potentially entertain even a singular troll). Besides, my argument is pretty simple and resolute.
The gender binary is rooted in bioessentialism, and bioessentialism is rooted in white supremacy. You know what else benefits from white supremacy? The white patriarchy.
How are we gonna escape from the patriarchy and white supremacy⦠if the ideology you believe in⦠is rooted in white supremacy and patriarchy?
And itās not just the TERFs- look within yourselves as well! How are we going to make the world safer for trans people, including white ones, if you arenāt willing to confront your own racist biases? If you are unwilling to release the shackles of gender essentialism and the benefits of whiteness, none of us are getting out of here. You are reinforcing the very walls you wish to dismantle!
To offer another side of the conversation, Black On Both Sides by C Riley Snorton has been an interesting read! Essentially, the conversation is on how Blackness and transness intersect, how being Black in and of itself can be and is a transitional, gender fluid experience. It, along with The Mismeasure of Man by Stephen Jay Gould and Medical Apartheid by Harriet A Washington, goes into the history of how the Black body was seen as a different species altogether, and how phrenology, biological essentialism, and examples of sexual dimorphism were treated as an example on how we are an inferior group. Yet, this lack of understanding of our bodies (despite the constant access to it) allowed for us to maneuver within such a system.
An example, of how Blackness has an effect on our perception of gender:
"Cobb suggests that this blackening may have been an anticipatory gesture; when James Norcom (Jacobsās enslaver) published a description of her in the 1835 issue of the American Beacon, he presumed that she would be āseeking whiteness and dressing as a free woman, not accentuating her Blacknessā and finding a ācross-dressingā and ungendered mode for escape. Although the description of sartorial arrangements seems to conform to passingās logic of movement for protection or privilege, Jacobsās use of charcoal to darken her complexion tropesāby inverse logicāon more commonly held beliefs (and fears) about racial passing.
As āpassingā became a term to describe performing something one is not, it trafficked a way of thinking about identity not only in terms of real versus artificial but also, and perhaps always, as proximal and performative. Like a vertical line with arrows on either end, passing is figuratively represented by moving up or down hierarchized identificatory formations. This articulation of vertical identity also coordinates with forms of binary thinking, typified, for example, by the language of āthe oppositeā sex. ā¦Brent/Jacobsās blackened blackness gives expression to her condition as fungible within the logic of U.S. slavery, in which the system of colorism, as Nicole Fleetwood has argued, āproduces a performing subject whose function is to enact difference . . . an act that is fundamentally about assigning value.ā
As it relates to the scene of Jacobsās brushing past Sands, her status as āitā also indicates how blackness-as-fungible engenders forms of nonrecognition, as Jacobsās performance elucidates how blackness and going blacker become an embrace of the conditions that might allow one to pass oneās friends and lovers undetected. In this encounter, fungibility sets the stage for gendered maneuvers on a terrain constituted by modes of viewing blackness, in which Jacobsās blackness and going blacker color her gender as well as her face."
Rather than try to summarize opinions on something I had not lived, I wanted to platform some Black trans, intersex, and genderqueer opinions for you all to consider! I asked three questions, and Iāve typed out the responses and placed them as their own post for the sake of space. I donāt care if itās long- read them! You want to write these characters; you should hear the perspectives of the people you wish to write about!
Nothing I could say that someone that is actually Black and intersex couldnāt say better!
Here is a page on Tumblr that compiles resources on the intersex community and its history that I found; while itās not Black-specific, I have seen the page post topics related to.
An interesting thing about identifying as asexual or aromantic while Black is that from all angles, people will simply not believe you because Blackness itself has been sexualized. I talked about this in my lessons on stereotypes, but one of the ways that the sexual assault and violation of Black bodies was dismissed, was to emphasize that not only were we incapable of being r*ped, but that we were naturally inclined to being hypersexual beings and that if we werenāt controlled, we would bring it onto ourselves. Black women were jezebels; Black men were mandigos, vicious savages that would assault pure white women if not chained like beasts.
Here is a page for Black people (!!!) with these identities to gather. Again, BLACK PEOPLE with these identities.
So! Given all that historical and social context: really, itās just about application! You have to ask yourself certain things to catch when youāre about to dip into a bias or stereotype while youāre writing.
I know Iāve shared a lot of history here, and itās not been the happiest stuff. THAT BEING SAID!
I must personally say- I am honored to be Black and bisexual. Thereās nothing else Iād rather be. I am so happy to be who I am. Itās hard as hell living at the intersection, but the intersection is lit! Thereās so much love, history, culture, creation, and so much power here; Iām standing on the shoulders of cultural GIANTS and my chest is full, my chin is high with pride. I love it here!
Being Black and queer itself is not a miserable experience! Your characters should feel joy, because we feel joy! Thereās so much that we have to offer the world, itās practically blossoming from us. I donāt want anyone to walk away from this going ālet me go pity the next one I see and tell them how hard their life isā. We donāt need you to feel sorry, we need you to have solidarity! Either show up and do the work, or leave us alone. You canāt join the party at the intersection and then flee when itās time to fight for it!
Listen to Black queer people in your spaces- dear god, it never fails how conversations of queerness and gender and feminism will leave Blackness completely out, and then be shocked when none of us want to show up. Like I said before- you will never dismantle the walls barring you from your own freedom until you address ours.
Support Black queer creatives, content, perspectives, and people- when you tag on that āsupport Black trans womenā bit at the end of your posts, donāt just speak lightly- understand what that means, and stand on it! Because itās the thought that counts, but the action that delivers!
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