Here Is Your Mission.

all the f1 x gladiator drawings i've done so far

lando blushing and giggling the moment oscar even slightly compliments him.

big news, friends: tonight i hung out with my cousin who I never see (cousin 1, delightful, heterosexual, I see him once every five years), and he told me that a different cousin (cousin 2) who I haven't seen in like twenty years because cousin 2 is a homophobe and I'm a homo....is currently a firefighter at the lafd and I was like cousin 1. this saddens me deeply. I am devastated right now. and he was like why? and I was like, you see, cousin 1, I'm kind of obsessed with this tv show about the lafd, and now you tell me I have a blood relative who works for the lafd and I can't even text him to ask for inside scoops and he was like wait, wait, my girlfriend and I love that show! Sergeant Athena Grant! and I was like YES OMG. Eddie Diaz is my BOY, and he was like beenado! and I was like beenado!!!! and then he was like have you seen the most recent one and I was like OBVIOUSLY I've seen the most recent one, and he was like do you think chimney will live, and I was like yes, obviously chimney will live. do you think BOBBY will live, and he was like?????? captain nash is not in danger? and I was like wait for it, man, wait for it. and then i decided to be a Social Scientist so I was like "my second favorite after Eddie is Buck," and he said, unprompted, two things about Buck: 1. "Buck is so funny when he gets sad. He's such a sad boy"

2. "I was really surprised by the bisexual plotline. Like, they did that, and I was like, what are the writers doing? But then they kept going and I was like, you know what, makes sense."

at which point I was like "well who do you think Buck's going to end up with now though?"

and UNPROMPTED he was like "Well, it's gotta be Eddie"

and I was like cackling with joy, obviously, and I was like what makes you think that. like I think that, but why do you think that, and he was like "dude, he's living in his HOUSE." and I was like "he's a renter!!!" and then he was like "and it's so obvious his sister thinks he's in love with Eddie" and I was like "cousin 1, when you're right you're right."

anyway. an evening of joy and good cheer <3

what kind of dumbass binges the crowded room in one afternoon/evening?

hate when i say “i can’t do [thing] because of my autism” and hear (usually lower support needs) autistics say “well i’m forced to do [thing] so i have to” in response.

there will be autistics who never can do [thing] no matter how forced, no matter how punished, no matter how anything.

i can’t force myself to do [thing] i can’t do. not ever.

many autistics like me.

especially hate hearing autistics say “well if i didn’t do [thing] i would get abused” as if we autistics also didn’t get abused, except we still couldn’t do [thing].

you are dismissing higher support needs autistic who are or have been abused.

* [thing] here can be literally anything, doing chores, eye contact, speaking, socialising, get good grades in school etc.

“Don’t infantilize autism” should be used when people who aren’t autistic treat autistic adults like children.

It should not be said when people who are actually autistic have “childish” interests or stuffed animals and such. Autistic adults are allowed to find comfort and express their autism in ways that works for them (without causing harm), even other autistic people don’t get to tell them not to enjoy those things just because they dislike stereotypes or don’t want themselves to be infantilized.

You can’t tell someone else their life should be breaking a stereotype you dislike. That’s not up to you.

Having a traumatic childhood means you cannot talk even objectively about your basic foundational experiences without it being "venting", even if you're not actually venting. You just straight up have a huge chunk of your life you can't talk about, full stop, without it being trauma dumping.

And it not being socially acceptable to talk about your own childhood is super alienating. Sometimes people want to know why, and any answer you can give them is going to be off putting.

It's to the point I get irritated when something I said is framed as venting when I'm literally just talking about my life experiences, doing my best to keep emotion out of it.