HRT Is Not Enough. I Need To Be Able To Tuck In My Arms And Legs And Roll Away.

It's 3 pm on a sunday. I could be

Playing warhammer with my boyfriend and his little bro

Painting miniatures

Constructing new miniatures

Making digital art

Drawing the stuff that's got a deadline at the end of this month

Drawing the stuff that's got a deadline tomorrow

Disassembling old clothing to make new clothing

Disassembling old accessories to make new accessories

Making evil deviled eggs

Messing with my hair

And instead I'm embedded. In my bed.

when i grow up i want to be myself

did you guys know about music. fucking crazyyy

thinking about edvard munch's "The Sun" (1911)

like yeah thats how it feels. thats what it feels like to exist sometimes. he gets it

Liver : Organ You Need To Live :: Spleen : Organ You Need To Splee

the blueberry… a serene, noble animal

like i was saying

it can be tempting to live your life like a prequel. to live as if you’re setting up your own story.and once you lose the weight, once you have the money, once you graduate school, once you’re in a real relationship, once, once, once. then finally, you’ll begin to live, and everything you do up until that point is some kind of half-life, some unimportant foreword you can skip. don’t do this. inhabit your life completely. sink fully into the wealth of your existence. the power to manifest is in the fearless owning of who you are, so that you can shape where you’re going.

THE MATRIX (1999) dir. The Wachowski Sisters