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i keep having thoughts

there has been a high key running theme of dehumanization directly in the group lately and i wonder if it's going to really reach a head at some point. preferably soon??? dante needs to be allowed to get angry about it.

of course it started with gregor and dante. now there have been back to back cantos with heathcliff, don quixote, and hong lu showing how it has deeply effected them to various degrees. and then the check-up intervallo being used to remind the dante and the audience, that under limbus company, the sinners don't have a choice at the end of the day. which honestly thinking about it now, was a clever placement given how hong lu is acting is canto 8. he was just told his choices don't matter when the company needs him to do something, so yeah he's going 'yay, ok!' his way through this even when asked his personal opinions. with this mind, hong lu, in theory should be the perfect employee (tm), but everyone is so fucking unsettled and/or upset because he has been like this for a majority of his life.

i think something can be said about heathcliff and hong lu in particular that even though they are away from the direct source of their abuse, similar things are still getting parroted at them and just reinforces their mindset. until well canto 6 for the most part for heathcliff. canto 8 part 3 must come through for me. i don't think limbus company is making hong lu worse but it definitely isn't making him any better so far.

canto 8 part 2 spoilers

my brain keeps forming half thoughts about how hong lu was constantly told there's no point in him trying to save anyone and be kind until he just accepted it as truth. all of his efforts just ended terribly through no fault of his own but as an impressionable child, when the main adult in your life is like that....those witnesses sure are surrendered.

vs don quixote and her goal of being a righteous fixer spreading kindness and protecting the weak and not caring if she fumbles or fails. yes canto 7 happened, but she found herself again. she knows what she wants. she's dreaming that impossible dream.

what does hong lu think when he sees her? brief flashes of jealousy mixed with admiration? intrigue? he was one of her biggest supporters in canto 7; i think he does genuinely respect her ideals. at least someone is trying.

also coming in with the steel chair of thought is dad quixote and his good intentions caused all of that in la manchaland to happen making him feel as though all his efforts were for naught because it fueled the suffering of his family. it made him loop around to going bloodfiends will never be able to change their base nature, etc etc. he too gave up.

something something if anyone was going to have a dad quixote id it would have been hong lu and i've been saying this for months.

canto 7 and 8 have shared themes going on i just can't think of the word or phrase i'm looking for right now. tentatively action vs inaction and perceived futility of effort due to personal beliefs.

on haunting

fandom: limbus company rating: t wordcount: 2.5k+ status: complete, 1/1 tags: dialogue heavy, family dynamics, emotional hurt/comfort summary:

Don Quixote experiences a setback. She speaks with her Father about it. It is a Family matter, after all. alt title: But I have my Father and my Family whom I cannot abandon, a reprise.

(ao3 link)

this is the first time i'm posting a link to my fic on tumblr, so this is part of a larger series. doesn't have to be read in order, i'm not your boss.

i had a lot of feelings about donqui's situation during the check-up intervallo, so i'm glad i can finally get them out in a coherent way. mayhaps writer's block has finally loosened its hold on me. that'd be nice.

I have so many thoughts about Cantos 6-7-8 as a matching trifecta of interweaving themes, and my one friend that's into the series just got back into it and is on canto 5. I can only hold readers in my author's notes hostage for so long, so congrats on this being my first personal post on tumblr in literal years.

Maybe I'll start using this site more than just poking around tags when I'm bored.

Anyways

Been thinking a lot about how 6-7-8 involve sinners that the most likely to be brushed aside due to surface level factors in canon and by the fandom. Now, everyone goes through some degree of being mischaracterized by people, and all the Sinners have Hidden Depths (tm), but I find these three are the most susceptible. Rodya as well but that's a whole different story entirely and she's doing it on purpose anyway. They also have the most jarring pasts to contrast how they are now, so far at least.

Like of course, hindsight 20/20 and there's only so much you can do with characters that don't want to share their past or you know don't remember about their past to share, but it's so fascinating to me. I also find these three to be the most emotionally intelligent out of everyone. I am connecting dots frantically and waving string around if you can't tell.

It was so easy to write Heathcliff off as "just one of those guys" which I can't blame anyone for because he really did not make it easy, (I love him but I'm biased about Wuthering Heights) but then the Sinners are forced with the uncomfortable truth that Heathcliff was abused and looked down on his entire life and that's why he's the way he is. Of course, he's going to snark back and get angry if you start poking at him when you're getting close to parroting the same things as his abusers.

They almost lost Don Quixote and the fact that she had to go "oh now you want to listen to my stories" was such a good moment to me. I don't think everyone brushed her aside before then, but it happened enough to make note of; it effected her. Her feelings were probably hurt! The being basically told "now you start caring when it's dire," makes me wonder if they'll start being more consciences of each other in general. Everyone saying nice things to her at the end felt so campy in a good way but also like "oh man we gotta something nice right now!!" I'm begging everyone to please care about each other. Y'all are giving me secondhand embarrassment.

Hong Lu is a different beast entirely because he doesn't want to talk about his family in depth. He plays into the naive rich kid thing well, at first anyway, so it's easy to brush him off. I can't say much about him in general because no canto yet, but I believe he is also playing a role a he wholeheartedly believes in. He too is tied to a filial piety he cannot escape perhaps (I wanted bloodfiend ID for hong lu so bad they hate me). He will just mention horrific things and go on like it's no big deal, and the conversation has moved on before anyone can call him out on it. Him deciding to be the most candid with Rodya was definitely a choice; I like it. Whoever decides to call him out on his horrific upbringing one day, I wish you luck. I do wonder if that's going to happen in one of the Intervallos because he cannot keep getting away with this; he probably thinks he can because no one has asked him to talk about it. Hit em with the "oh I thought you never cared enough to ask" Hong Lu, I dare you.

Also interesting how we nearly lost Heathcliff and Don Quixote in different ways. Would love if the same happened to Hong Lu. I like the drama.

If Canto 8 ends up dealing with themes of change and memory well, that'd be a win for me.

This got away from me, but thumbs up. I swear I can be coherent.

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A poster I'll have at AX this year!

why is he so beautiful!!!

Why yes I was playing too much animal crossing over the pandemic…

look at my wife right now

Learning to draw the raven cycle gang

free bottom surgery

[PLEASE THIS IS NOT A WAY TO GET A BOTTOM SURGERY!!!]

inspo: here

careful, he's shy!

qifrey

the raven boys

i want to see more of her!!!!!!!!!!!

kingdom shopping carts i dunno man

[repost] batter up! kh baseball girls +extra

Ronan Lynch ❤️‍🩹 just a good catholic boy

he's tired

“your spells are always so thoughtful. much more eloquent than your words”

my piece for the Hemisphere: a Witch Hat Atelier seasons themed zine! thank you for having me! they're having a leftovers sale until stock runs out 🖋🍀🌷🍁❄🌧 WIPs + inspiration board + symbolism under the cut! got some requests to put this on my inprnt! the site has sales very often & you can grab it as a small or big size print.

I had a pretty good idea of the composition from the get-go. I took inspiration from art nouveau (primarily Alphonse Mucha), German fairy tales, and some 1920s perfume ads. I wanted the girls to look like fairies, akin to The Root Children by Sibylle von Olfers.

Olly just didn't work out in this drawing due to time restraints. I do love him very much though.

I actually kinda stopped making illustrations like these (including the TGAA/DGS tarot card + TGAA/DGS zine pieces a while back) because they were starting to get very hard on my arm, as I had an RSI (repetitive strain injury) a few years back during school. (Not putting the onus on the zines at all ofc! I genuinely love working with zine projects! it's def a me thing WAHAHAHA. my style was getting too anime and too detailed for my liking and everything was just taking forever to finish ngl. but I didn't have time to experiment with a more simple style outside of all of my deadlines)

I think that realizing you need to stop is okay. It's something that Shirahama teaches us in her story and I want to learn to take it to heart.

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MILD SPOILERS AHEAD (for those who havent read the story I guess)

each character's symbolism:

- Coco - spring, clovers - Coco is the quintessential spring girl, and I wanted her to symbolize new beginnings, and oh boy did Coco bring a big one. The four leaf clover in particular symbolizes luck and good fortune - to some characters, Coco may have brought fortune, to others her presence brings misfortune, take that as you will.

- Tetia - summer, gladiolus - the name "gladiolus" comes from the Latin word "gladius", meaning "sword", based on the shape of the flower. you can interpret it as "you pierce my heart", perfect for a girl like Tetia, who has a contagious energy, with a romantic and grandiose nature.

- Agott - autumn, marigold - I read somewhere marigolds symbolize strength and power, perfect for our little magical powerhouse Agott. They can also symbolize jealousy (yellow flowers in particular have this association), which reflects on her rivalry with Coco in the beginning.

- Riche - winter, snowdrop - The white color of snowdrops has a strong connotation to innocence, which reflects on Riche's wish to stay a child forever. It can also symbolize rebirth and new beginnings (like Coco's clovers), as the snowdrop is the first flower to bloom in the spring, when the snow has not yet melted. I wanted the concept of "rebirth" to associate with Riche's friendship with Euini, and of his sort of "rebirth" into a new being.

- Qifrey - he does not have a flower per se, but as the caregiver and educator of the four girls, he represents the rainy season - precipitation being the one thing that binds all of these seasons together. (Note some areas of the world do not have a rainy season like where I live). I think somewhere along the line I wanted to put hydrangeas behind him, to really bring out the "rainy" theme, but the thought probably got lost somewhere in translation...

- bg flowers - honestly I just picked whatever. white lily, daffodil, hydrangea, zinnia, tulip

He ate her last pudding

reassurance for your dreameater who also acts like a dog sometimes

goodnight Roxas

Found a bottle of old wishes

your honor, they

it them meme from axolotlprince on twitter!

blue lily, lily blue by maggie stiefvater