I Can Beat My Avoidant Tendencies I Just Have To Stay Away From Any Situation In Which I Might Become

loneliness becomes an acid that eats away at you

Haruki Murakami, Sergey Tutunov, Pablo Picasso, Maurice Pirenne, Yvan Favre, George Pratt, Marie Muravski, Aaron Wiesenfeld

buy me a coffee

In the same way that we've moved from "everyone is beautiful" to "being beautiful should not factor into your self respect and exterior treatment" -- I hope we can soon move from "X years old is young!! It's still young!!" To "it's okay not to be young or youthful. It doesn't mean your life is over but it doesn't mean it's just started. You can still enjoy living and being yourself at any age even if you're not young." Like the sentiment is there but the execution is following the diversionary reassurance we always tend to go for first. Pls. Pls it's okay to be old. It's okay to be middle aged. It's okay to look old or middle aged or or or. It's okay. You don't have to be young to love yourself

can’t criticize plastic surgery as an institution because it’s none of your business if a woman wants to “fix” her insecurities. can’t criticize the makeup industry or beauty standards because some women feel good when they shave and wear makeup. can’t bring up the challenges women face in the workplace because some women want to be stay at home wives instead of working. everything a woman does is automatically feminist and we shouldn’t stop to think about the context surrounding her actions because that would be misogynistic. here’s what i had for girl dinner. according to my girl math the barbie movie was a revolutionary piece of feminist media. i may not show it but i feel the life slowly draining from me day by day.

“You don’t know anyone at the party, so you don’t want to go. You don’t like cottage cheese, so you haven’t eaten it in years. This is your choice, of course, but don’t kid yourself: it’s also the flinch. Your personality is not set in stone. You may think a morning coffee is the most enjoyable thing in the world, but it’s really just a habit. Thirty days without it, and you would be fine. You think you have a soul mate, but in fact you could have had any number of spouses. You would have evolved differently, but been just as happy. You can change what you want about yourself at any time. You see yourself as someone who can’t write or play an instrument, who gives in to temptation or makes bad decisions, but that’s really not you. It’s not ingrained. It’s not your personality. Your personality is something else, something deeper than just preferences, and these details on the surface, you can change anytime you like. If it is useful to do so, you must abandon your identity and start again. Sometimes, it’s the only way.”

— Julien Smith, The Flinch (via wnq-anonymous)

something i wish i had realized earlier: you can write poems on the same subject more than once. you can write, paint, draw the same thing over and over if you want to. you can spend your whole life making art about oranges. i think i always felt this pressure to get it right the first time like i couldn’t go back and use that inspiration again. but you can. you can go back and revisit it. you can pick up the conversation again and again if you have more to say.

Alternate universe where I literally just to go to school forever (for free) so I can just learn about art and literature and history and languages for 100 years. No job skills. No credit requirements. No student loans. Just learning.

when sleater kinney said “they want to socialize you, they want to purify you” and when Le Tigre said “it’s okay to hate your job, after all it’s fucking wrong” and when kathy acker said “i'm sick of this society. "earn a living" as if I'm not yet living” and “i am nobody because i work/because i work i am nobody” and when mcr said “when i grow up i want to be nothing at all.” yeah…

i am a simple creature. every day i am sleepy