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A fawn curled up beside a fake deer which is used for target practice

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I've only seen this post in pictures... Never have I seen it in real life... It's so much more magnificent in person.

when she says she doesn’t send nudes

can't stop thinking about brennan saying "i'm going to describe something very heartbreaking now." how often does he break the kayfabe just to warn one of the players about the next thing he's going to say?? so much tragedy in dimension 20 but it's here, this moment, that is devastating enough that brennan takes a moment to give a warning: i'm going to describe something very heartbreaking now.

adaine abernant grew up lonely and abused in the shadow of a cruel, perfect aelwyn who could do no wrong. adaine didn't even want to find aelwyn, and every step their adventure took in her direction was a step adaine asterisked with a loud proclamation that she hated her bitch sister and didn't care about finding her. and only after discovering that aelwyn had been a months-long prisoner, tortured at her parents' hands, only after hearing a destroyed aelwyn apologize, does adaine consider that maybe aelwyn was a victim, too. and she overcomes her childhood resentment. she sees the bigger picture. she rescues her sister. she protects her as they sleep, and aelwyn's magic protects them in return. it is, maybe, the first time adaine truly feels that she has an older sister. and there's hope now. aelwyn has been broken down, but also redeemed, and they're together now, and adaine can help her, and they can be a family, because people aren't perfect, but aelwyn said she's sorry. and adaine goes into her mind and sees all the self-loathing she never knew about, and even more than that the fear of their parents, and she understands aelwyn so perfectly in this moment, all bitterness and spite dissolved, just a young woman taking a leap of faith and being rewarded with family, finally, a sister she never got to have, who actually loves her and believes in her and wants to keep her safe.

and then aelwyn's memory resets.

and in an instant, adaine loses everything she never knew she could have.

pretty heartbreaking.

Something that makes me so emotional about book Elphaba is the incredibly subtle ways she shows her love for Glinda, so on par with Elphaba’s character and so subtle that if you blink you miss it.

Elphaba kisses Glinda on the carriage, that’s explicit, but before that she nearly misses it because she was buying food. For Glinda. Elphaba knew very well she wasn’t going back to Shiz that day, yet she still bought Glinda food with money she definitely needed for herself just so that Glinda wouldn’t be hungry on the way home.

Then you have the way she visits Saint Glinda’s shrine, Glinda’s namesake. Elphaba is not religious whatsoever, she’s very vitriolic towards the idea of religion in the book, yet she visits a Unionist shrine of all places that just happens to have statues of her “best friend’s” namesake.

She also asks the most questions of all about Glinda when Fiyero visits her, and asks about her first to add to that. Elphaba wants to know the most about Glinda. More than her father, Nessarose, Shell, the people who are her family (said loosely). More than even Fiyero, and he’s sitting right in front of her. She couldn’t care less about Fiyero’s wife yet is thoroughly offended when she finds out Glinda “only” married a baronet.

When Fiyero asks if Elphaba is married, she says “yes, but not to a man” and breaks down in tears. In the book water does hurt Elphaba, including her tears, so it stands to reason she doesn’t cry often. But the thought of being “married” to someone that isn’t there, that she can’t be with, is enough to cause her to harm herself even if it’s inadvertently. It would make sense for it to be Glinda, for Glinda is the only person to ever have even brought her close to tears.

And finally, this one is just silly, but the way Fiyero makes a comment on how Elphaba didn’t bleed the first time they have sex and the way she just blows him off by saying “well I’m not as virginal as you think” one hundred percent means Glinda was her first time.

I also do think that Elphaba really does love Fiyero, and I do mean romantically. But in the end he’s still just a distraction, a balm for the fact that the one person Elphaba truly wants is the person she can’t have. And that person is Glinda.

here it is! little FH animatic (or whatever it’s called when you storyboard to a song), featuring “monster” by dodie.

(also spoilers for only ep 1 & 2 of fantasy high!)

Was rewatching Wicked the movie (again) and have thoughts about the hot air balloon escape scene

Initially, I'd thought it was mostly there to 1) be a cool and exciting visual sequence, 2) kind of an action scene, and 3) pad out the film further. Maybe even a bit of symbolism of trying and failing to use the Wizard's own means against him to escape. And I do think it's still all those things, to be clear.

However, I also think it's really interesting from a character standpoint for Glinda, specifically how it sets up her choice to not leave in Defying Gravity.

You have the hot air balloon be Elphaba's plan first, no surprise there, with her immediately getting on and lighting it. Glinda lingers behind (again, no surprise there) and she struggles to take the literal leap required ("It's time to close my eyes and leap") despite Elphaba telling her to: "Quick, jump!" Glinda can't quite believe it: "Jump? Me, jump?"

But Glinda does take the leap, Elphaba help pulling her onto their escape craft. Glinda is the first to directly hit/fight off one of the guards, then Elphaba. And once the girls have a shared glance, they both reach upwards together to urge the balloon to go faster:

Together, we're unlimited.

I could talk more about how Glinda in some ways becomes Elphaba's replacement (more genuine) form of the Wizard throughout the film, i.e. she pins her hopes for acceptance and companionship on the Wizard, but actually receives these things from Glinda ("As half of Oz's favourite team" / "together we'll be the greatest team there's ever been") even before she meets him in-film (her being accepted at school because of Glinda's love and influence), because I think that aspect of the bond is an undercurrent in a lot of ways. The end of the film isn't just being betrayed/abandoned by the Wizard for Elphaba, but also — in a way — by Glinda as well.

But what I think the hot air balloon scene importantly illustrates is that, in it, Glinda was going to leave with Elpabha. They were trying to escape together, and Glinda was clearly hoping they'd make it successfully to the skies.

But of course they don't, the Wizard's palace — the symbol of his power — literally closing in on them, with Elphaba escaping the burning hulk of the balloon first (again, a parallel to the end of the play) and Glinda being the last to leave the balloon. So what's the difference between this escape attempt, wherein Glinda is willing to go, versus Defying Gravity's, where she stays behind?

A few things, I think:

The hot air balloon escape not working is a sobering reminder of how badly things can go

It is, accordingly, a reminder of the Wizard's power

But more importantly, I think, it illustrates the fundamental fact that despite Glinda telling Elphaba that "you can do anything," Glinda never considers the possibility or believes that Elphaba is more powerful than the Wizard.

This is the lynchpin of her choice not to leave in Defying Gravity, of course — Elphaba may have brains and knowledge and heart, but she is not "popular," and social sway/approval is what Glinda believes to be the most powerful thing in the world — but it's also indicated in the hot air balloon scene.

Because Glinda is willing to leave and escape with Elphaba when they are relying on the Wizard's vestiges of power (the balloon). She is not when it is Elphaba's (the broom).

She only trusts that one of them can fly, and so she stays on the ground the second time around.

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