Every Year I Spend Most Of My Vacations On My Own. Not Exactly By Choice, But Also Not Because I Lack

Every year I spend most of my vacations on my own. Not exactly by choice, but also not because I lack the possibility of choosing. I do have friends and I want to see them and they want to see me. But I simply forget to make plans. Like, I’m so invested on bettering myself! I want to read all the books my friends recommended and watch all the movies and learn to play all the songs! I want to get into poetry and also learn more about rap so I can share my loved ones’ interests! I want to move more and also eat healthy and cook and bake and sew and dance and sing and paint! So in the end I try to do all of those and forget to make plans, so I end up isolated inside my house, which is kind of terrible for my mental health. It kind of backfires.

And when I feel lonely, I want to have people with me right now, not make plans for the next week. So I don’t make plans, and the next week I end up feeling lonely again. But calling and asking who has time now would come off as too needy, wouldn’t it? I’m sure everyone else is busy, and I don’t want to be rejected, so I end up not even asking.

Idk. Does anyone else feel like this?

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4 months ago

being on tumblr is like being in a car in a parking lot

like it's technically public, but you're also sorta in your own little bubble, and people have to be Actively trying to listen in order to hear you, if they're even aware that you're speaking at all. and then sometimes you accidentally bonk the horn with ur elbow and suddenly the whole parking lot knows you're a virgin


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6 years ago

Why Adam Is Not A Bad Person

Why Adam Is Not A Bad Person
Why Adam Is Not A Bad Person

Adam is not a fucking horrible person, yes he and shiro ended the engagement and yes he didn’t support shiro through his journey to kerberos but shiro was dying of a severe degenerative disease, and Adam knew he didn’t have much time left with the love of his life as it was. And adam said “i won’t go through this again”, hinting that Shiro had already abandoned Adam once before for his dream. So while Adam didn’t support Shiro, he was also extremely hurt and angry that Shiro was choosing space over him AGAIN and Shiro basically told Adam he wasn’t enough for him AGAIN.

Why Adam Is Not A Bad Person

Right there. That is the face of someone who is hurting, who is conflicted and at odds with what he wants and what he needs.

Adam said Shiro is the world to him, absolutely everything, but yet Shiro left him…that fucking sucks it really does. Shiro got hurt but Adam did too, if not more than equally. Shiro, the noble and brave leader and friend of so many, one of the kindest souls in this show, would not choose to give his life to a complete ass. Adam is validated, both he and Shiro gave up on each other and they both made mistakes regarding their “long and beautiful relationship”. They are both in the wrong, thank you for coming to my ted talk.

3 years ago

how do u think the og welsh arthurian bitches would react to their englificationed counterparts. i think peredur and percival would challenge each other to duels. geraint (welsh) and geraint (english) wouldnt even bother with that and would probably just kill each other on the spot. gwenhwyfar and guinevere would b like, presedential alert the queens are fightingggggg. arthur (welsh) would do absolutely nothing to arthur (english) because arthur (welsh) would b taking a nap. myrddin and merlin and owain and owen and luned and linette would be gossiping in a corner and painting each others nails. cai would obliterate kay because cai has Magic Fucking Powers. mordred wouldnt have the faintest clue abt how to confront medraut because medraut is honestly a pretty chill guy. most importantly however. gawain and gwalchmai would b fucking on the floor

6 years ago

For people upset at the defenders of tomorrow

Chill it’s just an au that people are having fun with.

It’s no more “disrespectful” than any other au a fan has made. Like we gonna be mad at the coffee shop au’s next?The mermaid au’s?

You really out here thinking we could make a multimillion dollar animated reboot show?

6 years ago
LOOK @ HOW TINY KEITH IS COMPARED TO SHIRO IM JWHHWWUHRHJF

LOOK @ HOW TINY KEITH IS COMPARED TO SHIRO IM JWHHWWUHRHJF

4 months ago

Things cats were right about all along:

Fuck staying hydrated by drinking enough water - eat! more! wet! food! (watermelon, cucumbers, SOUP!)

Feels great to be really high up in your house where you can see the whole place (loft bed loft bed loft bed loft bed!)

Express yourself as clearly as possible when people are touching you and you don't want them to.

Optional, but you can also express yourself clearly when your people are not touching you and you want them to.

Sometimes it's important to just go "hmm. actually, I don't care" and wander off.

You don't have to be the strongest or toughest to defend yourself, it's enough to just be difficult enough to not be worth the trouble.

Ghosts will eventually leave if you stare at them for long enough.

4 months ago

to pretend that horrible people cannot make good art is another way to conflate beauty and talent with integrity and morality. the works of monsters are best examined with knowledge of the author in mind but art is not inherently reflective. human beings are creative, and habitual liars- it'd be stupid to pretend art must always be a portrait of its creator

5 years ago

Anyway, if you read marriage certificates from church records, a full 85% of first marriages for young women were around 18-19 years old. The rest skewed higher, into the early twenties, with only a few being below that age and only one in a thousand was younger than 16. 

The age of puberty has declined over the centuries as girls get better nutrition, as well, so throughout the middle ages the age at which a girl could expect her first period was around 16, where modern girls often get it much younger. 

The idea that women in earlier ages were married and mothers in their early teens is a myth. Marriages of children were usually only between noble families, and made for political reasons, or creepy old bastards who wanted a child-wife and could get away with it because they were rich and powerful. They often would point to the fact that the Roman elite did the same thing as justification. The Romans, of course, would point to the Greeks doing the same thing as justification, the Greeks pointed at the Assyrians, and so on back through the ages. 

It was considered disgusting by normal people then and still is. 

This myth is still brought out and touted by sick fuckers. Know it for what it is; a falsehood. 

3 years ago

The excluded tags filter on Ao3 is such a fucking lifesaver. I love it so much.


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