Nevermind 3

Nevermind 4

New part of the story Nevermind.

Should I let go? Or should I hold on? I didn’t know, because I was lost. If I hold on I would drown in the world, but everything I want or need would be right there when I need something. If I let go I would fall, but I would get freedom. I didn’t knew which one would be worse opinion. Did I wanted change thing or did I want to keep everything I already had? If I let myself fall down I would leave others behind and if I hold on they will lift me up. This might be my only change. It was yes or not. Up or down. My hands were tired. I was hanning here a lon time already. I had to make a decision, but I wanted both. I wanted to feel my bones crush and that awful feeling of flying. Same time I wanted to snuggle inside a big warm blanket right next to a fireplace watching gold flames play.

- Where are you? Voice of a call was wafted on the ground. No, finally. I thought. They found me. Now I could let go and fall all the way to the ground or wait them to lift me up from this edge. I looked up to sunny sky. There wasn’t any clouds. Now do the decision. I told myself. I took deep breath and closed my eyes strictly. I calmed my nerves as much as I could. If I wanted to let go I had to do it now, before they see me. I took a breath again. They we be okay without me, I told myself and let go of the railing I was holdong on. But right before I started to fall, hands took a firm grip on me. Grip was tight and the boy had saved me. Other boy came next to him and grabbed my other hand. They lifted me up. Away from the edge, away from the railing.

“I know some who are constantly drunk on books as other men are drunk on whiskey.”

― H.L. Mencken

Never mind

Hi!

I just wanted to post something to here so I posted piece of story I have been written lately. It might be harsh or not-so-it-don’t-hurt(I mean there is violance). I would like to people’s opinion about it. But no more speaking, this is the part of the story. I hope you enjoy of reading it.   (and my first language isn’t english so don’t judge me)

Okay here you go!

- Mom? I asked confused

Woman didn’t react at all even thought my voice was full of disgust and fear.

- What are you doing here?

Now she stopped doing. She pulled her raven black hair behind an ear. The movement was careful.

- Get out! You are not welcome here! I screamed to the woman.

I was angry. I didn’t want to see my real family anymore. Especially after they gave me away. They were insane. Madness belongs to their soul.

- Go! I commanded her.

The woman turned around with face looking the ground. She slowly and deliberately rise her face. A grin in her face was crazier than what Joker could do. Fear tried to eat me inside but anger pushed over it. I still tremnled when she stood up.

- I can here your madness under anger. Just like me when I was younger, she gave a gloomy laugh with her grin. I could see perfectly her white teeth so good.

- And of course I am very flattered when you called me mom, she gave me a laugh again. I kept my feet on the ground and watched the monster front of me straight to the eyes.

- I told you to get out alredy so start walking, I tried to be colder with my voice than she was.

- Yes, I’m not welcome here and blaa blaa blaa. I know dear.

She rolled her eyes to me.

- It’s wierd to hear that your own daugher wants to get rid of her mother. And don’t call me your daugher. You have no right to it anymore.

- You called me mom first, but whatever, her voice was poisonous. - and who are these people who live here? They must scare you if you setteled down in here.

Womans eyes had endless hungry in them and her face became crazier.

- What happened to your leg? Why are you limping? She asked me and came closer and kneeled down smoothly. Then I saw her so close and I realized that she wasn’t physical anymore. It didn’t mean anything good so I took a step back.

- Are you afraid of me, daughter? You really should be there where we send you because you are fear like a human, she spitted those words like dirt.

- Why did you came here? I asked her with low voice so she sould know that I can go crazy too. But the anserw I got was tormenting evil laugh and right after I felt cold knife pulling harder inside the old wound I had. Pain went through my body and my sight almost went off. My breath stopped and I could breath no more. I grabbed the knife out of my leg and threw it straight throught the woman. I heard animaly dirty laugh coming out of her beautiful face and laugh turned to insane and phsycopathical bray. Then I turned around and started to run.

NEVER MIND 6

I don't know why I can't do title for this. But this is Never mind 6. Continue the other Never minds.

I loved rumors. I loved them so much thatI even told rumors about myself. When I walk along the school hallway, whispering fill that place. People whispered their friends right now and tried sneaky to wacth me walking but I felt the stares. Whispers caught to my ears with my every step I took, but I just smiled myself. People around me really didn't knew who was among them. Or what rumors was actually true. I turned myself to my locker and I opened it. Silence fell this side of the hallway. I put my books in that locker. My eyes caught an old photo of my inside of the lockerdoor. Above the photo was mirror and I looked myself into dark eyes. I sighed and closed the door. I was frightened the boy who had came behind the door. After that my reflex didn't do ant good for rumors Because I kicked him between his legs and bumped him against the lockers with my hands around his neck. I almost could here the dramatic confusion when people on the hall fell in silence and turned to look at us. The smile started to grow on my face again. Sometimes people can be just so curios. I drowned my laugh. I took my hands off around boy's neck, but I could see clearly how my nails had left beautiful neckless on him. Marks was deep but they didn't bleed. I looked at the boy and shortly smiled to him. Then I justwalked away. People can talk bullshit about me all they want, I couldn't care less anymore like I never minded talks anyway.

NEVERMIND 7

New part again. This kind of came out of one songs lyrics but it's still about same characther as other Neverminds are about. The girl is always same.

I looked a boy into eyes. His eyes sparkled like stars. They told story like the stars. But then they closed. I understood it now and I couln't do anything. Tears fall down on my cheeks. How I could have forget? Why no one had asked me that until now? Iwas terrible person. I squeezed my hands tigh. Why they did this to me? They just turned myself looking at only myself snd not surroundings. They made me selfish. And it made me unstable. I had to get out of here. Tears were cold rivers on my cheeks and they were frozen. The boy lay on the ground.

- How many you have to kill? I asked them but no one ansewred.

- I killed only one of you. What you have done? You killed innocent people! Only because of me! And then you killed my best friend and now my brother. When it's enough? A man walked front of me. He was tall and tanned.

- Only one!?! He laughed at my face.

- Nothing more!?! Salvia sparkled out of his mouth right on my face. other people inside the room laughed little bit too. I didn't look man to his eyes. I looked the boy on the ground and tried to focus the anserw he gave me. But I didn't want to come up with more tears.

- That's the funniest thing I've ever heard! He laughed. And they everyone in the room laughed. They all laughed for boy's death. Suddenly little knock echoed in the room. It was so little that it could barely hear. No one cared about it. Then a door opened other side of the room and a girl, head taller than me, walked right trought the man and turned to face him. I knew that girl. The man didn't even had a time to lay his eyes on the girl when she pucnhed him middle of his perfect face. She hit him so hard that I could hear his nose broke. Deep silnece were ripped in the whole room. it filled every corner and it grew unbearable. Then the girl spoke:

- Don't you get involved with my family because then you get involved with me. She puched the man again and again and again. No one inside that room did nothing everyone were frozed on their feet. No one did make a move expect the girl and the man. Something cut through my wrists. It hurt and I tried not to scream. My hands were just healed. But then I felt how it was cut a rope around my wrists. I pumped the man down and my sister cut his throath. Then she laughed warm familiar laugh that I have missed. Her laught was always been wild and unruly.

Nevermind 9

Here again! Now you can read next new part of nevermind's. This time it's little bit longer. And if I haven't said it earlier my first language isn't English so don't judge if something is incorrect. but here you go. Enjoy :)

I leaned myself to wall made of bricks. The flaming lights of the lampposts sparked the dark road. Humans underworld was cruel so I have to be more brutal. I was only 17 and my childhood was ruined, so they could get my mad side out of me. Sometimes I wonder, how I just want a new normal life and curl up on my new mom's lap. How I could just listen her to sing me to sleep, just like a little baby. I changed my position against the rough brick wall. I wore only black; black sweatpants and a hoodie.

Lonely steps carried from the dark road. I step back under the alley's shadows. I put my faceless mask on and waited. I picked up my old leather jacket and covered my hair with hood. I listened the steps one by one getting closer. Rhythm of them was even. I breath deeply. Then when they little bit closer I walked out of the shadows. I looked the comer through the white faceless mask I had. A tall figure stopped about five meters from me.

- Oh, you left so far away, I said to him with cracking voice.

The man didn't answered me but stared coming closer.

- But I didn't said I allow you to come any closer, I continued.

Now the man was only one meter away. Holy name of my mom, he was tall. Those ones were always more difficult to handle. I tried to look at him more closely but the darkness covered most of his face. I could only see the outlines but I could say this wasn't the person I waited.

-Long time no see girl, he said happily and I could hear smile in his voice. No one knows I am a girl.

-Wait... who are you again? I thought this meeting was about business, not getting my hands bloody.

-Oh trust me beautiful, this is business. Or at least some could call it that.

Shiver went down my spine. I was ready to kill even thought this was the first time my instincts yelled me "RUN". The man looked me all the way down. I could feel his eyes on me and it burned my skin. Something about this felt familiar.

- Last time we met we had quite fun actually. I could say you can dance really well. Your moves are really smooth and elegant shall I say, man said calculated.

He step aside as if viewing me like a dog.

- Sadly I have to admit that I do not dance usually, I answered to him.

A moment went when he thought and circled me. The silence was painful and heavy. It was like a wet coat on you shoulders.

- You don't remember me? I am mortified, eventually he said dramatically. - you should be punished for that!

- Just stop. If you don't have anything to say, I would gladly go. I really have something to do.

- Not so fast young lady. I come here to take you with me, his voice was heavy and it told me that now would me great time to run but I didn't move a finger.

- Sorry I am not in the mood, I told him as if. My whole body was tensed. I watched how he stopped and looked at me with that burning watch. I watched how he took steps closer again. Now he was in my personal space. I seized to knife on my back and as slowly as I could I pull it closer to that man. He looked me down and grabbed my jaw.

- That wasn't a question, my love, he said.

Quickly I pulled the knife to his rib. He stared to laugh and pulled me away and grabbed his knives.

- Did you really thought I would be that stupid again? Why you do this? I am smarter than you. But isn't it funny that this time you could've actually killed me but still you missed it.

I just jumped forward to him but his avoided it. I swiped my knife to him but it didn't scratch him. Then I realized it. I remembered who he was.

- Why aren't you dead, tunnel boy? I asked.

- How sweet honey, I got a nickname? His voice was so filled with sweetness that it was almost sticky.

- I killed you.

- As well as that you did a moment ago.

- How did you find my brother? I asked because I hadn’t found him.

- That's a funny story?

- Who even are you?

- Good question, I guess.

I tried to play time and watch read his weaknesses but he was as calm as a mirror.

- Why are you here? I asked him.

- Like I said, I came to take you with me. And take that stupid mask off, I want to see you face again.

- Show me yours and I will show you mine, I answered confidently. he laughed me again and then I hit him. Straight to his dark face I could not see with all my strength. His low laugh stopped there.

- I love you, you know, he loudly whispered.

I kicked him as hard as I could. But again, he just escaped it.

- I don’t wanna fight you. I mean last time I beat you up so just give up and come with me.

I didn’t want to stay there but I wanted to fight him. But this got me kind of frustrated. He just escapes my hits and kicks and laugh at me working with a knife. Suddenly I wanted to laugh to irony of this moment. This wasn’t even a fight or war here. Even though I held the knife.

- We both know that’s not happening, so I just keep going.

Now the man sloped his head to right a bit. I put down weapon and hide it back where I took it from. I grabbed the leather jacket again from the ground. And smiled.

- Farewell and die soon, tunnel boy! I said and started running as fast as I could. I didn’t take my mask off I just focused to going forward. I turned my skin invisible and disappeared from the humans. Madness of my soul came to company me and I smiled my animalistic grin.

Guardian by Glen Sinclair

“He is smoke and skin, air and bone, and when his mouth presses against hers, the first thing she tastes in the turning of the seasons, the moment when dusk gives way to night.”

— V.E. Schwab, The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue

This is my dream house!!!!!!

(by soheyla_ranjbar)