WICKED GAMES
paring: paige x black fem!reader synopsis: after being drafted number one pick, paige is under pressure to prove herself and save a failing relationship. then, she sees you. warning(s): cheating (sorta kinda), angst, fingering, edging word count: 5.1k
a/n: i absolutely hate ts im only posting cause i promised my oomfs that i would post this tonight đ itâs supposed to be inspired by wicked games by the weeknd but i feel like i started losing the plot⌠also lets pretend that paige isnât a lightweight cause i know her ass would be gone off the shots she took in this LMAOOO
PART ONE | PART TWO
paige wasn't quite sure how she ended up downtown in dallas. one second she was staring up at the ceiling in her silent apartment, the next she was behind the wheel driving down the highway. the city lights illuminated the road, blurring past almost as if she was running from something. but maybe she was.
she should've been in the gym, putting up shots until her arms gave out, trying to excuse the mess of a game she had last night. or maybe she should've been at home, working through the silence with her girlfriendâ if you could even still call her that. it used to be sweet late-night texts and dinner dates. now it was just unanswered texts and empty kisses.
paige wasn't oblivious. she knew she hasn't been the easiest to love during her transition from college basketball to the league. but being a rookie meant pressure she couldn't explain and expectations that she was dying to reach. she was either too focused or not focused enough. too distant or too clingy.
a text lit up on her car screen as she rolled to a slow stop at the red light.
lys: yooo. you still pulling up?
paige let out a quiet breath, one hand on the wheel, the other raking through her hair. she didnât even know why she said yes to nalyssa inviting her out tonight. maybe because it was easier than explaining why she didnât feel like being around anyone.
she turned down a narrow side street and spotted the club her teammate had mentioned. its neon sign was buzzing, half the letters flickering on and off like they couldnât commit either.
p: yeah im bout to park
she hit send without thinking, backing into one of the last open spots in the lot. the engine cut off and everything got quiet. too quiet.
she sat there for a second, staring out the windshield, watching a group of girls laugh their way out of an uber, heels clicking against the concrete. smiling like they didn't have the weight of a record-breaking season or a deteriorating relationship on their shoulders.
then paige opened the door and stepped out.
she kept her head down and eyes on the cracked pavement. she kept it moving until she reached the bouncer who stood outside the door.
the bouncer nodded his head, signaling for her to go ahead inside. it wasn't too crowded inside, so she was able to spot nalyssa near the back, already with a drink in her hand.
âtook you long enough,â nalyssa called over the music, reaching for her hand.
paige shrugged, letting herself be pulled in. she wasnât here to catch up or make friends.
she needed a drink.
and if she was being honest with herselfâ she probably needed to get laid.
but she shoved the thought down as she trailed behind nalyssa, weaving through bodies until they reached the section tucked near the back. vip, of course, but not too flashy. just enough to feel separate from the ongoing chaos.
everyone in the section was already settled in laughing, posted up with half-empty glasses, even a joint being passed between a few people. as nalyssa introduced her to the table, paige offered a lazy nod and a half-assed smile but didnât stop moving until she dropped into the open seat beside the low table.
nalysssa settled next to dijonai, getting back into a previous conversation, but paige tuned them out.
instead, she reached for the closest shot without even knowing what was in it and drank it.
tequila.
she welcomed the burn in her chest.
a second shot followed, much smoother this time. the edges around her thoughts began to blur by the time she took a third one. one of nalyssa's friends, who she had fallen into an easy conversation with since she arrived nudged her hand in her face, offering the half-finished blunt. paige declined with a shake of her head.
"you good?" nalyssa cuts in as dijonai orders more drinks for the table. "over there looking all mean n'shit."
paige cracked a smile, the liquor finally starting to settle in her system. her shoulders were eased and her jaw was unclenched for the first time tonight. she wasn't drunk, just tipsy enough to relax. "i'm chillin'."
nalyssa gave her a look, half amused, half knowing. "didn't you say things were fucked up with you and your girl? i was wondering why you ain't bring her."
she leaned back, her eyes scanning the room instead as she responded passively.
"yeah, i'm not dealing with her bullshit tonight."
and truth was, part of paige did want to work it out with cassidy.
deep, deep down, the part that still lived off of the memories of them cuddled up on the bed watching the white lotus and the late-night sex still kept her hoping for a change.
but the other part? it was tired. tired of the bending and explanations. tired of feeling like she had to choose between being great and being enough for someone else.
cassidy never understood. she said she did, but her actions spoke otherwise. every time paige missed a call, came home late, or chose the gym over a dinner date, it became another argument.
you've changed.
you never make time for me anymore.
but maybe cassidy was the one who changed. she loved the idea of paige but not the reality of what it took to be her.
paige blinked, suddenly aware of the drink in her hand again. nalyssa was rambling on about the tough patch she and dijonai went through, trying to offer some advice. paige nodded here and there, more so focused on her own surroundings than her friend's words.
someone was dancing on the table across the room. another girl was crying in the corner, visibly arguing with a man who was too drunk to care. and as nalyssa made another comment, paige couldn't help but completely drown it out as she laid eyes on another woman who was walking past the table.
paige couldn't see her face. she didn't need to.
she walked with confidence and a sight sway to her hips, immediately captivating the blonde.
she wore a black lace dress that left little to the imagination. it was thin and sheer, clinging to her body like it was made for it. underneath, paige could see the outline of her black thong through the see-through floral lace, every detail intentional.
she walked to the section beside them with her back still facing paige as excitedly hugging a few people who were already seated as if she hadn't seen them in years. her dress fit around her curves deliciously and paige caught herself staring a bit too long at the woman's ass as she bent over.
nalyssa couldn't help but notice the lack of attention from paige at this point and she caught on immediately, following paige's gaze until her own eyes landed on the woman.
nalyssa leaned in, nudging paige's arm. "damn, paige. you all in her shit."
paige rolled her eyes as she reached for her glass again, trying to shake it off.
"shut up." paige took a sip of her drink, swallowing it down hard.
paige always considered herself a loyal person, especially when it came to romantic relationships. she didnât entertain attention she didnât plan to return.
but then againâŚ
were she and cassidy even in a relationship anymore?
the last time they spoke face to face, it ended in a slammed door and another argument that started over nothing. cassidy stormed off after mentioning staying with her friends for a while. and that was five days ago. neither of them had called. neither of them had tried.
so what did that say?
but all that blurred the second she laid eyes on her, the woman now sitting just a few feet away like temptation itself dressed in all black lace.
her head tilted back mid-laugh, hand resting effortlessly at her waist, the other flicking a cascade of curls over her shoulder. even from the side, she looked unreal.
that small gesture exposed the curve of her neck, a sharp jawline, and a tattoo that started at the base of her neck and disappeared beneath thin black straps. she could make out some writing and a few flowers with leaves, and lines trailing down into the fabric.
she shifted in her seat, jaw tightening, trying not to stare, but failing miserably. she was definitely the most beautiful woman she's ever seen.
âlisten, man,â nalyssa said, setting her drink down and turning to face paige fully. âiâm not tryna be the villain here, but letâs stop pretending. from everything youâve been tellinâ me these past few weeks⌠you and cassidy ainât had nothing going on for a minute.â
paige didnât say anything. just stared down at the melting ice in her glass.
nalyssa kept going, softer now. âthis is exactly why i dragged your stubborn ass out tonight. you need to stop holding on to something thatâs not holding you back. cassidy doesnât get it, and to be honest? iâm not even sure sheâs trying to.â
paige sighed through her nose, the weight of it all pressing against her ribs. part of her wanted to argue and defend the pieces of the relationship that still felt familiar. but the words never came.
because nalyssa was right and that realization sat heavy in her chest.
âi justâŚâ paige started. âi donât know how to let go without feeling guilty.â
ânah,â nalyssa said quickly. âyou're staying in something that ainât feeding you and you need to let that shit go. don't feel guilty for choosing yourself for once."
paige leaned back, her hand rubbing over her face as she took in nalyssa's words, internalizing them.
she peeked over again, searching for the now familiar head of curls. she was still there. talking with another woman who held a phone to her face.
then, finally, the woman glanced over. almost as if something in the air had shifted, like she felt the weight of paige watching her.
her eyes landed on paige instantly and she felt it in her chest. her face was stunning in a way paige couldn't even describe.
her eyes were dark, almond-shaped, framed by baby doll lashes that fluttered softly.
her curls spilled down the sides of her face perfectly like they knew exactly where to fall. it framed her like a portrait in a gallery. like something you werenât supposed to touch, only admire. the lights hit her just right, casting a warm glow over her skin. rich. soft. paige wondered what that skin would feel like under her fingertips.
paige didn't want to look away, but the woman had broke eye contact first.
she watched as the woman leaned over, saying a few words to the person next to her before she stood up, making her way toward the bar.
paige dragged her fingers across the rim of her glass, still watching.
then she stood up, slowly.
nalyssa raised an eyebrow. âoh shit.â
âiâm just saying hi,â paige said, but the smirk pulling at her lips betrayed her.
nalyssa leaned back with a knowing grin. âuh huh. you better hi the hell outta her.â
paige didnât look back as she stepped out of their section.
â
âyo,â zoe leaned in and nudged your arm, eyes glinting with curiosity. âthat white girl been starinâ at you all night.â
you raised an eyebrow, unfazed but intrigued. âwho?â
zoe gave a slight tilt of her head, chin pointed toward the section next to yours.
you turned, eyes scanning the group who were all laughing and drinking, tucked comfortably into their booth. then her eyes locked onto her.
a blonde woman, legs slightly spread, sipping slowly from a glass like she had nowhere to be. she was talking to the light brown-haired girl next to her, nodding along, but her focus wasnât all the way there. you could tell.
you eyed the white cropped jacket hugging her frame, the black fitted shirt underneath that exposed her abs. her hair was slicked back into a clean, low bun. the studs in her ears caught the glow from the club lights every time she shifted.
you wouldn't deny the fact that she was attractive, or your exact type. but you didn't come here tonight to get laid, so you turned away and towards zoe with a dismissive shrug.
yet, zoe was still squinting her eyes at her. "she don't look familiar to you?"
you shook her head before taking a sip of your drink. "nah, not really. but it's dallas, everybody know everybody here."
zoe clapped her hands together and pointed to you in sudden realization. "dallas! she plays for the dallas wings. that's paige bueckers."
your expression didn't shift. "who?"
zoe rolled her eyes and reached for her phone, opening up instagram and typing in paige's name in the search. she practically shoved the phone in your face. âgirl, what? she plays ball. in the league. she's a rookie but been hyped up since high school. she got mad game, iâll give her that.â
tapping zoeâs screen, your eyes narrowing slightly at the profile pulled up in front of you. paige had it all: blue check, millions of followers, highlight reels, magazine features, the whole deal.
you blinked, a little caught off guard by the level of attention the girl commanded. you expected maybe a couple hundred thousand followers, not a whole fanbase.
"that woman is fine as fuck," zoe said, pulling her phone back down to her side and locking the screen. "if you don't get you some of that... i will."
you knew zoe was joking, but part of you was curious. curious enough to wonder what exactly it was that pulled a basketball starâs attention your way.
you took another slow sip of your drink, then glanced back toward paige, expecting her to still be deep in conversation with her friend.
but she wasnât.
no thoughts.
just eyes.
locked directly on you.
you froze for half a second, not visibly, but enough to feel it.
zoe was rightâ paige was insanely gorgeous. her gaze felt like she wasn't just looking, but studying you.
you tried to play it cool, kept your posture relaxed, head slightly tilted like you weren't phased. but with every second paige kept that gaze locked, you felt something shift.
a slow heat settling low in your stomach, crawling up your spine.
you needed another fucking drink.
you turned away from paige's table, nudging zoe, who was deep in conversation with one of your friends, laughing like she didnât have a care in the world.
âimma hit the bar. you want anything?â
zoe shook her head, barely missing a beat. ânah, iâm good.â
you slid out of your seat and excused yourself to the rest of the group before heading toward the bar. you didnât bother looking back, but you felt paige looking at you still.
you walked a little slower than usual, with just enough sway in your hips to make it worth watching. if paige wanted a show, you were more than happy to give her one.
once you reached the bar, one of the bartenders gave you a quick nod, mouthing 'give me a sec' as he tended to a row of customers.
fine. you had time.
you slipped onto one of the empty stools, crossing your legs, letting your fingers trail along the edge of the bar. you took a slow breath, just settling into the wait.
then, you felt it.
a presence right next to you. you didnât even have to look to know who occupied the space.
but you did anyway. and you didn't wait for her to speak first.
"you gon' keep staring at me all night or what?"
you turned your head, chin tilted up due to the height difference. there she stood with her mouth curved into an easy smile and one elbow resting on the edge of the bar. you noticed a chain that hung from her neck in the process.
she looked good. as hell.
but you wouldn't verbally admit that. you weren't going to stroke her ego.
âiâm just tryna figure out how to say hi without gettinâ curved.â
your head titled slightly, eyes skating across paigeâs face, still deciding if she was worth the time.
âso this is you being shy?â
ânah,â paige said, shaking her head once. âthis is me being respectful. you had a whole section, friends, vibe going on. i wasnât tryna interrupt all that.â
"what changed?"
paige licked her lips, her eyes drifting for a second, just enough time to gather the words. then they locked back onto yours, more focused now.
âi did,â she said simply, offering no explanation.
you didnât respond right away. just let the silence breathe as you thought to yourself.
you weren't naĂŻve, you knew paige wanted you. had known from the second your eyes met. but what surprised you was how paige wanted you.
there was no flash. no ego. no embarrassing attempt to impress you. she didnât lead with status or money or weak one liners. she came over with intention and left her pride at the door.
and that made you slightly more interested than you already were.
paige, sensing the silence stretching just a little too long, leaned forward slightly, her voice warm.
âiâm paige, by the way.â
she extended her hand steadily, no pressure behind it. you looked at it for a second, then took it, her fingers cool against your palm.
you introduced yourself, but before either of you could say anything else, the bartender stepped in.
âi apologize about the wait. you ladies need anything?â
you turned slightly, letting your hand fall from paige's loose grip before reaching for your purse. âyeah, iâll take a paloma.â
your fingers were halfway to your wallet when paige quietly pulled a card from the back of her phone case and handed it over without hesitation.
âi got it,â she said, eyes still on you. her gaze drifted, lingering on the swell of your chest. the way your top exposed just enough to tempt.
she let her eyes trace every curve like she was memorizing it. and when her eyes finally came back up to yours, there was no apology in them.
you swallowed hard, muttering out a 'thank you'.
being this close to paige was fucking with your head. you hadnât even planned on leaving with anyone tonight, but the way paige looked at you had you feeling something you had been neglected of for a long time.
not just lust, but craved. wanted. seen.
you liked it.
but then reality creeped in. you thought back to your conversation with zoe: paige bueckers, money, wealth, headlines, women.
you had her fair share of one night stands in the past, but never with a celebrity, a basketball star at that.
and that was the problem.
you didnât want to be a quick fuck in some sweaty club bathroom that got sent off with a quick nod and a 'take care', or worse, plastered on some messy instagram page that lived off exposing celebrity's private shit.
if you were gonna give paige your timeâ your body, it had to mean something.
paige leaned in slightly, her voice low and teasing. "and don't think i didn't notice that shit you pulled when you walked over here either."
you didn't flinch, but shifted your body toward paige, your knees brushing. the contact sent a spark up your spine.
your lips curled into a knowing smile.
âwell... it worked, didnât it?â
she let a beat of silence pass between the two of you, her eyes never shying away from yours.
"how long you wanna play this game?"
âdepends,â you said with a shrug.
âiâm not tryna be just some quick fuck to you,â you said bluntly. âi'm not like these other groupies in dallas, and iâm definitely not easy.â
paige nodded, slow and sure. "good. i don't want easy."
"what? got bored of fucking every girl who threw themselves at you since you got to dallas?" you retorted.
paige didn't say anything, only chuckling in response. she
the bartender placed your drink on the bar with a clink, but it barely registered. your focus stayed locked on paige, who took a step closer. close enough for her body to brush yours, close enough for her scent to trickle into your throat.
her hand moved up without warning, thumb and index finger catching your chin, tilting your head up. not rough, but firm.
your body tensed on instinct, not in fear, but from how fast the atmosphere shifted around you.
âyou think i came over here just to fuck you and dip?â she asked. âif that was all i wanted, iâd be long gone by now.â
your breath caught, chest rising slower. everything around youâ the people laughing and conversing, the bass thumping through the floorâ blurred into noise.
your voice came quieter than intended. âso youâre saying you donât wanna fuck me?â
paigeâs jaw flexed at that. she let out a slow breath, something close to a laugh, but nothing was humorous.
"oh, i definitely want to," paige confessed. her fingers moved just barely. the edge of her thumb brushed along your jaw like she was trying to memorize it. "you've been driving me fucking insane since i saw you and you know that shit."
you did.
and you definitely lied to her earlier. you were easy as fuck... at least when it came to her.
your thighs squeezed together under the bar in a weak attempt to calm the pressure building between them. it was borderline unbearable and you wondered if she could tell. if she knew how deep she had you already with one simple touch.
but before you could speak, she continued on.
"i just don't want to fuck you here. you're worth way more than some back of the club quickie." she said, her eyes flickering down to your plump lips. "besides, if im gonna fuck you, i need you stretched out somewhere clean and comfortable. preferably my bed."
the thought of paige having you stretched out made your mouth go dry. paige didn't move or touch you anywhere else, but it felt like she had you pinned. you absolutely hated it. you couldn't let her get you so easily.
"so what? you think 'cause you got money n'shit that i wanna fuck you too?" you said, gently pushing her hand away from your face.
"you talk a lot of shit, you know?" paige's lips curved into a smirk. "especially for someone who's been clenching their thighs every five seconds."
"oh, please," you scoffed, hating the fact that she was absolutely right. "fuck you."
you turned your body towards the bar and grabbed your drink, taking a much needed sip.
"tell me to leave and i will." paige said, her voice still sending shivers down your spine. "but don't sit here and act like you don't want me, ma."
you stared at the glass in front of you like it had answers. the buzz from the alcohol did nothing to help the burning desire for the woman next to you. you didn't want to give her the satisfaction, but you also didn't want her to leave either.
you turned, "if i didn't want you, you would know. trust."
paige paused. her mouth parted like she had something to say, but nothing came out.
instead, she bit her bottom lip like she needed to keep it together or else she'd end up dragging you out the club right then and there.
âfinish your drink,â she said firmly. it looked like she was holding herself together by a thread.
you looked at her for a second, before obliging. you calmly took your glass and knocked it back with one clean sip, setting it back down without breaking eye contact.
"you drive here?" paige asked, pulling her keys from her pocket.
you shook your head.
"good. let's go." she didn't wait for a reply, just turned and started walking like she knew you'd follow.
and you did.
you glanced over to your friend's table to find zoe already looking at you with a knowing smirk. she made a humping gesture and you were quick to flip her off before catching up to the blonde woman in front of you.
it was about midnight now and the air was chillier than it was when you arrived. but you welcomed it, it relieved your flushed skin.
paige finally looked back once you were both out of the building, her eyes looking you over under the glowing neon club sign.
"you good?"
it was like she was asking if you were still in. wondering if you were going to start second guessing.
but you made up your mind.
"yeah," you said. "you?"
she nodded, biting her bottom lip before she started walking. "i'm parked around the corner."
it wasn't long before you two made it to her car. she led you to her passenger side, opening the door for you, and watched as you stepped in.
she then got in herself from the drivers side and started the car, driving off.
the ride was quiet. not in an awkward way, but dangerously quiet. the radio was a whisper and somehow during the first two minutes of the ride, paige's right hand had made its way to your thigh. you wanted to squirm. you knew she was doing it on purpose too.
but you tried to play it off anyway. your eyes stayed glued to the road, trying to distract yourself by reading random billboard signs that passed by. but your body betrayed you. again.
you leaned towards the window, quickly pressed the button down, and let the fresh cool air wash over your hot skin. but it wasn't enough to settle you.
paige glanced over, "you okay?"
"mhm," you hummed, shutting your eyes as your head rested against the door. "it's just really hot."
you could hear paige pause briefly before chuckling. "it's 65 degrees in here."
you didn't respond, just silently prayed for the ride to end before her hand slipped any further between your legs. but of course, paige, sensing your overwhelming discomfort, slipped her hand even further.
her movements were slow, tempting, almost as if she was waiting on you to stop her. but the slit in your dress and your slightly parted thighs gave her access to swipe her finger against your clothed clit.
âpaige,â you warned, cracking your eyes open.
she wasnât looking at you. her eyes locked on the road with her bottom lip caught between her teeth like she was holding back a laugh or a moan, you couldnât tell which.
âhm?â she murmured lazily. her middle finger dragged along the edge of your thong, toying with the fabric like she had all the time in the world. âno more shit to say?â
and then she pushed it aside.
you were undeniably wet it was nearly humiliating. you had been since the moment she sized you up at the bar like she already had you bent over in her mind. but with the cold air kissing your exposed pussy, there was no more hiding it.
yet still, still, she refused to touch your clit. instead, she rested them on the inside of your thigh calmly. you couldn't help but notice she was driving slow as fuck tooâ at least ten under, like she wanted you to suffer.
you clenched your fists in frustration. "i'm not the only one who's running their mouth. you say you want me, but you haven't done shit to me all night."
she let out a short laugh, finally glancing over to you for a brief second. "yeah?"
her next move was sudden. before you could even process anything, you felt her slide her fingers inside of you, smooth and deep. your breath hitched as your thighs instantly widened to make more space for her.
a hand instantly flew to the passenger side door with a smack, blindly searching for anything solid to grip onto as she slowly curled her finger against your g-spot.
a sharp, helpless moan left your lips.
"say something else," paige said, her voice laced with grit.
you tried. you really did.
the beginning of a 'fuck you' was on the tip of your tongue, but the words died in your throat the second her middle finger circled your clit with precision, the pressure just right. you choked back a moan.
"drippin' all over my seat and i barely even touched you tonight," she murmured, almost mockingly, like she was pitying you. "look at you, ma."
you caught a glimpse of yourself in the blind spot mirror. the wind picked up, making your curls wildly stick to your face as your chest rose and fell in deep pulls. your lips were parted, legs trembling,
she kept her rhythm painfully slow. each time she pressed her knuckles deep inside you, she pulled back too soon, leaving you clenching around nothing but air. you were soaked. your arousal dripped down your thighs and coated her fingers.
"shhh... you hear that?" paige lowly, almost like she was holding back a moan. she dragged her fingers out slowly, making your pussy squelch shamefully.
you only nodded against the headrest. the feeling of an orgasm brewed deep in your gut as your hips moved on their own, chasing after the high she was refusing you.
"paige..." you gasped, voice cracking as your dragged out the last syllable.
then her palm brushed against your clit and you cried out, sharp and needy.
your hand shot down, fingers wrapping tight around her wrist, forcing her palm back onto your throbbing clit.
and she let you.
"you wanna cum for me, baby?"
you nodded your head, eyes fluttering shut. your legs were trembling against her leather seats as she slightly picked up her speed, curling her long fingers up into you
"shit, paige," your moan was desperate and breathless. "just like that."Â
your orgasm was right there, sitting heavy in your stomach, just a few seconds away.
until paige suddenly retracted her hand. completely.
your body jerked at the sudden loss, your orgasm snatched right from under you. you snapped open your eyes to catch paige licking the thick coat of slick that was on her fingers like it was left over candy residue.
you groaned in disbelief, reaching over to smack her arm. "are you fucking serious?"Â
she finished sucking the last of it off before plastering a lazy smile on her face. "deadass."
you stared at her, breath still ragged and your pussy still exposed, clenching around nothing yet again. you closed your legs together, cringing at the discomfort.
paige rolled to a complete stop at a red light before turning over to you, meeting your eyes. her hand found your thigh again, giving it a soft squeeze.
"don't worry, baby. we're almost there."
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pairings: john kramer!taehyung x female reader
warnings: dark themes, angst, yandere, murder, torture, self harm, suicide, stalking etc.... (will add more when i know lol) although it is rather innocent in the first couple chapters(?) so idk it could be slow burn but i guess weâll find out as i write it >< ,, itâs my version of saw if saw was a fucked up love story lol. Please donât read if any of the topics mentioned trigger you!! 18+
this fic is exactly that, fiction!!!! the au does not represent the characters mentioned irl......
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Hiding behind a mask was something you were accustomed to. Your friend group and family were clueless to the torment you endured from simply existing. You were confident your masking had convinced the world you were happy with yourself. Unbeknown to you, one other person saw straight through your façade.
You wanted to end your life.
He needed you to cherish your life.
Nothing looked familiar. The cafĂŠ you frequented was nowhere to be found. Your usual hangout was most definitely not on the side of town you found yourself in. You felt anxiety slowly curl its way around your body, you were frigid. You tried and tried but couldnât find it in yourself to run.
You lived in the more friendly part of town (so to speak) â where houses were colourful, gardens pristine, warm-hearted neighbours who would treat you like family and white picket fences are what surrounded you. That was your norm, sure, you werenât exactly loaded but you werenât exactly poor either. It was a healthy balance in the middle. Thatâs not to say you hadnât lived or seen this side of town before.
Your Mother and Father had grown up on this side of the fence. Two young people brought up in the rougher, more unfortunate areas. Your Mother was tough; she looked like a naĂŻve, weak girl, albeit that was not the case. She was strong willed, used to life on the streets and doing anything she could to get money to make sure there was at least some food on the table. While your Mum was the leader, your Dad was more of a sheep. He was easily influenced and was dragged into the wrong crowd (had his fair share with drugs and street racing). That was their life for a few years till they crossed paths and your Mum helped your Dad get back on the right track.
They didnât tell you much about their childhood and adolescence but they told you enough to make you appreciate what you have and to always work hard for it. To stick with the right people, be wise and conscious of your decisions. Be kind to those around you.
Your family owned a garage; your Dad was the head mechanic. This was the sole reason you were here. You knew it wouldnât be simple when you agreed to go to this side of town to get a few bits for your Fatherâs shop. However, you didnât expect it to be this difficult. How could you be so stupid? Why didnât you just ask Hoseok and Yoongi to come with you like your father told you to? Or at least tell them where you were⌠yet you decided today of all days to be stubborn and venture on yourself, knowing full well how unsafe the area was. There were rundown businesses on either side of the road, beggars at every doorstep; drug dealings happening in broad daylight, no one even trying to hide it.
You felt your phone buzz in your pocket, you took it out and sighed a breath of relief once youâd read the texts.
14:37â From Papa: U ok munchkin ??? Did u get the stuff ?
14:39â From Papa: its ok if u didnt. Yoongs rang said hes got majority this morning lol so be safe n get home soon . Love u
14:40â To Papa: ohhh ok pops, i couldnât find the shop anyway lol iâll head back soon, love u too x
*LOW BATTERY*
âFuck, trust me to forget to charge the bastard.â You rolled your eyes as you stuffed the phone back in your pocket.
Muffled shouting was heard around you. People ran across the street, bumping into you as they ran past. You gathered yourself and moved further down the path. âGreat!â you exasperated, âhonestly Iâm so fucking stupid! Yoongiâs gonna kill me for this, I knew, I knew I shouldâve told him I was coming over here but no,â your head was hung low as you dragged your feet across the pavement, âmaybe I could tell Hobi, he wouldnât be as angry right? Iâm sure heâll come,â A sudden scream ripped you out of your chuntering. You whipped your head to the right, you could make out some figures bustling about in front of you, a group of men were quite clearly fighting⌠your anxiety struck you and you held your breath as you saw a man pull a knife from the waistband of his sweatpants. All thoughts and common sense seemed to leave all at once. Statue like, feet stuck to the ground. You watched on as the group rushed towards the brown haired man, you scanned his figure: tall, broad, confident⌠he exuded an intimidating aura even when you were this far away from him.
How could someone be so sure of themselves? It was one against five, surely the loner had no chance?
The glistening of the knife brought you back to your senses. Fucking hell. How do you always end up in these situations when youâre alone? Why me? Why? Good Lord, I need to run. Just as you were about to leave, the group who were arguing charged past you; one gripped his side as another supported his weight. Holy fuck, did he stab him? you stood frozen, yet again, your mind raced a mile a minute. Panic bubbled in your chest.
âYou okay there Doll?â His voice was deep, velvet-like. It flowed so smoothly you doubted it was real, it was so soothing like it had wrapped itself around you, embracing your body. You heard his footsteps before he planted himself beside you. His shoulder reached the top of your head, his hand brushed yours. Swallowing your nerves you dared a glance up. He was fucking breath-taking, like a fallen angel. The stranger shot you a small smile that you wouldâve easily missed had you not been staring at his features⌠a blush crept up your neck as you nodded. His smile slowly twisted into a smirk.
Cute, Taehyung thought to himself. Couldnât help but adore the way you slightly trembled under his gaze, the way your hands gripped and twisted your sweater paws. Almost like a puppy. He cleared his throat and reached his hand to yours, âSorry, I shouldâve introduced myself. Iâm Taehyung.â you took his hand into yours, apprehensively you greeted him, âIâm Y/N.â
âAh, Y/N. I havenât seen you round here before, you new or something?â Taehyung cocked his head to the side, his eyes seemed to stare right through you.
âUhm, I donât live here. I live over the other part of Town⌠I was just grabbing some stuff for my Dad but, my phones about to die. I have no idea where I am or how to get home, Iâm sorry, I promise I didnât see anything!â a deep chuckle cut you off, Taehyung smiled and beckoned you to follow him.
âCome on Y/N, youâre not suited for this side of Town, Iâll walk you back. A pretty little thing like you, youâre easy prey to these guys.â your feet fell into a cautious pace behind him, he glanced over his shoulder, âhurry up Buttercup, I donât bite.â Taehyung flashed a boxy grin in your direction, which caused you to speed up ever so slightly.
You were unsure how you felt about letting a complete stranger walk you home, Yoongi would definitely kill you for this. Especially with the recent news of some serial killer named âJigsawâ, Yoongi and Hoseok had been very stern and their usual, overprotective selves when the news had broken out. âItâs on every headline Y/Nie! No more leaving the house on yourself, you need to go anywhere you ring either of us. Got it? Donât talk to anyone you donât know either. Thereâs some dodgy fucks about recently.â Although, you loved them dearly, sometimes their protectiveness was a...little overbearing. You already felt suffocated from your parents (you didnât need it from your best friends as well). They were happy and believed you to be too; but that was exhausting, faking happiness. You had a constant façade, acted like a happy normal teenager with a happy family; when that was far from the truth.
Drowning. Thatâs how youâd explain the way you felt. Breathing was difficult and brought you more pain than it was worth. Growing up was tedious, you had grown differently to your peers which only brought ridicule and embarrassment for you. You had struggled with your speech (sometimes you still do), you often stuttered, mispronounced words, the list was endless. That was one of the first reasons you were a castaway. As you grew, the ridicule worsened. Verbal abuse turned physical from your classmates. They made you feel like you were a waste of space. The names they called you, you soon started to believe them. Ugly. Weird. Freak. Stupid. They took root in your brain, slowly they grew and grew till your head was overgrown with twisted, rotten weeds.
Eventually, you sought comfort in blood. You didnât care that it hurt you; you were almost happy to feel pain. Like you deserved to.
By age 14, you had started to skip school. Only ever there for exams and a couple of art classes you had with Jeongguk. He was what you wouldâve called a best friend, he supported you and was by your side till you left school. He went away to college and like always with school friends, you drifted apart. Nevertheless, he still texts you now and then to check in.
Although you were (once) close with Jeongguk. He never knew of your inner demons, the same with Yoongi and Hoseok. You didnât want to feel like a burden and worry your friends when they had shit to worry about themselves.
Why devastate flowers that flourish beautifully with weeds that manage to twist their way around every crack?
You had walked for a few minutes now, having chatted absentmindedly about anything and everything. The roads still didnât look familiar to you and you just wished they did, you didnât want to be away from your home any longer, your feet were starting to ache, your phone was on 10% battery and it was fucking cold. You just wanted to be back in bed tucked up watching Lady and the Tramp or 101 Dalmatians for the millionth time. You felt safe and content when you indulged in your comfort films. Far away from the real world and wrapped up in the false reality. They easily distracted you and that's when you truly felt at peace. Your mind was always too busy thinking about how cute it was when Tramp calls Lady, Pidge or how in love Pongo and Perdy were.
Majority of the time you fantasised about having a love similar, but then again, why would you wanna make yourself vulnerable like that? Is the risk of being hurt (more than you are now) any good? Of course itâs not. Fuck that, life isnât nothing like those shitty romance films or novels⌠Itâs real and painful.
As you and Taehyung rounded the corner, a little cafe caught your eye, a dainty blue and pink building. Fairy Lights strung up around the windows, you could see a handful of people inside, busy sipping their drinks and chatting away to one another. âAroma Mochaâ hung above the doors. It looked so cute and simple. Your previous thoughts left your mind as quick as they had come. You wanted to go inside, it had an enticing atmosphere.
Taehyung hadnât realised youâd stopped walking until he couldnât hear the soft thud of your footsteps behind him, he turned as he called out to you, your eyes still fixed on the cafe. He chuckled to himself, âFucking adorable, like a kid at christmas,â he walked back over to you. âHey Doll, you wanna go in?â He felt his heart quicken when you looked at him with those pretty eyes, âWeâve plenty of time to get you back before itâs dark angel.â You answered him with a nod as you turned your head from Taehyung to look back at the alluring little cafe.
Not a second had passed before Taehyung grabbed your hand and pulled you across the road to the entrance; you ignored the warmth of his hand as it intertwined with yours; you ignored the way your tummy erupted with butterflies. Taehyung had stopped to hold the door for you, you murmured a small, âthank you,â looking up at him, the heat that crept up your cheeks making your face resemble that of a dollâs he thought to himself. Once he ushered you fully inside, he placed his hand to rest on the curve of your waist as he guided you to the back corner of the room, where a quaint table for two was unoccupied, a little pot of Daffodils sat atop. How fitting...
Taehyung was quick to pull the chair out for you to take a seat, you pulled it in as you sat down and sent a shy smile his way, âIâm sorry, I know we just met Taehyung but this place is so fucking precious! I hope Iâm not bothering you, if I am we can just carry on walking or, I could ring a Taxi? Is this weird? Oh god, I canât believe--â, Taehyung threw his head back as he laughed, a sound that seemed to wrap its way around your soul, twisting around your heart in the nicest of ways, it was almost like a killer to the weeds taking over your body. A temporary release. You felt like you could really breathe in those short seconds of his laughter.
âAngel, if you were bothering me, Iâd have kept on walking. That, or I wouldâve called you a Taxi myself, itâs no problem honestly.â You ducked your head as he sent a wink your way, fuck sake Y/N get it together! Why are you acting like a fucking schoolgirl?
âWell I uh, appreciate it so, yeah thank you?â You donât know what to do, youâre here with the most gorgeous person youâve ever laid your eyes on⌠yet you have no clue if what you saw was real, did Taehyung stab someone? Could someone have had the knife who wasnât Taehyung? Was he even the person you saw in that altercation? Did you imagine everything that had gone off?
Before you had chance to overthink it, a light bubbly voice greeted your ears, âHi! Welcome to Aroma Mocha, Iâm Jimin and Iâll be your server today. Is there anything I can get you?â Jimin held his gaze on you as he flashed you a friendly smile, Taehyung turned around at the sound of his best friend, âOh, Tae! I wasnât expecting to see you today, what are you doing here? And whoâs this pretty little lady?â
âThis is Y/Nie, she was in the neighbourhood so we thought weâd nip in for something to drink before I take her back to hers.â you sent a warm smile to Jimin which he gladly returned, âIâll have my usual and can you get Y/Nie a Strawberry Iced Tea? Thanks man.â
Once Jimin had disappeared to make your drinks, you shot your eyes to Taehyung, âUhm, howâd you know I like Strawberry Iced Tea?â Taehyung didnât even look in your direction as he scrolled through his phone, eyes glued to the screen. A minute passed by and heâd still not acknowledged your question so you let it slide, it wasnât that big of a deal right? Your mind drifted. Your fingers rested atop of your lap, hidden from the sight of onlookers, picking around your nails as anxiety flooded your body. You felt like you were about to suffocate. You shouldnât be talking to anyone, you shouldnât let anyone close. You were only going to fuck everything up in a heartbeat. Itâs only natural. Self deprecating thoughts devoured and made their way through your veins, poisoning yourself further; your whole body felt as though it was alight.
Jimin brought you your drinks, placed them carefully in front of the pair of you as you both said your thanks.
The click of Taehyungâs phone being locked and the clearing of his throat brought you back to your senses. âThe drink I ordered for you is popular here so, I assumed youâd like to try it. You wanna talk about whatâs bothering you?â your eyes shot up to meet his, your head tilted a little to the left as your tongue wet your lip, so puppy like...
You stared incredulously, âI donât know what youâre talking about Taehyung.â You leant forward slightly as you wrapped your lips around the straw and took a sip.
Taehyung saw the way you sucked your drink up through your straw, his eyes darkened. Thankful to have worn sweatpants that day, he shifted himself discreetly, âIâm not stupid Angel, I know what youâre doing under the table. Iâm here, so talk to me. Iâll listen to whatever you gotta say.â
You stuttered as you wracked your brain for something to say, âI-I only met you like forty minutes ago, I donât even tell my friends whatâs wrong. Not that there is, everythingâs fine.â
You met me just short of an hour ago, he thought to himself, âYou donât have to lie to me Y/NieâŚâ he grabbed your hands that were laid near the cup of your Iced Tea. His thumb rubbing circles onto the back of your hand. You looked small and fragile, like the Daffodils on the table; one little pluck and youâd be ruined. He wouldnât admit it to you just yet but, Taehyung fucking loved how delicate you seemed as you sat across from him.
How easy it would be to take your life away. How easy itâd be to pull those weeds up that are poisoning you, torturing you every single day. He shook his head, as he cleared those thoughts. No, only Y/N can make that decision. Iâm just going to help her choose.
Live or Die.
You visibly winced, âYou donât know me. Think whatever the fuck you want about me, it doesnât matter.â your eyes flashed hurt as you went back to picking your skin. You knew it, this whole encounter was too good to be true. A complete stranger (well acquaintance technically) had just presumed shit about you, the fact he was right is what hurt more. You didnât want anyone to know how you were feeling. Or how you were dealing with it.
You couldnât exactly tell him to piss off, you still needed his help home and so you tried to distract yourself from the unsettling gaze that watched your every move. You let out a breath as Taehyung went back to his phone. Your eyes drifted as you picked up the local Newspaper, your eyes skimmed over the headline, âJigsaw Traps Continueâ. Taehyung noticed you staring at the front page, and chuckled, âyou scared of Jigsaw Angel?â
You shook your head, why would you be scared of some nutjob whoâs targeted criminals and drug dealers? Youâre a nobody. âOf some psychopathic puppet?â if anyone did anything to you that would threaten your life, it would be you. Taehyung just laughed in return as you skipped the article and skim-read the other pointless stories.
You were fucking clueless as to who he was while he knew every little thing about you. He had watched you for months⌠His precious little Y/Nie⌠Oh how silly you were, taking your life for granted.
You hated yourself that much, you were willingly marking yourself up. Tainting your skin⌠oh your skin, how fucking beautiful and soft it looked, even with all the scars it still looked perfect⌠Taehyung wanted nothing more than to whisk you away and lock you inside with him. Forever. He didnât want anyone touching what was his.
He knew you wore a mask when in public, too afraid to show your real self. Little did you know, he wore a mask himself...only he wore it to better other people.
He had a plan.
And youâd soon find out.
Let the games begin.
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amanda todd duh
Iâm trying to prove a point
parings: boyfriend!tom x fem!reader
warning(s): like one or two minor cuss words. fluff i guess.
ok so,,, hi
this is my first headcannon so donât make fun of it :( srry it's short..
anyways
tom first asked you out on a date last week and you guys have been getting ready for it ever since
tom was nervous as hell but of course he never told you that
but you could tell from his sweaty palms and slight stutters lol
you were nervous too
tbh youâve been wondering if tom would ever ask you out because youâve been waiting for him to for a long time
but anyways, tom picked you up and spent five minutes just complementing you, all the way from the front door and until you guys were in the car
âgod, you look so damn beautiful.â he whispered as he stared at you in complete awe
you smiled, your teeth biting your bottom lip as you tried not to smile too big
âtom, iâm in jeans and a sweater...â
you told tom not to take you any where fancy because you werenât that type of girl. you wanted to have a relaxing picnic or go to the park and walk around enjoying fresh air. you hated that stereotype fancy dinner bullshit. so you guys settled to just dress casual and go somewhere calm instead
tom reached over and kissed your cheek tenderly, âi know, i know. you still look gorgeous, darling.â
sis you almost lost it when he called you âdarlingâ
but you kept your cool and responded with a smart remark
the car ride was actually short but for you and tom, it felt like ten hours filled with you guys just laughing, blasting music, and tom getting honked at for staring at you too long during the red light
when you and tom arrived to the park, he opened the door for you and grabbed the supplies out from the back of the trunk. you helped him carry some of the things while you made your way to a more secluded side of the park
it was more open and quieter. just as you wanted it
you and tom set up the supplies for the picnic, which included a large blanket, a pillow, and a basket full of tomâs homemade sandwiches and some wine
after tom finished setting up the last of everything, you frowned as you realized there was only one pillow and he was already using it, placing it behind his head
âtom, you forgot to bring another pillow!â
tom looked up to you from the ground and smirked, pointing to himself. âduh...youâre using me as a pillow.â
you rolled youâre eyes, but still and laid down next to him, using his chest as your âpillowâ as he suggested. you werenât entirely against the idea ;)
you loved this position actually. you could perfectly hear the fast beating of his chest, all while hearing the distant chirping of the birds. it was crazy how you made tom feel like he on top of the world, and vise versa.
your heart was beating just as fast. he held you tightly against himself, his chin just above your head as he rubbed small circles and patterns into your back
âtommy...â
âyes, sweetheart?â
you could feel your face warm up, snuggling yourself further into his body. âthank you for this.â
tom hummed, pulling you up to meet his lips softly. he kissed you tenderly, his hand still tracing your back while the other held your cheek. you couldnât help but smile into the kiss, breaking it up and pulling away slightly, inches away from his pink lips.
you brushed a strand of hair off of his forehead, â iâll take that as a âyouâre welcome.â
jdjkssj i didnât know how to end this
k bye now
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i literally wrote this six months ago and forgot abt itđ but here u go i guess lol
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