Luxlila

Good morning to all the pretty girls around the world, hope you have a good day, beautiful!

Campus Hottie📓💒

I want to become more comfortable speaking up for myself, having audacity, and just embrace the close mouth don't get fed mentality.

Three areas of my life that I need to speak up more, is school, friends, and to be honest just in general.

My fear of being perceived as a bitch is holding me back and making me not speak up and express my mind.

I also hate confrontation which is also why it's hard for me to speak up when something goes wrong.

I will say this, my dad is a very confrontational person. It's to the point that I don't even like going to places with him because I fear he is going to cause a scene. I know I just said that I wanted to have more audacity, but he takes it too far. He's literally a male Karen (still love him). I guess its about finding that balance and becoming assertive not aggressive because as another saying goes, you get further with honey than vinegar.

practice, practice and practice. Practice your ideal self privately so that publicly you don’t fumble or feel awkward. Practice the way your ideal self walks, talks, lives, eats, everything even when you’re alone. Over time, your body will get so used to it that it will come to you naturally.

Shyness...

One of my goals this Winter is to become less shy and more comfortable speaking up for myself. I talked about this before but I wanted to dive deeper into myself and understand where this shyness comes from.

I am naturally more introverted. I am aware that being introverted does not equal shyness, but I do enjoy being alone and hanging around people drains me.

Guys make me shy. I don't know why but they do. I am not shy around girls the way I am around guys. I think it's because I think they are super judgmental even though thats just an assumption.

Group settings triggers my shyness as well. I can have a 1 on 1 conversation with a stranger and do fine but put that stranger and I in a group setting, now I don't know how to act.

My shyness has definitely improved but I have a long way to go. And if you're wondering why this is important to me, it is because I see myself living a very fun and amazing life, and being shy and not knowing how to have a simple conversation with people is going to close more doors than open, so its important to me to overcome this.

Thats all,

Travel

I need to travel… I need to go… I need to sit in a private luxury villa overlooking an infinity pool over looking clear blue waters /ocean 

I need to bury my feet in the buttery sand of the dubaian desert at night and wake for an early camel ride. 

I need to wake up another morning in Burj Al arab and ask for food that has to be flown in from another country. 

I need to sit in a tree somewhere on the African continent (reading a romantic  novel while my lover looks up to me as if in prayer to his goddess)

I need to sit on another tree preferably home (Africa) reading a favorite childhood novel, while eating a fruit plucked from the cranky neighbors tree

I need to sit on a Large Parisian terrace facing the Eiffel tower while the french maids serving my breakfast gossips behind me

I need to drive in a top down luxury car with the wind in my hair and occasionally freaking out if it will take my wig off (Don’t judge me… shit happens)

I need to do another drive… this time in a red sports car with silk scarf framing my face and preventing (the wig panic mentioned above). Red lips and a dangerously large cat eye sunglasses.

I need to get on a plane, to feel the anticipation and excitement of going somewhere new or/and somewhere old and experienced….

I just need to freaking go… And Covid needs to chill the fuck out soon, or am finding a cure myself…

Is anyone as frustrated as i am? I really miss the things i took for granted…

She's is one of my favorite TikTok and Instagram pages.

YEESSSSSSSS

me dreaming about the scenarios that WILL happen because it is divinely aligned for it to. my reality is simply a projection of my consciousness. everything is already working out the way it is supposed to. blessings otw.