HOLY SHITT The Lightning, The Background, The Artstyle, The Colors?!!!?! The Animation Team Ate With

i give myself around five minutes to ramble at 1am

it’s 1am. let’s see what my adhd riddled sleep deprived jshk obsessed brain has to offer us today. expect nothing, i don’t make sense at this hour i might make this a daily thing, because my insomnia will keep me up anyways and it’s interesting what i do at night… summary: mostly just me ranting about today. and my crippling sense of self

i just cried for like half a minute and it was absolutely wonderful. highly recommend. at least an eleventh of my stress has been washed away (even if it’ll replenish extra during the weekdays).

it’s been all around horrible for the second half of the day, and partly possibly because i skipped lunch and stuff,,, but maybe because my self validation meter is running low and there’s literally nobody here to help?? maybe?

i want so badly to have an irl friend to yap about everything to. it feels too much like ive been taking all the yapping and doing absolutely everything to nod my head and listen like the open-minded person im supposed to be and barely getting to even show any of my thoughts and

it’s honestly normal to censor yourself and stuff, right? because you don’t want to let too much of it leak through and look like you’re asking for attention and such but it’s such a

what again

replace it with something you can never get (im not making sense at all) anyways, speaking of stuff i can never get, they finally found my lost computer and that’s nice, but i’ve been so writing deprived i don’t know whether i can write again, and im sure no one would notice unless i scream it to the hills anyways. wonder how i could get more people to care

and about that, it’s time to stop, but i’m on a roll so who cares

do you ever just kind of

“i want to post this” “i want to make this” “i want to do this”

“… but no one’s going to see it, so why does it matter?”

how does one break out of this? because i knwo it’s all writing for yourself but self-indulgence can only last so long (i regret making that oc so badly right now it hurts) but it’s not good for health and i know that

how do i continue this? i’ll stop. someone talk to me, i think im going insane-

dead tired but wants to write will be my mood for the next 12h because oops it’s an hour away from early morning.

oops i did nothing for an entire night.

oops i did not sleep.

oops i did not eat.

oops i (did it again-)

oops i

oops

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. if only i could write without turning into a zombie to gain motivation. i hear the birds. it’s gonna be a wonderfully bad day

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fwoosh! brainwashing to make yall join the jibaku shounen hanako-kun community’s discord server because there’s so many nice people here that i’d love to yap with!!

there’s no downside to this for as long as i’ve been there, and i got to become friends with so many of the wonderful people of this community and be silly and yap about our fanfics and compliment each others’ art and form a mitsuba cult-

i’d love to see yall there <3 have a nice day !!

*releases u from brainwashing & scuttles back into the writing corner*

HELP ME I WROTE A SMOL MESSAGE FOR AN ARTIST, COPIED IT (i do a weird thing it’s just a thing) AND ACCIDENTALLY CLOSED THE ARTIST’S BLOG LMAO

since i feel it’d be a waste to search for their blog again now that i’ve gotten this idea, please take this and imagine that it’s your art i’m talking about ♡ who knows? maybe it is? maybe i faked this story, just to talk about your art secretly? :3

i did take out some parts though,,,

i loveeee your art !! the contrast the lines the perfect imperfect messiness and the COLORS omfg i can;t get enough of it i just spent seven minutes straight scrolling through your art tag

i would love love love to ask for merch of this honestly (do you have some? lemme see!) but it’s alright if you don’t want to make some,,, i’ll laser your art into the back of my eyelids so that i can see it for all eternity instead hehee

tysm for your works!!! especially that one ship art oufdhsjkhfjshjk it made me scream and fall out of my chair tysm again for that experience <333 your art is amazing

excuse me when tf did i read this and how did i forget /nm

anyways. EVERYONE WHO SEES THIS, GO READ !!!!!

QUALITY WRITING HERE !!!!

With the help of Yako, the trio begin their climb through the Hell of Mirrors in search of Mitsuba.

WHEW FINALLY GOT CHAPTER TWO DONE! my simple mitsukou fic idea has quickly spiraled out of control haha woopsies. im going to be slapping on these little chapter sketches from now on i think.

whenever im feeling down i just go to my ao3 account and squeal at my kudos and comments. they fuel me. im so happy whenever i see them.

like hello there!! i was probably only a passing moment in your day but omfg what you liked it??? you did????? aaaaaaaaaa and you too? and you commented on two of them???? im doing a good job??????

idc if they’re return customers!!! im just glad that someone’s visiting my shop <3

this past week has been pretty productive <3

i love being an artist 💖

IM FREAKING SICK

EVERYONE SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

the way everything is taking a more luminous and yellow hue…

WE’RE GETTING THEM AND THE MOON IN TWO DAYS!!!

i can do it.

but will you do it?

... no.