The Thought Of Ever Losing You Scares Me More Than Every Other Phobia Combined

You make life so much better and that's a fact. Without you, life is a barren wasteland that I don't want to live in. I need you to feel like existing is worth it. Please stay? Forever with me?

abandonment issues slayyyy

why dont you need me like i need you? why dont you love me as much as i love you? what am i doing wrong?

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source▪️f2u w cr▪️base cr: 1,2,3 / 4 / 5 / not mine: 6,7,8

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Am I the only one who doesn’t improve because they refuse to try.

I always say “I don’t like deep breathing”. “It doesn’t work” I say. But I don’t even try.

“I don’t like meditating” I say, “it doesn’t work” i say. But I don’t even try.

“I can’t journal” I say, “it doesn’t help” I say. but I don’t even try.

Why? Because it can’t be that simple. If it’s that simple than I’m not as traumatized, or as damaged, or as far gone as I thought I was, and it almost feels like all of this was for nothing. I feel like I don’t have it bad enough and therefore I don’t deserve help, nor do I want it because of that.

It almost feels as if when I heal, all this suffering was for nothing, all this time struggling to get better was for nothing, all those panic attacks and dangerous driving and self harm, when it was always just…that simple.

So I don’t even try. Because if it works, it’s been too simple all along and I have suffered at my own expense for nothing.

i need you to love me

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source▪️f2u w cr▪️base: 1-4 / 5-8

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