It’s So Strange

My notes to look back to when I write…I HAVE SO MANY FEELINGS ABT THIS FIC ITS GONNA BE THE END OF ME AND THE START OF SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL

I’m writing more Zolu and if you’re wondering what the vibe is lemme give y’all a sneak peak at my thought process:

I was listening to Roadkill by Searows and looked over to see some of the dead flowers I’ve preserved and I thought “hmm, I feel like Luffy loves others in the same selfish manner in which we preserve flowers: he loves them too much to ever part with them and even in death he would still find beauty and use in their shape.” Also very inspired by a painting I’m making about a crow eating another dead crow on the side of the road (because is there any other greater act of love and mercy one can show on another in a cruel, mangling death by still giving them one last purpose in life?)

So yeah, luffy Pov all abt his view of death, love, devotion, and Zoro

Heavy In Your Arms

I can't stop with the zolu sacrilegious imagery.

I listened to Florence + The Machine the entire time making this, hence the title.

Me scouring the internet for content abt a ship I like

“Please….please just one thing that portrays them as the losers and nerds they are.”

My favorite thing about Luffy that I feel is overlooked is his definition of “King Of The Pirates”.

Throughout the series, Luffy comes across countless others who share the same name of a dream, but what separates them is what that dream looks like.

To Luffy, being king of the pirates means to be truly free. It means to provide freedom for all who sail the sea, where the sea is no place for marines to control.

It’s not about control, being King of the pirates doesn’t mean he wants to tower over the sea with an iron fist.

Luffy doesn’t want to rule, he wants adventure with those he loves and calls his crew. He doesn’t strive for power, he follows his passion.

So to see him fight for his beliefs, to see him fight for those he calls friend, who wouldn’t want to follow him?

Dysautonomia is so weird bc like what do you mean I’m sweating my ass off with this sweatshirt on but if I take it off my skin hurts bc I feel cold BUT IM STILL SWEATING AND ALL OF A SUDDEN EVERYTHINGS BLURRY???

Luffy, the king of the pirates that you are....

ft. Zoro's earring bc they are in love your honor

(Please ignore how messy the frame is in this, it was a last minute decision I realized I kinda hated but had already committed to)

I think ppl tend to brush over the loneliness of brain trauma and how isolating it is to be recovering from a tbi (traumatic brain injury)

I've been in recovery for 2yrs and something I don't think ppl fully understand is how when ur trying to “move on” and “go back to normal”, your body doesn't move like your body anymore.

It doesn't feel like your body anymore.

There is nothing more devastating than trying live your life in a body that doesn't feel like yours or work like the body you once had. Like how tf do you expect me to move on when my limbs don't feel like my limbs?!

You're left mourning the death of the body you once had and no one else sees or knows how disconnected from yourself you feel.

Brain damage sucks

When talking abt Rin’s and Saes meeting after four years, I don’t see a lot of people talk about what Sae said to Rin about Spain

Sae changed his dream to being the best midfielder, him being the first to use the comment that he was “half-baked” and that Rin didn’t understand what it was like beyond Japan.

Sae is made out to be bitter and cold to Rin, and I agree that what he said to Rin was harsh, it’s clear from the flashbacks that Sae is very protective of Rin, so it wouldn’t make sense for him to switch on a dime.

Sae doesn’t want Rin to have the same dream as him, even saying in response that he should quit if his passion for soccer was reliant on Sae and him being the best.

The impression I got from Sae is that he doesn’t want Rin to follow his path, to live in his shadow because something happened in Spain that changed Sae and he doesn’t want that for Rin. Sae is saying not to follow him, to make his own path, that the one he’s on isn’t one he wants for his brother.

(Think of Itachi to Sasuke it feels like the exact same doomed sibling dynamic)

Sae is pushing Rin away, pushing away his soccer dream bc he doesn’t want him to do it for Sae, to do it in his shadow, because the path he followed isn’t one he should see.

And when we think about why Sae teamed up with Shidou and not Rin, the simplest way I can put it is it’s bc Shidou matched Saes freak. Shidou, for reasons we don’t know yet, is just as fucked as Sae (TRUST, they r the same freak different font)

Anyways….Sae isn’t a complete asshole, I mean yeah, he’s said some rough things to Rin but I think ppl r focusing on the wrong things in the reunion of the two brothers

Either way tho doomed siblings r gonna ruin me

I’ve come to absolutely love the cowboy/western Narusasu au.

At first I was like “nah I don’t really see it”

And then I listened to I’m your’n by Tyler Childers and my little narusasu brain went BAM!

JUST PICTURE THIS: Naruto humming along to I’m Your’n in his pickup truck (obv) with his cowboy hat and orange t-shirt that he always buys a size too small so it excentiates his muscles (and bc he knows sasuke loves it), tapping his thumb against the steering wheel, passing glances to Sasuke who sits in the passenger seat. Sasuke rolls his eyes playfully but holds on tight to the hand Naruto reaches over to him and looks out the window at the endless fields.

Like….

Naruto in a cowboy hat and Sasuke making fun of it but in reality it drives him crazy when Naruto gives the hat a tilt with his infamous smirk

Naruto being raised as a farm hand throughout the small town, Sasuke being from a well known ranch

Naruto watching brokeback mountain one night and then realizing “oh, oh”

THE POSSIBILITIES