This Is Actually The Reason WHY I Didnt Come Out For So Long

my stereotypical trans name was elliot with the nickname as eli when i first came out back in 2020/2021

(i detransitioned due to transphobia but again, story for another day)

and it stuck with me

it isnt the name i use today but i use it in other ways

like the email i made when i came out includes it

i dont like it for me anymore but it was the name that helped me discover who i truly am

so

i dont mind the name elliot / eli

if i planned on changing my middle name,

id probably make it that

what i’ll probably do is tell people that my middle name is eli but not change it

my middle name means too much to my family, especially my mother that i cant imagine changing it

(but thats a story for another day)

the constant struggle

explanations left to right

- a big hoodie i got from target

- when i first came out, by my now ex friends and ex bf. when i came out for a 2nd time, my now ex bsf

- i was told by a transmed that me not experiencing dysmorphia/dysphoria wasnt me being trans and i thought i was going through a phase lmao

- i typically dont think when i shower i just scrub

- only my mom, dad, cousin, and brother know

- i want long/medium hair lol

- i dont pass irl so im scared to

- i wish it was more masc 😭 and im trying to prevent the tboy gay voice but voice training is HARDDD i wish there was just a step by step guide

- only a little not too much

- yeah LOL

- easier to be out online

- im 5’1 💀 i wish i was taller but it doesnt cause me dysphoria. not rn at least. ill be a short king 💔

- free space

- when i was a kid 😭

- nope i’ve always been into men

- i really want these breasts GONE 💔

- who doesnt? lmaoo

- i use binding tape + a strapless bra to flatten my chest

- when i came out to my mom, she asked a lot of questions 😭 was uncomfortable bc its my mom 😭 she’s supportive just wanted to make sure about everything

- already starting it

- i quite like my thing down there LMAO

- ive never used that bf mainly bc i 1) never thought to 2) barely have socks already 😭

- i know damn well i dont pass but whenever i try to i look in the mirror and go “do i?”

- he/him+they/them 😎

- i have an appointment to start soon!!!!

I also did a trans one!! (Also to my friends yes I do talk about not liking my height but not because of being trans, I just wanna be the tallest person ever)

i cannot believe i had to explain to a friend that the tiktok ban was a ploy to make our generation like tr*mp more. like i was genuinely disappointed in here for falling for the easiest propaganda ever

when she texted me to tell me it got banned, she was basically upset about her edits and stuff being lost. i had to explain to here that the ban wasnt going to stick because it was a ploy to make our generation like him better. she then was saying how he better save it and shit. she was probably joking but damn cannot believe i had to lay it out for her

genuine disappointment in her bro 😭

Can't believe they banned tiktok for a couple hours just so they could unban it and encourage everyone to put Trump's dick right up their assholes and moan about it

we do not "love" to bring this up. it is traumatic. it is dysphoria inducing. it is capable of taking the lives of trans men/mascs that are forced to bring a child into this world against their will. stop fucking invalidating our trauma and oppression you absolute fucking transphobic asshole.

no one is fucking saying this is a privilege for trans women/fems. you are making up arguments in your head because you cannot handle the fact that you are being so disgustingly transphobic toward us so you have to pretend we are saying shit that was never said.

i will not be fucking silent about this. no trans men/mascs should be forced into silence when bringing up our very real systemic oppression. if it bothers you, then look inward.

update if anyone cares

we ended up staying an extra day and im flying down rn!!

the flight attendant thought i was some random woman harassing my mom 😭

she was like “is everything okay” and my mom told her that im just her kid bothering her like usual 😭

the flight attendant was RELIEVED since she didnt want a problem

watching despicable me 4 its not too bad

word of advice!!!

never fly standby.

ESPECIALLY when the flight is for you returning back home!!!

we havent been able to get onto 2 flights now!!!

its 3am!!!

im on the verge of a mental breakdown!!!

i want to go home!!!

i have to stop myself from cracking my skull on the wall!!!

and we might not be able to go home for 2 days!!!!!

isnt that fun!!!!!!?

Hi everyone! I'm Mouse!

Some of you may recognize me from the trans deer centaur comic I made on here a few years ago. (As seen below)

While most of you still probably don't know me at all- and that's okay!

I'm hoping to bring a lot of art and good vibes to the community here. So, having said that- welcome to my cottage! Sit down, stay awhile, grab a blanket and a cozy drink while I tell you a story and show you my art ^^

yall so.. i actually started hrt 2 weeks ago (this week thursday will be my 3rd injection!) and i didnt make a post bc my dumbass got too lazy to buy (also poor) the trans flag to put up so i just printed out a picture and taped it on my wall LMAO

im gonna buy it soon yall!! along with the trans icon blåhaj :3

ALSO ITS FREE!!! BC MY INSURANCE IN NYS LEGALLY HAS TO INSURE ALL GENDER REAFFIRMING CARE SO ID ONLY END UP PAYING FOR THE NEEDLES IF ANYTHING

also picture of the pretty girl since yall haven’t seen her in a bit

day i start hrt is the day i will hang up my trans flag yall, just need to buy it first :3 🙏

IWANNASTART HRT NOW PLEASEEE PLEASEHWBBA PLEASEEEE WHY IS THE APPT FOR 4/10 IMGOJNA CEY PLEWSE PELASW

you've been salmonsharked reblog to salmonshark someone else

Do you support gay? Or no gay for puki?

Why did you ask it like that??