GUESS WHO HAS A HEADACHE?!?!

A cis woman tells me that maybe she should transition to gain male privilege as I'm recovering from getting beaten up in the men's bathrooms.

I tell her to be my guest and give me a call when she gets her jaw broken, I always carry a first aid kit and a pepper spray.

She calls me a misogynistic asshole.

A cis man tells me that he'd sure love some T.

Gave him my prescription and best of luck with the constant shortages and getting denied.

He calls me a pussy.

I'm fighting for my life and reproductive rights. I get told to get off women's fights, that it's not about me, like I shed my womb after my first T shot.

I search for support groups for SA victims, and I'm stuck in the same “women/NBs only”. Still shooting my shot, send an application. I introduce myself. Never get a call back.

I go to a trans night. Say I go by he/him. Get told back “yeah, that's how we all start !” by a trans woman. I'm too exhausted, I get up and I leave.

I hang out with my friends, one of them drunkenly says masculinity is a prison we must learn to escape. She gets rows of applause. Back to drinking alone.

Yes I could explain it. But who'd you rather be ? A delusional girl or a man made threat ?Or it could be better, I could just not exist ! And we'd bleach my corpse and I'd become a casualty. Not an F, ot an M, a W for Wound and for Wrong.

I put a candle on a single cupcake, 2 years on HRT. I blow it in the dark. Curtains closed like casket.

trying to find which saniro character i kin / who’s aesthetic i mainly like is hard

my options are

> my melody (who i used to claim when i was cis)

> badtz-maru (happy birthday badtz-maru btw and who i think mainly matches me now)

> keroppi

> cinnamonroll

tbh im probably gonna do them all LMAO they all are my style in some way (mel and cina is coquette, badtz is grunge/gothic for me (plus i see him as black so even better for me LOL), and keroppi is the forest / earthy)

somewhat nsft,

but YALL IM ALREADY HAVING BOTTOM GROWTH OMG

word of advice!!!

never fly standby.

ESPECIALLY when the flight is for you returning back home!!!

we havent been able to get onto 2 flights now!!!

its 3am!!!

im on the verge of a mental breakdown!!!

i want to go home!!!

i have to stop myself from cracking my skull on the wall!!!

and we might not be able to go home for 2 days!!!!!

isnt that fun!!!!!!?

hate people wanting to shut down conversations about transandrophobia say that trans men and mascs "measurably" experience less violence than trans women and fems

one of the core aspects of transandrophobia is erasure. the rates of violence we face cannot be "measurably" different than anything, because the rates of violence we face are deliberately not measured and erased whenever posssible

I SAID THAT THEY WERE GOING TO GO AFTER AO3 TOO, AND SOME OF Y'ALL FUCKERS OVER ON REDDIT SAID I WAS OVERREACTING AND FEAR-MONGERING. FUCK YOU, I WAS RIGHT. AND FUCK YOU DUMBASS WHITE WOMEN THAT VOTED TRUMP AND SAID "Well I thought we liked morally ambiguous men so..." GO FUCK YOURSELVES.

And I KNOW that seems childish to be focusing on this but I feel SO FUCKING VINDICATED because I was talking about this months prior about how they WANT to ban sexually explicit material because they WANT TO SILENCE, CRIMINALIZE AND MAKE OUT MARGINALIZED GROUPS TO BE SEXUAL DEVIANTS. AND I WAS TOLD THAT I WAS FEAR-MONGERING.

I HATE, HATE HATE, how I was gaslit into believing that bullshit >:(

And guess what, you can't download your fav ao3 queer/smut fics bc these things either once they go through with this, because that's akin to possessing CSEM. Yes, you may or may not be legally required to delete that story (fanfic or not) you've invested sweat, tears and sleepless nights into.

Consuming, creating or owning sexually explicit, EDUCATIONAL OR NOT, COULD PUT YOU ON THE SEX OFFENDER REGISTRY.

I'M NOT AMERICAN, I'M JUST MAD AND TERRIFIED BECAUSE HISTORY IS CLEARLY REPEATING ITSELF.

some of yall should try transgenderism

sorry to get political again but as a binary trans girl with a modicum of common sense:

theyfab is a gross thing to call someone and if you call people that you’re gross

not to sound desperate but

PLEASE PLEASSSSSREEE I NEED A BOYFRIEND PLEASSEE OH M YGOD PLESSE I WANT A BOYFRIEND SOCBADLY I NEED INE PLEASEEE GIVE ME A MAN PLEASSEEE I NEED A BOYFRIEND SO BADLY