I SEE THAT FEATHER EARRING

It's quite the strat boys

Happy late Valentines ft. an alternative version to the end of Total Eclipse @zipzapzooooooom wrote during comic production <3

Honestly fascinating how much The Lifers dehumanize themselves.

They so often see themselves as monsters, curses, weapons, rabid animals, assets, currency, anything but people.

Lives are currency, bodies are only as important as they are useful, every word they speak, every breath they breathe, they think of themselves in bargaining power and viability and use.

They cut off parts of themselves, it's okay, it won't be permanent. They push down their feelings and desires, because honoring them won't get you anywhere. They die. They wake up again.

Something puppets them, strings that can't be cut. There is no agency in this place, they are always on stage.

Something opens its mouth to devour them. They are livestock off to slaughter, their very emotions cuts of meat.

Something won't let them leave, traps them behind invisible glass. Bug taxidermy, butterfly wings pinned to a wall.

There's something inherently dehumanizing in the mere concept of the games. There is no end, there is no way out, there is no choice. You will kill, and you will bleed, and you will die, and They will feast on your performance, and you will wake up to kill again.

How can you keep seeing yourself fully as a person through that? How can you not start to look in the mirror and see a sharpened blade made for killing, or a puppet dancing on stage, or butterfly wings pinned to the wall, or livestock to slaughter?

This world is one that poisons the mind, destroys the body, and steals the soul.

AAAAAHHHHHHHHH BAD BOYSSS

@mcyt-soulmate-sweepstakes Submission!

This piece is made of three panels. Each panel is in an interview format on how the Bad Boys view their team.

I wanted to show with this webweave that regardless of how they started and what they have been through in the end they're just a group of friends who really enjoy spending time with each other.

@grimaussieart did the final panel with two art pieces meant to represent photos of the group. They also did the bread, feathers and red background for Grian's piece :)

Feel free to point out all the references you see in the art!

WOOOO THEY KNOW OF US YAYYYYY

THE CRANE WIVES. THEY KNOW US. THEY KNOW WHO WE ARE.

Life series little nightmares au

This is an impulse drawing I js got inspired

It's unlikely to be an official au lmao but I might

I might

anw here

They're so cutie lmao

So I have just learned that @fandomtrumpshate (huge charity auction where offers to make fan works are auctioned off) is allowing people to sign up offering MCYT this year and so far they don't have anyone signing up offering it! So I'm staring at this entry form...

So! If you think you can sign up and say "i can write a 1k or 10k or 5k fic for any prompt" some time before the end of the year, you have a chance to raise some money for charity (list of charities you can pick from here), (fandoms you can sign up with are here— and you an also write in niche fandoms!).

They are particularly looking for people who an write "Ambiguous endings, Aro/ace characters, Canonically trans/nonbinary characters, F/F ships, Gen or platonic works, Genderswap/genderbending, Nonwhite characters’ racial or cultural experiences, Poly ships, Racebending, Rarepairs, Reader insert, Trans/nonbinary interpretations of characters, and Unhappy endings." so you know. If any of those are you. Looking at my friend list knowingly. Why don't we see if someone will give money to charity to make us write a fic? Signups close today, on the 2nd!

WHAT WHAT I LOVE THIS WHAT

[ Alternative final. ]

[To live is to die - Metallica]

[And what if he did slay Scar for the enchanter, how bitter would that have been?]

Chapter 16

next part will come at the end of march PREV// MASTERPOST // NEXT

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A bit of desert duo fan art cuz I luv them sillies

Still working on the comic au lolololol

School starts this week which sucks so yah less tie to do stuff

This hurts more with grian saying "bigb treated me right" huhu

From Grian's Double Life pov, Scar's behavior in episode one feels like such a strong rejection I think.

(disclaimer that this is all speaking from grian's pov, not necessarily objective view on the situation.)

For starters we really do gloss over "Scar I think we're soulmates and you're too busy chasing fairies!" a lot. Grian very explicitly told Scar that he thinks they're soulmates (and in the same sentence is already expressing frustration with feeling like scar isn't paying attention or prioritizing grian's feelings like five minutes into them running into each other). Grian said it out loud. Scar heard him, which we know because Scar responded with "My real soulmate is flying away from me", which not only indicates Scar heard Grian, but also that he understood what Grian said on some level. And Scar walked away.

Grian has reason to feel rejected or devalued here. I mean, it seems like, from Grian's perspective, Scar thought whatever Grian was saying to him was so unimportant he instantly brushed Grian off and disregarded the conversation completely (despite grian being clearly distressed). Grian tried to express something extremely important, in a moment of obvious emotion, and he ended up feeling like Scar didn't care to listen, even when Grian said it plainly to Scar.

So then Scar and Grian go around the server, and Grian decides not to tell Scar yet (although to be fair grian already told him) and Scar..doesn't notice. They take damage multiple times while together but Scar never seems to notice when they do, or catch on to the fact that they're soulmates, even when practically everyone else they run into does in fact know, sometimes just from watching them take damage together. (oorp this was obviously for the bit, but from a character perspective i can't help but wonder if grian was 'testing' in a way, not trying to tell scar again because he's hoping scar will eventually care enough to notice himself)

And again, it's very easy for Grian to feel like Scar is rejecting or doesn't care about him. Grian feels like Scar isn't noticing him, like Scar doesn't even see him, because if Scar was paying attention, surely at some point he'd see something Grian sees as so obvious. I think this is an especially big blow to Grian specifically, because Grian often expresses love through fussing over people and making sure they're safe and healthy. So the fact that Scar apparently never once really looked at him specifically when either of them were in danger or taking damage was probably more hurtful for Grian than it would for many people.

Eventually Grian ends up going off on his own for a little bit, just to set up a little bit of a base and starting resources for them. Scar stops by, and Grian tries to tell him. "I have something to tell you!" Grian says. Scar waves him off and walks away. "I have something to tell you!" Grian calls again. Scar doesn't turn around.

Again, the running theme of Grian feeling like Scar isn't really noticing him. Another time where Grian tried to speak to Scar, to tell him they're soulmates no less, and Scar waves him off and walks away, like whatever Grian has to say isn't important, like it's something that can just be glossed over and disregarded.

And then Grian comes to Scar, marches over to Scar and his pandas, and tells Scar he has something important to tell him. Grian tells Scar to look at him, and drops dripstone on their heads. Scar isn't paying attention, laughing over the pandas. Grian presses- no, look, actually look this time!- and only after Grian demands Scar look at him can he drop another piece of dripstone on their heads and have Scar realize they're soulmates.

"Do we have to live together?" Scar asks almost immediately.

"It would be nice..."

Grian has to drag Scar to the base he's started.

And like. Obviously it isn't bad of Scar to not care about soulmates very much or to be distracted or unobservant. But all of this adds up to Grian, I think, feeling very deeply rejected, unheard, and devalued. Adds up to Grian getting this impression that Scar isn't interested in actively listening to him when he talks, or checking on him when they're in danger, or paying attention when something's important to Grian, or even just looking at him unless Grian begs him to. Which very naturally leads into Grian's arc of pulling back from Scar in following episodes.