the gun is still, but her breath isn’t. it slips through clenched TEETH as something she doesn’t trust herself to name. her eyes don’t waver and that’s the only thing that doesn’t betray her. everything else, every muscle, every nerve ending is listening to him. his words coil around her like smoke in a sealed room; thick, unrelenting, poisonous and holy.
he stands in front of her like a revenant. a memory reanimated into something hungrier, rougher but not gone, and maybe that was her penance for unearthing what should have stayed dead. she watches the way he leans into the barrel, like he’s inviting annihilation. like he already knows she won’t give it to him.
and that’s what tips her.
gloria moves before thought, a surge of instinct and history. rage, ache, and hunger burn under her skin like shrapnel hitting a nerve. she lifts her hand, the barrel close enough now that it kisses his chin at the juncture between flesh and mask. she knows he'll find her and haunt her, and she will let him in every single time.
❛ you’re right. i don’t want control and i don't need permission either. ❜ her voice serrated, low and trembling with something that has nothing to do with fear. her free hand curls in his shirt, dragging him tighter against her. she wants to feel the pulse of him and plead to the man beneath.
❛ and you, what about you, querido? ❜ she leaned in, her nose brushed his mask, mouth hovering at the edge of his jaw, and then so suddenly. CLICK — that's all it was: an empty game of roulette she never loaded. a sound so deafening despite being so small. She pulls back just enough to look at him, really look at him. ❛ i could always see you, you know. all that hurt i could sink my teeth into like you tore into mine. ❜
she holds a beat like she's unhinging her maw. ❛ but you’re wrong about one thing ❜ a push off his frame, empty clip snapped out of the pistol, and the entirety falls to the ground. her eyes don't leave him, emotions too deep to remain buried and twice as volatile as the heart on her sleeve. ❛ i don’t want to pretend i’m better than you. i want to believe i wasn’t always just like you, but we both know that's not true, don't we? ❜
🔫 [ something tells me it's fucked up but hot though? the one time she can't pull the trigger but should. 🫦 ]
POINT A GUN AT MY MUSE PROMPT. | @waruins
that barrel's not cold. that is what gloria doesn't realize. it's not trembling in her grip. but he can feel the hesitation affecting her. and jigsaw? he feeds on that.
it's not wanton glee or the mockery you'd get from an overperforming circus clown. he has a hunger that lives in the marrow of his bones. the version of him before wouldn't flinch. neither would the one that came back from the mirror.
❝ now this—this is the good part. ❞ his voice scrapes out. it's rusted and sharp, like heavy metal dragged across the asphalt. there's a twisted reverence that overrode any delight or scorn he might have derived from his grim circumstances.
his devilish audacity compels him to tempt his fate and step closer. to dare her finger to twitch against the trigger because he invaded her space now, in her head, and still—he’s unafraid of death.
❝ oh, go on. ❞ the virtually masked eyes flick to the muzzle that was ready to bark at any second. he wonders what dark whispers it put in her head to make her believe this was the right move. ❝ do it. i’d let you. right here. right now! permission to kill, soldier! ❞
the mask covers the jagged and lopsided grin. it shields her from the ruin, but not the dark dare. his head cocks, wolfish, a second away from acting on the impulse to tear into her for the cowardice alone.
❝ i think you want me close. i think you want me to bleed for you. break for you. and maybe even burn you a little and call it worship. ❞ he says it like it was a secret passed between their sinner selves of a previous life. a gospel carved into the wall of some brig.
❝ i think this little gun? ain’t punishment. it’s one of our fucked up foreplays. ❞ because it felt familiar. it seemed like some shit he'd be into with a girl like her in his past. his hand lifts slowly—measured, not threatening—fingers brushing against the side of the coal-black barrel like he’s petting it. like it's her hair. his thumb grazes the slide, the tension point of unceremonious death, and he sighs like he's tasted the most exquisite dish for his last day on earth.
❝ you don’t want control, gloria. you want permission. you want to see what you are when you stop pretending you're better than me. as if we didn't fly the same colors for our country. ❞ his other hand reaches—not to her, but to his own chest. he taps it once. twice. thrice. firm. he leans in and whispers rot in her ear:
❝ squeeze the trigger. i’ll still come back for you, gloria. even if you break me. even if you kill me. i'll crawl outta hell and find you, sweetheart. ❞ then—he steps back. but it's barely an inch away. it's enough to see her beautiful trepidation in her eyes. enough to see if his words led to them softening or hardening. jigsaw grins again.
❝ now what’s it gonna be, angel? you gonna make uncle sam proud? or are you scared it’ll feel too fucking good? ❞
⋆。‧˚ʚ💋ɞ˚‧。⋆ 𝐲𝐨𝐮. 𝐦𝐞. 𝐧𝐨𝐰. (VERY USFT!!!!) 𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 - send ‘reverse’ for the sender and receiver to swap. adjust wording as needed!
[ grind ] sender straddles receiver’s lap and starts grinding against them, slow and intentional
[ whisper ] sender leans in and whispers exactly what they want to do to receiver in excruciating detail
[ wristgrab ] in the middle of a heated moment, sender pins receiver’s wrists above their head
[ needy ] sender pulls receiver into their lap, desperate and breathless, kissing them like it’s not enough
[ tease ] sender drags their lips and tongue down the length of receiver’s stomach, but stops just before going lower
[ undone ] sender undresses receiver one piece of clothing at a time, dragging it out with loaded glances
[ taste ] sender drops to their knees and starts kissing up the inside of receiver’s thighs
[ lapfull ] sender drags receiver onto their lap in the middle of a conversation, their hands already wandering
[ control ] sender takes full control, guiding receiver’s hands, body, and every motion
[ tug ] sender grips receiver’s hair and yanks their head back to kiss them roughly
[ choke ] sender wraps a hand lightly around receiver’s throat while their lips are barely apart
[ lipbite ] sender bites down on receiver’s bottom lip while grinding against them
[ praise ] in the middle of it all, sender whispers praise between every movement "just like that," "you're doing so good," "don’t stop"
[ beg ] sender makes receiver beg for it
[ mouthy ] sender licks into receiver’s mouth mid-kiss, messy and aggressive
[ suck ] sender sucks a mark into receiver’s neck, possessive and without shame
[ edge ] sender brings receiver right to the brink, over and over, refusing to let them finish
[ wrecked ] sender has one goal: to leave receiver trembling and ruined beneath them
[ needy grind ] clothes still on, sender grinds against receiver until they’re both panting, desperate for more
[ between ] sender slips a hand between receiver’s thighs while whispering, “you’ve been wanting this, haven’t you?”
[ ride ] sender pushes receiver down and climbs on top, holding eye contact the entire time
[ spit ] sender leans over and lets spit drip into receiver’s mouth before kissing them hard
[ mess ] clothes scattered, sheets ruined, bodies tangled—sender and receiver didn’t hold back
[ slow ] sender draws everything out. every stroke, every breath, every motion unbearably slow
[ possessive ] sender fucks receiver like they’re trying to make sure no one else ever will
[ overstim ] sender keeps going even after receiver's already shaking from release
[ grip ] sender grabs receiver by the hips, holding them in place while taking full control
[ hot & heavy ] sender and receiver go at it somewhere they absolutely shouldn’t
[ control freak ] sender lets receiver think they're in charge… until they flip the roles mid-way
[ lips everywhere ] sender kisses every part of receiver’s body.
[ breathless ] sender doesn’t let up until receiver is clawing at their back, gasping for air
[ all night ] sender makes sure receiver doesn’t sleep... again, and again, and again
[ tongue ] sender slides their tongue along receiver’s skin, taking their time tasting every inch
[ dark corner ] they don’t make it home! sender drags receiver into a shadowed corner and gets to work
[ eye contact ] sender holds eye contact the entire time they’re going down on receiver
[ mirror ] sender takes receiver in front of the mirror so they can both watch
𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐮𝐞
❝ i want to hear every sound you make. don’t hold back. ❞
❝ get on your knees—now. ❞
❝ you’re not leaving this bed until i say so. ❞
❝ look at you. all mine and dripping for it. ❞
❝ you said 'just one more time' last time, remember? ❞
❝ keep quiet, or they’ll hear. ❞
❝ is this what you wanted? me, like this, ruining you? ❞
❝ you’re shaking—already? we’ve barely started. ❞
❝ i haven’t even touched you yet, and you're already begging. ❞
❝ be good for me and spread your legs. ❞
❝ don’t you dare finish until i tell you to. ❞
❝ you’re going to be the death of me, but i’ll die happy. ❞
❝ say it. say you need me. say it louder. ❞
❝ i could do this all night. want to test me? ❞
❝ if you want more, use your words. ❞
❝ you look so pretty when you beg. ❞
❝ you’re not shy now, are you? ❞
❝ take it. like that. good. ❞
❝ tell me where you want my mouth. ❞
❝ don’t bite your lip—moan. i want to hear it. ❞
she finds silence after a non-committal hum. unreactive and broken into far worse over far less because at least he wasn't swinging fists over care. antiseptic soaking into broken flesh, the scent of it filled the air; sharp, clean, trying too hard to cover the deeper wounds underneath. like it always did. ❛ in the job description to make at least a bit of fuss. ❜ gloria doesn't offer a forced line of reassurance to coddle irritation or pride; she grasps the local syringe instead and warns. ❛ you'll feel a pinch and some burning. ❜
no softness, no special kindness. just the flat, practiced efficiency of someone who had seen too many men tear themselves apart trying to prove they didn’t feel anything. no time was wasted, of course. needle unlodged from muscle and bone, discarded with a twitch of her jaw. ❛ depends on a few things because if you caught someone's tooth, you'll need more than just a couple stitches. ❜ pattern of movement like the most practiced dance, no hesitation, no inadequacies. she'd learned the moment she exchanged one war zone for another; overseas or cityscape, there was no room for mistakes or squandered seconds.
❛ nothing bubbled up, so you're in the clear. still need stitches. ❜ she paused. standing to snap off an old pair of gloves for anew. ❛ assuming you want dissolving stitches, save you another trip and time wasted. ❜
he held no ill-will against her personally, it was the vulnerability of being exposed that made his jaw clench & his skin crawl. even with a quiet voice, he felt a tingle in his spine. a reminder that he couldn’t do this on his own. sighing through his nose, calloway raised his hand & grimaced at the movement, but it was more at the sight of the angry skin that was flushed with shades of pink & red.
his eyebrows twisted as he pinched his lips into a thin line. “ it ain’t that bad. no reason to make a damn fuss, y’know. ”
it had been his fault. calloway conveniently left that piece of information out when he came to get things checked over. but why would he admit that he lost control over his temper? the station knew he had a short fuse & it often got shorter when he was put in a room with people who pushed his buttons. if anyone was to blame, it was the suspect who went too far, but as captain jones reminded him, calloway should have been in more control. it was the same old song & dance only this time, he not only injured a suspect, he also injured himself.
“ this isn’t gonna take long, is it? ” he asked as his jaw tightened as the lights overhead buzzed in his ears making him shift in his seat.
❛ i'm going to wait until i'm on my deathbed, get in the last word and then die immediately. ❜
holt & diaz quote starters // @walkeddeath
making a new oc cause why wouldn’t I ?
held under her tongue, kept between her TEETH. ❛ truth is in us all, cradle to the grave. we're just animals still learning to behave. ❜ what difference did the scrubs make? they're made of the same material she wore like second skin for so long.
lyrical sc// @bl4ckdevl
❛ fucking hit me already. ❜ / frank ! @weaponid
gloria doesn't ask if he means it. she watches him like she’s trying to see past the skin and into the marrow where all that rage lives coiled and choking. watches him like the cornered fox minds the rabid hound. she knows he means it; pain has always been an open door between them. her hand twitches at her side, she swallows down barbed wire and the fucked intimacy of it all. she moves fast, sharp, her fist colliding with his face in a clean, brutal arc. there’s no hesitation behind it, no apology. honesty ruptures and lands with a crack that echoes louder than it should. his head jerks to the side, and for a second, everything holds. suspended and sacred.
she's caught on every hitch in her unsteady cadence of breath. something so much deeper than transactional sadomasochism and ire, because it's never been that simple for them. his skin is hot beneath her palm when she grabs his jaw, dragging his face back to hers. her thumb presses along the red blotch on his cheek, rough and reverent. ❛ that hard enough, frank? did that knock some sense into your fucking head yet? ❜ its a clawed grip behind his neck, the other hand gripping the collar and yanking him closer, foreheads pressed so hard it hurts. her voice breaks against his mouth. ❛ you're broken, i know, and so am i. i don't care how many fucked up pieces of you are left cause i'm going to keep coming back until there's nothing to come back to. ❜
❛ your fascination with me will be your death. ❜ Leon / @washsins
a warning? perhaps a favour spoken by toeing the line. gloria breathes it in, lets it settle in the space between them like smoke. heavy, impossible to ignore, and he’s close enough that she could touch him if she wanted to. it’s not the danger that draws her. she’s seen worse, survived worse. but there’s something about him, all sharp edges and old scars, some still bleeding under the surface. she recognizes the kind of violence he carries. it’s not posturing, it’s not a threat, it’s a language she's fluent in. gloria doesn’t know when she started needing him like this. beyond warmth and safety, but for the way his presence drags her back into her own body, sharp and aching and real.
she’s never been good at doing the right thing when her hands are already shaking with want. she could pretend enough, hold up a reflection of the goodness she tries to uphold with a heart-wrenching dedication. how she falls back into the consuming grief, haunted and so unfathomably broken. she couldn't be repaired. ❛ maybe i'll just die wanting you then. ❜ a smile that shouldn't be there, but one that echoes a sentiment she couldn't place. the gallows humour dancing across her lips. ❛ or you could save me the heartache and put me out of my misery now. ❜
night shift makes sense for her because she's a night owl to begin with. night terrors are relentless even with meds, even with therapy ( clearly night terrors can't get you in the day time soooo ). her body, her brain and internal clock were re-wired in the military; she can survive off minuscule amounts of sleep and still be high-functioning. that never leaves her, but that doesn't mean she isn't perpetually exhausted. it makes her ability to pull working doubles very frequently seem superhuman.