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We're just two slow dancers,

last ones out...

Happy last day of Maslenitsa, my dear followers

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Darling, I can show you where my love hides

It's a heart beat

On a hard drive

Yeah, I'm dancing with your soul in my sights

It's a showdown

In the spotlight✨

I blinked and suddenly

I had a Valentine♡

🫢🫢🫢

So um it's almost February 14 and I accidentally drew him like a valentine's day card. And I guess you can send it to someone as an actual valentine's day card if you wanna

This song is very much so Destial coated in my opinion and it brings tears to my eyes.

I can imagine a fic written around this song.

Castial has been consumed by the empty. Dean is alone replying all the small touches, longing stares, and the most profound “I love you” he has ever received. All he can think or dream about is Cas’s eyes. Sorrow filled blue seared into the back of his mind, yet the happiest that damn angel has ever been.

He drinks to drown the Cas shaped space missing from his bed. Mind spinning on all the missed moments when he could have let his best friend know that he does in fact love him back.

‘There was a time, there was magic in the air

In my mind, there are memories everywhere of you and me together

I thought it would last forever

There was a time, oh, there was a time

I lost you, thought I had you but you were never really mine

So I'm crying, yeah, I'm dying, you're not next to me tonight

If I could get that close, oh, heaven only knows

I wouldn't be blue over you (blue)

Blue over you

Now that you're gone, I don't know what to say (say)

Just trying to think that everything's okay (everything's okay)

It's too quiet, but I'm trying to fill this empty space

Now that you're gone, oh, now that you're gone

I lost you, thought I had you but you were never really mine

So I'm crying, yeah, I'm dying, you're not next to me tonight

And if I could get that close oh, heaven only knows

I wouldn't be blue over you

Blue over you

I lost you, thought I had you but you were never really mine

So I'm crying, yeah, I'm dying, you're not next to me tonight

And if I could get that close, (oh-oh) oh, heaven only knows

I wouldn't be blue over you

Blue over you

Blue over you

I wouldn't be blue’

ways i'm dean-coded:

• i love castiel sooo o much ohnmy god i love him

• hate myself

Yam (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)

Touch starved idiots in love

I wish you a very pleasant supernatural new year... or a fishy new year. Anyway, I hope that 2025 will have mercy on us. I hope you all will be happy and your wishes come true. And even if it won't be as peachy, as you wish, I wish you all a nice year. 🎄

И ещё такая версия дурацких открыток.✌️ Можем весело поболтать в моем тгк: (не)серьезный чай

Actually, this girl is my veeeery old oc I redraw every two years... And I'm not sure what this one tells about me. Maybe that I change materials chaotically. Or that her personality has changed from silly little teen to depressed young girl and then again to silly but more adult.

🎄 Is she decorating a tree or making a noose? 🎄

Close-up bc quality sucks

The last full colored art work I did this year hooray!

🎄 Is she decorating a tree or making a noose? 🎄

Close-up bc quality sucks

The last full colored art work I did this year hooray!

Ugly ginger cookies and memes I did for tiktok, but they're destiel, because I am hyperfixated

Original of first photo and um... My friend beheaded Sam and then.... Well... It's a Sam Meowchescter now, I guess

dean is a haunted house no one’s wanted to make a home and then cas looks at him and says, “there is nowhere i’d rather live.” 

Я сделала обзор на смешной старый скетчбук!!!

Очень хаотичный и толстый: от неумелых рисунков с фурри и андертейлом до Сверхъестественного и моих любимых картинок с динкасами из 2020 года. Болтовня и цыпочки, все в одном видео :3

💙https://youtu.be/3PJDPFEBDkk💚

shining wings🩵💜💙

they are so silly, I can't😭🙏🏽

Okay, someone named the whole season 8 and I just finished rewatching it and HELL YES WHAT WAS THAT like what do you mean Dean told Cas 'I need you' with that desperate voice TWICE

What do you mean Cas broke literal mind control because he doesn't want to hurt Dean like he can't hurt Dean, despite all hundreds of fake Dean's he's killed (Naomi was so smart but Cas was gayer)

What do you mean Dean was running and fighting in purgatory for the whole year just to find Cas, who he was mad at for the whole previous season. Dean Winchester became a nightmare of every monster in MONSTERland. He prayed to Cas every freaking night. And Cas' 'I ran away to... to keep them from you'.

And what do you mean you Dean started seeing Cas everywhere. I mean. Yeah that was Cas trying to reach out, not just his nightmares, but It's the narrative. It's not Sam seeing Cas. It's Dean seeing dead Cas and his internal guilt for failing him.

And Cas telling Dean that he planned to stay in purgatory or when he told why he can't go back to heaven. I don't know, these scenes just killed me and they also killed Dean.

And the scene in the bar with Dean's 'talk to me'. A second ago he was fighting with Cas but here he's just 'hey man you really want to lock yourself with pissed off angels who want to kill you are you sure?'. He's still worried.

I don't know guys I wish they weren't such fools and the world was easier and they could finally kiss and stop making me sad.

of all deancas episodes which one is your personal roman empire? the one that you keep thinking about for some reason?

(the despair goes without saying)

if dean said "i want you" cas would have heard "like an object." if dean said "i love you" cas would have heard "like a brother." so dean says "i need you" and he means "i need you like i need air." and we know this because dean has been trained to never need anything from anyone. he isn't supposed to need anyone. but cas does not know this and instead he hears "i need you like i need a gun."

of all deancas episodes which one is your personal roman empire? the one that you keep thinking about for some reason?

(the despair goes without saying)

Do you guys ever sit and then randomly think 'damn what the sense of my life'

Hot men

This is just a sketch but I liked the idea even though it is not my usual style

hey guys, i found the reason why everything went so badly in sam and dean's life

I am sorry, Dean 🔪🩸

sketchy sketch

The chair was too small

Is this…Ghibli Destiel?

Not a restaurant food or a dish at all, but this cherry with chocolate yoghurt haunts me for years. It has just disappeared one day. The company doesn't make it anymore.

This is my personal tragedy, I lost my love. I need you back buddy.

reblog this and tag with a food you no longer have access to (closed restaurant, state you moved away from, ex’s mom’s cooking, etc) that will haunt you until your dying day, mine are the spicy chicken sandwich on the employee menu at the fine dining restaurant I was a prep cook at, and the onion bagel from the kosher place down the street from my house when I lived in the city

Gouache practice with my baby angel and his pretty magpie-like wings 🕊️

I really honestly believe that there’s not enough appreciation for internal contradiction and conflicting elements both in terms of characterization and relationships.

Like Cas both wants to belong and has the impulse to just go out and do things on his own. He is both proud and ashamed. He is ancient and new. Etc etc.

Dean both feels the need to be the moral authority and is crushed by the burden of it. When he needs the people around him is exactly when he pushes them away. He clings to this rough-and-tumble individualist masculinity, but all he really wants is his family to be together.

And the main thing I've been thinking of is how with Dean and Cas, we always talk about how there’s a fundamental disconnect and miscommunication between them. But I think that sometimes we forget that their relationship is built on their fundamental similarity, on them relating to one another. Like there’s at least a couple of things Misha has said about Cas that I disagree with, but one that i find really interesting is (and I wish I remembered when/where this was) that sometimes Cas feels like Dean is the only one in the world he can relate to.

Like these are contradictory things, but they are all true, and it's important that they’re all true, because contradictory things being true at the same time is was creates tension and creates movement, it's what keeps things dynamic and interesting.

The other day I mentioned a post that had a quadrant chart with a war criminal-angel axis and a virgin-slut axis, and how someone said that Cas was in the middle. But he’s not in the middle, he's at the extremes simultaneously. Like he’s not in some milquetoast little-bit-of-both center. He is all the way at the edges. And you would think it's untenable but that's exactly what makes it interesting.

And I guess that’s also my number one critique on Cas mischaracterizarion. When he's just one thing. When he’s just the poorest little self-doubting wet cat, or just a badass bamf, or just understanding and wise and empathetic, or just alien and clueless. None of those are right. And he’s not in the mushy middle of these things. He's flipping between them, he exists in the overturn, in the revolution.

Castiel is the best, most loyal soldier, and he is the most zealous rebel. He is inhuman and the most human. He is full of self-doubt and he has the courage of his convictions.

This started out as a general post and then became a Castiel post. Because Castiel. But yeah, I don’t think you can fully understand Cas, and therefore understand destiel, unless you embrace internal contradiction.