ADHD And Unattainable Perfectionism Had A Baby And Called It 'chaotic Academia'

Sometimes I see the academia aesthetic on tumblr and I’m like … not once in the entirety of my academic career has it EVER looked like that lol

Sounds about right

My thesis advisor was a serial murderer. I found this out after seeing her cut open her husband’s dead body. She then tried to kill me because I was the only one who knew her secret. When I went to the chair of the department, the only thing they did was have me fill out paperwork to drop out of the program because they wouldn’t let her advise me anymore.

Madly in love with my newest IKEA purchase and the neighbor‘s cat Timmy (even though he constantly tries to break into our apartment -a criminal, but a cute one)

Also I’m already 🌼stressed🌼 about my exams

Stop scrolling for a minute, take a deep breath. Come and sit down with me for a minute, I’ll make us some tea. It’s a quiet morning, apart from the birds of course. We can sit here for a while, we can chat or just pass the time of day. Or we can go for a walk if you want, my dog can come with us. She doesn’t walk very fast but it will give us time to take in the wildflowers as we go. Or we can go into town and wonder around the secondhand bookstores because there are so many stories we haven’t read yet. And there is something magical about secondhand books, knowing they’ve been loved before. Time passes slowly here, there’s no where to be. Remember no matter how bad things seem, everything will be okay. You’re safe here, darling. Stay as long as you like and you can always come back. Chin up, my love. You’re going to be just fine.

My Personal Power-Walk Playlist:

Carry yourself with the confidence of a mediocre white man

Scientific fraud is the most baffling thing ever to me like do they think they're just going to make a huge breakthrough and no one will notice that it's fake by trying to replicate their results

Draw badly. Write nonsensically. Embroider messily. Burn what you bake and cook. Get paint everywhere. Read half a book. Lose your mind for a bit. Plant things. Have faith in the process. Abandon 70 wood-carving projects. Get a kit and do some of it and never return to it. Get comfortable with sucking and losing motivation. Continue to create with reckless abandon.

“Whether or not they exist we are slaves to our gods.”    ―   Fernando Pessoa, The Book of Disquiet

"But that part of us greater than the sum of our parts cannot begin and cannot end, and so it cannot fail."

-John Green, Looking for Alaska