Mistyveii - Totally Random Thoughts

Ladies I have another question for you....

What’s one thing you wish guy did while he was going down ?

A younger man asked if I'm female. This is what I said..

I am more than female. I am a woman. I am sensuous and sexy. I am the best fuck you ever had. I get drunk on love and sex. If you don't bring your best game you have failed and fucked yourself out of the best sex you have ever experienced. I will inhale you and make you beg for more.

Can you imagine being Jason Momoa and having so many women drooling over you?

Jason Momoa photographed for American Way

This is similar to what I see. Fascinating to see how he did this to art.

Redhawk realized his failing vision caused things to morph, so he started to play with morphing software and thought, “What if I morphed an image onto itself?”

“It’s an artistic expression of the confusion I go through with my vision loss… 

Not enough data getting sent to the brain, and it tries to fill in the blanks with false information, so you can’t trust what your eyes or brain are telling you.”

Source

“I never stopped feeling for you, I just stopped letting it show.”

— Unknown

Ballad of a Broken Woman

I’ve always been aware of it.

The flat yet hungry look some men get when they look at me. They look at, but not in.

They imagined, wove their personalized fantasy and threw it over my shoulders. It’s always so heavy. Impossibly so, but I bore it with a smile through gritted teeth. Every girl wants to be desired, right?

I endured until I was a rage-filled wraith.

I’m not your manic pixie dream girl. Fuck that.

I’m not manic, nor am I a goddamned pixie. My bones are strong, and I am tall, so I can look you in the eye. I’m no dream. I breathe, eat, shit, sleep, just like you. 

Most of all, I am no girl. 

I’m in my third decade. I’ve earned my high standards. Every single one of my scars. Some are physical. Most are not, but they are mine. 

For years, I lived in terror that he would see that I am no panacea. I would not, could not heal him. I am no savior. I am limping as much as he, am just as frightened. My thoughts are just as disheveled, if not more.

What happens when I shake the fantasy off my shoulders, and he sees that I need him more than he needs me? That I wasn’t built to organize his life, give him purpose, clean his dirty laundry and constantly replenish his deflated ego?

What of my ego, if I find no significant nourishment in serving his? What of my purpose, my dirty laundry?

Will he raw his knuckles on it, wash me and make me new, just like he expected me to do with his?

What happens to the silent few, the women who cannot, or will not be a mirror for a man’s dreams? Is it selfishness, or is it that my own desire burns me to distraction?

I don’t know anymore. I am no vessel. There is no end to me to stop the flow. I am no lake. I am an ocean. I go on forever. Churn with fierce and frightful imaginings, so far removed from white picket fences.

Still, I dream of love, but free. 

What man will dive deep into me, be swallowed up, despite his fear of drowning?

There is so much in me, so much to share with a man who dares. I am not easy. I am not always kind. 

I hurt, but there can be shared comfort, unlike any he’s felt before, in the healing.

Adriana Lima’s Victoria’s Secret Fashion Show Evolution (2000 - 2018)

Who wanted to watch that cake being eaten over and over?

I have no idea where to buy drugs, but I would do this just to watch their reaction.