That was beyond perfect! Absolutely loved both the roughness and gentler side of Crosshair in the fic. Smut was đ My boy stirggles with emotions but we know he'd be one of the most deep feeling individuals, I just loved it. Xx
Crosshair x Reader Oneshot
WOW, I broke 20 followers! Thank you, thank you for reading my little fics, it means the world! Have a Crosshair battling with his feelings oneshot!
Word Count: 4605
Summary: Crosshair is made aware that he has not been treating you like he should. He has a crisis about it before talking to you like an adult, kind of.
Warnings: Here there be smut, minors begone, Crosshair struggling with his feelings is its own warning, Crosshair is a dick until he's not, he's a moron your honor, slightly desperate Crosshair, rough sex into talking into gentle sex into rough sex again, oral (m receiving), oral (f receiving), p in v sex, language, some derogatory pet names, talking during sex, reader is afab, there's porn here I promise, you just have to get through Crosshair's angst
This wasnât fucking working.
Crosshair was near madness, and he was sure you were reaching a point where you needed a break. Youâd never let him fuck your mouth for this long before. But there you were, topless, tears streaming down your face, knees probably scuffed or even bleeding from the durasteel floor, nevermind that you still had your pants on. And yet you pushed through, voicing not a word of complaint as you gagged on his persistent cock.
And he wasnât anywhere close to finishing.
You should be complaining, he decided. What had it been? Thirty minutes? Fifty? Crosshair couldnât keep track of anything except his own frustration, and that was making him a terrible lay. And if thereâs one thing he would be loath to be terrible at, it was sex.
His cock throbbed, his balls ached, and you kept moaning. He growled.
Sooner or later, youâre going to hurt her. Sheâs going to get tired of this, and sheâs going to leave. Hunterâs words from earlier in the week creeped back into his mind, and any hope of salvaging this situation dissipated into thin air.
Crosshair abruptly pulled you off his length and backed away, tugging his pants up as he went. Still you knelt, breathing heavily, awaiting what heâd do next. It was the arrangement youâd both worked out months ago. You allowed yourself to be used as he saw fit, and he made sure you left satisfied and ready for dreamless sleep. No feelings, no complications. It had worked well for a long time. But he looked at you then, your face a mess, your curled legs trembling, and for the first time, he couldnât stand the sight.
She deserves someone who cares deeply about her, Echoâs voice, well, echoed in his head, as unbidden as Hunterâs had been. His nosy brothers had held an intervention of sorts a few days ago while you were out getting supplies. It had started with Techâs âWe want to know what you are doing with our medic,â gone through Wreckerâs âYou know she likes you, right? Like, a lot,â and ended with a long speech from Hunter about how âOne day Crosshair, youâre going to wake up and realize that sheâs moved on. For some reason, she really cares for you. And youâre treating her like a meaningless one night stand, except you keep doing it over, and over and-â
It was stupid. You both liked what you were doing. You were both consenting adults with the power to walk away at any time. You were both happy and fulfilled with that. It was enough.
Except for the past few days, it hadnât been.
Crosshair began to really notice certain things since the talk with his brothers. Like how you always met him with a cheery good morning, and how you didnât expect an answer in return. How youâd sit next to him while he cleaned his rifle, content to do all the talking if he just listened. How you always ran over after a close call on missions, frantic about his safety and never expecting him to inquire about your wellbeing, even if you were covered in soot and limping away from an explosion.Â
He realized you were giving more, much more to yourâŠfriendship, than he was. And that didnât sit well with him. Your relationship was supposed to be transactional, and here you were, giving him attention and assistance and contact without expecting one damn solitary thing in return. Always giving, never receiving, and heâŠ
He was a fucking prick.Â
Horrible, awful scenarios started coming to mind after that. For two days, he thought about what would happen if you got transferred, or completed your service and left, or, stars-forbid, got shot. A concept heâd never considered before. You were always there, always constant as Techâs pointing finger and Echoâs whirring attachments.
The idea of you leaving him - and he was completely arrogant for never seriously entertaining the thought - was frightening. And Crosshair didnât do frightened.
The worst part? While he was drowning in inner turmoil due to his asshole brothers and your own damn sweetness, you were waltzing around, perfectly fine. You had never given any outward indication that you wanted something real from him, something more than a smokescreen of orgasms and sharp banter. Now that he knew how much you cared, now that heâd heard that you liked him no matter how hard you tried to hide it, he couldnât let it go.
Youâd been contenting yourself with his hands on your body and his lackluster personality for months, when, according to his brothers, youâd really wanted something deeper. Did you think he would reject you, or that he wasnât capable of anything more to begin with? Both possibilities stung, a lot deeper than heâd ever supposed they would. Especially as he realized that neither of them were unreasonable of you to assume. Suddenly, he was furious.
Thatâs how he ended up with his cock down your throat in the back of the Marauder, while everyone else was out on the town. Not in his bed, never in his bed. That was one of the rules heâd made, to stop things from getting too intimate. Instead heâd had you kneel, and youâd done it with a wry smile and no questions. Heâd planned to fuck these thoughts out of his head, but as it turns out, his brain was thinking the fuck out of his dick, so to speak.Â
So instead, he leaned against the wall, gazing at you. You still kneeled, still waited patiently while heâd stared for who knows how long.Â
You deserved better.Â
The thought was pounding against his skull, incessant and refusing to leave. And Crosshair knew there were only two ways to resolve it. He could walk away, wish you well, and hope that you found someone who could give you a true relationship, no matter what it might cost him.
OrâŠhe could try to be worthy of you.
The first option entailed less risk, and was definitely more his style. He couldnât be bad at a relationship if he never tried to give you one. But the thought of someone else seeing you like this, or worse, someone else seeing you in ways he hadnât yetâŠon a beach, walking down a colorful city street, riding a speeder bike, in the snowâŠ
He stood abruptly and crossed over to your languishing form. He had you in his arms in less than a second, and had you laying on his bunk in less than five more.Â
âCross, wha-?â you protested. You knew the rules, knew his boundaries, and tried to sit up and leave.Â
He grasped your shoulders and gently pushed you back, âPlease.â Was all he said, whispered and hoarse. He worried at his lip without realizing it. Your eyes widened, and you let him lean you back on his pillows. He fidgeted with them, trying to make them fluffier than the GAR issued sacks of foam they really were, and you quirked a brow.
âYou fucking with me, Cross?â you asked, and he could tell you were putting real effort into keeping the trepidation out of your voice. âBecause this is a real weird joke.â
Okay, he deserved that one. But his words were stuck somewhere between his brain and his mouth. How was he supposed to know how to tell a woman he liked her anyway? If the Kaminoans included a class on charm somewhere in their training programs, he definitely didnât get an invite.
Maybe you would be better off with someone who didnât spend their days getting up close and personal with other people through a fucking scope.Â
But all this staring was starting to freak you out. You were sitting awkwardly, legs open, tits out, under his genetically superior gaze. Crosshair didnât know what kind of face heâd been making, but it clearly wasnât one you were used to. You crossed your arms over your chest and turned your head to the side, away from him.
âAre we done?â You ground out through a set jaw, a slightly trembling lip. âIs thisâŠahemâŠis this over? Because you could just tell me, you donât have to try and make it easier. I can just go back to my bunk andâŠandâŠâ
He caught the sheen in your eyes, the catch in your throat. Fuck. Fuck.
âI-I want youâŠâ stars, he canât even talk. Damn you. Damn him. He cleared his throat. âI. want. you. to stay⊠there.â
Well, it sounded like it was being tortured out of him, but at least it got your attention. You turned back to look at his face, âYou want me to stay here.â You said evenly, jerking your head towards his shabby pillows. âIn your bed. Where Iâm never, ever supposed to be.â
He swallowed, mouth dry as hell, and nodded. You were so much better at this, so much stronger than he was. He couldnât do anything but spill his guts in what was probably the least romantic way possible.Â
So he did, âI want to tryâŠsomething else.â
Your lips parted just a fraction, and something seemed to click behind your eyes. But you were tough, tougher than he ever gave you credit for, and you never gave him any ground. Oh you were gentle about it, cool satin to his rough burlap. He suspected it was the healer in you. But you always demanded communication from him, demanded that he explain his behavior, even if it took him a while.
âSomething else,â the hitch in your voice had disappeared. âYouâre going to have to explain that one to me, babe. You know Iâll try something new, and we have a safe word, but this violates your rules, and I donât know how to act now. I donât know whatâs okay.â
Babe. It slipped out of your mouth every so often, usually in a teasing lilt over comms during a battle. He didnât know if he loved it or hated it, but it always brought a sudden heat to his face. He felt the tips of his ears burning.
âIâŠâ câmon, bastard. You can get this out, you have to get this out. Sheâs waiting. âI want⊠toforgettherules.â
âIâm sorry? One more time?â
Brat. In any other circumstance, heâd have you over his knee for something like that. But he took a deep breath, like the ones heâd take before making an impossible shot. And maybe thatâs what this was, âI want to forget the rules.â
Your eyes alighted with something like hope, âWhy?â
Yes Crosshair, you stupid prick, tell the lady why. He needed to get his head examined. He was talking to himself more than usual. And now heâd started to sound like Hunter.
âBecause,â he ground out, teeth clenched. âYou deserveâŠbetterâŠthan what Iâve been giving you. But IâŠI donât want anyone else to deserve you.â
You sat with that for just a moment. And then you brought a hand up to your mouth and giggled. It was such a happy sound, he was almost completely unoffended.Â
âYou like me,â you murmured, eyes full of mirth and pure, honest delight.
He let out a shaky breath. It was almost a chuckle, âI like you. Youâre a little shit, and you give me a heart attack half the time. But I like you.â
âAnd⊠Iâm allowed to like you back?â This question was tentative, small. Not how he wanted to see you. You should be bright, confident, unafraid to show your brilliance. A fierceness crept into his heart.
âYou get to like whatever you damn well please,â he growled, then softened slightly. âButâŠit would be nice if you liked me.â
You hummed, and dropped the arms covering your gorgeous breasts to cup his face in both hands. Your fingers moved in his cropped strands of hair, but he resisted the urge to close his eyes at the peace it brought him.Â
âI like you, more than I ever thought youâd want me to,â you almost-whispered. Then you grinned that same grin you got when Wrecker offered to let you press a detonator. âBut if you want in on this, babe, if you want some kind of commitment, Iâve got some rules of my own.â
Strangely, the thought didnât concern him nearly as badly as it had a day ago. He didnât know shit about real relationships. He wanted you, and if you gave him some kind of guide to go off of, well, at least there was less of a chance of him fucking it up.Â
Crosshair nodded, and your smile grew wider, joy sparkling in your eyes.
âFirst of all,â you began. âYou have to say good morning and good night to me. You also have to hold my hand every so often, and let me kiss your cheek. I promise not to embarrass youâŠtoo much.â
He huffed a little, but conceded, âAgreed. Anything else?â
âOh this is an ongoing list. There will be amendments,â you chirped happily. âI require actual conversation daily, and I get to sleep next to you after we fuck.â
âWhat do you take me for? Of course you get to-â
âNo getting jealous of my guy friends, including your brothers. Like when I give them hugs or candies or-.â
âThe regs absolutely cannot be trusted-â
âHa! I knew youâd be a jealous boyfriend. Oh yeah! And I get to introduce you as my boyfriend from now on.â
Crosshairâs mild disgust must have shown on his face, because you laughed outright, âWhat about partner? Lover? Fuckbuddy?â
He rolled his eyes, âIâll make âboyfriendâ work. Can I kiss you now or does the princess have more proclamations?â
That shut you up. Despite all the other parts of him youâd had in your mouth, one of his rules had been no kissing on the lips. Your eyes glazed over, and he smirked and leaned forward.
Your lips were so soft, plush and sorely neglected. A vague sense of regret and longing overtook him. How the hell had he managed to avoid kissing you until now? It didnât really matter. He decided, as you let out a little hum of surprise, that it was about to become his new ritual. Every morning, every night, every time he could drag you into a private little alcove, heâd do it, just to get a chance to press his lips to yours.
He pushed forward, his tongue licking at the line of your lips, and you whined. His cock pulsed, and he began steadily rocking it against your clothed thigh. You opened your mouth eagerly and he dove in. Oh this was divine.
âNever thought,â he mumbled into your mouth. âNever thought itâd be like this.â
âLikeâŠwhat?â you gasped.
âThisâŠthis fucking⊠brilliant. Stars, your mouthâŠâ
You groaned, and he moved to sweep his deft tongue along your jaw, up to your ear. He bit at your earlobe, and your hips began doing some involuntary rocking of their own. Crosshair growled in your ear, satisfied when you shivered.
He stopped though, when he felt your stealthy hand cup his balls through his pants, âNo,â he rasped, taking your wrist in hand and bringing the misbehaving appendage up to nip at your squirming fingers. âI told you, doll. I want⊠to try⊠something else.â
âLetting me call the shots would be something else,â you whined, still wiggling in his grasp.
He shook his head, âNot tonight,â he said, sounding out of breath. âTonight, you just lay there. Look pretty. Look fucking gorgeous because thatâs what you are, and keep making little noises for me.â
You whimpered at that, and he smirked. But it wasnât his usual cocky, infuriating twist of the lips. This was an adorable half smile, part disbelieving, part alive with anticipation.Â
Your pants were hastily removed, and while your shoes caused a bit of an obstacle, Crosshair simply wrenched them off and tossed them over his shoulder. One landed with a thump on the durasteel floor - a place he swore you would never be kneeling unprotected again. He was pretty sure the other ended up in Techâs bunk.Â
Crosshair traced his hands down your legs and slowly, ever so slowly pulled your knees further apart. You were pressed back against the pillows, open and waiting for him, and his heart rose to a furious din in his ears. He was almost positive you could hear it.Â
He was seized with another fit of insecurity. How was he supposed to know how to cater to you like this? He knew how to grasp your throat just hard enough that your eyes would roll back into your head. He knew how you liked to be tied down and spanked. This wasnât even the first time he had held your legs apart and let you squirm under his attention. But tenderness⊠communicating oneâs feelings with oneâs body⊠he didnât even know how to begin.Â
His eyes flicked to your face, flushed with shyness and lust. Your kind, welcoming eyes, more open in every breath than he was in his entire lifetime. You bit your lip.
You have to try to be worthy of her, he thought to himself. And he turned his attention to your pussy.
Still clothed in your thin, basic panties, the solid color was stained dark with your wetness. Crosshair cursed, and slowly descended between your legs.
First, he kissed your knees, not bleeding but definitely scraped, and the gentle touch of his lips had you sighing. Youâd never made that sound before, that exhale of pure contentment. He wanted more of it.Â
You flinched and squirmed as he ran his tongue down your inner thigh, but he held you fast. You werenât getting away from him. Not now, not when he was finally ready to really try.Â
Crosshair knew where you wanted him. You werenât exactly subtle with the canting of your hips and the nervous fluttering of your fingers over the sheets. Your breaths were coming in short bursts of want. Stars, how were you this sensitive already? Heâd seen you in a state of pre-orgasmic distress plenty of times, had made you beg for him past the point where you could speak in coherent sentences, but never had he seen such simple, sweet touches electrify you in this way.
Instead of lowering his mouth to your pussy, though, Crosshair moved to lick and nip at your hip bone. You squealed and moaned, and he decided heâd never heard such an addicting sound.
He brought his tongue across your belly, snapping the waistband of your panties with his teeth before teasing your other hip. Your whimpering was a constant symphony in his dark bunk. He pulled back and chanced a peek at your face. Your eyes were shining with yearning. You had one hand in your hair. He reached up, tugged your abused lip from between your teeth, worried that youâd draw blood, and glanced back down.
The wet spot on your panties had grown, and finally, with a lighter touch than heâd ever directed towards you, Crosshair ran a knuckle up and down your clothed center. You keened, and threw your head back on his feeble pillows, which had flattened almost completely under you.Â
I need to get new ones, he thought absently as he tugged your panties to the side, exposing your dripping core. She deserves to be fucked on real pillows.Â
He lowered his head, and you were both gone.Â
Crosshair had tasted you before, often as a tease while you were tied up and helpless. But not often, and not thoroughly. He usually enjoyed watching your face while taking you apart with his fingers, snarling demeaning pet names into your ear. But thisâŠthis was transcendent. You tasted like home, like he could live his entire life and die between your legs. He drank from you slowly, meticulously, lapping at your entrance and circling your clit before closing his lips around it and lightly sucking. Your legs were trembling within minutes. Every few seconds, garbled, meaningless sounds escaped from your throat and spurred him on. He gently, reverently pushed a finger into your hot center, caressing the spot you both loved. You seized upâŠ, and let go.
He rocked you lovingly through your orgasm, fingering you slightly and keeping his mouth clamped around your clit. Your pussy spasmed, your hips jerked, and your mouth opened in a silent scream.Â
But he didnât stop.Â
Crosshair began again, stroking your throbbing clit with his tongue, refusing to allow the fire in your abdomen to subside. Now that heâd really tasted you, now that heâd felt you fall apart on his lips, his only goal was to make it happen again.
âC-cross!â you yelled, hand flying down to his hair. You tugged hard, and he groaned.
âMore,â he mumbled into your cunt. His fingers pressed at that tender spot inside you, and your head flew back. You shrieked and writhed on his bed, dripping onto the sheets.Â
You were moaning with every breath, tensing your legs and frantically thrusting your hips towards his waiting mouth. Your toes curled repeatedly in the corners of his vision. Your pussy was red and swollen, your slick arousal running down his hand and wrist.Â
Crosshair curled his fingers inside of you and allowed his teeth to gently catch against your begging clit, and your second orgasm hit like a lightning strike. You seized up, screaming your release to the ceiling of his bunk. He gently lapped at your clit as you came down, your yells turning to sobs. Tears spilled down your face and onto your chest. You reached for him, and he encircled your shaking body with his arms.
âShhhhh,â he hushed into your hair. âYouâre alrightâŠyouâre alrightâŠIâŠIâve got you, meshâla.â
You pulled back, tears tracking your cheeks as you stared into his eyes, âY-youâve never called me that before.â
Crosshair knew you understood the word. Echo called you meshâla on occasion, Wrecker too. âI felt left out,â he said. âI should get to remind you of how beautiful you are more than anyone else.â
You sniffed, and threw your arms around him, âYouâre beautiful too,â he heard you mumble, and his heart swelled. âButâŠâ
âBut what, doll?â
Your voice took on a fierce, desperate tone, âIf you donât get inside me right now, weâre going to have our first fight.âÂ
Crosshair was stunned, but only for a moment. This was why he loâŠliked you in the first place.Â
He took on the domineering tone he usually had with you in these situations, âDemanding girls donât get what they want.â
But you just grinned, and lifted your chin, âGirlfriend privilege.â
He threw his head back and laughed. What had he gotten himself into?Â
He couldnât wait to find out.
âJust this once, meshâla.â
You practically went limp in his arms as his straining, red cock breached your entrance. He stilled for just a moment, relishing in the feeling of being inside you. When you looked up at him, eyes shining with something he dare not name, not yet, he felt complete.
Crosshair grabbed hold of your hair and yanked, and you squealed from the pull of his hand and the push of his cock. This much he was sure of: he knew how you liked to be fucked, and he didnât have it in him to be gentle any longer. And though he wouldnât last as long as heâd like, no one could accuse him of not being a giving lover.
âJust like that, good girl,â he growled. You whined and writhed, impaled on his cock and unable to even think. âYou just lay back, and come for me one more time.â
âCrossâŠI-I canât.â
âYou can,â he assured you, and his thumb went down to ever so gently move on your clit. âYouâve done it for me before, and youâre going to do it for me again. Scream, bite me if you have to, but you are going to give me one more.â
You wailed, hips thrusting up, frantically trying to match his rhythm. Crosshair released your hair to grab your throat. He leaned in, a hair's breadth away from your ear, and whispered, âThatâs it, thatâs my good girl.â
You tensed, and he grinned, âYou like that? You like knowing youâre mine? That this mouth, these tits, this pussy all belong to me?â He started moving faster, keeping that pressure on your throbbing clit. He bit at your ear, âBut remember, meshâla, just because youâre my girl doesnât mean I wonât fuck you like the slut we both know you are.â
That did it. Your cunt clenched around him, and you let out an ear-piercing scream. Your release came in strong, crashing waves, wiping your mind of anything else and soaking both of you. Crosshair couldnât hold out any longer. He buried himself to the hilt and came deep inside you, and you shuddered with the aftershocks, so full and sated Crosshair swore youâd fallen asleep.
He was wrong. You lifted a trembling hand to his face and smiled gently at him, âThank you, Cross.â
He scoffed, âNothing to be thankful for. Not like we havenât done this a hundred times.â
But you shook your head, âWeâve never done this before.â You gestured at the mess youâd made in his bed, at your tangled limbs and the invisible closeness that still existed between you, even after the amazing sex. âThank you for trying.â
Crosshair felt his strength leave him. He gathered you up, and buried his face in your chest, taking deep, calming breaths, âDonât let me coast on it.â He murmured. âDonât cut me any slack. Iâm bad at this.â
He heard your giggle from above, âA little unpolished, maybe, but Iâve never seen you fail to excel at something you were determined to accomplish.â You stroked his hair. âWeâll be fine, babe.â
âWe need to talk about that nickname.â
âI can think of others,â you teased. âHoney, sweetie, my little tooka-â
He made a gagging noise against your breasts, and you were outright laughing, âBabycakes, darling, love-â
Crosshair knew heâd tensed up at that last one, had let a little gasp escape in his contentment. He blamed the recent orgasm. But youâd heard it, and you stopped laughing.
âOhâŠâ he heard your voice take on a strange tone, and finally looked up at your face. You lookedâŠshy. Shy and happy. You nodded, âLove, then. I can make that work.â
He felt his ears burning, and he turned his face back into your chest. A sudden possessiveness overtook him, and he gathered you closer, âYou canâtâŠâ he mumbled. âYou canât call anyone else that.â
You were quiet for a moment, probably remembering all of the interchangeable nicknames you liked to use with his brothers. Then he felt your hands grab his face - still hiding in your breasts like a coward - and turn it toward your own. You smiled down at him.Â
âAnd that, love, is what we call boyfriend privilege.â
Crosshair gazed at you in amazement, then felt a rare smile break out over his face. He hugged you close, took his time kissing your lips again. He knew, in a moment, he would tell you to stay where you are as he got up and did something heâd never done for you before - clean you up himself. Itâs something he would insist on doing from here on out.
Because, he decided, thatâs what your boyfriend would do. And, as he was realizing rather quickly, he did not want anyone else to earn that title.Â
It was his. And he was yours.Â
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You absolutely OUT did yourself with this beautiful gem. I finally found the time in life to read this, and I DEVOURED it!!! Just amazing, dear author. I absolutely loved the family feels, the angst, the feels oh God I adored all of it.
My sweet Hunter đ« you know he'd stick by your side through anything. Reading him breaking down as his lady fights for her life.... broke me.
The family feels between all our boys and dear girls, from the proposal to the worst of readers sickness just had me spinning in my feelings violently.
Crosshair đ„° he was so cute in admitting his role in the proposal and listening to Hunters woes. I see it 100% and just loved that.
Omega my sweet â€ïžâ€ïž
And the rest of boys during the proposal, oh sweet things I just love them all so much.
But dude, it was HARD reading the scenes where reader was fighting the poison. My poor girl just wants to wear her pretty ring and admire her husband to be. That hurt, and it was gloriously written so fantastic job!
Cid đ€ąđ€ą
Cid dying đđđđđ
Hunter finally breaking down at the flatline đ„Čđ„Č oh God that hurt but you did so well in conveying the agony and pain he was experiencing.
Phee and Tech. Minor but perfect.
Lyra my darling Queen. She truly is a gem of a friend and I adore her.
The reading journey of this series has been such a special one for me and will always hold a dear place in my Star Wars fanficiton journey. It's been such a pleasure to read it from start to finish and watch your writing grow and change as the chapters progressed. It is truly one of my most treasured series and dear to my heart. I can't wait for your next update, and I only hope you will write more in the future. I'd love to delve more into the early day of readers' time with the boys and much more but until then. I await your next update â€ïž
A Bad Batch Post S3 Oneshot
Gif by @barissoffee
Hunter x femaleJedi!reader
Summary: Just when you think your fresh start can officially begin, the past still finds a way to haunt you
Warnings: No (Y/N), me adding one actual personal characteristic (sorry if you aren't arachnophobic), reader has hair long enough to hold, light PDA (kissing), mentions of scars, SMUT (shower sex with non-explicit descriptions of oral m&f receiving, handjob, fingering, making out, dirty talk,hints of praise kink), suggestive dialogue, reader wears a sundress, swearing, hints of Tech/Phee, just stick with me on the Lyra explanation please, mentions of food and drinks/alcohol, drink and general tampering for the sake of poisoning, me making up medical things, descriptions of illness (vomiting, fever, bodily pain), mentions of medical testing/needles and injections, concerned bad batch family, brief dark/protective Hunter, injury (cuts, blaster shots, broken nose/nosebleeds) and torture descriptions with further mentions of pain and blood, a certain lizard makes an unwelcomed appearance, big on the overall fluff and loving vibes but also big on angst and hurt/comfort, references to death and torture, near-character death, fluff and happy ending don't worry
<Previous Oneshot (not totally necessary to read but helpful for build up)
Masterlist for S1,S2 and S3
Word Count: 24.9K (don't look at me lol)
Rating: 18+
Author's note: This is a crazy ride jam-packed with fav tropes of mine, so I can only apologise for the emotional whiplash, but blame my dream because that is where this entire concept came from! Hope it was worth the wait!
The day of the party everyone had been eager awaiting had finally arrived. It was being done in your and the rest of the Batchâs honour and was serving as a combined official welcome to Pabu/congratulations on making it through everything alive type of thing but regardless of the slightly elaborate purpose, the island was all a buzz with excitement and preparations.
You and Hunter were meandering away from the busy colonnade. Your offer to help with the last of the party set up had been politely declined so instead the two of you had opted to join the others at the beach.
âHey!â
You turned in surprise at the familiar voice and you saw the woman running off her ship and towards you. âOh hey! What-â Your question was cut off with a huff of air as you were brought into a tight hug.
âLet me see-â Lyra stepped back from you and grabbed your hands excitedly but stopped short as she held them.
âSee what?â You looked at her, utterly perplexed by her behaviour.
Hunter resisted the urge to clamp his hand over Lyraâs mouth but thereâd be no believable way to explain that away, so he just had to stand there and cross his fingers that you didnât pressure Lyra for further elaboration.
Lyra realised her mistake and backtracked quickly. âYou. Let me see you. Itâs been far too long.â She dropped your hands and just walked around you, analysing your form. âYup, I still got it. Both of you are looking pretty sharp in my stuff if I do say so myself. So, I bet the rest of your lot do to.â
âStop that.â You twisted your head around and waved her away with a fond yet bemused grin. âWhy are you acting so weird? Better yet why are you here? Not that Iâm not happy to see you.â You added hastily but you were a second too late. Â
Lyra placed her hand over her heart in faux offence. âWow, months with no word and then only sporadic comm channel conversations and this is how Iâm greeted? I told you I would visit. Speaking of, I brought more samples of my work.â She gestured to the two cases by her feet. âTop one is yours, the second is to be divided between the rest of your crew. But to answer your question, Iâm here for the party.â
You titled your head at her. Your last call had been before the party had been decided so you didnât know how she knew about it. âThe party? Who invited you?â You asked quizzically.
Lyra shot a nervous glance to the man at your side. Sheâd already almost blown it; she didnât want to risk doing it again. âUh, Hunter did actually.â
You glanced at Hunter curiously. âYou did?â
Hunter maintained a sense of calm as he answered, âWell, technically it was through Echo, but I put them in contact. Also, a lot of people were asking about our clothes. Figured it couldnât hurt to see if Shep needed someone like her here. Today felt like the perfect time.â That part was a genuine truth. He hadnât thought much of the situation on Christophsis in the short time heâd been there- well, what he had thought wasnât in any way positive-, and youâd always expressed interest in figuring out a way to get Lyra out of there and somewhere better. He was killing two birds with one stone here. Â
âYeah, a party and a job opportunity away from Imperial bullshit was too good to pass up.â Lyra confirmed with a grin.
You smiled broadly. âOh okay! Thatâd be pretty great actually! So, Christophsis hasnât improved since I left?â
âJust kept getting worse.â Lyra said plainly. âGot decent enough business to buy that condemned ship but itâs still pretty awful there. I definitely would not miss it.â
You shot her a sympathetic look before you clapped your hands together, âWell, I better go get Shep and officially introduce you two!â You wandered away to go find the man that was busying about the area making sure things were on schedule for tonight.
Hunter waited until you were out of earshot. He placed his hands on his hips and stared at Lyra. âThat was subtle.â He deadpanned.
Lyra cringed. âIâm sorry! The transmission from Echo was pretty dodgy. I couldnât quite hear him. I just heard âHunter, party, Pabuâ so I though this party was to celebrate what had happened, not as a lead up to whatâs going to happen.â
Hunter heaved a weary, stressed sigh. This was beginning to become the best yet somehow worst kept secret on Pabu. He was just grateful that the one person who he really didnât want to know still appeared to have no idea. How that was possible, he really didnât understand since it seemed to have spread from the need-to-know people to what felt like every citizen of the island, but he didnât want to question it too much in case he jinxed it. Each time he passed someone by, and they shot him that knowing smile, he felt a flare of panic that you would notice and start to question him but so far, you just took it as standard practice from the naturally friendly disposition of the people here. He was almost there, he just needed everyone around him to keep it together. He straightened up and signalled to Lyra to act natural as you approached them once more.
âLyra, this is Shep. The best mayor of Pabu and overall, pretty incredible man. Shep, this is my friend Lyra.â
âNice to meet you.â Lyra stuck her hand out with a friendly grin and nodded to you. âSheâs always spoken highly of you.â
âWeâve all grown very fond of her and the rest of the family.â Shep smiled and shook her hand in return. âItâs nice to officially meet you too! Youâre joining us for our little shindig? And Hunter also tells me youâre looking to live and employ yourself here?â
âYup! Canât keep me from a good party. And yes, if you have the space for me, Iâd love to talk to you about it more!â Lyra said cheerily. âAnything I can do to help with setting up in the meantime?â
âIâm sure thereâs something. It always gets chaotic in the final stages.â Shep said, sweeping his arm in front of him to guide her in the direction he was going.
âHang on, you said-â You started to argue.
âGo enjoy your day, weâll see you later tonight!â Shep said dismissively.
âYour cases!â Hunter called after the fading figures.
âTheyâre yours!â Lyra tossed over her shoulder. âAlthough, Iâd wait until youâre alone to open yours!â She said to you specifically.
You let out a small groan. Your mind immediately entered panic mode and started jumping between every experimental or bold combination of clothing that she felt the need to put you in. Sheâd been on point so far, but you knew there had to be a catch at some point.
âWe can take a slight detour before heading to the beach, right? Itâs only a couple minutes out the way.â Hunter double checked with you.
âYeah def-â You didnât even get a chance to finish your sentence or pick up a box before someone swept in and addressed Hunter.
âDonât worry, Hunter. Iâm heading past your house anyway to grab some supplies we need up here. I can drop them off. You guys can carry on with your day.â
âThanks Kyan.â Hunter said as the fisherman picked up the boxes.
âYes, thank you so much!â You echoed as he left. âWhy is everyone being so nice?â You mused as you saw him head in the direction of your home. âWeâre basically passing our house anyway; we couldâve done it.â
âTheyâre always nice here.â Hunter said nonchalantly, hoping you wouldnât sense his nerves increasing. He snaked an arm around your waist and guided you down the winding path.
âI guess.â You mirrored his gesture as you strolled towards the beach. âThis just feels different, like they all know something we donât.â
âI wouldnât think too much about it.â Hunter advised. Two more hours. Only two more hours to go before the secret would finally be out in the open.
--
You and Hunter stood on an outcrop of rocks just overlooking the sea and you called over to the group of people and dog sitting on the beach. âHow was the swim?â
âAmazing! You really should go for one too. The water is so nice!â Omega encouraged as she lounged on a towel, letting the warm sun dry her off. Her and Batcher had been the only one to actually enter the water, the others had only decided to get their feet wet.
âIâm good. We donât have long before the party and Iâd rather-â You sensed the threat a second to late. With a yelp, you were shoved over the edge and entered the water with a splash.
You came to the surface to the sounds of laughter from the bystanders on the beach- even the dog was barking in a way that sounded like a laugh. You glared up at the clone staring down at you with a smug grin on his face. âYou mother-â
âSo⊠howâs the water?â Hunter taunted.
Two could play this game. âYeah, itâs great actually, youâre really missing out.â With that, you raised your hand and with a tug of the Force, Hunter swiftly tumbled into the water too.
His aggrieved shout before he hit the water was music to your ears.
âOkay, I shouldâve seen that coming.â Hunter admitted through a short series of coughs as he reappeared from below the depths.
Your plan of revenge had instantly backfired given just how perfect he looked right now. Your breath hitched as you saw the way his wet hair fell around his shoulders and framed his profile as well as the way droplets of water dripped down his face. He was a sight to behold. You reached up and stroked some of his damp fringe just behind his bandana. Youâre beautiful.
Hunter gulped at the compliment. It had never been a word heâd apply to himself; he didnât really view himself in that light, it was only ever you. Yet you said it to him with such sincere feeling, he knew you meant it.
You kissed him softly before you made to swim for shore, but you didnât get very far.
In one short stroke, Hunter reached you and kissed you fiercely.
You tangled your fingers in his damp locks with a pleasure filled sigh as you matched his strokes.
Hunter could taste the salt on your lips, and he could feel the way your body pressed against him as you grew more eager, it only spurred him on further.
The few disgruntled and offended shouts as well as a ship flying overhead caused you both to hastily pull apart.
âItâs Echo!â Omega yelled happily, wriggling out of the protective hand Wrecker had placed over her eyes- it wasnât like she had no idea what was going on. Not waiting on the rest of them, she and Batcher dashed back towards where his ship was going to land.
âUm, so-â Hunter began awkwardly. He used to be more careful about the public displays of affection, especially around his family, but it would appear that feeling free, relaxed and in love could be quite a distraction when it wanted to be.
Should everything go to plan, they were taking her anyway, but the confirmation felt necessary. âYes, weâll take her tonight.â Crosshair said, shaking his head in the direction of the two of you but a smile was on his face.
âHa! The gangâs all back!â Wrecker cheered, slapping Techâs shoulder as he, Tech and Crosshair followed the young girl. âI canât wait for this thing to get started!â
âYes, this party should be quite the reunion.â Tech remarked simply as he walked and finished making the finishing touches to the repairs to his goggles.
âEchoâs taking a break from the clone rebellion for a party?â You furrowed your brow as you reached the sand and half-heartedly wrung out the edges of your top.
Hunter shrugged as he wiped some water off his face. The fact that his brother was indeed making an appearance meant a lot, but he couldnât very well act like that in front of you. âItâs supposed to be quite the party.â
You huffed out a laugh. âRight.â
âPlus, he was right there with us, so it be a shame if he didnât make an appearance.â
You inclined your head in acceptance of that. You then took proper notice of the way his soaked clothes clung to his toned body, emphasising very muscle. Despite the chill of the water, your blood ran hot as intense longing overcame you. You turned away from him and attempted to regain control of yourself.
Hunter noticed the way you swiftly stopped looking at him and he knew you were fighting to regain control the same way he was but, quite frankly, he didnât want to. He came up behind you and draped his arms around your front.
You exhaled happily and leaned back against him.
âHow about a shower?â He crooned in your ear as he brushed his lips just behind your ear.
You nodded dumbly as he gently nipped at your earlobe. Control was overrated.
--
You let out a squeal as the door you were pressed up against opened suddenly and you stumbled backwards- if it werenât for the strong hands gripping your hips, you wouldâve fallen straight down. Your kisses with Hunter were a passionate and frenzied mess of tongue and teeth as he backed you down the hallway, muscle memory guiding the way since neither of you wanted to pull apart, not even to catch your breath.
A trail of wet clothes marked the way through to the refresher.
A gasp left your mouth as the first cold spray of water hit you, a gasp that Hunter took full advantage off as he kissed you deeply, swallowing your groans of pleasure.
The water soon turned warm, but goosebumps still graced your skin as you were pushed up against the cool wall tiles. You leaned your head back as Hunter removed his lips from yours and began biting and kissing along your neck. âW-wait.â You managed to say breathlessly. He had always been the one to cater to your needs and you wanted nothing more than to be the one to do that for him first. He so rarely put himself first both in everyday life and in this particular regard and it was something you wanted to change.
Hunter immediately stopped and braced his hands on either side of your head, his breathing heavy as he waited until you were comfortable to carry on. Or not.
You nearly lost it at the sight of the man in front of you. Beautiful had been an understatement. He looked positively ethereal as his hair was wet and loose around his shoulders, the pieces of fringe at the front just demanding your touch. Water cascaded down his toned back and his usual caring brown eyes were nearly black with lust yet there was a slight crinkle in his brow to indicate that he was happy to wait until he knew you were okay with proceeding which only added to your desire. You inhaled deeply and pressed a seductive kiss to his mouth before you trailed your lips down his neck, kissing the hollow of his throat. You then gently pushed him away from you in order to change positions, so that he was the one against the tiles now.
Hunter looked at you questioningly but any words he was about to speak became a hoarse groan as he felt you reach down and wrap your hand around him. He tipped his head back against the tiles as you moved your hand.
You ignored the feeling of the water on your back and fixed your focus entirely on him as you kept your touches teasing, relishing each groan that left his throat. Look at me.
Hunter was all too willing to follow your instructions, but he saw you getting ready to kneel and he caught your elbow. He swallowed harshly as he rasped through the haze of pleasure you were granting him, âY-you donât have to. L- let me-â
You shook your head to silence his protests and paused what you were currently doing. You pressed soft, doting kisses up his thighs, before making your way up his ribs and affectionately kissing the jagged scar left by the wild reeks all those years ago and then you carried on downwards once more as you formed a path of kisses to his abdomen before you moved lower still.
âYouâre always the one to give. I want you to take.â You encouraged as you licked a slow, sensual stripe along the length of him.
Hunterâs head fell back against the shower wall and a choked moan left his throat.
You stopped and tutted. You rose to your full height and grabbed the back of his neck, so he was forced to look at you once more. You needed him to watch so he knew just how much you wanted to do this for him. Keep your eyes on me. Do you think you can manage that?
Hunter just about managed to nod. He was utterly enraptured by the sight of you. Your eyes were bright and laced with longing, your heavy breaths came from lips already swollen from the kisses youâd shared and there was an overall desire that radiated from you that he was completely captivated by. Â
You smirked and kissed him deeply. Good boy.
âFuck.â Hunter breathed as he watched you go to your knees once more but even as you nodded up at him, he still found himself not wanting to take full advantage of the situation. He sought purchase against the shower walls as he fought with the primal urge within him to do what you were asking of him.
This particular scenario that you were invoking was new territory for him- you knew he would still be hesitant- so you began with that you knew would make him lose his mind and remove all doubt from his brain. You needed him to stop overthinking it and to stop being concerned with your pleasure needs for the moment.
You needed him only thinking about himself and the pleasure he wanted from you.
With his eyes still looking at you, Hunterâs hands slipped against the slick tiles as he fought against the impulse to tangle his fingers in your wet hair as each frustratingly slow and light touch had him losing his mind. Your name left his mouth in a cracked whisper as he pleaded, âP-please.â
Please what? You replied innocently. You looked up at him as you carried on, keeping your pace slow and your ministrations featherlight.
The alluring glint in your eyes had him swallowing hard as he searched for his voice. âI need- fuck- I need moreâŠâ He made a move to drop one of his hands but stopped. âSweetheart, I-â Â
You only need to take. You reminded as you placed light kisses along him.
At your words and as the instinctual need for release finally took over, Hunter found himself fisting your hair and guiding your mouth down the length of him.
You groaned appreciatively at the action.
Hunter released a choked gasp as the vibrations from your throat only added to the sensation that he was getting utterly lost in. And he was continuing to follow your instructions and he could understand why youâd laid them out. Watching your eyes flutter shut in pleasure as you accepted him made him close to finishing right then and there and he had gain control quickly or this would be over too soon.
You were compliant to his every move, making sure every response you gave him was what he wanted. His own moans and the broken praise emitting from his lips for you as he grew more and more caught up in finding gratification drove you on as he claimed your throat in the way you had been waiting for him to do.
His gruff sighs made your own simmering arousal burn red hot in your veins.
This was exactly what you wanted.
You wanted him incoherent.
You wanted him to let go.
You wanted him to focus on himself.
The release Hunter was chasing arrived faster than heâd anticipated but he couldnât bring himself to pull away from you. you felt too good. The best he could do was attempt a hoarse, stammered warning, âIâm gonna- oh fuck-â He kept looking at you and a new longing took a hold of him, the one he had before this began. âI want to taste yâ I need to tou- fuck youâre doing so well-â But he still couldnât stop despite him meaning the words he was blabbering. âIâm- wait-â
You already knew he was nearing his climax by the way his hips stuttered but you didnât want him to hold back. You clasped his free hand in encouragement and kept yourself right where you were. Itâs okay, I want it.
That was all he needed. With a loud and hoarse shout, Hunter reached that sweet moment of ecstasy.
You stayed strong, only stopping when he demandingly pulled you to your feet and before you could even process what had happened, your back was to the shower wall once more, Hunterâs body pressed tight up against yours as his lips crashed into yours.
Hunter could taste the remnants of his release on your tongue, and it prompted him to hold the hinge of your jaw to tip your head back as he licked into your mouth. A deep growl sounding from him as he did so.
You welcomed his kiss and matched his intensity as you pawed at his muscled back as if you could somehow remove every inch of offensive space between you.
Hunter finally pulled away for air, but he raised your arms above your head and pressed your wrists into the wall.
It was hard to imagine that not 30 seconds ago, you had reduced this man to a tongue-tied, purely desire driven mess. Yet now the positions had rapidly switched.
Hunter licked the water away from your neck, smiling against your skin as he felt your pulse quicken at the action. He kept one hand entrapping your wrists, but he slowly brought his other hand down, his fingertips steadily descending down your arm. âDo you know why I so rarely let you do that for me?â
You shook your head; you didnât trust that actual words would exit your lips. Goosebumps graced your body at his touch.
âBecause as talented as you are at that and as grateful as I am for you allowing me to do thatâŠâ He nuzzled his nose against the side of yours before he kissed the corner of your mouth, pulling away ever so slightly as you turned your head to kiss him properly.
The roguish, teasing grin on his face made your breath catch in your throat. Your desire grew more intense as his already low, smoky voice somehow went an octave lower and his seductive words sounded more like a deep growl as he spoke to you, and it made you weak at the knees. Your chest heaved as each yearning breath left your lungs as you watched him.
He caressed your cheek. âThereâs something else that also brings me that much pleasureâŠâ He kissed along your jaw before he carried on with his plan.
You could only observe him, the sight of his lust-fuelled gaze and the way he was suddenly so in control made your want for him burn that much hotter.
Hunter then rested his hand just at the hollow of your throat, feeling a shuddering breath leave you as you swallowed, he glanced up at your face which was watching him with both heightened curiosity and desperation as you waited for him to touch you were he knew you needed him to.
He trailed his fingers sensually down the rest of your torso before moving them tenderly up the inside of your thighs, a hint of delight flowing through him as he already felt how ready you were for him already and it was all from what had just transpiredâ he was yet to do anything. âBecause when I touch you hereâŠâ He murmured as he ever so slightly rubbed that sensitive spot between your legs, delighting in the gasp that sounded from your lips. âI can watch you fall apartâŠâ
A whimper sounded from your throat.
âAnd when I kiss you hereâŠâ He stopped his movements for the most part, instead just tenderly rubbing faint circles with his thumb as he mouthed his way down your body.
Your breathing was leaving you in short, sharp pants.
âI can watch you fall apart on my tongue.â With that, he lifted your leg onto his shoulder before his mouth joined where his fingers were. An eager moan came from his own lips as he finally got to taste you and for the moment, he wanted to savour this. You were a craving- an addiction- that he couldnât get enough of. He was in no rush, and he draw this out for as long as you both could handle it.
His name fell from your lips through a raspy groan. He knew your body so damn well and that was both a blessing and a curse. He was barely giving you enough to gain any form of satisfaction but yet it was just enough to drive you crazy with need. You scrambled for a grip on the slippery tiles as desperate cries sounded from you. One hand fumbled against the small shelf as a particularly wicked curl of his fingers made a jolt of pleasure rush through you and various shower supplies came tumbling down with an unnecessarily loud crash but neither of you paid them any attention, instead you merely clamped that hand over your mouth to quiet yourself.
âYou know I want to hear you, sweetheart.â Hunter crooned as he stopped what he was doing. The demand needed to be met before he would continue.
You nodded, through a pleasure induced daze as you removed your hand. You had to keep reminding yourself that you had a place of your own now and you could be as free as you wanted to be, there was no risk of being overheard or interrupted but it was a habit that was still proving difficult to break.
As he finally showed willing to bring you closer to the point of release, your mewls of pleasure left you without restraint.
Hunter hummed out his approval as he put his mouth back on you and began moving his fingers once more, and this time, he wasnât drawing anything out.
He wanted to watch you come.
He angled his eyes up as he found that spot that he knew would have you finding your release in no time. He let out his own appreciative sigh as he saw the way your eyes flickered shut, as he saw the way your brow furrowed, and your lips parted in sweet relief as those special breathy sighs exited from them, signally that you were close. Â
You arched your back as you went tumbling towards that blissful climax and you finished with a strangled groan, your hands tangling in Hunterâs soaked hair to ground yourself as he worked you through it.
Hunter made sure you were back to being steady on your feet before he prompted you to face the wall so he could press loving, accepting kisses to the scars on your back. âI love you... so much.â He nearly found himself following that up with the question, but he stopped himself. Too much had been planned and he knew exactly how he wanted to do it. He wasnât about to ruin it with getting too caught up in this wonderful moment.
âI love you too.â You replied softly.
Hunter placed one last kiss between your shoulder blades before he gathered up the fallen shower products that had scattered around his feet.
You braced your forehead on the cool tiles to gather yourself once more. For a moment the only sounds were the steady of jets of shower water and Hunter placing the items back on their shelf,
âOkay⊠so⊠now we need to do the actual showering part.â You said breathlessly as you finally turned around and brushed back his fringe pieces.
Hunter chuckled and nodded his agreement. âWe have a party to get to after all.â
--
âHey, I have a question.â You asked casually as you appreciatively watched Hunter get dressed. You had made no such moves yet and were instead lounging on your bed still in your bathrobe.
âWhatâs that?â Hunter asked as he finished buttoning his shirt.
âHow important is it that we attend this party?â
A wave of panic hit him, and he had to rely on old training to keep his voice steady. âIs everything okay?â Even with his fast-acting composure, he could tell his voice was strained but if you noticed, you didnât call on it since you carried on as normal in your response.
âWell, no. After that display in the shower, I find myself not quite wanting to be so social.â
Hunter held back his sigh of relief. This was something he could handle just fine. It wasnât your fault that you were looking to cause a bit of trouble, he was just glad that there wasnât a more serious reason to your original question because that would make the rest of this evening rather tricky. âGiven the fact that theyâre having it in our honour, Iâd say itâs pretty important that we go.â
You shuffled to the end of the bed and sat up. You caught his hand as he walked by you. âBut there are five other honouree people that are goingâŠâ
âSweetheartâŠâ He really had to figure out how to navigate this without giving anything away.
âNow letâs seeâŠâ You feigned pondering as you went through the options in your head and rubbed your thumb along his hand. âWeâve already done the bed, the shower, the table, the couch and the counterâŠâ
Hunterâs attempt at swallowing was interrupted as various memories flashed through his head, some highlights being your thighs wrapped around his head, you straddling his lap and his handprints imprinting on the glass of the kitchen cabinets. It was true that he had been rather insatiable lately and you had been all too willing and happy to match his enthusiasm but now was the time for self-control. He released a choked cough as he attempted to steady himself.
âBut I donât believe weâve done a wall yet...â You said coyly as you started to pull down the arm of your bathrobe to expose more of your clavicle. You also spread your legs a little wider, so the fabric hitched up your thighs as you nodded to the dresser behind him. âOr the bureauâŠâ
Hunter released a guttural, unrestrained groan before he kissed you. Hard. But just as you threaded your fingers in his hair and made to pull him on top of you, he found himself once more. He had to act now, or heâd never want to leave here. He stepped away and stopped your hand that was continuing to lower the shoulder of your robe, but he couldnât help but notice the few remaining water droplets on your neck that were calling to be kissed away. Â
âHunterâŠâ You pretended to pout as you gently yanked on the loose ends of his shirt, so he was forced to come and stand between your legs.
Hunter pushed down on your shoulders and your arms above your head. âGo.â A chaste kiss to your lips. âGet.â Another quick kiss. âDressed.â He placed one final brief kiss to your mouth before he readjusted the shoulder of your dressing gown.
âThe robe has to come off to do that though.â You whispered as you placed a tender kiss to his mouth.
Hunter huffed out a laugh as he stood tall once more. He quickly walked out the room before you had the chance to accidentally ruin everything he had put together. âDonât take too long!â He called back to you.
You released a heavy, grounding sigh before you sat up and hopped off the bed and your eyes caught sight of the case. With apprehensive curiosity, you strolled over to the new package that Lyra had gifted you, bracing yourself for what was going to be revealed.
You unclasped the lock, but you were pleasantly surprised by what was inside. It was a variety of sundresses, each one a similar design but in a variety of colours. They were a new thing for you to try but you figured a party could call for doing something different, plus you couldnât wait to see Hunterâs reaction to something like this.
You picked out a red dress and was unsurprised to see that it fit you just right. You had a rummage through the rest of the box to see if there was anything else or if it was just those dresses, but you regretted that immediately.
A horrified, strangled breath left you as you saw the three sets of lace lingerie. A red, a black and a white set were all folded neatly at the bottom of the box. You held up the red set and recognised the design immediately. You muttered a series of curse words to yourself before your eyes caught sight of a small black silk bag and the items in there left you frozen in shock. This was something you would have to keep well hidden. You slammed the lid shut and shoved it to the back of the shared closest.
--
You quietly walked down the short hallway towards the front room which served as an open planned area with a kitchen and living space. You leaned against the wall and a smile graced your face as you watched the domestic scene with fond affection- Hunter had just finished gathering and hanging up your sodden beach clothes and was proceeding to put away some dry dishes. It made your heart soar that he had settled into the domesticity of the island and the routine here so well, it made making a life with him here all the more appealing.
As much as you enjoyed watching him, and as much as you would enjoy just staying in, you knew he wanted to go to the party, and you knew you would have a good time once you were there. You just wanted a little bit more fun first. âZip me up?â
Hunter half-turned from where he was putting away a plate, but he forgot how to both breathe and operate as a functioning human as he saw you. The dish slipped out of his hands and smashed against the ground.
You smirked. That had gone even better than youâd expected. âHmm, thatâs an interesting technique. Sure, it saves space but Iâm not sure how sustainable it is in the long run.â
Hunter struggled to find his voice. He bent down to gather the broken pieces and throw them away to try to buy himself some recovery time, but it didnât help. All he could do was stare at you. The red sundress you were wearing complimented you perfectly and it showed off your body to the best degree. You were, to put it mildly, simply stunning and suddenly, his entire operation for this evening didnât seem that important anymore.
You whistled and waved your hand in an attempt to bring his attention back. âHey, Hunter, my zip?â With that, you turned around and waited.
Hunter wasnât sure how he willed his feet to move but he soon found himself behind you.
His knuckles grazed your skin as he slowly brought the zip up your body and attached the small clasp at the top. His jaw was clenched tight as he caught a whiff of the body wash and lotion you had used, and it was getting harder and harder to find the willpower to step away from you. He had a plan. Heâd had this plan for weeks yet one look at you in this dress and he was seriously considering throwing it all out the window and to hell with the consequences of it. âYou look beautiful.â He said through a deep exhale. Just one more hour. He only had to make it one more hour.
âThank you.â You said quietly as you too worked on calming yourself.
You turned to face him. âYou look pretty good too.â You complimented as you gave him an appraising look up and downâ in your attempts to distract him, youâd failed to properly take him in before. He wasnât quite wearing a suit- it would be too hot for that tonight- but the lightweight formal black button-down shirt and matching black bottoms fit his frame handsomely, and to make himself even more appealing, he had rolled the sleeves up to his forearms. âNew one of Lyraâs?â You guessed as you smoothed down the front of your dress.
Hunter nodded. He didnât offer too much detail because much of what was in his box consisted of proper suits for him and his brothers that he hoped would be useful in the near future.
âGotta hand it to her, she knows what sheâd doing.â You mused before you loosened your shoulders and linked your arm through Hunterâs elbow. âCome on, weâve got a celebration to get to.â
--
Night had fallen but the area on the colonnade was all lit up by the warm orange glow of a vast number of lanterns. The party was in full swing. Food and drinks were already flowing, and the music was getting many people up and dancing.
A playful wolf-whistle greeted you and Hunter as the two of you entered the scene.
âDamn, I am too good. What a fine-looking couple you two are.â
Evidently, by the cheery and slightly lopsided way Lyra walked over to you, she had been hitting the punch pretty hard already.
âHaving a good time?â You asked with a laugh.
âVery! This party is fantastic! Everyone here is so nice! And I got the job!!â
âLyra, thatâs awesome!â You hugged her tightly.
âCongrats.â Hunter offered mildly but sincerely.
âSo, better get used to having me around. And thatâs just as well cause youâll need me to des-â She quickly cut herself off. It would appear that alcohol only aided the inability to keep a secret.
âWant a drink?â Hunter asked you swiftly before you could follow up on her comment.
You nodded. âI just gotta talk to Lyra about something.â
Hunter couldnât very well insist you join him, but he only hoped what you needed to talk about wasnât close to what would hopefully unfold tonight. He squeezed your hand before he hastily walked towards the drinks stand.
You faced Lyra once more after he was a suitable distance away. âNow, Iâm happy for you but also rather irritated with you.â
âWhy?â Lyra asked innocently as she brought the cup to her lips to hide her grin.
You didnât believe her lack of awareness for an instant. âYou put those in that case? What were you thinking?â You hissed.
âWhy not? You were willing to before everything went to shit. I remembered the design and everything! And you have more options now!â
You shook your head. âI was feeling brave back then, that feeling has since passed.â
Lyra scoffed, âPlease, with the way the two of you are, Iâm surprised you havenât done something like that already.â
âYouâve got a retired clone sergeant and a retired ex-Jedi living on a tropical island, things arenât exactly crazy around here. Iâve lost my bold and brave streak.â You didnât think she needed to know what had had gone on in the shower and the times before her arrival because that would only aid her argument if you were being perfectly honest.
Lyra merely rolled her eyes. âItâs not a battlefield. Itâs a totally great way to switch things up, especially now that youâre in a secure living situation and you would both feel and looking fucking sexy. Plus, I bet you he would drop to his knees and do whatever you wanted if he saw you in one.â
âI will never- hey.â You relaxed quickly and cleared your throat as Hunter rejoined you.
âDid I interrupt something?â Hunter asked with a glance between the two of you as he passed you your drink.
Lyra angled herself towards him. âHunter, let me ask you a question. If she had certain-â
âYou interrupted nothing.â You interjected sharply.
âUm okay.â Hunter didnât press the matter of whatever it was the two of you were debating. âCome on, the others are over there.â He pointed to where the bulk of the dancing and partying was taking place.
âJust think about it!â Lyra implored.
You glared at her as Hunter led you away. Â
Lyra simply grinned and raised her glass in your direction. âEnjoy the party!â
--
The time was drawing near, and Hunter was just confirming with Shep that everything was set for when he got back when Hunter noticed you and Crosshair sitting and chatting, but you were also swaying to the beat of the music. He bade Shep farewell before he approached you.
--
The party was still going full swing and after you had the chance to catch up with Echo, you and Crosshair had retired to a seat on the side to people watch. The two of you sat in comfortable silence as you casually observed the goings on around you. There was a healthy split between the people by the food and drink area and on the dancefloor. Wrecker was enthusiastically dancing with Omega and Lyana and Phee, Tech and Echo were engaged in a pleasant conversation a few metres away and Hunter was chatting to Shep by the bar.
âSo, youâre really sure about him?â Crosshair asked, breaking the silence first.
You frowned in utter confusion as you angled your head to face him. âWhat kind of a question is that?â
Crosshair shrugged. âJust checking.â
âYouâre leaving that a bit late down the road are you not?â You were baffled by his sudden interest in the status of your relationship.
âWell, I havenât been here for all of it. Trust me, Iâm for grateful for that than Iâm not. You two can be pretty sickening.â He added cheekily.
You rolled your eyes at his true Crosshair mannerisms. âSo, is this your bizarre way of being a protective brother?â
âIâm looking out for both of you. He has some pretty annoying habits you know. Iâd hate for you to be stuck with him before you fully knew what you were getting into.â
You snorted. âIâm all good, thanks Crosshair.â
Crosshair waited a beat of silence before his voice turned more serious. âJust donât hurt him, alright? Heâs been hurt enough already, we all have, the cycle has to end at some point.â
Your gaze softened. âI wonât ever hurt him.â You squeezed his left hand in reassurance before the two of you went back to relaxed quiet and you saw Hunter making his way towards you. Â
The music turned slow and that caused a brief dispersal of the dance floor, which included Wrecker, Lyana and Omega to depart. Â
--
Hunter reached you and held out his hand in invitation. âCome on.â
You looked at his extended hand, then at his face to see that he was totally serious. âSince when can you dance?â You asked, completely taken aback.
Hunter, nodded to Crosshair. âBack when we were first getting success as a squad, we thought it would be a way to impress anyone that came into 79s when we had leave from the war.â
You directed your question to both of them. âDid it work?â
Crosshair smirked as he said, âIt worked for one of us.â
You laughed as you glanced to Hunter and said with a teasing lilt to your voice, âIf youâre that bad at it, I donât know if I want to.â
Hunter sighed. âHey, I wasnât bad, I had options, I just had a bad habit of failing to follow through.â
Crosshair continued to goad him. âIs that how youâre remembering it?â
Hunterâs voice went more defensive than he wouldâve liked as he addressed his brother. âWhat about that red head who kept coming to our table the night we were celebrating the win at Boz Pity. She kept talking to me, remember that?â
âI remember who she left with.â Crosshair replied smugly.
You, having enjoyed watching their brotherly spat, took Hunterâs hand to stop the dispute going any further. âI will say, dance lessons were not really on the teaching agenda for Jedi, especially during the war, I donât know-â
Hunter pulled you to your feet. âI promise to not let you trip.â
You reluctantly complied. âAnd if I stand on your toes?â
Hunter just led you to where the other people were dancing. âI wonât even react. And itâs slow music, I doubt you could inflict much damage.â
âYou underestimate me.â You mumbled nervously.
--
âYouâre too tense.â Hunter observed as he watched the way your eyes were fixed firmly on the ground.
âThis is how your feet will continue to have feeling.â You grunted as you kept an intense focus on your movements. Even though the two of you were mostly slowly moving in beat to the soft music, your grip on his hand was tight and the one on his shoulder was digging into him.
Hunter released a low chuckle. âHere. Try this.â He adjusted the stance, so your arms were around the back of his neck and his coiled around your waist, so the front of your body was close to his. Now, the two of you pretty much stayed put and just enjoying the moment of being in each otherâs company.
âI find it hard to believe you never followed through.â You uttered in quiet disbelief. The two of you werenât moving from your spot all that much but the secure way he held you and the aura of calm confidence he projected was making it hard to think straight.
âIt never felt right.â Â
You hummed out a pleased sigh as you placed your head in the crook of his neck.
âI guess I was just waiting for you.â Hunter added softly as he rested his head against yours.
You removed your head from the crook of his neck, and you saw the heartfelt meaning behind his eyes. You leaned up to kiss him and for a minute, the entire buzz of the party faded away and it was just you and him sharing in a loving moment together.
As music the music came to a stop, Hunter whispered in your ear, âWant to get outta here?â
You nodded silently and intertwined his hand in yours.
Hunter took a deep breath as he led you away.
Ten minutes left.
--
The rest of them had gathered to watch the two of you leave.
âLetâs go!â Omega gasped eagerly.
âHold on, kid.â Echo caught her arm as she went to dash after them. âFive-minute head start, remember?â
âRight, right.â Omega agreed as she recalled the particular details of the plan.
âTechnically, only Echo should be the one going.â Tech reminded.
âYeah, Tech, I donât really think that was ever going to happen.â Echo replied simply.
âDamn right! Weâre all getting to see this!â Wrecker argued.
Echo raised his eyebrows in Techâs direction. âSee. And you were never going to stay because you kept talking about recording it anyway.â He pointed out.
âMy phrase was merely pointing out that we are all ignoring a part of the plan Hunter quite specifically told the rest of us not to get involved with.â Tech responded.
âWeâre not big on following orders.â Omega said with a shrug.
âIf youâre all done debating what is a pointless argument because we were all always going to watch, itâs time to go.â Crosshair drawled.
--
âUh, Hunter, home is that way?â You pointed in the direction he was currently walking in the opposite direction of.
âHow about a beach walk first?â Hunter offered.
You gave him a surprised smile but nodded your agreement.
--
It didnât matter how much reassurance heâd received in the recent weeks that you would say yes. His heart was damn near pounding out his chest the closer the two of you got to the sight and his mind started to spiral. What if you said no? What if you hated the very idea? He shouldâve spoken to you about this first but wait, there was something to be said for knowing when it felt right wasnât there? But maybe he shouldâve-
âYour palm is sweaty.â You stopped and got him to face you. âAnd itâs not just cause of that that I can tell that youâre nervous.â
Great, so much careful planning and keeping you away from people that were far too eager to give you hints and his own usually steady nerves were about to give it all away. He had done everything right so far yet now he was a sweaty mess.
âHunter, is everything okay?â
âEverything-â Dammit his voice came out all cracked. He cleared his throat and started again. âEverything is fine, I promise.â He started to guide you again. âIf you just follow me a little bit furtherâŠâ
âFollow you to what? Why are you being soâŠâ Your voice trailed off and released an awed gasp as you saw the scene ahead of you. A small section of the beach was set up with a canopy and illuminated in a warm glow by strings of lights and a short carpet led the way inside. âWhat occasion have I forgotten and how quickly can I make it up to you?â You said as you started to panic.
Hunter was quick to reassure you. âYou havenât forgotten anything, and I think we stopped keeping track of things like that a long time ago.â
âWell, arenât we the romantic pair.â You said dryly as you looked on in wonder at the fairy lights around you before the two of you came to a stop at the end of the walkway and stood in front of a Â
âI think we do alright.â Right on queue, the puck began to play the video Tech had put together, courtesy of Hunterâs guidance.
Your throat clogged with emotion at the display in front of you. The montage was starting right from the moment you had made yourself known to the squad and to when youâd first met Hunter and it was clear something transpired between the two of you. Something that you both would dismiss or shove away for a long time.
Hunter heard the footsteps and there were more than what he had ordered. âIâll be right back.â He kissed your temple. âKeep watching.â He instructed as he saw you getting ready to question what was going on.
You couldnât understand why he was leaving but you couldnât tear your eyes away from the images. It seemed it was progressing to show a mix of how your relationship had transpired over the years. From every emotionally charged yet pushed aside moment, to every squabble and every time the rest of the team trapped the two of you somewhere to talk as well as the infuriating times each of them attempted to convince either of you to do something about your feelings. It showed the highs and lows of everything that had happened since Kaller too and it reminded you of just how much youâd all endured and survived.
It was a strange thing to watch, to see how obvious your feelings were yet you knew youâd waited so long before acting on them. It was so evident that the two of you were always drawn together and it would always be that way, the love radiated through, and it was something that had continued to this day.
--
âYouâre not supposed to be here.â Hunter hissed as he herded his brothers and Omega behind some rocks. Keeping this secret was hard enough and he was almost there but the appearance of his supportive and rather determined family might be the final thing that gave everything away before he had the chance to even ask you yet.
âBut Echo was always allowed to-â Omega started to protest quietly.
âI needed him here.â Hunter couldnât risk receiving this item until the last minute since he wasnât sure heâd be able to hide it well enough from you and the last thing he wanted was you to find it accidentally before he had the chance to do things how he wanted.
âHere it is.â Echo handed said item over to him.
âThank you.â Hunter said appreciatively as he took the small velvet encased box. âBut how hard did you try telling this lot not to come down?â
âEh, not very.â Echo admitted simply. âCome on, Hunter. We all wanted to be here to watch this.â
Hunter did know that, and he wasnât truly upset, he actually really appreciated everything theyâd all helped with. âAlright, alright. Just keep quiet, please?â
Everyone nodded.
Hunter knew they were never going to follow that, but he didnât have time to push the matter.
âBetter get going. By my calculations, the video should be finishing in the next minute.â Tech informed him.
--
The video came to an end, and you couldnât believe Hunter missed sharing this with you. You sensed him approach but as you turned to question why heâd left, your breath caught in your throat, and you forgot how to form words as you saw him down on one knee and presenting a ring to you.
--
Hunter had rehearsed this so many times, yet his adrenaline was pumping like crazy, but he was determined to see this through to its proper end. He wasnât about to ruin it because he got jittery. He took a deep, grounding breath before he started to speak. He kept his voice low and though he spoke quietly, he filled each word with intense and sincere meaning.
âI spent so much of the war doing what was asked of me. Winning each battle, completing each mission and that was easy for me, it was comfortable, I knew what I was doing, what my responsibilities were but I was also running on autopilot. I kept moving, doing what needed to be done, it was a routine that I didnât see myself really breaking f-from. Un-â
He paused to settle his own emotions that rising in his chest and throat. âUntil you. You came into my life, and Iâd never known Iâd been living in a galaxy of grey until I met you and you, with your fire and your strength, brought the colour Iâd been missing. You could probably tell from that holo, but everything changed that day and Iâve never been more grateful for it. I knew from the second we met on Devaron that I was hooked. I was yours and I never wanted you to leave. I love you.â He said fiercely. âI love all of you. I love your kindness. I love your mind. I love your courage. I even love your stubbornness, no matter how much stress it causes me. I love how, no matter what, you donât stop fighting. I love having you by my side, even if youâre arguing with me. I love how youâre always ready to face whatever is sent your way, unless itâs a spider and then youâre more than happy to surrender the room.â He added, the corner of his mouth twitching to hide his teasing grin before he carried on, âI love how you are with Omega. I love how well you fit in with my brothers. I love you in a way Iâd never seen myself capable of, yet you make it so easy to do. Weâve been through so much; Iâve nearly lost you more times than I care to count but it also told me somethingâŠâ
He allowed himself a second to breathe before he went into the final part, âI want it all with you. I know weâve already got the home, the kid and the dog, and youâve got the crazy in-laws.â He smiled as you let out a choked but genuine laugh at that. âI want to take the final step with you which is why Iâm down on one knee and asking you this question...â He inhaled as he finally asked, âWill you marry me?â He finished and waited anxiously. He really hoped the silent tears running down your face were happy ones.
--
âWrecker, get in the back, I need to record this, and I cannot see past you.â Tech demanded in a hushed whisper as the four of them watched from behind a cluster of rocks.
âDid she say yes? I canât hear anything.â Wrecker asked, his voice rising slightly in distress. He didnât want to miss any of this.
Crosshair spoke up next, âI see tears so it could go either way.â
Omega slapped his arm. âIâm sure theyâre happy tears.âÂ
âHereâs an idea⊠why donât we wait to see it all play out first before we start talking about it?â Echo suggested sensibly.
--
His family were quite possibly the least subtle people on the planet. Hunter still hadnât heard your answer yet, but he could hear them no problem. He waved a hand behind him to signal at them to shut up.
A happy sob mixed with laughter echoed from your lips as you looked past him saw the group of people further down the beach keenly looking on.
You brought your eyes back to Hunter. You had so many things you wanted to say, so many affirmations you wanted to give yet the first dumb thing that left your mouth was an answer in the form of a question, âAre you sure?â
Hunter chuckled as he placed the ring on your finger, the stones dazzling under the moon and fairy light. Â âIâve never been more sure of anything in my life.â
You flexed your hand as you admired the stunning ring. The design of the silver band was simple with a white round cluster diamond in the centre but what really got to you was the two smaller blue diamonds on either side of it. Their shade was exactly like that of your old lightsaber. Your words left you in a frantic state of joy. âItâs beautiful- You got- how- I mean-â You couldnât find the words. Instead, you just fell to your knees in front of him and kissed him fervently. I love you; I love you; I love you.
Hunter cradled your face in his hands as he pulled away for a short moment to respond, âI love you too.â
Feeling a bit more collected, you pressed your forehead against his. And I meant to say that I am yours too. I may not have realised it then, but I was yours on Devaron. I saw you, spoke to you and Iâd never experienced a feeling like that before. Iâd spent so much time doubting if Iâd made the right choice by leaving the Order, if I was wrong for believing what I did, but then I met this squad. You retreated a couple inches to look Hunter directly in his brown eyes which were filled with emotion, and you added even more devotion to your tone. And I met you and suddenly I finally realised what Iâd been missing. So, yes. Yes, I would love to marry you.
Hunter grinned adoringly at you before he kissed you again. Both of you smiling hard as you kissed one another in short, passionate bursts.
A series of whoops and gleeful cries interrupted your moment and the two of you got to your feet just as Wrecker bounded over and picked the two of you up, squeezing tightly.
âCongratulations!!â Wrecker bellowed as he put you down again.
âIâm so happy for you!â Omega cried as she and Batcher went next. She wrapped her arms around both your waists and the dog took turns jumping up on the two of you. âLet me see the ring!â Omega requested enthusiastically as she pulled away from you both. âAh itâs so pretty!â
âAbout time.â Echo said kindly with Crosshair nodding in agreement. Â
âIndeed.â Tech concurred as he too smiled at you both.
âYou all knew?â You asked as you wiped away a few remaining tears with your uncaptured hand.
âYou think Hunter could pull this off by himself?â Crosshair said with a mocking scoff in his brotherâs direction, but he gave you both a genuine and pleased smile.
âLook, I had the ideas and I just needed help with the logistics of everything.â Hunter still felt the need to clarify.
âSo, all of thisâŠâ You trailed off and gestured to the stunning set up that had been arranged.
âYeah, they all helped me out.â Hunter told you. âAnd it wasnât like Iâd be able to keep it from them anyway.â
âAll of you helped?â You repeated again. What had you done to deserve finding such a perfect family?
âI obviously put together the video and I was recording this moment.â Tech stated, adjusting his goggles. âItâs just as well I back everything up or the Marauder getting destroyed wouldâve proven to be more problematic than it already was.â
âAnd Omega and I set this up!â Wrecker boasted proudly.
âAnd I helped with the ring.â Echo said. âHunter laid out the design and I knew a guy who knew a guy who owed him a favour.â
âAnd you?â You asked Crosshair with a smile.
Crosshair feigned an aggrieved sigh.
âYou were too late in claiming the set-up job.â Tech recalled. âAnd Echo and I had very clear responsibilities, you were just too slow.â
âYes, Crosshair, unfortunately, had the worst job out of all of them.â Hunter revealed.
âOh?â You regarded Crosshair curiously.
âI had to listen to him panic over and over again about every single detail and doubt in his head over this whole thing. Didnât matter that we all knew you were going to say yes, he was a nervous wreck. It was up to me to keep him sane.â Â Crosshair told you. He truly hadnât minded, and it had offered more opportunities for him to hone his skills since he was a hand down.
You looked at the man who was usually so put together and who had never let even the most daunting of chaotic war battles phase him. âSeriously?â
Hunter nodded and awkwardly rubbed his hand along the side of his neck. âYeah, he was the one I needed to knock some sense into me, sometimes literally I might add.â He said with a pointed look in Crosshairâs direction. Â
âThat way worked the best.â Crosshair said with a nonchalant shrug.
Hunter turned to you again, âAnd it still wasnât enough. Believe it or not, I didnât want to start sweating beforehand.â
You laughed before you addressed all of them. âThank you. All of you. This was absolutely perfect! Iâm so grateful!â
Another group hugged happened before Wrecker and Omega excitedly bounced on soles of their feet.
âCome on, the partyâs just getting started!â Wrecker urged.
âWait, I thought-â You broke off and looked to Hunter.
Hunter gave you a knowing grin. âYou didnât think the people of Pabu were going to let this go uncelebrated, did you?â
You inhaled sharply. âThis partyâŠâ
âIs also serving as a congratulations on getting engaged.â Tech confirmed as he walked past you. âHunter and Shep thought the whole thing through.â
âItâs a good thing you said yes or that wouldâve been really awkward.â Echo commented with a smile as he too headed back up.
Well, that explained why Hunter was so dismissive of the change in attitudes the two of you had received in recent times as well as his caginess towards certain phrases or questions you asked. And Lyraâs sudden appearance as well as her âgiftsâ checked out a bit more too. You stared at Hunter, incredibly impressed. âYou somehow managed to plan this entire thing and I had no idea?â
Hunter nodded. âA lot of kind people live around us, but the price of their assistance was that theyâre terrible at secret keeping and also made my life a living hell.â Hunter kidded before he kissed you once more and led you back the way you came, the delightful cold metal of your ring pressing against his fingers.
--
The walk back up to the colonnade was filled with cheers and celebratory whistles as the two of you reappeared. Much of the party remained the same except now a huge congratulations banner was on display.
Shep came over to you and hugged you. âCongratulations!â
âThank you, Shep. For all of it. This is amazing!â You returned his warm embrace.
Shep parted and shook Hunterâs hand. âEverything go well?â
âVery. Thank you for all your help. I couldnât have done it without you.â Hunter said gratefully.
âIâm just glad you finally did it. We were all losing hope that it wasnât going to happen.â
âThey were?â You nudged Hunterâs shoulder playfully.
âAfter we recovered from Tantiss, I was apparently still moving too slowly.â Hunter said lightly.
âWe need not dwell on such things now. Please, enjoy the celebrations!â Shep waved goodbye as he went to make the rounds once more.
âIncoming.â Hunter warned you.
âWhat-â You were nearly tackled by the woman who had clattered into your side.
âAbout damn time!â
 âThat seems to be the general consensus.â You said as you steadied yourself against Lyraâs eager hug.
âLet me see!â Lyra took your hand and gasped in admiration. âOh, itâs gorgeous!â She then looked to Hunter. âYou did good, well done!â She swivelled her attention back to you. âAnd you! You are going to get the best wedding dress ever! I have so many designs in mind already!â
âCanât wait for that.â You said and you meant it but that didnât stop the wary laugh you emitted either.
âMy drink is empty, but we will talk more!â With that, she hurried away.
âIâm never going to be able to keep up with her on anything.â You commented as you watched her go, a soft smile on your face.
âRather you than me. Iâm all set.â Hunter said smugly.
Your response was interrupted by an approaching Rodian.
âCourtesy of Phee.â
You and Hunter took the cocktails from the tray the rather timid new island resident offered and looked into each otherâs eyes as you clinked glasses. The two of you too caught up in the bliss of the moment to notice that your cinnamon sugar-rimmed glass had tracings of a white powder mixed in amongst it.
--
The next morning
To say you felt like hell would be an understatement. You awakened with a deep groan and rolled over onto your front.
Hunter woke up to the sound and saw that you were awake, but you were face down in your pillow. âAnd how are you feeling this morning?â He quipped.
You groaned again. âI am going to say this with all the love I can possibly muster⊠fuck off.â The threat lost some weight since your voice was muffled by the presence of the pillow.
âI didnât think Jedi could get hungover.â Hunter said, a teasing lilt to his voice.
âYes well, I was always making waves one way or another and here is another prime example of that. How many of those damn Phee cocktails did I drink?â
âI only saw you drink one, but the party ran late, and we werenât together the entire time, but you were with Lyra a bunch, so I figured you were going her pace. You were pretty out of it when we were heading home, you fell asleep instantly.â
The entire evening post that one cocktail was a total blur, so you just had to accept that. The deep pain and nausea you were experiencing just had to be the effects of a first and truly awful hangover. âIâm so sorry. I really didnât plan on that at all.â
Hunter shushed your unnecessarily apology and placed light kisses along your shoulders and down your spine. âWhat do you need?â
âA lobotomy and a new stomach.â You grunted.
âNaturally⊠and if I canât get that arranged?â
You angled your head to face him and rubbed your thumb along his cheek affectionately. âI just need a few hours alone to sleep it off, Iâll be okay.â
Hunter got out of bed and quietly got dressed. âIâll see what I can find to help. Iâll be back in an hour.â He lightly squeezed your shoulder
You watched him leave and let that concern youâd been feeling take hold. You felt absolutely exhausted and though youâd never been hungover before, something about this felt different but you couldnât think of what or why that would be.
You pushed it to the back of your mind for now and focused on sleeping and feeling better. You had a future to plan, you werenât about to let this throw a wrench in things.
--
Hunter had been waylaid by more people who he didnât have the time to both thank and accept their congratulations from so he was later than heâd told you but the minute he entered the house, he knew something was wrong and it wasnât because he was late.
That was when he heard the sounds of someone- well it would only be you- graphically vomiting. He dumped the supplies heâd gathered and hustled to the open refresher door where you were hunched over the toilet.
âSweetheart, how long have you been like this?â Hunter asked, his concern evident as he rushed in and took over holding your hair just as you finished throwing up.
âUh, when did you leave?â You rasped through sore, heavy breaths as you righted yourself but still remained slouched against small gap between the toilet and the shower.
âAn hour and a half ago.â Hunter said quietly as he sat down next to you and stroked your knee in a soft, consoling gesture.
âOh good, I got to sleep for thirty minutes.â You said wryly through gritted teeth. âThen I guess itâs been pretty much every ten minutes.â
Hunter got to his feet and ran a washcloth under some cold water for you before he dabbed it against your clammy forehead and the back of your neck. âYou should get back to bed.â He said tenderly.
âI tried earlier but leaving the bathroom floor isnât an opti-â You stopped short before you held your head over the toilet bowl and the whole process began again. âAny time you want to take this off, say the word.â You mumbled as you pitifully waved your left hand in Hunterâs direction before another ugly wretch sounded from you and your body heaved as somehow more vomit left your system.
âEnough of that.â Hunter soothed as he gathered your hair again. âI think we need to go see Dalia.â
You managed to shake your head just as the last of your stomach contents dispensed from your system. She was someone people go to with an actual injury or medical problem and this was certainly not that. This was just you not being able to handle your alcohol... it had to be. Â Â
âThen how about Tech?â Hunter compromised quietly as he rubbed delicate circles on your back.
You resisted the urge to wince at the action that usual would bring you comfort but instead was only sharpening the thankfully now dulling ache in your limbs. âNo, no. Iâm-â You sat back once more and shakily got to your feet. âI think I just hurled my entire insides out which seems to have helped.â You accepted the water from him, and you had to make a conscious effort to drink slowly since your parched and sore throat welcomed the cool liquid. The nausea and general bodily pain were less, and you didnât want to make a fuss, especially after all that had been done for you the night before. âIâm feeling better.â You said but as you went to step out the refresher, you immediately became lightheaded and swayed violently on your feet.
âSweetheart, please.â Hunter implored as he caught your shoulders. Heâd seen hangovers but this seemed more serious than your typical post drinking consequences and it was worrying him.
âOkay, we can start with Tech.â You conceded as the room finally came back into focus.
âIâll comm him.â
âNo, I want to walk. I donât think being cooped up is doing me any favours.â You said as firmly as you could convey.
Even in your weakened state, Hunter could tell that was a point he wasnât going to win an argument on. He gently placed his arm around you as you gingerly made your way to the door.
--
From afar, the Rodian and Twilek watched through macrobinoculars as their target left her home with her joined up with the rest of the clones.
âHow is she out and about?â The rodian remarked in astonishment.
The twilek sighed in aggravation. âRemember what the boss said, sheâs a fighter and sheâs strong. You clearly got the dose wrong. Sheâs able to be out here cause she had to have thrown it all up.â
âBut the boss also wants her alive, I gave the amount I was sure would leave her vulnerable but wouldnât kill her.â
âWell, we canât take her whilst sheâs surrounded by that group anyway, and even if we get her alone, she needs to be fully incapacitated for us to even have a shot...â
âWhat are you saying?â The rodian asked nervously. Heâd never been as sure or as excited about this job as his twilek partner was, but the money was too good to pass up. But there was a new kind of sociopathic gleam in the twilekâs eyes that unnerved him.
âIâm saying we up the dose until her body canât fight it.â Life here was slow and the satisfaction heâd glean from watching you and the people around you hopelessly attempt to figure out and fight what was wrong with you was an opportunity too tempting to ignore.
To the rodian, that sounded awfully risky. Both for them and their target. This stuff was extremely lethal even in a small amount. Plus, the longer they lingered, the higher the chance that theyâd be discovered. And he knew his poisons- this one was one of his own inventions too- which was how he also knew it was particularly volatile when given in large quantities. The build-up of symptoms was designed to make the recipient so agonised and weakened that theyâd wish for a death that would never arrive but that was when administered at regular intervals of the same low quantityâ death didnât have to be the end result, the torture was what one would buy this poison for. But, if they went with this strategy, every deadly symptom would hit you all at once and he knew youâd never survive that which wasnât useful to their specific remit. However, the twilek had been put in charge and he wasnât someone he wanted to be on the bad side of. âThe boss wonât be happyâŠâ
The twilek dismissed that without skipping a beat, âSo, we wonât tell her yet. We just need to get the Jedi to the boss alive for the premium cut of the deal. After that, who the hell cares how she ends up.â Â His voice wavered in an attempt to stay level-headed with the rodian. This whole poisoning method was so tiresome- he much preferred a straight fight- but theyâd been warned off that with this whole squad. Hence why he was stuck with this jittery rodian who had gotten into this line of work through offering his services and using his skills as an apothecary for what sensitive people would deem immoral uses and gains. But even he had to admit, a Jedi was easier to apprehend if they couldnât fight back and everyone here was so stupidly trusting, it made getting access to you almost too easy. The trickiest and most time-consuming part would be getting you alone but from their brief, he knew that time would arrive sooner or later, he just needed to be patient.
--
3 weeks later
You finished dry-heaving and risked a glance in the mirror above the sink as you slowly went upright as it became clear nothing was coming up. You regretted that decision immediately.
You barely recognised the person staring back at you.
Your clothes stuck to you uncomfortably. The fever was a new addition as of last week and your hair was slick with sweat, and you wiped away the drops slowly sliding down your temples.
Your face was sunken and devoid of all life.
Dark circles were under your eyes, so dark that they couldâve been mistaken for bruises. There was no light behind them at all, no sign of that lively spark that had once been a constant part of you.
It was as if all your fire and vibrancy had evaporated.
You looked like a shell of a human being.
To top it all off, you noticed spots of blood at the corners of your mouth and in the saliva that youâd hacked up, but you put that down to the strain your throat had been put through. Cleaning up, you took one last strengthening breath but even that was proving to be more effort than youâd expected. You then heard a quiet knock on the other side of the door
You opened the refresher door to see Hunter standing waiting with his now standard worried expression on his face and your flask of water. Heâd stopped offering you food in the early stages when it became clear you couldnât hold it down and even water appeared to be a struggle.
You rejoined the group of people in the living room who were all here to supposedly help you plan the ceremony but all you got was the sea of nervous and concerned expressions from your squad- and that included Echo who had planned to leave once you were feeling better, but that day was yet to arrive- and Dalia. âIâm fine.â You exhaled wearily as you sat down. You thought just flinging yourself into what shouldâve been a good distraction would aid in your recovery but, aside from the reduction in vomiting, things werenât looking that much improved. In fact, youâd probably admit theyâd gotten worse. You realised there were two faces missing. âWhere are Shep and Lyra?â You asked, your voice strained and hoarse. You rubbed your arms because, despite the humid day, you felt goosebumps rise on your skin.
Wrecker placed a blanket around your shoulders.
âThey didnât think discussing flower arrangements was a smart use of your energy.â Crosshair remarked in a clipped tone, but it came from a place of care. He, like the rest of them, was growing more and more disturbed as your condition continued to deplete.
You lacked the gumption to argue with him so instead you just nodded in acknowledgement that youâd heard him.
Hunter noted you still hadnât drunk from the water heâd handed you. He tapped the cup to prompt you to do so. âIf you would just lie down...â
You did it for him but even water tasted wrong as it went down your throat and it really didnât sit well. âRemember that stubbornness you love?â You said through a grimace. Plus, sleep pretty much eluded you these days.
âThis is one of those times where it drives me crazy.â Hunter muttered fretfully.
âIf I just sit around, Iâll go insane. I-â You lost energy halfway through your attempted to explain your reasoning. Instead, you readied yourself for the medical questions from Tech and Dalia- the town healer- that were sure to come your way now.
âYour fever is getting worse.â Tech observed as he took your vitals.
âBacta wonât do you any good anymore. Youâre just burning it off.â Dalia said as she confirmed Techâs words.
âAnd I checked with AZ, his recent round of tests came up with nothing.â Omega said defeatedly, patting Batcher in an attempt to quell her worries.
âSo, what else can you do?â Hunter asked Dalia and Tech anxiously. It really felt like they were running out of options. He saw you hunch over in pain, and he didnât need to touch you to feel the heat radiating off you. He instinctively reached out to offer you some semblance of physical comfort, but he knew that hurt you now, so he stopped himself.
Tech started first, âWe can test for-â
You straightened up and once the room stopped spinning, put on a brave face. âLook, we ruled everything out. Itâs just stress, Tech. Besides, Iâm not even throwing up anymore, itâs just dry heaving so thatâs progress.â You said, attempting for levity but you were too exhausted to convey it.
âIâve seen you stressed; your symptoms were not of this format nor this severe.â
âSo, itâs a different type of stress.â You said tiredly as you forced yourself to stay upright.
âAnd your pain?â Dalia asked as she took examined you as best she could in this particular circumstance. Your medical case was infuriating, one because she liked you and hated seeing you in this state, and two, because she hated not knowing how to help you. Everything she had attempted had proven useless. She knew your ailments but had no idea what was causing them. Your pain wasnât localised, and no pain killers were working. All she knew for sure was that you were incredibly dehydrated and sleep-deprived, your entire body ached, you couldnât stomach anything, and you had a fever that was reaching near dangerous levels. How you still functioning had to be due to your special abilities, but it was also a testament to your sheer strength and force of will.
The pain was getting harder and harder to ignore. âWellâŠâ You nervously fidgeted with your ring.
âItâs worse?â Dalia and Hunter said together in the same troubled tone.
âLetâs just say the sedatives youâve given me to sleep are losing their effectiveness.â You mumbled.
âI can give you a stronger dose.â Dalia offered. It wasnât a suggestion she liked giving but she was running out of ideas.
âIâm not spending my time half awake and barely alive.â The irony of the comment given your present condition was not lost on you though. âI still get a few hours with what youâve already provided. Itâll do.â Although, saying you got even a few hours was also a generous statement. Â
âYou canât be serious.â Echo couldnât help but protest, voice rising in concern. âA few hours arenât enough to-â
âEchoâŠâ Hunter warned. Heâd already gone down this path with you and it was something youâd never budge on.
Dalia heaved a sigh as she finished up and took a fresh blood sample for comparison to previous ones. She readied to leave. âLook, me being here throwing useless suggestions your way isnât helping either. Best I can advise is slow down. Iâm going to run through your labs again.â With that, Dalia got to her feet and headed for the door.
âThanks for coming by.â You said to her, your voice heavy with effort it took to sound somewhat normal.
âFor the record, that was not convincing.â Crosshair told you as he took your water canteen to refill it since Hunter was seeing Dalia out. âWhy didnât you take the damn sedatives?â
âIf Hunter canât even get me to do that, what makes you think you can?â You pointed out as you curled in on yourself. You also knew they truly wouldnât make a difference.
You were growing more and more aware of the reality of your situation, and it wasnât anything that could be prevented.
--
Hunter caught Daliaâs arm just before she exited. âDalia, she physically canât go on like this for much longer. And itâs not just because sheâs refusing to ease up. There are days where I can convince her to just stay in bed, but itâs not helping.â He whispered, doing his best to keep his voice level as his worries threatened to overcome him.
âHunter, Iâm sorry. Iâm looking into everything, I promise.â Dalia said in a quiet voice. âTech and I even checked for poisons, but nothing came up. But Iâm not going to stop, I swear it.â
Hunter sighed heavily and pinched the bridge of his nose. âI know, Dalia. Thank you.â Hunter said sincerely before he shut the door and took a calming breath as he turned around and filled him with both sadness but gratitude. All of them were doing what they could do support you.
He watched as Wrecker and Omega delicately fussed with your blanket, Tech continued to study furiously on his datapad for anything that might correlate to what was causing your illness, and even Crosshair was making sure you were drinking water regularly. But then, he saw that recognisable look in your eyes, and he saw Echo help you to your feet before you staggered to the refresher, and he exhaled shakily as he got control over his own deep anxieties over your condition.
He followed you to the refresher again, ignoring the fretful looks his family were sending both his and each otherâs way.
--
You hadnât managed to lock him out this time, so he was able to enter, shut the door and collect the hair falling forward around your face. Every miserable effort your body put you through in an attempt to rid you of whatever it was that was causing this sickness only exacerbated the strain on your worn out and frail form. He kept trying to not fixate on it because they were all working on figuring this out and he had to believe that someone would find something⊠because he knew you were running out of time.
You finished up and exhaled a shuddering breath, âIt hurts, Hunter. Everything just hurts.â You admitted, your voice racked with agony. You only wanted it to stop. You needed it to stop.
Hunterâs chest tightened. âWeâre going to find out what this is.â He promised. He reached for you but hesitated.
The need to be held by him overpowered the subsequent discomfort and you folded into his embrace and let the silent defeated tears finally fall.
--
âI really hate this, you know.â Hunter griped worriedly as he got ready to leave you at the door and spend the night with his brotherâs and Omega. Somehow him saying you needed to get to sleep had turned into you sleeping here by yourself. Despite the fact that theyâd all wanted to spend the night here; youâd gotten them to agree to leave you alone. How youâd managed to do that, he had absolutely no idea.
You knew he did but with all your tossing and turning in your feverish delirium, he wasnât getting much rest either and you hated that more than you hated your own sickness. You raised your hand, your arm feeling unnaturally heavy, and placed it on his chest to quell his fears but even that simple action sent a sharp pain through your limbs.
Hunter noticed your efforts to conceal your discomfort and what youâd said in the refresher was still plaguing his head. How could you expect him to leave you like this. âPlease let me stay, I really donât mind-â
âHunter, you havenât had a solid nightâs sleep since the night of the party. Thereâs no sense in us both suffering here.â You just about managed to give him a smile of reassurance. âItâs just one night and youâre only a few houses down. If I need anything, Iâll get you on the comm, I promise.â
âI wonât sleep any better away from you. I-â
âBut here you have no choice. I need to know you at least had the option.â You insisted as you fought against the urge to slump into his arms. Your entire body felt like lead.
âBut-â
âIâll see you in the morning.â You said with finality before your voice softened. âIâm only asking you do this for one night. Just one night where I donât have to worry about you.â
âWorry about me?â Hunter repeated with combined fondness and exasperation. At least that sounded more like you. âSweetheart, the only person that anyone needs to worry about is you and that should include you.â
âWhat if I promise to spend all my time tonight worrying only about myself?â You offered, a hint of your old spark coming through before it was squashed by another bout of pain settling in your muscles. Your jaw clenched in an attempt to keep your groan contained. You thumb fiddled with your ring in an attempt to distract yourself.
Hunter picked up on that too but not wanting to put you under the strain of further deliberation, released a long, drawn-out breath and managed a stiff and reluctant nod of consent to this idea.
âThank you.â You whispered. âI love you.â
âI love you too.â Hunter replied as he caressed your fingertips with his own. It was the closest to an affection gesture that he could offer you now.
âBatcher is going to stay with you.â Omega said with a slightly nervous smile as she patted the hound farewell. âJust in case.â She knelt down in front of the dog and stroked the underside of her chin. âLook after her, Batcher.â
Batcher gave her an affirmative bark in reply before she came and sat by your side.
âThanks kid.â You waved as she and the others departed but Hunter still lingered. âGo.â You ordered with a half-smile.
With one final look in your direction, Hunter finally forced himself to leave.
You shut the door and braced your forehead against it as a fresh wave of dizziness and pain coursed through your body. You felt a wet nose nuzzle against your hand with a quiet whine. You opened your eyes to see Batcher looking up at you with an intense, concerned stare. âIâm alright, girl.â You winced as you pushed yourself away. You were employing the strategy that if you told yourself that enough times, maybe one day it would prove to be true.
You debated the effort of going all the way to your bed, but your body gave up halfway there, so you decided on the convenience of the couch, Batcher curled up on the floor beside you.
--
Hours had passed. You werenât sleeping but you were working on attempting to trick your body into thinking it could by keeping your eyes shut.
The sound of barking caused you to finally give up and open them which you did, and you were greeted by the sight of Batcher snarling at the dark shape looming over you and watched as it reacted quickly to the attacking hound and the stun blast took Batcher out before she had the chance to inflict any damage.
To say you reacted sluggishly would be an understatement. You could barely will your body to move out of the way of the threat. Your eyes finally quickly adjusted, you realised it was a male twilek and he was currently sticking a need filled with a clear liquid into your thigh.
You finally slapped his hand away but not before the needle pierced your skin.
You shot to your feet, stumbling slightly as you recovered from the head rush that hit you as a result.
You immediately felt faint.
A fresh wave of intense pain tore its way through your body and the nausea and overall weakness that overwhelmed you was scarily familiar.
It was then you realised what heâd just infected you with was in fact the source your sickness. But what you couldnât understand was how it didnât show up on any of the scans and tests youâd undertaken. Even though at the time youâd thought it rather unnecessary, you had been checked multiple times for poisons in your blood, yet this got missed and that was deeply concerning in its own right.
The other concern was, judging by how feeble and breathless you became, this was finally the one that your body couldnât fight against, and you didnât know how much longer you could hold out. If you could just get to your commâŠ
âYouâve got a very protective group. I thought theyâd never leave. Thank you for finally sending them away.â The twilek said, utterly unphased by being discovered. He stalked around the couch and placed himself between you and the front door. Â
âHow did you get-â You then remembered the open window in your bedroom.
âItâs funny how little people care about the security of their homes and personal effects here. You were basically inviting all of this.â He twirled his blaster with arrogant nonchalance. He saw the way you were clutching your side like you could brace yourself against the pain coursing through your veins and your knees buckled but you caught yourself against the coffee table the move seeing the cup of water fall to the ground, cracking with the impact. âNow, let me see, Iâve been hearing enough about how this poison works to remember some of the effects. Let me guessâŠâ He tapped the tip of his blaster against his chin as he listed them off as you pitifully worked on getting to your feet, âConstant nausea, insomnia, fever, dizzy spells and extreme bodily pain. None of which standard medical can defeat. Iâm sure I missed some but those are definitely the highlights. Does that sound about right?â  He taunted.
You forced yourself to stand tall. Your eyes darted to your comm link on the kitchen counter.
âI wouldnâtâŠâ The twilek warned in irritation as he stalked towards you.
You didnât listen. You channelled whatever energy you had left and landed kick to his stomach- the action causing you more pain than it did him- and made a dash towards it.
Just as you grabbed it, you felt a brutally take hold of the back of your neck and smack your head against the edge of the counter. Blood poured from the fresh cut on your forehead, and you collapsed to the floor with a pained cry and cups and plates came smashing to the ground around you.
You shook away the black spots encroaching on your vision and attempted to crawl along the floor to your discarded comm device, sharp pieces of debris cutting into your palms, your body screaming in agony with the effort.
âI gotta give you credit.â He picked at his cuticles. âYou lasted longer than I thought you would but Iâm sick of this place so if you donât mind, Iâm going to speed this along.â
You felt a knee on your back and the butt of a blaster smack against your temple, turning your world black.
--
âDid you have to beat her like that? The poison has clearly been working. One stun blast and sheâd be done.â The rodian chastised as he saw the twilek unceremoniously dump your freshly bruised body on the floor of the ship. He swivelled in the pilotâs chair and turned the ship on.
âThe bitch still put up a fight. Besides, you had your fun with your little concoction. I needed mine. Now, hold on, weâre not leaving just yet.â
âWhy the hell not?â
âGive me two minutes.â With that, the twilek took off the engagement ring and departed the ship.
âYou didnât use that final vial, did you?â The rodian called after him but he got no answer.
--
The following morning
Hunter roused from his restless slumber. It had been a mildly better night but not one heâd be looking to repeat.
He tidied his section of the floor heâd been given- it was a tight squeeze with all six of them here- and put away his sleep mat and spoke to his family who were all gathered in the kitchen, nursing cups of caf. âIâm heading back to check on her.â
âWeâll join you momentarily.â Tech said, his sights fixed firmly on his datapad.
Hunter nodded but as he opened the door, his blood ran cold as he saw what was on the doorstep. He kneeled down to pick it up and a new type of panic sat heavy in his chest.
âHunter?â Echo had been the one to call over, but theyâd all noticed the change in his posture.
Hunterâs head snapped in the direction of the sound of frantic, worried barks and he saw Batcher come sprinting around the corner. He started running, the rest of his squad following close behind.
--
The front room set the scene for Hunter in brief yet terrifying detail.
The floor was a mess of broken glass and smears of blood.
Your comm lay abandoned on the ground.
And you were nowhere to be found.
Hunter couldnât breathe, he couldnât best the tightening in his chest and the fear taking root in his heart. All he could hear was a high-pitched droning in his ears and it took everything in him not to succumb to the terror he was experiencing as he realised you had been taken from him. Again. Â
Around him, his brothers already started analysing the scene.
âThe Empire-â Wrecker began to ask.
âRex and I have been monitoring them and they have no idea where any of you are. This isnât them.â Echo disagreed.
âItâs not their style either.â Crosshair stated.
âIt is highly possible that a bounty hunter infiltrated this place in. Technically, I believe the price on her head would still stand.â Tech theorised.
âBut who would know where we are?â Omega asked him.
âIt would be best to consider past interactions and any new people you came across post Eriadu as well as those we already know who can tie us here. Now, naturally that should include Phee and Lyra. They may have accidentally-â
âTech, no one on this island would ever give her or any of you up.â Echo argued.
Frustrations between all of them started to rise. They were going in circles and they knew your condition only made things that much more urgent.
âIâm very well aware of that fact but the truth is we need to think practically here. Someone knows where we are, and that knowledge has been used against us. Someone with enough skills to what I assume is poison her enough to take her out, and to elude all of us and take advantage of the very foundations of this place. Surely, there is someone that fits that profile.â
âThere are too many.â Crosshair countered.
âThereâs not way of knowing for sure.â Wrecker agreed with Crosshair. âAnd she needs us now.â
âWell, we need to start somewhere.â Tech said logically though he had to make an active effort to keep his own anxieties in check.
Meanwhile, Hunter carefully held your engagement ring and remembered the happiness and hope it was supposed to represent. How was that a little over a month ago, there had been so much excitement and joy in his life, and it had been so quickly overturned by pain and suffering. This was supposed to be a new life, a new beginning. You were supposed to be safe here, the threat of Hemlock and the Empire was over. Yet somehow, the past had come back to inflict more damage. Who could possibly have anything to gain from claiming that bounty? Who did they know that was that heartless, that calculated but would use a method so cowardly. And most importantly, knew they were here. Who couldâve- Hunter snapped out of it and pocketed your ring. He interrupted the steady stream of voices, âItâs Cid.â
All of them looked at him in bewilderment as he said that name.
âThe Trandoshan from Ord Mantell?â Crosshair double checked since heâd never actually met her, he only knew the name through stories, but he knew that her name had nothing positive to go with it.
Hunter nodded.
âHow do you know?â Wrecker asked.
âBecause everyone else wouldnât do this.â
âBut wouldnât we be aware of her presence here?â Tech pointed out.
âLyra wouldnât sell us out and neither would Phee. But thereâs another link between us and Phee, and thatâs Cid. Youâre talking about bounty hunters, and we know she doesnât do her own dirty work. It was her who told, same way she was the one that told the Empire we were here, and now sheâs doing it again.â Hunter said, his voice eerily calm. âTech, how much of the party did you record?â
âAll of it.â Tech responded and, already anticipating Hunterâs next question, he pulled up the footage.
All of the gathered round as Tech brought up the recording of the party, increasing the playback speed as the evening unfolded.
Hunter, swallowing harshly as he made himself ignore all the tender moments with you that made that evening feel so perfect, anxiously scanned the flashing scenes in front of his eyes, looking for that first instance where you got infected and where this plan all started. âThere!â
Tech paused the video feed.
âDammit.â Hunter clenched his hands into fists. How had he missed that? How had he let you down that badly? âDammit.â He hissed again under his breath before he departed and made for Shepâs.
âWhat did we miss?â Echo asked as the rest of them as they all stared at the frozen image of the rodian with the drink.
There was silence for a few minutes as they all peered at the screen.
Tech inhaled sharply as he next spotted the subtle difference. âThe white powderâŠâ
They all ran after their brother.
--
Shep heard an insistent pounding on his door and opened it to see Hunter standing there, breathing hard and there was a panic behind his eyes that he couldnât hide and to Shep, that only meant one thing. âIs she-â
Hunter wasnât even going to let him finish that thought. âThe rodian from the engagement party. Who is he?â He questioned sharply.
âThe rodian?â Shep repeated in confusion. This was the last thing he expected to hear.
âThe rodian at the party.â Hunter repeated hurriedly. âHe gave us our drink once we got back from the beach. He had yellow skin, quiet demeanour. He was new to the island; I didnât recognise him.â
Shep recovered quickly. âYes, yes.â He recalled the one Hunter was referring to. âHe arrived with a twilek. They were quiet, mostly kept to themselves.â
âWere?â Hunter repeated and he felt his squad approach from behind.
Shep pointed down the road, âI checked on the temporary housing we provided them to see how they were feeling about the move, but they are no longer there. What does this-â Shep was only met with the sights on all of them racing for that house.
--
Hunter took in the front room. From the clothes left behind and the general disarray in the living space, it was obvious that theyâd left in a hurry. He then noticed a puck for long range communications had also been forgotten about and that was the first time he felt a flicker of hope. âTech.â
âIâm on it.â Tech confirmed as he began working on hacking into the system to trace where the communications went.
Hunter and the others continued to search the house and that was when Hunter spotted an old wanted poster of you nailed to the wall with a knife through your face. Hunter tore it down and curled one into a tight ball in a flash of rage before he composed himself continued searching the area for any sign of where theyâd gone.
âHunter.â Omega called over as she opened a cabinet just above the sink.
Hunter walked over to where the young girl was and took in what she had found.
There was a vast array of discarded and empty vials inside the cupboard which were accompanied by a series of instructions for powder ingestion or liquid injection. Underneath the untidy scrawl, was also a list of symptoms that would accompany each dosage but what caused the fear he was working on supressing to spike was that it seemed to be that their plan had consisted of giving you the second-most lethal one.
But there was no name of the mixture, no list of ingredients to go off of or any signs of a cure. It only served to confirm that what you had been experiencing was a cruel, carefully maintained poisoning.
âIâve got the location.â Tech announced as he brought up the coordinates to Asusto.
Hunter memorised the number and he knew heâd be able to track you once he landed. Next, he barked out orders like heâd done for most of his life. âTech, you start getting what you can from these instructions. You thought it was a poison before, do what you can to narrow the list down. Omega, you help him. Iâll confirm what they did once I find them and get the antidote. The rest of you, help Dalia get ready for our return.â With that order, he turned on his heels and ran for home.
--
He entered the bedroom and started preparations to leave all the while doing his best to not let each reminder of you in here to distract him. You needed him focused, not frantic with worry. He reached under the bed and pulled out the case of depleted armour that heâd never thought heâd have to put on again. It wasnât even a complete set anymore, and it was still scratched and worn down, but it had to do. He grabbed his blaster and vibroblade and got ready to leave.
As he left, he saw that Wrecker, Echo and Crosshair had returned and were all stood there, blasters in hand and in whatever armour theyâd had post Tantiss. âNo.â He said immediately.
âDalia can handle setting up herself. Youâre not doing this alone. You need us as backup.â Echo reasoned.
âI canât ask that of you.â Hunter said with a firm shake of his head. This was supposed to be behind them, he wouldnât inflict this another fight on them.
âYouâre not asking, and neither are we. Weâre going with you.â Crosshair said definitively.
âYeah, you mess with one of us, you get all of us!â Wrecker said in agreement.
âI already told Rex and he ordered me to stay here. Youâre not doing this alone.â Echo added. âMy ship is ready whenever you are.â
Hunter dipped his head in thanks before he led the way out.
--
Your head was pounding.
The cuts on your palms stung.
Everything around you sounded fuzzy- it almost sounded like you were underwater- and from what your semi-conscious self could tell, you appeared to be in some sort of basement. You werenât cuffed or chained but that was probably because your captors realised you were hardly able to keep your eyes open, let alone plan an attack to get out of here. You could make out their blurry shapes just ahead of you, and you strained to hear why the rodian was in such a state. As you did so, you felt something wet dripping down your face, and you guess the damp basement had a leak somewhere.
âShitshitshit, this is why I told you not to give her that last dosage!â The rodian cried in a frantic panic.
You felt a coarse fabric scrape under your nose, and you saw the crimson stain of blood as it was pulled away⊠so, clearly, it wasnât a leaky roof. You had no doubt that signified the end for you- it was now only a matter of when- but your current disjointed thought process had you worrying more about the fact that the comforting presence of the ring on your left hand was no longer there.
âYou wanted her to be an easy grab, I made sure of it.â
âI donât have an antidote prepared!
âSo, make one.â The twilek said with no concern whatsoever.
âWith what ingredients? This was never the plan!â
âSheâll be dead before we even leave this room and if the boss doesnât kill us, the client sure as fuck will!â
âShe was as good as dead anyway; I only sped it along.â
âYou-â
âHow long?â You croaked, interrupting their argument.
The twilek ignored you but the rodian, wringing his hands anxiously, said, âAbout two hours.â
âAh.â You said plainly. âGuess you mistimed that one huh?â You winced as you curled into the fetal position as if it could ease the agony coursing through every fibre in your body.
âJust keep your mouth shut.â The twilek ordered as the both of you as they waited for their boss to show up.
--
You had been in and out of consciousness but came around to the sound of the rodian babbling to himself about how everything had gone to shit, and they were seconds away from getting killed. You clued in to the sounds of a door opening and footsteps descending to the basement.
You feebly raised your head and you saw the face you wished youâd never see again. âYou bitch. You fucking bitch.â You seethed weakly. The last bouts of your cognitive abilities put it together: Ord Mantell, the Empire on Pabu and now these bounty hunters being able to find you⊠it all fell into place. âBetraying us twice wasnât enough for you?â
Cid didnât let your words bother her. âMoney is money and youâre worth a lot of money.â
You attempted to sit up but the best you could manage was propping yourself up on your forearms. âI hate to break it to you, but the person in the Empire who wanted me is very much dead.â
âWho said it was the Empire?â Cid said coolly.
A new type of panic set in but you were distracted by the warm, wet liquid sliding down your face and on to your lips, the iron tang of it burning your tongue.
Cid then noticed the blood steadily dripping from your nostrils. She whirled on the two goons sheâd hired. âThatâs not supposed to appear until the last stage, how much did you give her?!â
The rodian just glanced to the twilek.
The twilek shrugged. âLook, boss, you told us to use the poison however we saw fit. She needed a hell of a lot more of it in her system, why do you think we took so long?â
âSheâs no good to me or the client if sheâs dead!â Cid said angrily. âHow long has she got?â
A beat of silence.
âAbout an hour.â The rodian informed her nervously.
Cid cursed under her breath. âWe donât meet the client until midnight!â
âJust push the meeting to now. Get her to the client alive and take the cash and get outta there.â The twilek suggested calmly.
âTheyâd know something was up. And weâd never get away with it with how she looks like now!â
âYou try what they gave me and see how good you look at the end of it.â You muttered in offence, a new type of delirium taking hold of you.
Cid paid you no attention. âWhat about the antidote?â She asked the rodian sharply. âThis is your poison; you must know how to counter it?â
âAw Cid, I knew you still cared.â You said hoarsely, and everything around you started to move in and out of focus, each haggard breath leaving you acted like a sick form of countdown.
âThe ingredients donât exist here, and I never brought them. It wasnât supposed to get to this point.â The rodian admitted.
Cid tossed her hands in the air, her own nerves steadily rising. âYou idiots! This deal was for a fit Jedi slave, and youâve given me someone that isnât going to last the next hour! How-â Her tirade was cut short by the sound of an explosion above them, dust descending from the ceiling with the impact.
âDo you know the great thing about having a family?â You said with a cold laugh. You forced yourself to sit up. You may be fighting a losing battle but one thing you still knew was who the cause of that explosion. Youâd sense them anywhere. âWe look out for one another.â You glowered at the twilek, âThat âprotective bunchâ are about to become your living hell.â
The twilek only glared at you.
âIf theyâve found us, itâs because you left a way for them to track our communications!â Cid said angrily.
âDonât look at me, heâs the one who was responsible for packing up.â The twilek said dismissively, readying his blaster for the fight heâd finally been waiting for.
âWell, he was the one that taunted them with the ring!â The rodian said in a panic as the thudding of footsteps drew closer.
âRing?â Cid repeated, her stomach dropping to her feet in fear. She glanced to your depleted form, and the realisation of just what precisely had developed between you and dark and broody since Ord Mantell cemented her fate. Sheâd royally messed this up.
âYou guys are fucked.â You said dazedly as you slouched against the wall and more blood spilled from your nostrils, staining your hands and the ground below.
The door at the top of the basement stairs crashed open and smoke engulfed the room.
--
Three precise shots fired through the smoke.
Cid raised her arms in instant surrender as the smoke dissipated and she saw the state of her hired bounty hunters. The twilekâs blaster had been shot out his hands and he was bleeding from a shot to just below the abdomen whilst the rodian took a hit to his shoulder. Both of them were now sprawled on the floor. She muttered an uneasy curse as she realised what was in store for her.
The effort of breathing and opening your eyes after each blink got tougher to maintain but you recognised the familiar tender touch under your chin from the man in kneeling in front of you. âHunter.â You said, your voice barely sounding above a whisper. Your eyes flickered open as you took him in.
Hunter wiped away the blood from your face, but it just kept coming, the sight of it heightening his persistent rising panic but he pushed it away. It wouldnât help you if he let you see how ruined with worry, he was. âWeâre getting you out of here, I promise.â He started to lift you to your feet, uttering soft words of comfort and reassurance as you went with him but each rasp and pained whimper from you only fuelled his anger further. âHold on. Just hold on.â He begged you quietly.
âIâve got her, Hunter.â Wrecker offered softly as he came to your side and took over. âHang in there.â He said to you, his gruff voice choking up with emotion as he took your weight and saw the way your face was drained of all life, the blood standing out too brightly against your skin.
Hunter waited until Wrecker was properly supporting you before he turned on the three adversaries. He ignored Cid for the moment, heâd deal with her last. Right now, his priority was getting your cure and for that, he needed the two hunters.
He did a quick scan of the two males, the twilek was gritting his teeth against the pain and his face was a cruel mask of indifference but the rodian was a mewling mess and his heart was pounding so loudly, Hunter had heard it from upstairs which meant that the rodian was his way in.
âTell me what you did to her.â His voice quiet with lethal softness as he stalked towards him. Â
But the rodian said nothing. Â
âFine.â With that, he stabbed the rodian just above the knee and angled to tip of the blade towards his kneecap and pushed. He also clamped his other hand down on the open shoulder wound and paid no attention to the miserable screams that emitted from the rodian.
Crosshair and Wrecker made no move to stop it either. Wrecker kept you propped up while Crosshair kept his rifle trained on the twilek and Echo guarded Cid.
âFuck! Oh fuck, no!â The rodian yelled as he writhed in an attempt to get away from the blade, but each movement only caused the blade to twist further into his joint.
âWhat did you do?â Hunter demanded again through the cries of pain. With both hands, he pressed harder.
The rodian spoke through the pain in a rapid, terrified manner, âIâll tell you everything! I- shit, just donât do that anymore! Itâs called Ghost. I c- created it. We put the powder in her water flask and coated her pain pills in it and spiked her sedatives with the liquid form! It- ow fuck- it canât be picked up on any medical scans and itâs got no taste or smell but itâs fatal when used excessively. Its main use is torture and incapacitation but for that, it needs to be used precisely. Thatâs all we wanted to do with her! I swear! But what I calculated for her didnât work so we upped the dose, but it was too much too quickly. I donât know how sheâs still going.â
Wrecker, Crosshair and Echo had to fight to keep their expressions neutral, but that information shook them all to their core. Theyâd helped this plan along and the thought left them repulsed.
The horror Hunter felt at the fact that theyâd all inadvertently been contributing to your declining health threatened to engulf him. He caught himself easing up on the rodian in the pure gut-wrenching shock of it all, but he gathered himself swiftly. âBut thereâs a cure.â Hunter insisted, angling his blade further towards the knee.
The rodian yelped in agony. âYes, thereâs- ah fuck- thereâs- a- an- an antitode!â
âShut up!â The twilek hissed command earning him a rifle butt to his face. His nose cracked and blood poured down.
âNo way! This shit wasnât what I signed up for!â
Hunter eased up on his pressure slightly to lure him into revealing more.
âHere, take it, take it.â The rodian winced as he reached into his inside vest pocket and took the piece of paper out- it had been the one critical piece of information he had the wits to remember to remove when theyâd left the island- but now he wanted it as far away from him as possible. He felt momentarily relief as the man removed his vice-like grip on his shoulder but that was swiftly replaced by fear as he saw a blaster pointed at his face. âNo, please donât! I promise I wonât tell-â
Hunter killed the rodian with a shot to the forehead. âGet that to information to Tech.â He ordered Echo sharply who took the paper with a nod and swiftly left the room.
Hunter fired two shots into Cidâs knees as she attempted to slip away once Echo departed.
Cid crashed to the ground, hissing in pain.
Your slumped form addressed the other hunter who was still alive. âYou two were slipping poison into my system for 3 weeks⊠didnât you have anything better to do with your lives?â
âIt worked, didnât it?â
You, still delirious, mimed applause. âYup, it did. Extra points for you. Although youâre 30 seconds away from death and I still have a good hour so whoâs the real winner here?â
The twilek saw the tattooed solider stalking darkly towards him. He wasnât going to die begging for his life like his rodian counterpart, heâd done something others could only dream of. âAnd youâre more than three hours away from Pabu. We beat you, youâre as good as-â
Hunter silenced his words with a single shot of his blaster.
You felt your legs completely give out with the effort it took to remain vertical.
Wrecker, unfortunately had to ignore your moans of since he was left with no choice but to strengthen the grip that he had on you. He didnât even need to have Hunterâs enhanced senses to see how grave your situation was now. He could barely feel your breaths leaving your body and each time he wiped away the blood, more continued to pour down.
Hunter heard your weak cries of protest, and he turned his attention to the pathetic excuse of an individual crawling on her front away from him, blood streaking the floor from the wounds in her knees. No matter how much he wanted to make this hurt, you were the priority here. He caught up with her is a couple steps, stamped down on her back before he roughly turned her around and replaced his foot harshly on her chest.
Cid couldnât run. She couldnât fight. But she knew fine well what was in store for her. âLook, bandana, it was just a bad business deal, okay? I didnât know they were doing to use so much. Youâve got the antidote, just take it and get her the help she needs.â She said tightly through the pain.
Her words filled him with pure disgust, and he couldnât stand to hear them anymore. With her out of the picture, it would finally all be over. The constant threat of her wouldnât plague them anymore.
âYou betrayed us three times. You donât get a fourth.â Hunter said, his voice steely with quiet and controlled rage.
âIt wasnât personal, it was a business deal. Iâm sure-â
Hunter cut her off with a shot to her face. He holstered his blaster.
âMove out.â He directed as he came to your opposite side and aided Wrecker in keeping you upright so you wouldnât choke on the blood gushing from your nose.
--
Wrecker passed you fully off to Hunter as you all entered the ship, and he joined his two other brothers in the cockpit.
Hunter laid you down carefully on the cot, angling your head so you wouldnât gag on the blood continuing to flow from your nose. He held one cloth over your nose in what he knew was a futile attempt to stem the blood flow before he also grabbed a cold cloth and dabbed at your forehead. Your skin was on fire, your clothes soaked through with sweat and even blinking seemed to be a monumental effort for you. âHold on. Itâs just a little bit longer, okay?â Hunter told you, his voice quivering as he helplessly watched you. It seemed like even breathing was a burden for you now.
You couldnât even nod. Another shallow breath shuddered through you.
--
Echo had gotten the ship into hyperspace and Tech back on comms. âTech, weâre heading back. Did you get anything more on the poison?â
âUnfortunately, not more than what youâve already told me given that it was not on any official record. But I read through what we uncovered in the home. One thing to be thankful for is that, if the instructions weâd already found are accurate, thereâs still time. The final stage involved bleeding from bodily orifices. If-â
âSheâs bleeding from her nose.â Crosshair interrupted.
Techâs eyes flashed with alarm. âWhen did that start?â He asked, his voice grave.
âCanât be certain but she was bleeding before we got there.â Echo told him, his own nerves rising as he saw Techâs expression.
âTech?â Wrecker prompted; he hated the prolonged silence as Tech glanced at his datapad. âWhat does that mean for her?â
âOmega and I have gathered most of what is needed for the antidote here, but weâre taking Pheeâs ship to go to the neighbouring planet to get the final plants required.â Tech said instead.
âThatâs not an answer.â Crosshair said, his voice tense.
âThe answer wouldnât do any of you any good. Just get her to Dalia the second you land. Iâll be there as soon as I can.â
As he disappeared. Echo, Wrecker and Crosshair looked down the hallway to where Hunter was crouched by your side.
âWe canât have been too late, we canât have been.â Wrecker fretted.
âSheâs survived this long. She can do it.â Echo said but it was more to convince himself than anyone else.
âI donât know how much she has left to give.â Crosshair said, his own worries seeping through as he watched your chest barely rise.
You were already living for longer than you were supposed to but none of them knew how much more of that you could sustain.
--
Hunter had heard the words from the cockpit, but he refused to let them resonate. âIâve got it.â He said gently as he saw you attempting to take the rapidly growing blood-stained fabric off your face. He removed it, threw it away and made to grab a new one but your gravelly voice stopped him.
âH-Hu-Hunter.â
âDonât- donât try to talk.â Hunter advised, swallowing thickly. âSave your energy.â
You didnât listen and just about managed to make your eyes focus on him. âI- I hav- have to tell you-â You gasped through pained breaths.
âTell me when youâre better.â Hunter instructed, hoping he sounded like himself even as he felt his own distress rise in his chest, in his throat. He couldnât stand this, but he needed to stay strong for you.
âIâm not-â You broke off with a sharp, hurt whimper. âI- Iâm not getting better.â You could feel your body giving up with every ineffective, weighed down breath.
âYes. You are.â Hunter took your hand and pressed your fingers to his lips.
âI-I want you- t-to-know that- that I love you.â
âStop-â Hunter his voice growing hoarser and more wrecked with emotion with every passing second.
âI- I want you-you to move on- I want you to-to live.â
Hunter stroked hair back from your burning brow. âI canât do that without you.â He whispered but he could from the distant look in your eyes tell that his words werenât landing as the fever had ultimately taken its deadly grip.
âI- I wouldâve married you.â
âYou still will.â Hunter said as firmly as he could manage but it required pushing away more doubt than he cared to admit.
âIâŠâ But you trailed off as you finally welcomed what you had been resisting for so long.
âKeep your eyes open. Please.â Hunter pleaded, his voice breaking as he saw you take one deep, crackling breath as you slowly blinked.
You wanted to. You wanted to so badly, but you felt like the end would be the only thing to give you any semblance of relief. Your eyes flickered shut and darkness took over.
Hunter hung his head and held your hand tightly, and he could only watch your signs of life slowly fade away. âStay with me.â He begged your unconscious form through a strangled breath as he hoped some part of you would register his words.
Your pulse was thready at best, your breathing ragged and shallow.
Your entire body was shutting down and there was nothing Hunter could do to stop it.
--
Thanks to Techâs efforts, Daliaâs home had extended and doubled into a well-functioning medical centre with enough beds and equipment to cope with whatever came her or the islandâs way. It had felt a bit excessive, but it was better to be safe than sorry, and today, that was good thing.
âPut her here!â Dalia ordered as Echo slammed open the door for Hunter and Wrecker to hurry through, your body hanging weightlessly between their arms. âAZ, prep her and check her vitals.â
âWhereâs Tech?â Hunter asked urgently as he placed you on the hospital bed.
âI donât know. He shouldâve been back by now.â Dalia said as she got a cooling blanket for you as AZ worked on stopping the bleeding before she gathered up the part of the cure that was already made up. Sheâd barely finished her sentence when Tech came sprinting through the door.
Tech stopped short when he saw the perilous state you were in but recovered quickly. He handed the final components over before he made to depart but stopped as he realised that his brother was making no move to do so.
âHunter-â Tech tried to reach and take a hold of his arm, but Hunter shook him off.
Wrecker made to do the same but got the same result. Â
âHunter, you need to leave.â Dalia insisted as she busied about prepping the antidote whilst AZ continued doing what he could to stabilise you.
âI canât.â He croaked; his voice barely audible as he stared at your practically lifeless body. He needed to know that youâd be okay, he couldnât leave you like this.
âIf you want her to live, you need to let me work and I canât do that with you here.â Dalia said bluntly. She cared for all of them and hated seeing this happen but there wasnât time to be gentle, you were barely hanging on and your health outweighed politeness.
Tech nodded to Wrecker to leave first before he turned his attention to his unmoving older brother. Tech understood Hunterâs reluctance and he too found himself not wanting to leave until he knew you were at least stable, but he was just about clear-headed enough to realise their presence was a hindrance. âCome on, Hunter.â Tech tried again and this time, Hunter let him take a hold of his upper arm to guide him out.
Hunter could barely move his feet- Tech was doing most of the work for him. He saw the concerned faces of his squad staring past him into the room but as he turned around to get one last look at you, the door shut.
The door shut on him but not before he heard it.
He heard the sound that was going to haunt him for the rest of his days. The low drone of the machine chilled his body to the bone and his knees collapsed out from under him. If it wasnât for Wreckerâs firm grip on his shoulders, he wouldâve just crumpled to the floor. Â
Hunter wasnât a medical expert, but he knew what a flatline sounded like.
--
What was complete devastation was soon replaced by raw, unbridled desperation. It swallowed him whole as he thrashed against Wreckerâs grip on him in his fight to re-enter that door.
âHunter, stop, stop.â Omega managed to dart in front of him and take a hold of his hands. âYouâve done all you can. Fighting wonât help her or you.â She did her best to soothe him or at least get him to stop struggling against Wreckerâs hold.
The best Hunter could do was let her words and touch stop his insistence to get back to you, but he was practically hyperventilating. Cid had put them through a lot, but this had affected him in a different, more visceral way. The cruelty of everything sheâd planned out and attempted to execute cut him to his core. âI did this.â He said in quiet horror and that admission opened the dam.
Once Hunter eased up, Wrecker released his hold, but he remained close by just in case. âThis wasnât your fault.â
Hunter lost all emotional control. âI should have stopped this!â
Theyâd all been anticipating this and knew Hunter needed them now. Heâd kept it together for as long as he physically could but what they felt when they heard that flatline, he would be feeling ten times over.
âNo, you couldnât have. None of us knew what this was.â Tech reminded him.
Hunterâs panic and anger were leaving him unrestrained now. He couldnât stop. âI watched her drink from that glass the night of the party, and I didnât notice! I just watched it happen and did nothing! What good am I if my mutation canât even protect the people around me!â
âIt was impossible to trace. There was a reason your enhanced senses couldnât detect this; it was inherently designed against them.â Tech emphasised.
He couldnât handle the logic right now. It didnât matter. All he knew was what had happened to get you here and whatâd heâd failed to protect you from. âI was killing her, Tech! Every day I gave her that damn flask, forced her to take those injections and painkillers, I was killing her!â
âNo. The poison was.â Echo interjected.
âWhich I was only helping along! Cid might as well have hired me for the fucking job! She kept telling me that she didnât want them but took them because she was doing it for me!â
âHunter, you didnât know.â Omega tried again but the clone only shook his head in harsh self-deprecating dismissal of her words.
âI should have! I-â
âAnd if youâre going to blame yourself for doing what you naturally thought was the only way to help her, then blame all of us because every single one of us did that.â Crosshair said bluntly but he was only speaking as frankly as he was because he knew his brother would never assign that blame to them and he needed Hunter to hear how ridiculous and pointless it was to put something like this on himself.
That felt like a punch to the gut, and it took the remaining fight out of him. But he welcomed it. The last thing heâd do would be and he could hear your voice in his head telling him to see the bigger picture here. âI know youâd never-â He broke off and tried again. âThat wasnât what I meant. I know it wasnât your fault.â
âAnd itâs not yours.â Wrecker echoed again as he moved to now rest a solid, calming hand on his brotherâs shoulder like heâd done in the months post the disaster of Ord Mantell.
Hunter took a deep, grounding breath, before he nodded to Wrecker to indicate that he wasnât going to do anything foolish. He stayed standing whilst his family sat in the waiting area chairs.
Now, all they could do was wait.
--
Hunter was on step 864 when he ceased his nervous pacing a half second before the door finally opened.
The others all got out of their chairs once they âHow is her condition?â Tech questioned the healer.
Dalia inhaled deeply. âSheâs alive.â
Hunter couldnât help but think there was a silent âfor nowâ that was in amongst Daliaâs tone. Heâd been all too aware of what was happening behind that closed door. The announcement hardly brought him solace. There was only a slight easing to his churning stomach and frantic heartbeat as he waited for her to get to the crux of what she had to say.
âCan we see her?â Wrecker inquired.
Dalia hesitated before replying, âI would wait.â
âWhy?â Crosshair asked warily.
âShe flatlined three times but we got her back. However, sheâs not awake yet.â
Hunter choked on a breath as she confirmed what he feared heâd heard again throughout the day.
âNot awake?â Echo repeated. Â
âBut she will wake up, right?â Omega asked anxiously. âYou gave her the cure, so sheâll be okay, wonât she?â
Dalia slowly elaborated on what she meant, âItâs possible that with the toil the poison took on her and with the amount of strain on her body... well, I just donât know if sheâll wake up. AZ and I going to monitor her for changes, but Iâd suggest going home until you hear from me.â
âThatâs not happening.â Hunter rasped, but there was no mistaking the intensity behind his words.
âHunter-â Dalia started.
âWeâre staying here.â Crosshair said, backing up Hunterâs statement with his brothers nodding their agreement too.
âI donât know how long itâll be before we know anything more.â Dalia said truthfully.
âWeâll wait.â Tech said firmly.
Seeing that she wasnât going to change their minds, and she didnât really expect to anyway, Dalia bowed her head. âVery well.â She said before she walked back into the room.
--
The hours ticked by painfully slowly.
Then the hours turned into the next day.
And the next.
Shep, Lyra and Phee had periodically come by both to check in and to bring food and blankets since it was obvious that none of them would leave until they knew your fate.
âAny updates, brown eyes?â Phee asked, laying a caring hand on Techâs shoulder.
Tech rested his hand on top of hers. âItâs still touch and go.â
âAnd howâs he?â Lyra inquired with a nod in Hunterâs direction but all she got were a series of uneasy looks.
âAs far as weâre aware, he hasnât slept or eaten.â Echo said worriedly.
âNothing? Can I bring something else? He should eat something.â Shep offered.
âWeâve tried. He wonât take anything.â Wrecker replied, voice rough with tiredness and emotion.
âIâve got it.â Omega said as she came over and took two of the prepackaged meals.
--
âI brought you some food.â Omega said delicately as she approached Hunter who looked utterly exhausted.
âIâm not hungry.â Hunter said gruffly.
âEat.â Omega ordered more insistently this time.
âOmegaâŠâ Hunter just shook his head.
âSheâs going to make it. And youâll need your strength to see her once sheâs up. You know itâs true. So, eat.â She instructed again.
Hunter took the plate with a tired sigh and allowed the young girl to rest her head against his shoulder as the two of them ate and sat in the closest thing to relaxed silence heâd experienced since coming back.
--
Nightfall had arrived on the third day and there was still no word.
The others had all been in and out of restless naps as they waited.
The only thing keeping Hunter mildly calm was the young girl whose head was currently resting in his lap as she slept. Her soft, regular sleepy sighs allowed him some form of meditative relief as he sat there waiting for news. He adjusted the blanket as it slipped down her shoulders.
Another 15 minutes passed before Hunter heard signs of life making for the door. And his head snapped up as Dalia and AZ walked into the waiting area.
The rest of them instantly got to their feet.
Hunter gently roused Omega from his lap as they both stood, and he could hear his own anxious heartbeat in his ears.
Until now, AZ had been the one to give them sporadic updates. If Dalia was out here, that only meant one of two thingsâŠ
âSheâs awake.â Dalia said through a weary but delighted sigh.
Hunter braced his elbows against his knees. He covered his face with his hands and inhaled and exhaled shakily as he resisted the urge to release a relieved sob.
There was a collective breath realised as they all heard her say those words.
âThank you, Dalia.â Hunter just about managed to say as the crushing weight of his stress and worries lifted from his shoulders, and he felt strangely disconnected from every other sensation in his body as he fully comprehended that you were safe⊠that you were alive.
âSheâs asking for you.â Dalia said, squeezing his shoulder.
As Hunter steadily walked towards the door, some part of him felt like maybe this was all a cruel dream and heâd wake up back in that waiting area to find that you were gone. That thought soon vanished as he saw you gingerly sitting up in the hospital bed.
--
âHey.â You said with a real but still weak and tired smile as you saw him standing there. Â
A strangled yet elated noise left his lips as he heard you speak.
âYeah, I know I donât look too hot right now.â You said with faint tracings of humour. But as you fully took him in, you realised that wasnât what you needed to do. Â
He wasnât ready for that yet. Everything to too fresh, too intense for him to let this become something to joke about. He caught sight of you old, bloodstained clothing and all the emotions heâd been suppressing came to a head. âI never shouldâve left you.â
âYou werenât to know.â You said as you realised you didnât need to put on that front you had been prepared to maintain. You allowed your voice to soften, and you relaxed further into the bed as you no longer felt the need to act like you could just jump out of the cot. âBut you got me out and back here in time.â
âNo, I didnât.â Hunter said with self-directed frustration. âYou died.â
Dalia had filled you in on what had happened, but you didnât know the extent to which heâd been around for that but now your own tears threatened to spill from your eyes as you realised what heâd had to go through. You knew how youâd be if youâd been in his position and it was something you could hardly bare to imagine so, for him to have witnessed what he did, it was no wonder you could sense his fear tearing him apart. âHunter-â
âItâs a rare thing for me to feel as helpless as I have these past weeks, especially on that ship departing Asusto. It was a new kind of terror. Iâve always known at least something to do, but I couldnât do anything to help cure you. Taking care of Cid was the last thing I could do for you and for the safety of this family.â He inhaled shakily, âBut then I had to watch the poison destroy you and I couldnât do anything.â Tears were running down his face, but he didnât care. âYou knew you were going to die, you told me as much on the ship. You told me to live, to move on. I heard each flatline. I heard you get ripped away from me time and time again, and I couldnât take it. Each time I thought you wouldnât fight your way back, a part of me died out there and if Dalia had come out there to tell us you were gone, that part of me wouldnât ever come back. Iâd exist but I wouldnât live. Donât ask me to move on because I canât, I love you with all I have. Youâre the other half of me and if you are ever taken from me like that again, that half goes with you.â He finished with a breath that was half exhale, half sob.
You wiped away a few of your own tears at his words. âCome here.â You whispered as you reached for him- for your other half- and moved to the other side of the narrow cot. âAnd itâs not going to hurt me.â You added in reassurance since you knew thatâs where his concerns would instantly go.
Hunter swallowed through the lump in his throat and finally moved towards you and shifted into the bed.
You kissed away the salty tears on his cheeks and rested his head on your chest. You felt a little pressure at the action, but it was nothing you couldnât handle. âHear that? Iâm still here.â
Hunter closed his eyes as he listened to the thudding that emitted from your chest. It still wasnât as strong as it usually was, but it was there, and it was steady and thatâs what mattered.
You delicately stroked your hands through his hair as you rested there. You focused on his warmth, his weight on your chest, and youâd never felt more content. You felt your spark coming back with each breath and so long as he was still with you, everything else now would fall into place.
--
Upon hearing rising voices and footsteps, Hunter had just sat back down in the chair by your bedside, when Dalia re-entered with AZ whirring behind her.
âWhat the status?â You asked the healer as you also heard the faint sounds of protests behind the shut door.
âWith you or the insistent group outside?â
You chuckled quietly, âWhy donât we start with me?â
âI want you to stay here for at least a week. We need to get you rehydrated and start reintroducing food into your system and I want to give you one more dose of the antidote to make sure all the poison is out of your body. Does that sound acceptable? Bearing in mind that I know how you are, but I will really only take one answer.â
You laughed at that, âYes, that sounds good, Doc.â
âNow, there is a rather eager group of people out there and I donât know how much longer theyâre prepared to listen to me telling them not yet. Can-â She got cut off by the door opening.
âThe answer was not very.â Echo said apologetically as they all entered.
âOh, for goodness sakeâŠâ Dalia muttered.
âFive minutes?â You requested with delicate politeness.
âOkay, fine but I draw the line at the dog.â Dalia said with a roll of her eyes as Batcher went of her hind legs and placed her front paws on the bed by your feet.
Omega whistled and hustled Batcher out of the room before she rejoined her brothers.
âFive minutes.â Dalia reminded you as she and AZ made to give you privacy.
âDalia, I donât even know how to thank you. I-â You began to say as the healer walked away.
âDonât waste your precious time now.â Dalia said but she bowed her head in acknowledgment of your words before she shut the door.
âAnd I also believe I owe you all a rather large thank you.â You said appreciatively.
âDonât mention it.â Echo stated with a smile as he gave you a happy squeeze.
âJust donât scare us like that again.â Wrecker implored as he took his turn.
âTrust me, that will not be something I am looking to re-experience.â You said agreeably.
âI should hope not.â Hunter muttered as he kept a tender yet secure hold of your free hand, his fingers finding a natural place resting on your pulse as a way to ground himself in this moment and remind himself that it was real.
Tech studied the screens next to you and tapped at his datapad. âYour condition has stabilised considerably. I would agree with Daliaâs recommendation for a course of-â
âHey, no staring at my vitals or talking about my health until you give me hug.â You just about managed to hold your arm open expectantly but it was a rather pitiful attempt since you were still feeling pretty weak, but the resultant pathetic appearance probably aided your request.
âVery well.â Tech said through a sigh, but his brief embrace was heartfelt and warm.
âYou know, if you wanted out of the engagement, there are easier ways to go about it.â Crosshair quipped as he came in last, but the relief was evident in his face.
âHa ha.â You drawled sarcastically as you accepted his hug too.
âHow are you feeling?â Omega asked and she placed her arms around you.
âExhausted and still a little sore but alive which seems to be a bit of a surprise.â You said lightly.
âA bit?â Echo repeated with a shake of his head.
âKeeping you on your toes, Echo. Thatâs me.â You kidded.
There was a combined reaction of eyerolls and heads shaking in disbelief.
âAnd hey, we gotta find the silver-linings of this whole thing eventually. If you guys hadnât left me that night, I wouldnât have gotten the antidote. Weâd never have figured it out.â You reminded them, absentmindedly stroking your thumb along the back of Hunterâs hand.
âI knew you were going to say that.â Hunter murmured, the tracings of a smile in his tone.
At that, you angled yourself to face Hunter once more. âIâm also really hoping you have something of mine?â You asked quietly as they all stood around the bottom of the bed.
Hunter kissed your forehead and finally allowed a proper smile as he reached into his pocket and pulled out the ring. âDo you want the speech again? Cause I have a few amendments.â
âTell me tomorrow.â You said with a loving grin in his direction.
Hunter gently took your left-hand in his. âYou know this is forever, right?â He murmured.
âI do.â You breathed in joyous relief as the ring slid back onto your finger.
Hunter pressed his forehead against yours in and nuzzled into the side of your face as he kissed your cheek.
All of you silently absorbed the moment that finally, finally your new lives could begin.
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I have a request! Works been rough lately, can I get a fem reader/Crosshair with âlet me distract youâ when he visits her during a tough shift? Love your work, thank you!
-dumfanting
The Perfect Distraction*** đ
đ«§ Pairings: Crosshair X Female!Reader
word count: 2.6k
Prompts:
âą âLet me distract you.â
Plot: When work is non-stop, you feel yourself overwhelmed and in need of a break. Luckily for you, your other half came at the right time.
Authors note: sorry that work has been tough lately @dumfanting đ©” hopefully things have gotten better. If not, hereâs some soft Crosshair to make your day better. (Sorry for the wait)
warnings: NSFW, 18+ only. Explicit Sexual Content and Language. Female Reader, Work Stress, Light Angst, Established Relationship, Massage, Soft Smut, Vaginal Sex, Cunnilingus, Aftercare, Comfort, Kissing, Neck Kissing and Sucking.
A neon sign by the door flickers, glowing with a dim "OPEN" that buzzes faintly in the background. Itâs barely holding on, much like you are at this point.
Your shop that you owned for a few years is - to be blunt - a mess. A current maze of half-disassembled speeders and crates of mismatched parts, with wires and hydro spanners scattered across every available surface. The usual hum of machinery sounded through the space, barely masking your own frustrated grunts as you try to wrangle yet another malfunctioning power converter back into shape. But no matter how hard you work, it feels like the pile of jobs only grows larger, while your supply of critical parts dwindles.
Then, you hear the familiar irritating buzz of the door, followed by heavy footsteps. You grit your teeth, already bracing yourself for whatâs coming.
A burly customer storms in, his face flushed with anger. âThis is ridiculous!â he snaps. âYou said my speeder would be ready days ago! What kind of operation are you running here? Iâve been waiting long enough!â He throws his arms up in frustration, knocking over a pile of circuit boards in the process.
You open your mouth to respond, trying to keep your tone steady despite the stress bubbling under the surface. âLook, Iâve got a shortage of parts. Iâm doing everything I canââ
He cuts you off, voice rising. âI donât want excuses! Youâre supposed to be a mechanic, not some scrap peddler! If you canât get it done, Iâll take it somewhere that can.â
Before you can get another word in, a cold, measured voice slices through the tension. âI think youâve said enough.â
The customer whips around to see Crosshair leaning against the wall, twirling a familiar toothpick between his lips. But thereâs nothing casual about the deadly look in his eyes. He straightens up, moving to stand between you and the customer, his hand resting near his blaster as if daring the guy to push his luck. âBack off and leave the lady alone,â he snarls, tone voice dipped with venom as he flicks the pick at the customer's chest.
Their bravado is quick to vanish. He stammers, trying to recover some of his bluster, but itâs clear heâs rattled. âIâI just want my speeder fixedâŠâ He takes a step back, bumping into a tool cart and nearly knocking it over in his haste to retreat.
âThen take it somewhere else,â Crosshair replies coolly, his eyes never leaving the man. The customer mutters something under his breath and stumbles out of the shop.
For a moment, all you can do is exhale, letting the tension drain from your shoulders. You shoot Crosshair a lookâhalf-irritation, half-gratitude. âWell, there goes another job. Not that Iâm upset about it,â you mutter, rubbing your temple. âBut still, I donât need to be losing more credits.â
Crosshair simply shrugs, clearly unconcerned. âCredits wonât matter much if youâre burnt out.â
You huff, feeling the exhaustion catch up to you. âBurnt out is putting it lightly. Itâs been one thing after another all day. Parts shortages, broken motivators, customers demanding miracles. Iâm running myself crazy, and no one seems to care that I canât fix what I donât have.â Your voice wavers slightly as the frustration spills over. âIâm one person, Crosshair. I canât keep this up.â
He listens quietly, his sharp gaze softening as he takes in the stress etched on your face. Without a word, he steps over to the door and flips the neon âOPENâ sign to âCLOSED.â
When he turns back to you, heâs closer now, his tone gentler. âWhat can I do?â
You look up at him, feeling a lump in your throat at the kindness in his voice. Before you can answer, he pulls you into his arms, wrapping you in a secure embrace. You really needed this.
The warmth of him, combined with the rare tenderness in the way he holds you, makes your chest tighten with relief. You let yourself sink into him, closing your eyes as you take in the steady rhythm of his breathing. For a moment, the clutter of the shop and the never-ending to-do list fades into the background.
âJust this,â you whisper, feeling the weight of the day lift ever so slightly. âThis is enough.â
Crosshairâs hand moves in slow circles on your back, offering a silent comfort that says more than words could. His eyes then move toward your cluttered office tucked in the back of the shop. âWhy donât we head to your office? You could use a break.â
You nod, feeling a wave of fatigue wash over you. The office is far from tidyâtools, spare parts, and datapads are scattered all overâbut thereâs a worn couch in the corner thatâs always offered a bit of comfort when you need a breather. Crosshair leads the way, and you follow.
You sigh heavily as you begin pacing in your cluttered office, not being able to help but continue venting your frustrations. âItâs like everythingâs falling apart at once. Staff keep canceling their shifts, leaving me to pick up the slack. Iâm drowning in work with no one to help, and my orders for parts are delayed again! I canât catch a break, and Iâm starting to think Iâll never dig myself out of this mess.â
Crosshair moves towards the couch, slouching back in his usual relaxed manner and his sharp eyes follow your every move. He doesnât interrupt, just lets you get it all out. When you finally pause to catch your breath, he speaks, his voice calm and steady. âCome here.â
You look at him, still frazzled, but the calm assurance in his tone pulls you toward him. You sit beside him, and he wastes no time, guiding you against his chest as he wraps his arm around you. You lean your head back against his shoulder, trying to let go of the dayâs weight.
Crosshairâs fingers trail lightly along your arm, his presence grounding you. He leans in close, his breath warm against your ear as he murmurs, âLet me distract you.â
You hum softly in response, your lips curling into a faint smile at the suggestion. âYou think you can really take my mind off all this?â you ask. Oh you definitely know he can.
Instead of answering, he starts massaging your shoulders, his touch firm and soothing. His skilled hands work out the tension, moving slowly, melting away the stress youâve been carrying. As his fingers glide over your muscles, your body begins to relax, the tension easing with every pass. His thumbs press into the knots with just the right amount of pressure, and you let out a quiet, contented sigh.
âSee?â he murmurs against your neck, âYouâre already feeling better.â
His hands continue their path down your back, trailing lower before slipping back up along your sides. His touch is tender, coaxing you into a calm state that contrasts with his usual intensity. Crosshair is rarely gentle, but right now, itâs exactly what you need.
The atmosphere shifts, the tension turning into something else entirely. He pauses, and you feel his lips brush the shell of your ear as he whispers, âIs this how you wanted to be distracted?â
The teasing lilt in his voice makes you bite your lip, your pulse quickening. âMaybe⊠but I think you know what I really need,â you reply, your voice breathy as your desire begins to build.
Crosshair chuckles, clearly pleased with your response. His hands drift lower, sliding over your hips and down your thighs before slipping back up. You feel his fingers hook into the waistband of your pants, tugging them down just enough to grant him access. Your breath hitches as his hand dips beneath the fabric of your dampened panties, his fingers brushing against your already slick folds.
âIs this what you had in mind?â he asks, his voice a low rumble against your ear as he begins to tease you, his touch feather-light and maddeningly slow.
A quiet whimper escapes you as his fingers trace gentle circles over your clit, his touch skilled and precise. âCrosshairâŠâ you breathe, a plea hidden in your tone.
He smirks against your neck, enjoying the way youâre beginning to unravel in his arms. âI thought you needed a distraction,â he murmurs, sliding a finger inside you, teasingly slow. He works you with agonising precision, each movement calculated to draw out your need.
You arch against him, gasping softly as his fingers press deeper, his thumb maintaining a steady rhythm against your clit. âThis what you wanted?â he taunts, slowly adding a finger inside you, curling them just right and hitting that perfect spot.
Your body answers for you, a shuddering moan escaping your lips as you grip his arm, your hips moving in time with his touch. The stress, the tension, everything melts away under his skilled hands, leaving only the building pleasure that threatens to tip you over the edge.
Crosshairâs free hand wraps around your waist, holding you steady as he continues to work you with an almost unbearable precision. âLet it go,â he murmurs against your neck, his voice velvet and commanding all at once.
And you do, falling apart in his arms. The pleasure crashes over you in waves as his fingers carry you through your release. He doesnât stop until youâre trembling, spent and breathless against him.
For a moment, the world narrows down to just the sound of your breathing and the warmth of his arms around you. Eventually, Crosshair withdraws his hand, holding you close as you come down from the high, pressing a tender kiss to your temple.
âFeeling better?â he asks, his voice smug but laced with genuine concern.
You manage a tired, satisfied smile, still basking in the afterglow. âA little, yeah,â you whisper, sinking deeper into his embrace.
âOnly a little?â He asks with a raised brow. He shifts positions, taking your waist and gently lifting and then laying you flat across the couch, crawling over the top of you. âThatâs not good enough, is it?â His breath is warm against your skin, his eyes darting from your eyes to your lips.
You find yourself grinning, completely obsessed with your boyfriend. âI suppose it isnât,â you gasp the second the words leave your lips, his mouth on yours with a tender, slow and sensual kiss.
âLetâs fix that,â Crosshairâs lips press a final kiss to your neck before he slides lower, his gaze never leaving yours as he settles between your legs. Youâre already breathless, anticipation tingling through your veins. His movements are deliberate but unhurried, as if savoring the effect he has on you.
He hooks a finger around the side of your panties, pulling them aside with a casual ease that sends a shiver up your spine. His eyes darken as he takes in the sight of you, his usual sharp demeanor softened by the affection in his gaze.
âRelax,â he murmurs, his voice a low rasp as he leans in closer. The word is both a command and a promise. Then, without breaking eye contact, he dips his head, his lips brushing your inner thigh before his mouth finds exactly where you need him.
His touch is slow, precise, completely different from his usual rough and demanding approach. The contrast sends waves of pleasure through you, and you canât help but melt into the couch, your body responding eagerly to his attention. He takes his time, his tongue moving in smooth, deliberate strokes that drive you wild while keeping you tethered.
You gasp softly, arching into his touch, your fingers tangling in his hair as he continues to work you with a patience thatâs almost agonising. âSo, beautiful.â He moans into your clit.
He seems completely focused on drawing out every bit of tension, coaxing your pleasure higher and higher with each careful movement. Every kiss, every flick of his tongue is calculated, designed to make you feel like youâre the center of his world.
Unable to resist the pull, you reach for the hem of your top and tug it off, tossing it aside. Crosshair doesnât miss a beatâhis hands are quick to slide up your torso, fingers grazing your sensitive skin as he cups your breasts. His thumbs brush over your nipples, sending electric sparks of pleasure through you as his mouth continues its unhurried rhythm below.
You moan his name, your voice laced with both need and admiration. He hums against you in response, the vibration adding another layer of sensation that has you clutching the couch cushions, completely lost in the pleasure heâs giving you.
After what feels like an eternity of bliss, he finally shifts, moving back up your body with slow, languid kisses, each one lingering as if heâs savoring your taste. He presses his lips to yours, letting you taste yourself on his tongue before he whispers against your mouth, âI told you, Iâm not done yet.â
Your breath hitches as he pulls back just enough to reach down and free himself. He takes his time, positioning himself between your legs, his hands sliding up your thighs to hold you steady as he aligns himself with you. But before he moves, he locks eyes with you, his gaze filled with an intensity that makes your heart race.
âIâm going to take all that tension away,â he promises, his voice rough with desire, but thereâs a softness there tooâa genuine care that makes you feel cherished, not just desired. âJust let me take care of you.â
As he slowly enters you, every inch deliberate and controlled, you feel the world narrow down to just this momentâthe warmth of his body, the steady rhythm of his breathing, and the way he fills you completely. His movements are slow but powerful, every thrust purposeful, designed to make you feel every bit of him. Itâs intimate, soothing, and completely overwhelming in the best way.
He keeps whispering soft praises, his voice a rough murmur in your ear. âThatâs it⊠just like that⊠youâre doing so good for me.â His hands roam your body, caressing your skin as if heâs grounding you in the here and now, making sure you stay connected and completely focused on him.
His pace is steady, as if he has all the time in the galaxy to show you exactly how much he cares. The dirty talk flows naturally, his words laced with affection. âYouâre perfect like this⊠so beautiful when you let go.â
The way he moves, the way he speaksâitâs all meant to draw you further into this shared moment, making you forget about the stress and exhaustion from earlier. The tension in your muscles, the weight on your mind, all dissolve under the weight of his attention.
As the pleasure builds, you can feel yourself falling apart in the best way, and heâs right there with you, guiding you through it with whispered reassurances and gentle touches. When you finally reach your peak, heâs watching you with a look thatâs both possessive and full of awe, like heâs proud of how youâve given yourself over to him completely.
âCâCrosshairâŠmmm, Iâm goinâ to cum.â You rasp, your back arching into him as stars begin to blur your vision.
He doesnât stop until you do. Letting you ride out your orgasm on his cock until youâre fully sated. He reaches his own high, panting your name softly before he pulls out and spurts his velvet white seed all over your stomach and breasts.
As your body relaxes and becomes loose in his embrace, he leans over you and places a tender kiss to your lips as he holds you close, letting you bask in the aftermath.
When you finally catch your breath, he gives you that familiar smirk, his voice filled with smug satisfaction. âNow⊠howâs that for taking the tension away?â
You canât help but laugh softly, feeling lighter than you have in days. âMore than enough,â you whisper, still wrapped in his arms, grateful for the way he always knows exactly how to care for you.
That is the distraction you definitely needed today.
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Part One | Part Two
Pairing: Crosshair x fem!Reader / Crosshair x Jedi!Reader
Words: 10,651 / 23,314
Tags/Warnings: 18+ only! angst, hurt/comfort, themes of grief/death/mourning, protective!Crosshair, mutual pining, smut, unprotected sex, oral (f receiving), fingering, overstimulation
Summary: Crosshair is back, and you're the only one who still can't seem to forgive him. When you finally have the lead you've been seeking since the extinction of the Jedi, you seize the opportunity to escape the constant turmoil his presence causes you. Of course, Crosshair has other plans.
A/N: Okay yes so this chapter is almost half the entire word count, and yes it's because of the smut, but it's also because of love. Thank you so much to everyone who commented and shared this fic. I hope this is the satisfying ending you were hoping for. đ
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Crosshair stood vigil while you moved dirt and silt, using the Force to finish smoothing over the makeshift grave. He remained quiet as you knelt beside the fresh patch of earth, placing the stone on top. And he watched as you bowed your head, saying a quiet prayer for the Jedi Master.Â
You did all you could, burying him deep under a layer of rocks and snow, a final resting place for the man you once thought of as a father. You weren't able to give him the funeral pyre he deserved, not with the storm raging around you, but at least he had a final resting place. And maybe, you could come back when the weather was better, and have a proper ceremony.
Now, you stand, your Master's lightsaber in your hand, the wind whipping at your face. You're chilled to the bone, but the pain is nothing compared to the grief in your chest. You stare at the ground, at the stone that marks his grave, and the tears are a welcome relief.
Crosshair remains a respectful distance away, and you can feel his gaze, his concern. His presence is a comfort, and you take a deep breath, your eyes slipping closed.
"We should head back," he says quietly.
You nod, and the tears sting your cheeks. But your feet remain rooted to the ground, the grief like a physical weight holding you in place.
"Hey."
Crosshair's voice is soft, and you feel his hand on your shoulder. The world comes back into sharp focus under his touch.
You turn to look at him, and the sight of him is almost enough to make you break down. He moves closer, his gaze sweeping slowly over you, and his other hand lifts, gently wiping the tears from your cheeks. You want to say something, but the words die in your throat.
He pulls you to his chest, wrapping his arms tightly around you. The sudden movement surprises you, and you gasp, but his grip is strong, and you let yourself melt into his embrace.
"It's okay," he murmurs. "Let it out."
The small hiccups you allow yourself turn into sobs, the sound muffled by his armor as he rubs circles on your back. It's been a long time since anyone's held you like this, and you can't stop the tears.
"I've got you," he says quietly, barely loud enough for you to hear over the wind swirling around you.
You wrap your arms around him, holding onto him like a lifeline. Crosshair is strong and solid and real, and you can feel the weight of his arm around your waist, can hear the beating of his heart through his chest. His fingers brush against the nape of your neck, and you shiver. He doesn't let go, doesn't loosen his grip, and you can feel the warmth of his touch spreading slowly throughout your body.
You're not sure how long he holds you, but you know the two of you can't stay out in the storm forever. You pull away, wiping the tears from your eyes.
You feel the embarrassment creeping in, and you hate the fact that he saw you like this, weak and vulnerable. It's why you wanted to do this on your own, yet you can't help but be grateful for Crosshair's company. Youâre not sure if you would have been able to go through with it without him.
He pulls his arm away, his hand lingering on your shoulder. "You ready?"
"Yeah, I..." You look down at the lightsaber in your hands and back to the grave. Your throat feels tight, and your voice is rough.
"You should keep it," Crosshair says.
"I can't. It's his, Iâ"
"He would've wanted you to have it."
You shake your head, unable to respond. You're not worthy of the weapon, the honor, and you're not sure you'll ever be.
"Take it," he says, his voice soft. "It's the only thing you have left of him."
"Butâ"
"Take it," he says again. His voice is almost pleading. It makes you hesitate, and your fingers twitch.
He lifts his hand, covering your own. His touch is gentle, and his fingers curl around yours, his gloves pressing against your skin, molding your grip.
"Thank you," you whisper.
"Don't thank me," he says, his tone serious. "You deserve it."
Your heart swells, and your throat tightens.
"Okay," you say at last. You tuck the saber into your bag, the weight heavy against your hip.
"Come on," he says, tilting his head. "Let's get back to the ship."
You follow him, and the two of you trudge through the snow. It's nearly up to your knees now, and the wind is blowing hard, making your teeth chatter. Your wet clothes cling to your skin, your feet are freezing, and the temperature is dropping fast.
By the time the you're nearing the landing zone where you left the Marauder, you're shivering uncontrollably. Your limbs feel stiff and numb, your joints aching. Crosshair keeps pace beside you, and he doesn't say anything, but his hand is on your arm, supporting you.
The Marauder looms ahead, the ship's silhouette stark against the horizon. You can see the outline of the cockpit, and you try to pick up your pace, eager to get inside and away from the snow and wind. You're shivering violently, and you can feel the cold seeping into your bones.
"Are you going to be okay tonight?" Crosshair asks.Â
You're not sure if he's referring to the weather, or the loss, or both, but either way, you know the answer.Â
Itâs not the one you give him, though.
"Yeah," you mutter. "I'll be fine."
He sighs. "Liar."
"I'll manage."
"No, you won't." He shakes his head, and the gesture is almost exasperated. You can't help but huff.
"Why, are you offering to cuddle?" You try to smirk, to deflect with humor, but his grip on your arm tightens.
"If it'll help."
Your heart skips a beat, and you stare at him. The cold is making you delirious, that's the only explanation for the words that leave his mouth.
"Are you serious?"
"Yeah.â Crosshair avoids your gaze. "You can sleep in my bunk."
"Okay," you say after a moment, and his head snaps up, as though he can't believe the word came from your mouth. The grip on your arm tightens.
"Really?"
You shrug, trying to ignore the way your heart races at the thought of sharing a bed with him. You tell yourself that it's the cold, that he's offering comfort, and that the offer has nothing to do with any lingering feelings he may or may not have.
"Yeah," you say, and the word comes out a little too hoarse. "Why not?"
There's about a million reasons why not, but you don't say them. Instead, you wait, watching him carefully. He looks at you, and even though you can't see his expression, you can feel the intensity of his gaze.Â
"Alright," he says, his voice gruff, and the hand on your arm moves, sliding up to rest on your shoulder.
The two of you reach the ship, and the ramp opens, a blast of hot air hitting you in the face. Crosshair helps you up, and the warmth feels so good that you want to cry.
You immediately throw off your bag and kneel to brush the snow from your boots, and you're vaguely aware of him moving past you, toward the cockpit. He tugs off his helmet and tosses it aside, and it lands on the floor somewhere with a dull thump.Â
By the time you get your legs to cooperate and rise, Crosshair is already settled in the pilot's seat, running through the preflight checks. Despite being the better pilot of the two of you, you let him take control, not trusting yourself to fly right now. You're tired, and you're cold, and the grief is weighing heavy on your heart.
When you slide into the copilot's seat, he glances over at you, his dark eyes meeting yours. You stare at each other, and you have the urge to say something, anything, to break the silence. But he's looking at you with an intensity that makes your stomach flip, and the words die in your throat. He turns away just as quickly, his attention returning to the console, and the moment passes.
You try to help him prep the ship, but the exhaustion is too much, and the adrenaline is wearing off. You can't stop shivering, and your muscles ache, the pain nearly unbearable. Crosshair pushes your hand away when you try to set the coordinates back to Pabu, and you can't find it in you to fight him.
He lifts off, the ship groaning in protest, and the wind howls outside. The Marauder shudders, buffeted by the harsh weather, and the engine whines as he navigates the ship into the atmosphere. He's tense, his fingers curled tightly around the controls.
He engages the hyperdrive once you break through the clouds into the atmosphere, and the ship hums, the stars stretching into hyperspace. You slump in your seat, exhaustion and grief taking their toll. You lean your head back, and your eyelids droop.
You're barely aware of him as he stands, and the next thing you know, you feel his arms scooping you up, lifting you easily. You blink, and his face is inches from yours. Your arms wrap around his neck instinctively, clinging to him as he walks.
"I can walk," you protest weakly.
"Shut up," he says, but you can hear the concern in his voice. "You're freezing."
You try to come up with a witty retort, but the words don't come, and you're too tired to care. Crosshair carries you through the ship, and you close your eyes, resting your head against his shoulder, the heat of his body a welcome relief.
He sets you on the edge of his bunk, and his hands are gentle, careful. You're not sure what to say. The moment is surreal, and the exhaustion is making it difficult to focus. Your eyes blink open, and he's kneeling in front of you, his face just inches away.
"Let's get these off," he says as he starts to pull at your soaked clothing.
"Cross, I can undress myself," you say, the embarrassment making you blush.
"Just let me help," he sighs, his voice oddly quiet.
"But Iâ"
"I'm not letting you freeze to death. Now shut up and let me take care of you."
"Cross, reallyâ"
"Please," he says, and the word is so foreign to his vocabulary that it gives you pause. "Just...let me do this."
"Okay," you murmur, the sincerity in his tone almost enough to make you cry.
He starts with your socks, trailing puddles of water on the ground, and your jacket goes next. The fabric clings to your skin, and his hands are slow and careful as he pulls the material away.
You shiver, and the chill is still lingering. He reaches for the hem of your shirt, his fingers brushing against your lower stomach. The contact sends a jolt of something through you, and you inhale sharply.
"Sorry," Crosshair mumbles, his voice hoarse.
"No, it's...it's fine," you manage.
"I won't look."
"Crosshair, Iâ"
"I'll just close my eyes, andâ"
"No, it's fine," you say. You reach up, your hands grasping the hem of the shirt, and you lift it over your head before he can say another word.
Crosshair doesn't move, doesn't speak. His breath catches, and you're sure he's staring at you, but you're so focused on trying to get your arms untangled from the sleeves that you don't care.
You're in your bindings, and the material is damp, sticking to your skin. You fumble with the fabric, tugging at the straps. It takes a few attempts, but finally, it loosens, and you exhale in relief. It slides down your shoulders, revealing your breasts, and you drop it onto the floor. You shiver, the cold air hitting your skin, and your nipples harden.
You look up at Crosshair, and he's frozen, his gaze glued to your exposed skin. He's staring at the scar above your heart, the one that he gave you, the one that should have killed you. His expression is hard to read, but his hands are trembling, and his breathing is shallow.
The silence is suffocating, and you have the sudden urge to cover yourself. He swallows, his throat bobbing, and his tongue darts out to wet his lips. His gaze sweeps over you, and his fingers flex.
"You said you wouldn't look," you remind him, a small smile tugging at your lips.
Crosshair blinks, as though coming out of a daze.
"Sorry, I..." he trails off, his voice thick. "You'reâ" He clears his throat. "Your pants."
"Oh, right." Your hands move to unbuckle your belt, but they're shaking, and your movements are clumsy. You fumble with the clasp, cursing under your breath.
"Here," he murmurs, and his hands move yours aside. His fingers brush against the skin of your stomach, and you suck in a sharp breath.
"Thanks," you manage, and the word comes out as a whisper.
His fingers work quickly despite the tremble of them, undoing the belt and sliding it free. Your pulse is racing, and your mouth is dry, and his touch sends a spark of electricity through you.
He tosses the belt aside, and his fingers find the button of your pants, and he pops it open.
"Up," he orders.
You do as he says, and he hooks his thumbs into the waistband of your pants. He drags them down, the fabric clinging to your thighs. His movements are slow and deliberate as he pulls the material free from your legs before they join the pile of clothing on the floor.
You sit before him, wearing nothing but a pair of underwear, and the chill is still clinging to you, your skin pebbled with goosebumps. Crosshair kneels at your feet, his eyes boring into you as they rake over your exposed skin. His gaze lingers on the scar on your chest, his jaw clenching.
"It's not a big deal," you say, trying to reassure him.
"It is."
"What happened wasn't your fault."
He looks up at you, his eyes burning with a strange intensity. "Yes, it was," he says, his voice low and raspy. You reach for him, but he pulls away, your movements too slow and sluggish to catch him.
"I'm going to change," he mutters. "Try not to pass out."
"I'm fine," you protest.
"Your lips are blue," he says. "And your hands are shaking."
He reaches for your wrist, his grip gentle, and he lifts your hand, holding it up for inspection. You glance down, and sure enough, your fingers are trembling.
"F-fine, maybe I'm a little cold," you mumble.
"You're not cold. You're hypothermic." He lets go of your hand and stands, setting his rifle against the wall.
"It's justâ"
"Hush."
You huff, rolling your eyes, and you fold your arms over your chest, hugging yourself in an attempt to get warm. You watch quietly as he begins to take off his armor, the motions practiced and methodical, though more rushed than youâve ever seen it.
The first piece comes off, followed by another, and another. He doesn't stop until he's standing before you in his blacks, and then he lifts his shirt over his head. The sight takes your breath away. He's muscular, lean and strong, and the desire to reach out and touch him is overwhelming. The only thing you can do is stare, and it takes all of your self-control not to gape at him like an idiot.
He slips past you, and the bed shifts beneath his weight. You turn to look at him over your shoulder, and he's lying on his back, one arm tucked behind his head. He's looking up at the ceiling, his chest rising and falling evenly. Crosshair glances over at you, his brow furrowing.
"Lay down," he says, patting the mattress.
You hesitate. "You sure you don't mind?"
"Lay down," he repeats, his tone firm.
You obey, shifting onto the bed, and the mattress is warm, the sensation almost painful against your skin. He grabs a blanket from the end of the bed and wraps it around you, tucking it in. You curl up, the exhaustion is making your eyes heavy.Â
The bed is small, and you're close, too close. But it's warm, and he's warm, and it feels so good you want to cry. Still, you can't seem to relax, your limbs stiff. Your skin prickles, and your muscles are tense.
"I can moveâ"
"Stop talking," he growls. "Go to sleep."
"You're bossy."
"And you're a brat," he grumbles, and his hands slide over your bare skin, tugging the blanket tighter around you.
You smile, the words bringing a strange comfort. He moves closer, his body pressed against yours. You're acutely aware of him, the sound of his breathing, the steady rhythm of his heartbeat.
You shift so your back is flush with his chest. He hesitates, frozen, and then slowly his arm wraps around your waist, pulling you against him.Â
You sigh, the warmth from his skin seeping into yours, and you melt into his embrace. His breath fans against the back of your neck, and you can't remember the last time you were held like this. A strange feeling builds in your chest, one you can't name, but it's overwhelming. The pain of losing your Master is still fresh, but the grief is lessened somehow.
"Is this okay?" he murmurs.
"Yes."
Crosshair curls tighter around you, his arms like a vise. You're surrounded by him, the smell of blaster oil, the sound of his breathing, the heat of his skin. The exhaustion is taking its toll, the warmth of his body too soothing to resist. Your eyes flutter closed, and you let the darkness take you, his heartbeat lulling you into a dreamless sleep.
You wake to the feeling of an arm draped over you, and a body pressed against yours. You blink, and the events of the last two days come rushing back. You're practically naked, and Crosshair's body is pressed against yours, nearly every inch of available skin touching. His chest is flush against your back, and his legs are tangled with yours.
His arm is wrapped around your waist, his fingers splayed against the softness of your stomach, and his breath is warm against the back of your neck. Your heart skips a beat as his fingers twitch against your skin. A rush of warmth floods you, and you swallow, your cheeks flushing.
For a moment, you can't remember how you got here, and what led to this. Then, you remember. You remember the way Crosshair helped you, the way he comforted you, the way he took care of you. And now, you're lying in his bed, and he's holding you, and it feels...nice.Â
You should get up, and the thought crosses your mind, but it's not the one you focus on. Instead, you find yourself leaning into him, enjoying the warmth of his skin, and the way his body fits against yours.
Crosshair's arm tightens around you, and he lets out a sleepy groan, pulling you closer. He nuzzles your neck, his lips brushing the sensitive skin. Your heart stutters, and you freeze, not daring to move.
"Hey," he rasps, his voice thick with sleep.
"Hey," you whisper back.
"How are you feeling?"
"Better."
And it's the truth. You're still tired, and your muscles are sore, but you feel like a weight has been lifted from your shoulders. You're not sure if it's the fact that you were able to finally get the closure you needed or if it's because of the man holding you, but you're grateful for the relief.
You shift, and Crosshair's hand rests on your hip, his fingers digging into your skin. He presses against you, his chest molding against your back.
"Don't," he mumbles.
"Don't what?"
"Don't go," he says, and there's an uncharacteristic note of pleading in his voice.
You roll over to face him, and his eyes are half-lidded, his gaze heavy. He's still wrapped around you, his arm snaked around your waist. His cheeks are flushed, and his jaw is stubbled, and he's even more handsome than you remember. Your stomach flutters, and your pulse quickens.
"I'm not going anywhere," you whisper.
He moves his hand to your face, cupping your cheek, and the gesture is so tender, so unexpected. He runs his thumb over your skin, his eyes locked with yours. You can feel his breath, hot and quick against your lips.
"Good," he breathes.
You're not sure who moves first, but his lips are on yours, his kiss urgent, demanding. Your body responds instinctively, and you melt into him, letting him consume you.
Crosshair's hands roam over your body, exploring every curve and contour. He's rough, and he's hungry, and the way he kisses you makes you weak in the knees. You arch into him, and his kiss grows more heated, more desperate. You part your lips, and he slips his tongue into your mouth, deepening the kiss.
Your hands hold tight to the back of his head, pulling him closer, and he moans against your lips, his fingers digging into your skin. The sound is needy, and it sends a rush of heat through you, a shiver running down your spine. You break away, panting, and he chases your mouth, his lips ghosting over yours.
"I've wanted to do that for a long time," Crosshair murmurs.
You laugh, the sound breathless, light and airy. "I can tell."
He huffs and rolls his eyes. "Shut up," he mutters, a smile tugging at his lips.
"Make me," you tease.
He's on top of you in a heartbeat, and his body is a delicious weight on top of yours. His hands are on either side of your head, caging you in with a mischievous smirk on his lips. You can't help but smile back.
"You want to be like that, huh?" he says, his voice low and dangerous.
You smile sweetly. "I have no idea what you're talking about."
He nips at your neck, his teeth grazing the skin, and you let out a soft moan.
"What were you saying?" he says, his voice husky.
"Just thatâ" He bites down on your neck, and you let out a gasp, the sensation sending a shockwave of pleasure through you.
He kisses the spot he bit, his lips soft and tender, and his hands roam over your body. He trails kisses along your jaw, down your neck, and across your collarbone, his touch leaving a burning trail in its wake.
It's overwhelming, his scent, his heat, his presence. Your senses are filled with him, and you close your eyes, losing yourself in the feeling. His lips are on your skin, his teeth scraping gently, and his hands are everywhere, exploring, mapping, memorizing. You donât want it to stop, but it's starting to feel like too much, too fast.
"Cross," you murmur. He doesnât respond, his lips dragging across your skin, and you try again, your voice tight. âCrosshair.â
He freezes, and his head snaps up. He looks at you, his dark eyes wide and worried. "What's wrong?"
"What are we doing?" you ask.
He frowns, his eyebrows knitting together. "I thought it was pretty obvious."
"That's not what I mean."
Crosshair pulls away, and you feel a pang in your chest as you see the look on his face, the hurt in his eyes.
"Do you want to stop?" he asks quietly.
"No, I..." Your voice trails off, and the words seem stuck in your throat. "I just... I'm not sure where this is going."
He sighs. "I don't know either."
"It's not that I don't want this," you say quickly. "I just..."
"What?"
You take a deep breath. It's a risk, admitting the feelings you've kept hidden for so long. But the desire is overwhelming, and the fear is stronger.
"Earlier, out there...I said a lot of things, some of them I didnât mean," you begin. "I donât want to hate you, and I donât want you to have to work for my forgiveness. You already have it.âÂ
You push yourself up so you're sitting, and he does the same. You both sit with your backs against the wall, the blanket pooling at your hips. He's quiet, watching you, his expression unreadable. His silence gives you courage, and you continue.
âWhat I want is a fresh start. What happened yesterday, it was a turning point. For both of us. I don't want to hold onto the past. I'm sick of all the anger and resentment."
"You deserve to be angry," he says quietly. "After everything I've done, you have every right."
"I am," you admit, and the words come out with a hint of a bitter laugh. âBut Iâm also so happy to have you back, Crosshair. It doesnât matter, not anymore. It's not worth it, carrying the anger around. I care about you too much for that.â
He shakes his head, and his gaze drops. "I don't deserve you," he whispers. "I've done terrible things. You know that."
"It's in the past," you say, reaching out to cup his face. His stubble is rough under your fingertips, and his jaw is clenched hard underneath your hand. "You can't change it."
"I know." He sighs. The weight of the galaxy seems to settle on his shoulders, and to see it holding him down makes your chest hurt.Â
"I forgive you," you say, and the words are easier than you expected. "We all have. Maybe itâs time you forgive yourself too.â
Crosshair's gaze snaps up, his eyes locking with yours. There's a flash of something, and you see the way his lips tremble. His throat bobs, and he swallows. "You really mean that, don't you?"
You nod. "I do."
"How?" he asks, his voice hoarse.
You shrug. How can you explain it, the way your heart aches when he looks at you, the way his touch sets your skin on fire? How can you explain the way he makes you feel, the way you crave his attention, his approval? How can you explain the way your world feels whole again now that he's by your side?
The words don't come, and instead, you rub your thumb across his cheekbone. His breath catches, and he closes his eyes, leaning into your touch. When he opens his eyes, they're glassy, and there's a sheen of tears. You brush them away, your touch gentle, and he exhales.
You can't help but lean forward and press a kiss to his lips, and he leans into you, his hand finding your waist. The kiss is soft and sweet, the kind that takes your breath away, and when you pull away, you're left wanting more.
âIâm sorry I left you behind," he whispers, his voice breaking. "I should've stayed. I should've protected you."
"Cross, I left you behind. If anyone should be apologizing, it's me." You take a deep breath. "I'm the one who abandoned you."
"I don't blame you for what happened." He shakes his head, and his jaw clenches, the muscle in his cheek twitching. He swallows hard, the sound is audible in your closeness.
You run your thumb over his cheek, and he closes his eyes, his body trembling under your touch. You pull him closer, and his head comes to rest on your shoulder. He's tense, and you can feel the way he's holding back, keeping himself from falling apart.
The realization hits you like a ton of bricks, and the weight of it is suffocating. You've spent so long being angry, blaming him, that you never stopped to think about how he was dealing with his own feelings. How much pain has he carried since that day? How much guilt? You abandoned him, and he was alone, and there's a chance he could've been killed, and...
It's a lot. And the realization of it hits you all at once, your throat tightening, your vision blurring with tears. You've been so caught up in your own pain, in your own grief, that you didn't even stop to consider his. And the thought, the shame of it, is crushing.
Crosshair clings to you, his arms wrapped tightly around your waist. You canât tell if youâre trembling, or if he is, or maybe it's both of you. The emotions are overwhelming, and you don't know what to do, how to comfort him, how to make it right.
All you can do is hold him, so you do. You wrap your arms around him, holding him as close as possible. You rest your head against his, your cheek pressed against his temple as small tremors rack his body.
You don't say anything. You can't find the words, can't bring yourself to speak. So you stay there, holding him, giving him the time he needs.
It feels like hours before he speaks. His voice is quiet, barely a whisper.
"I should have been there," Crosshair says, and his voice cracks.
You swallow past the lump in your throat. "I should have come back for you.â
He pulls away, his eyes red-rimmed and puffy. There's a look on his face, a mixture of guilt and shame and regret. He shakes his head, and his fingers find your jaw, his touch feather-light. His thumb brushes over your cheek, wiping away your tears.
He leans forward and presses his forehead to yours. You close your eyes, and you can feel his breath on your lips, your noses brushing.
You've missed this. The closeness, the intimacy. You've missed him.
Crosshair pulls you closer, and his lips ghost over yours, his movements hesitant, uncertain.
You've spent the last few weeks trying to bury these feelings, trying to pretend like they weren't there, and now, they're bubbling to the surface, and you can't fight them.
You don't want to.
You give in, kissing him, and his body reacts instantly. He's pressing against you, his arms wrapping around your waist, his grip almost bruising.
You let him pull you closer until your bodies are flush together. He's warm and solid, and his mouth is hot and insistent, his tongue teasing yours.
His hands are in your hair, his fingers tangled in the strands, and the kiss grows more heated, more urgent. His teeth graze your bottom lip, and you moan into his mouth.Â
As soon as the kiss starts, it stops, and he leaves you breathless as he pulls away, gasping for air. You can't stop staring at him, the way his eyes are dark with desire, the way his pupils are blown wide.
He leans forward, his lips hovering over yours, and his voice is low, barely a whisper. âI don't deserve you."
You huff, barely stopping yourself from rolling your eyes. You're tired of hearing those words come from his mouth, and you can't stop the irritation from rising in you.
Crosshair's grip on you tightens, and his eyes are pleading. He's searching for an answer, for some sort of reassurance, and you realize it's the first time you've seen him like this, so unsure of himself.Â
Your irritation fades, and your anger melts away, and all you're left with is a deep ache, a longing for the man who holds your heart.
You reach up, cupping his cheek, and your voice is soft, reassuring. "Yes, you do."
His expression is one of disbelief, as though he can't comprehend the idea that you would forgive him, that you would love him, that you would want him. He's always been the one to push people away, to keep his distance, and the fact that he's letting himself open up to you is a huge step. It's one you're grateful for, and you're determined to not take it for granted.
âYou do, Cross," you murmur. "You deserve to be happy."
He closes his eyes, his brow furrowed. You watch him, and you can't help but wonder what's going on in his mind.
His voice is hoarse when he speaks, the words barely audible, âI don't want to hurt you again."
You smile sadly up at him. You understand the sentiment. The last year has been a constant battle, a constant struggle. It's a cycle, a vicious one, and you're tired of fighting.
The two of you have both made mistakes, and you're both haunted by them. You're both guilty, and you're both paying the price. But you're here now, together, and maybe that's all that matters.
You can't help but laugh, and it releases some of the pressure that's been building in your chest.Â
Crosshair's eyes snap open, and you shake your head to quell his concern, the laughter dying on your lips.
âWe've spent the last year hurting each other, Crosshair. And for what? Why can't we just let go of the past, and move on?"
He hesitates, and you can see the doubt in his eyes, the fear. But you can also see the hope, the desire. He wants to move on, and he wants to be happy, and he wants it with you. The realization is a relief, and the weight on your chest is gone, the tension easing. You grin up at him, and his lips twitch, a small smile tugging at the corners.
âI think we've both suffered enough, don't you?" you murmur.
His lips part, as if he's about to say something, but the words don't come. You wait, watching him, and you can see the thoughts swirling behind his eyes.Â
Finally, he speaks, his voice is tentative and low. âOkay.â
"Okay," you say, and you lean forward, pressing a chaste kiss to his lips.
You pull away, and his gaze meets yours. He's still holding you, his grip tight, as though he's afraid you'll disappear, but the hand on your cheek is gentle.
Crosshairâs fingers run up through your hair, and his thumb brushes against your skin. He lets out a deep breath, his lips inches from yours. He's looking at you like he's seeing you for the first time, his gaze filled with wonder.
"What?" you ask, suddenly self-conscious.
He shakes his head. "I'm just... I don't know how I got so lucky."
Your heart swells as much as it hurts. Youâll help him understand in time, help him see himself the way you do. But for now, you canât help the teasing grin from forming.
"You're a real sap, you know that?"
He huffs, the sound a mix of a groan and a chuckle. "And youâre a brat.â
"Yeah," you say, a smile tugging at your lips before you press a kiss to his nose. "But you love it."
Crosshair hesitates for a moment, stiffening slightly. He clears his throat, and your heart skips a beat.
You can't tell if you've made a mistake, if you've crossed a line, but the words are out there now, and there's no taking them back. You search his expression, looking for a sign, any hint of what he's thinking.
He swallows hard, and his eyes dart away, his cheeks tinged pink.
"Yeah," he murmurs at last, his voice barely above a whisper. "I do."Â
He turns back to look at you and catches sight of the bright grin on your face, and his flush deepens.
âShut up,â he murmurs, and then he leans in, his lips brushing yours in a tentative kiss.Â
You respond eagerly, and his hands slide up your body, caressing your skin. He's gentle, his touch almost reverent, and his movements are slow and deliberate, as if he's trying to commit the feel of your body to memory.
You run your fingers over his head, tugging him closer as you lie back against the pillow, and the action spurs him on. His hands explore every inch of your body, and his touch leaves a burning trail in its wake.
Crosshair breaks the kiss, his lips ghosting over your skin, trailing kisses down your jaw, your neck. His fingers trace the swell of your breasts, his touch light enough to send shivers down your spine. He brushes his thumb over your nipple, and you let out a gasp, your body arching into him.
"Is this okay?" he murmurs against your neck.
"Yes," you breathe, your voice thick with desire.
He takes a nipple in his mouth, his tongue swirling around the sensitive bud, and his teeth graze the skin. The sensation sends a jolt of pleasure through you, and you let out a quiet moan.Â
His fingers pinch your other nipple, teasing the sensitive flesh. Your hands grasp his shoulders, and his muscles are firm beneath your touch, his body taut with desire. You drag your nails down his back, and he groans, the sound sending a wave of heat straight to your core.
His hand moves lower, his fingers tracing a path down your abdomen, and he cups your mound, his touch gentle. He strokes your folds through the thin fabric of your underwear, his movements slow and deliberate. Your body responds instinctively, your hips bucking into his touch, pressing eagerly into his palm.
"Fuck," he growls as he feels how wet you are through the fabric of your underwear.
"Please," you whimper.
"Patience," he says, his voice thick.
His fingers slip inside underneath the waistband, and he dips a finger between your folds, teasing your entrance. You moan, your hips jerking as he ghosts over your clit, sending sparks of pleasure through your body.
"Please," you beg, your voice needy.
"Not yet," he murmurs.
"Why not?"
"Because I want to take my time," he says, a low growl that makes your stomach clench.
He continues his torture, and your breath catches in your throat as his fingers find your wetness, sliding up and down the length of your folds. He gently curls his fingers, watching you closely while rubbing his index pad against your entrance.
You shudder, and he presses his finger inside of you, the digit slick with your arousal. You whimper, and his free hand wraps around your waist, holding you in place.
"I'll give you what you want," he promises, his voice husky, "but first, I want to enjoy this."
"Cross," you whimper, your voice breaking.
He hushes you, and you whine. His movements are unhurried, and his thumb traces lazy circles over your clit, his touch agonizingly slow. Your breathing grows ragged, and your body is coiled tight, and the feeling is both sweet and frustrating.
You squirm, trying to increase the pressure, and he stops his movements, pulling his finger from you.
"Behave," he orders.
"I don't want to," you protest, your tone petulant.
He lets out a growl, and he hooks his thumbs under the waistband of your underwear, dragging them down. You help him remove the garment, and it joins the pile of clothing on the floor before he sits back on his heels, taking in the sight of you.
"Spread your legs," he commands.
You do as he says, and he leans forward, his breath hot against your skin. He dips his head between your thighs, and his tongue flicks out, teasing your folds. You gasp as he licks a stripe up your wetness, his tongue exploring every inch of your sex.
He finds your clit, and his lips close around the sensitive bud, sucking and licking the small bundle of nerves. Your body writhes, and your fingers hold tight to his head, pulling him closer. His finger teases your entrance, and your breath hitches.
"Please," you whimper.
"What do you want?" he says, his voice rough.
"I want you, Cross. Please.â
He groans, and his finger enters you again, his touch firm. He crooks his finger, and he rubs the sensitive spot inside of you, his tongue lapping at your clit. The tension inside of you is building quickly, and you're teetering on the edge, the pleasure almost overwhelming.
"I'm close," you breathe.
He adds a second finger, and you can feel the tremor in his hand, the strain of his muscles. He continues his assault, and your body trembles, your orgasm fast approaching. You grasp the sheets, and your body tenses, your back arching.
"Cross!" you cry out, and you come undone, the pleasure washing over you. Your walls clench around his fingers, and he groans, the sound vibrating against your clit. He continues his ministrations, his tongue and fingers drawing out your release until you're spent, and you collapse on the mattress, breathless.
You both moan as his fingers withdraw, and he sucks them clean, his eyes never leaving yours.
"That was..." you start, but the words die on your lips.
"Yeah," he agrees.
You reach up, cupping his face. He's flushed, his breathing labored, and his pupils are blown wide. The arm heâs using to hold himself up trembles at the effort.
"You're shaking," you say.
He lets out a soft chuckle. "So are you."
Crosshair shifts his weight, resting his elbow on the bed, and the movement brings his body closer. His eyes search yours, and the intensity of his gaze is almost too much.
"What are we doing?" he asks, his voice a hoarse whisper.
"I don't know," you say, your thumb brushing over his skin. "But I don't want it to stop."
"Neither do I."
He leans in, and his lips capture yours, his kiss hungry, desperate. You taste yourself on his tongue, and his hand roams over your body, touching and teasing every inch of your skin. You touch him back, exploring the hard planes of his muscles, and his body shudders beneath your fingertips.
He breaks the kiss, and his forehead rests against yours, his breathing heavy.Â
"Fuck," he breathes.
"What is it?"
"I can'tâ" He takes a deep breath. "I can't stop thinking about all the time we wasted."
You swallow hard, and your chest aches. He's right. The last year has been hell, and the two of you have wasted so much time.
"We'll make up for it," you promise.
"I want to," he murmurs. "I need you."
His words send a thrill through you. He needs you. He wants you. Youâve waited so long to hear him say it.
"I need you too," you admit. You push yourself up and roll over, so you're on top of him, straddling his lap. You rock your hips, grinding against him, and his erection is hard and straining beneath his blacks.
He huffs a laugh as his hands come up to hold your hips. "I've wanted you for so long. I've wanted this."
His words send a shiver down your spine. You've wanted him too. And now that he's here, he's real, and he's in front of you, the feelings are almost too overwhelming.
"You have me," you whisper around the lump in your throat.
He pulls you close, his arms wrapping around your waist. His lips are inches from yours, his eyes locked with yours. "Promise me."
"I promise." Your hand trails down to grab his, locking your little fingers together. You hold your hands up so he can see them, your mouth lifting up into a soft smile. "I pinky promise."
He snorts softly, his eyes crinkling at the edges. "That's a pretty serious promise."
"It's the most serious one I can make," you say solemnly.
He laughs. The sound is warm and genuine, and it lights up his entire face. Your chest aches, and it's almost too much, the way his expression changes, the way his features soften.
You're tired of holding back. Tired of being scared. You've wasted too much time already.
You lean forward, pressing your lips to his. His hands slide up your back, and he pulls you closer, deepening the kiss. You melt into him, letting him consume you.
The kiss is intense and desperate. You pour everything you have into it, everything you've been holding back. Your body responds, and you press against him, your hips grinding against his erection. He groans, his body arching into yours, and the sound sends a jolt of heat straight to your core.
He pulls away, his breathing ragged, and his eyes are dark with desire. His hands grip your hips, and he rolls over, pinning you beneath him. You wrap your legs around his waist, and he grinds against you, his erection straining against the fabric of his blacks.
He reaches between you, his fingers finding your clit. You gasp as he circles the bundle of nerves. He's not gentle. His movements are quick and rough. The pleasure is almost overwhelming, and you buck against his hand, desperate for more.
His other hand grasps your wrist, and he pins it above your head. His grip is bruising. He continues his assault on your clit, his movements relentless.
"Come for me," he growls.
You can't hold back the moan that escapes your lips. Your body is on fire. Every nerve is alight with pleasure. The pressure builds within you, the tension coiling in your stomach. You're on the edge, teetering, and you can feel the release coming.
âPlease,â you whimper. âI need you.â
His hand leaves your wrist, and he grabs the waistband of his blacks. He pushes them down, and his erection springs free. You can't help but stare at him, at the way his body moves, the muscles rippling under his skin. His cock is hard and straining, bobbing against his stomach as he turns to kick his blacks away.
Then heâs back on top of you, your skin flush against his. He's hot and heavy against you, his body a welcome weight, and his length presses against your stomach. He grinds his hips against yours, his cock rubbing against your folds.
The sensation is too much. The feeling is too good. You're on the edge again, the pressure building.
His fingers tease your folds, and he finds the wetness pooled at your entrance. He gathers the liquid on his digits, his touch featherlight, and you whimper. He pulls away, and his hand wraps around the base of his cock. He slowly pumps his length a few times, coating it with your wetness. You canât help but watch, your mouth parting slightly.
"Are you ready?" he asks.
"Yes," you breathe.
He positions the head of his cock at your entrance. He's not gentle, and you donât want him to be. He thrusts his hips forward, pushing into you. Your walls stretch to accommodate his length, and he groans, his body shuddering.
You cling to him, your nails digging into his back, and when he bottoms out, his pelvis grinding against your clit, you cry out, the sensation sending a shockwave of pleasure through your body.
He buries his face in the crook of your neck, his breath hot against your skin. His hand comes up to cradle your head.
"I'm going to move," he murmurs.
"Yes," you breathe, unable to hide the relief in your voice.
He pulls out and thrusts back in. The slow drag of his cock is maddening, stoking the fire that heâd ignited. His movements are deliberate and steady, each one calculated and controlled. Itâs almost too much. You want him to let go, to lose control, to ravage you.
"Harder," you beg.
"No."
You huff, frustration rising in you.
"Please."
He lifts his head to look at you. His pupils are blown wide, the black nearly eclipsing the honey-brown, and his expression is one of determination, his jaw clenched. "I don't want to hurt you."
"You won't."
"I don't want to rush this," he murmurs. "I want to enjoy it."
His words are sweet and earnest, but the effect is lost in the desperation, in the need. You can't help but groan in frustration.
"I need you," you plead. "I need all of you."
His lips twitch into a smirk. "Be patient."
"You're such a tease," you complain.
"And you're impatient."
He leans forward and kisses you. His mouth is hot and insistent against yours. His tongue swipes across your lips, seeking entrance, and you grant it, his tongue sweeping into your mouth. Your legs wrap around his waist, pulling him closer, and your arms wind around his shoulders.
His hand moves down to your clit, his fingers circling the sensitive bundle of nerves. You moan, and the sound is swallowed by his kiss. His movements are slow and deliberate, his touch gentle. He's taking his time, and you're not sure if you love him or hate him for it.
You break the kiss, gasping for air, and his lips move down, trailing kisses across your jaw, your neck. His teeth graze the sensitive skin there, nipping at the flesh, and you cry out, the sensation sending sparks of pleasure through your body.
His movements speed up, and the fire inside of you burns hotter, the pressure building. His fingers continue their ministrations, his pace unrelenting.
"Cross," you moan. "I'm so close."
He chuckles, the sound low and rough. "I know."
His mouth finds yours again. His tongue teases yours as his fingers continue their assault. Your body tenses, the release almost within reach.
When his fingers pinch your clit, your orgasm rips through you. Your walls clench around his cock, and you cry out as the pleasure floods your veins. Your body shakes with the intensity of the orgasm. It's a wave that washes over you. It's pure ecstasy.
His cock is still buried deep inside you. Heâs slowed his thrusts to a gentle rocking motion, the movements soothing, allowing you to ride out your high.
When you come down, the aftershocks still coursing through you, his hips speed up. Youâre so sensitive, itâs almost too much, but he feels so good, filling you, stretching you. You can't help but moan.
"Fuck," he groans. âYouâre so tight.â
You can tell he's close. His thrusts are faster and deeper. He's chasing his own release. You tighten around him, trying to push him over the edge. His eyes fly open, his gaze meeting yours.
"I want you to come," you whisper.
"Not yet."
"Please."
"I'm not finished with you," he says, his voice rough.
He pulls out, and the sudden emptiness is almost painful. His fingers thrust back into you, and the pleasure is sharp and intense, the pressure building.
He fucks you with his fingers, his movements rough and quick. You moan and writhe beneath him, the sensation almost overwhelming. Your walls are still sensitive from your orgasm, and the feeling is almost too much.
"I can't," you whimper. "I'm so sensitive."
"Shhh," he hushes.
Crosshair curls his fingers, finding that spot that makes you see stars, and you can't stop the scream that escapes your lips. The tension coils in your stomach. You're on the edge again. Your body is shaking.
You nearly scream as his fingers leave you, your walls clenching around nothing. He leans down and captures your mouth with his, muffling your cry. His kiss is bruising, his tongue demanding. His lips trail down your neck, his teeth nipping at the skin, and the sensation is overwhelming, the pain mixing with the pleasure.
His hands are everywhere, touching, caressing, teasing. Your body is on fire, the pleasure almost too much to bear.
His hand slides down to cup your ass, his fingers digging into the flesh. You cry out, and he uses his grip to lift you. Your legs wrap around his waist automatically. His other hand moves to his length, pumping it a few times, coating it with your wetness.
He pulls his lips away, his breathing labored, and he looks at you, his gaze filled with hunger and longing.
"Ready?"
"Yes," you whisper.
His grip on your ass tightens, and he pulls you closer. His cock teases your folds, sliding between them, and the sensation is agonizing. You whimper, the need for him growing, the need for release.
"Please," you beg.
He pushes into you, the head of his cock stretching your entrance. He feels thicker than before, his length harder. Your walls are still sensitive, but the feeling is too good. You want more. You need more.
He groans, and the sound is raw and primal. His hips buck, and his cock fills you completely, his length buried to the hilt. The pace he sets is punishing, the feeling intense.
"Cross," you gasp.
"You're so tight," he groans. "So perfect."
"You feel so good," you moan. "Fuck."
His fingers dig into the soft flesh of your ass, and his other hand wraps around the back of your neck. His grip is bruising, but you don't care. You like the way his hands feel on your skin.
You lean forward and press your lips to his. The kiss is sloppy and messy. He's lost in his own pleasure, his movements rough and uncoordinated. You can't get enough, and you moan into his mouth as he finds the right spot.
"I'm close," he rasps.
âMe too,â you manage.
Your fingers dig into his shoulders, and you cling to him as he brings you both closer and closer to the edge. Your walls flutter around him, the tension in your stomach tightening. His movements become erratic, and his body tenses. You know he's close. You can feel the tremors running through him.
"Fuck," he groans. "I'mââ
âInside me," you moan. "Please."
The words are barely out of your mouth when he stills, his cock pulsing inside you. You can feel the hot spurts of his release filling you. The sensation is overwhelming, and you scream his name.
Your orgasm hits you hard and fast, and you clench around him, your walls milking him. Your body shakes with the force of the pleasure, and your ears ring.
When the aftershocks finally subside, he collapses on top of you, his breathing ragged. You can feel his heart racing. Your arms wrap around him, holding him close. You never want to let him go.
You're still trying to make sense of what just happened when Crosshair's hand comes to rest on your hip, his fingers tracing slow circles. The sensation brings you back to reality, and you open your eyes to find him staring at you, his expression filled with concern.
"Are you okay?" he murmurs.
"Yeah," you say, your voice hoarse. "That was..."
"Intense," he finishes, and he flashes you a crooked smile.
You laugh softly. "That's one word for it."
His smile fades, and he shifts his weight, pulling away from you. He slips out of you, and you can't help the soft whine that escapes your lips. You can already feel the soreness setting in.
He leans forward and presses a chaste kiss to your lips. "I'll be right back."
He slides off the bed and disappears into the fresher. You roll onto your side and press your thighs together, the action doing more to soothe the ache than you'd expected. When Crosshair returns, he has a warm, wet washcloth in hand, and you can't help but smile.
"Thanks," you murmur, reaching out to take the cloth from him. He pulls his hand away.
"Let me," he says softly.
Your breath catches in your throat. He climbs back on the bed and gently pushes your legs apart. His movements are careful as he wipes the cloth over your sex. He's gentle and thorough. You can't help but feel like his touch is more intimate than anything else the two of you have done tonight.
When he's satisfied, he tosses the cloth aside. He lays down next to you, his head propped up on his hand, and his eyes are soft, filled with affection.
"Hi," you say shyly.
"Hey," he murmurs. He leans forward and presses a soft kiss to your lips.
Your heart swells. You can't believe this is happening. It all feels like a dream. You never thought he'd ever be like this with you. You never thought you'd have the chance to be with him again.
You feel tears start to prick the corner of your eyes, but you blink them away, choosing instead to reach out and trace the contours of his face with your fingers. He closes his eyes and lets out a sigh, his expression relaxed.
"What are you doing?" he asks, his voice soft.
"Admiring you," you murmur. You canât keep the affection out of your tone, and you donât try.
Crosshair snorts, and if you weren't so close, you wouldn't have noticed the hint of redness that spreads across his cheeks. You shake your head and chuckle at the sight. He's adorable.
"You just fucked me so hard I canât feel my legs, and now you're embarrassed by a little compliment?" you tease.
His eyes open, and he gives you a look. "I hate you," he grumbles.
You grin. "No, you don't."
"You're right," he says, his voice a low rumble. "I don't."
Crosshair pulls you closer, his arms wrapping around you, and you press your body against his, enjoying the closeness. Your hands roam over his skin, your fingers tracing the scars that litter his body. You can't help but wonder how he got each and every one of them.
His hand comes up to hold yours, his thumb brushing against your knuckles.
"Thank you," he murmurs.
"For what?"
"For letting me in. And for forgiving me.â
You swallow hard. His words are so simple, but they mean so much. You know it hasn't been easy for him. You know he's been struggling. You've seen the guilt and the pain. And despite all of that, he's here.
You lean in and press a kiss to his chest. "I'm so proud of you."
"I'm notâ"
"I am," you say firmly.
He swallows hard and nods. Itâs obvious the words are difficult for him to hear, and you canât help but wonder the last time someone told him those words. If they ever did.
You reach up and brush your thumb against his cheek. "Do you have any idea how much you mean to me?"
His lips part, and his eyes search yours. He looks overwhelmed, his emotions written plainly on his face.
"I'm starting to," he murmurs. "But Iâ"
"I love you," you blurt out. "And not just because of this. I've loved you for so long. And I've wanted this for so long."
He blinks at you, his eyes widening slightly. Your heart leaps to your throat.
"Sorry," you apologize sheepishly. "Too much?"
He shakes his head and lets out a shaky breath. "No," he says softly. "It's not."
"Oh," you say.
He leans forward and kisses you, his lips soft and gentle. Your body relaxes, the tension seeping out of you. His hand slides up to cup your face, his thumb brushing against your cheek. When he pulls away, he rests his forehead against yours.
"I love you too," Crosshair whispers.
"Yeah?"
"Yeah," he murmurs. "So much."
He takes a deep breath and leans back against the pillow, his eyes fixed on the bottom of the bunk above you. "IâŠhad a lot of time to think about things while I wasâŠaway. And I realized a lot of things. About myself. About us. I realized that I didn't know what I had until it was gone."
You watch him. His jaw is tense. His brow is furrowed. He's still struggling with his emotions.
"Cross," you murmur.
"I'm not good with words," he admits.
"It's okay," you say.
He takes a deep breath. "I missed you," he says. "I missed everything about you. And I regretted so many things. I thought about what we could have had if I had let myself have it. And I... I don't want to waste any more time."
You can't help the tears that roll down your cheeks. He's so sincere, and his words are so heartfelt. It's overwhelming. You lean in and kiss him, pouring every bit of emotion into the kiss. You want him to know just how much you care. How much he means to you.
"I'm glad we didn't waste any more time," you say.
"Me too.â He clears his throat, his gaze searching yours. âI wanted to ask you something."
"Okay," you say slowly, hesitantly.
Crosshair shifts underneath you, and you prop yourself up on your elbow, watching him curiously. He sits up, and his hand comes up to cradle your face, his touch gentle. "I'm... not really sure how to do this."
You feel the heat rising in your cheeks, and your heartbeat quickens. "Just ask.â
"I was wondering," he says, his voice soft. "If you wanted to make this, us, official."
He takes a deep breath, and you can feel his nerves, his anxiety. You stare at him, stunned to silence. You're not sure how to respond. You hadn't expected this, not yet at least. Maybe not ever. You never really allowed yourself to hope.
"I know it's complicated, and I know it's going to be hard. But Iâ"
"Yes," you interrupt, and his eyes snap to yours.
He blinks at you. "What?"
"Yes," you say again. "I would love that."
"Really?"
You laugh softly. "Did you think I'd say no?"
You can't keep the amusement out of your tone. His nervousness is so endearing. You never thought you'd get to see him like this.
"No, I justâŠhuh,â he breathes. His brow furrows, his expression thoughtful.
"What?"
"I wasn't expecting you to agree so quickly.â Crosshair smirks, his gaze meeting yours. "I was ready to make a case. Give you some time to think it over."
His hand moves from your face to the back of your neck, his fingers tangling in your hair, and his eyebrows lift. "You must really like me."
âShut up.â You huff and roll your eyes. "I love you, you asshole.â
"I love you too," he says, his voice is warm, and his words are sincere. You lean in and kiss him, your hands moving to his shoulders, pulling him close. You can't get enough of him. You're not sure if you ever will.
When you finally break apart, he lets out a contented sigh and pulls you back down, his arms wrapping around you, holding you tight. He brushes a few strands of hair away from your face, and his expression softens.
"I can't promise you much, but I can promise you that I'll always be there for you. No matter what happens. Even if things go to shit, even if we get separated. Even if...â
He swallows and looks away, his expression darkening. You know what he's thinking, what he's trying not to say.
"Cross," you murmur. "I'm not going anywhere." You cup his face, your gaze meeting his. "And neither are you."
He nods, and his mouth lifts up into a soft smile. "I'm not letting you go. Ever."
"That's a lot of promises," you tease.
He huffs. "Yeah, well, I'm full of them lately."
You press another kiss to his lips, and the two of you settle into a comfortable silence. He pulls you closer, his grip tightening. His eyes flutter closed, and he lets out a deep, contented sigh. âNow letâs go back to sleep. You wore me out."
You chuckle and close your eyes, nestling your head against Crosshair's chest. The sound of his heartbeat is soothing, and the steady rise and fall of his chest is calming.Â
You never imagined this would happen, but here you are, wrapped up in his arms. And for the first time in a long time, everything feels right.
You feel safe, and you feel loved. And as sleep pulls you under, you realize that this is exactly where you belong. You're home.
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A lil compilation of my tbb x rdr2 crossover stuff so far
Almost done with chapter 2 of the fic!
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Summary: Gasping for air, unsteady hands, blurred vision - Why did this have to occur during the midst of battle?
At least Tech knows how to help.
Word count: 1.7k
Pairing: Tech x GN!Reader. Can be read as platonic or romantic.
Tags: Panic attacks, Anxiety attacks, Angst, Comfort, Happy ending.
Notes: I've had maaaaany requests for some angsty comfort with Tech. About time I wrote it! Based on my favourite tarot card - The Tower.
When the tower begins to crumble, it's bound to fall.
Built on an uneasy foundation, it was only so long until your walls began to chip away, and with it, the rest of the structure started to collapse.
And whilst you are somewhat used to that sensation, you're not used to this out-of-place timing.
"We'll regroup at the Marauder," Hunter's voice comes through your comm, strapped to your wrist. Tech is the first to reply, mumbling a swift, "affirmative," before returning his full focus to his blasters. He is, as always, quick and precise with them, saving ammunition until he's certain that his shot will be a hit - a trait that he's picked up from one of his brothers.
One by one, the droids fall, and whilst this is child's play, you seem to be struggling.
There's a pain in your chest, a weight, gripping at your lungs and crushing them from the inside out. Your hands, often steady with your weapon, are jittering more and more as every moment passes. And your throat fails to relax, causing your breaths to become shorter, faster, until your head begins to spin from lack of oxygen.
Knowing that you need a moment - a brief moment to set your bearings straight - you duck behind a crate and press your back up against it, barely looking up to watch Tech finish off what's left of your opponents.
This brief moment blurs on for an eternity, and the more that time passes, the worse you become. Your knees come up to press against your chest, palms gripping onto your weapon, as if it's somehow going to steady you during this emotional ride. The sound of your name being called out to you fades from your ears, and a ringing takes its place.
That is, until a firm hand finds your shoulder, and you flinch.
"Oh," Tech sighs, his fingers flexing shut as he watches your eyes meet his. Reddened cheeks, wide pupils, tears threatening to spill from your waterline - something isn't right, but it doesn't take a genius like Tech to realise that.
Rather than placing his hand on you again, Tech speaks your name in a soft tone. "Are you alright?" he brings the important question to light, and from your silent response, he takes it that the answer is no.
Once more, Tech mutters your name, and he's extremely cautious as he gently wraps his hand around your bicep, attempting to offer you some form of stability. "Are you hurt?" Tech questions, and to his surprise, you manage to shake your head.
"Alright," Tech nods, calm and patient. He pauses, his eyes wandering over your form, analysing the state that you're in. By now, you're sobbing, but there's still a washed glisten of fear in your vision, as if you're staring down at your worst nightmare - an imaginary ghost that he cannot see.
Tech crouches down, positioning himself on one knee by your side. His thumb subconsciously begins to rub back and forth against your arm. "I think I understand what's happening," Tech comments. "Although, I do not know how to help. If I can be of any assistance, then please, inform me how."
Sniffles fill the air after you suck in a few deep breaths. "I don't know," your words merge into one, but Tech manages to make them out.
"We need to remove you from this environment," Tech decides, forming the first steps of his recovery mission. "May I take your hand?" he offers.
Tech's heart softens out as you slide your hand into his, allowing him to pull you up with ease. You're a jittering mess, that much is obvious as Tech wraps your arm around his, and begins guiding you out of this hellhole. Thank the Maker that your opponents are down, else that would only worsen things.
"Our safest place is the Marauder. Are you comfortable with me comming Hunter, and asking him to pick us up?"
You instantly nod, knowing that the Marauder brings you a feeling of warmth and security. "But I don't want the others to see me like this," you blurt out, and Tech simply nods his head with understanding.
"Of course," he confirms. "I will lead us onto the shuffle, and keep the others distracted whilst you retreat to your private quarters. I'll inform the others that you need assistance, but sway them from interfering. From there, I'll join you, and we will set our next steps to recovery."
Tech follows up his plan with a simple, "how does that sound?" and lets out a pleasant hum when you agree to it. From there, his plan begins springing into motion, and before you know it, the Marauder is coming into your line of sight with the cockpit door lowered.
As always, Wrecker is waiting at the doorway with his hand extended, always eager to help you on board, but Tech politely pushes past and begins muttering something under his breath. Through Wrecker's fully armoured form, you can tell that he's taken aback, but backs off unquestionably, allowing you to scurry past and disappear down the hallway.
The second that you reach your dorm, the downpour of your tears breaks out into a thunder, and you barely manage to shrug off your coat and shoes before curling up into your bunk.
It takes Tech exactly twenty-three seconds before he's entering your dorm without a knock, seeing as you consented to it beforehand. "Oh dear," he coos as he enters, and his hand hovers over the lock before questioning, "shall I lock it?"
"No, thank you," you shake your head at the same time, and with it, Tech eases off.
A tall glass of water is placed on your bedside table, almost overflowing with how close the water is reaching the rim. Tech takes a seat beside you, and a hand comes to rest on your forearm. To his surprise, you shrug it off, only to wrap your hands around his waist in a desperate attempt for comfort. Tech accepts you, cradling you against his chest, hushing you in a soft tone.
"Let it all out," Tech coos, comforting you as the tears continue to fall. His hands stroke and grasp at your back, attempting to provide as much comfort as he can. Tech is somewhat familiar with this subject, although it's been a long time since he's ever had to support it, and an even longer time since he has received such support.
Tech's last occurrence was back when he was a Cadet. One of his fellow brothers broke down into a state of panic, and Tech, being the sweetheart that he has always been, could only hug them as the moment passed.Â
Since the war broke out, it's rare to find a moment for your emotions to overspill, seeing as everyone is always up on their feet - Troopers and Jedi alike. Youâre no stranger to the sight of seeing men hunched over at the end of battle, their form exhausted, stress lines present on their skin, and a look of desperation in their eyes. Perhaps they have also noticed that in you.Â
The hard form of Tech's chest armour lies pressed against your cheek, and only when your panicked state starts to relax, do you realise how uncomfortable the plastoid surface is. With an uncomfortable expression, you move your head away, gazing up at Tech with tear filled eyes.
"It appears my armour has left its mark," Tech comments, earning a soft laugh from you.
"Remind me to never cry into your armour again," you swat back. Your hand trails over the indent left on your cheek, and for whatever reason, that pulls you from your dark thoughts.
Warm eyes meet yours, still laced with concern, his brows raised accordingly. âI will bear it in mind, if the⊠incident ever occurs again.âÂ
âI hope it doesnât,â you state with a sigh. The sides of your fists come up to rub your eyes, attempting to fresh the life up in them. âIâm sorry you had to see that,â you apologise, your hands now finding comfort in your lap, fingertips fidgeting with each other.
âDo not apologise,â Tech responds with sternness. âPlease, I will never accept your apology for something like that.âÂ
You canât help but let out a chuckle. âMessage received,â you say with a smile. âLetâs just hope it doesnât happen again.âÂ
âAnd if it does, you know I will always be here to assist you. I am⊠no stranger to what just happened,â Tech explains, his eyes drifting from yours as his shoulders soften. Now, youâre no longer the saddest person in the room.Â
âCare to share?â you question.Â
âAh, well-â Tech waves his hands as his back straightens. âIt is not my information to share, but I can inform you that I have seen this happen before. Multiple times, really. Being a Cadet was never easyâŠâÂ
Your hand comes to rest on his forearm, a gesture that is not left unnoticed. âIâm sorry,â is all you can sigh.Â
âDid I not just inform you to never apologise for such things?â Tech responds in a firm tone, yet thereâs a playful smile on his lips. You mimic his expression, soon letting out a laugh. Techâs hand rests atop of yours, giving you a firm squeeze before suggesting, âshall we go and see the others? Wrecker especially looked awfully concerned about you.âÂ
âYes,â you agree with a nod. âI wouldnât want to keep any of them worrying. Iâm alright now.âÂ
âThat, you are,â Tech confirms. He rises to his feet, and offers you a hand. You accept it, steadying yourself on uneven legs, your muscles still relaxing after a storm of negativity.Â
Before exiting your dorm, Tech lets out a soft, âdo not forget your water,â as he holds the door open for you. A glass of water in hand, and you head out to regroup with your squad, your friend close behind, always ready to have your back - if you ever need it.
I just love anything tension filled when it comes to Crosshair... then it ends with the admission of feelings. The same formula and I will consume 1000 times
Hi there, I've never done a request before, so fun! đ€ Could you do angst/fluff (enemies to lovers) with fem reader and Crosshair? "What are you staring at?" / "You, is that a problem?" I'd love for the fem reader to give Cross a dose of his snark, so maybe she's the one saying "You, is that a problem?" Some snark to fluff would be wonderful. Thank you for all you do! â€ïž
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đ«§ pairings: Crosshair x Female!Reader
word count: 2k
prompts:
âą âWhat are you staring at?â / âYou, is that a problem?â
Crosshair didnât like new people so naturally, he didnât like you. Or did he? He can bark but you show him that you can certainly bite back.
warnings: Safe for Work, Enemies to Lovers, Kissing, Fluff, Mutual Pining, Bickering, Sassy Moments, Light Angst, Scar/Burn Insecurities, Female Reader.
authors note: sorry for the wait, hope this is okay @megmegalodondon đ«§
The Marauder buzzed with activity, each member of the squad engrossed in their routines. The hum of machinery and quiet murmur of voices filled the air. You were content assisting Tech when a burning sensation prickled on the side of your face, like the intensity of a laser sight. You didnât need to turn to know who was staring.
Since joining the team, Crosshairâs disdain had been clear. From the moment of his return, he made it obvious he didnât like you. The others mentioned he wasnât fond of people in general, and new members who acted like they knew everything were especially irritating to him. Unfortunately, that was you to a tee. Your confidence and cleverness only seemed to amplify his irritation.
As you worked at the main console running diagnostics, you felt Crosshairâs gaze drilling into you. Stealing a glance, you shot him a look of annoyance, but his face remained an impassive mask, eyes like cold steel.
You muttered under your breath, turning back to your task, but his presence was an undeniable distraction. Despite his abrasive attitude, you couldn't ignore his striking looksâthough you'd never admit it aloud. His chiseled jaw, the intensity in his eyes, the way his hands worked methodically over his rifle â it was all infuriatingly attractive. Sadly his snarky attitude was less than desirable.
âCan you keep the static to a minimum?â Crosshairâs sharp voice cut through the silence, jolting you from your thoughts. His brows were furrowed in irritation, lips a thin line.
You rolled your eyes, fingers pausing on the controls. âItâs called doing my job, Crosshair. Maybe you should try it sometime.â
He set his rifle down with a clatter and stood, his tall frame casting a long shadow over you and his eyes bore into you. âMy job is to keep us safe, and I canât do that if I canât concentrate.â
âOh, please. Like your concentration is ever that perfect,â you retorted, standing to meet his gaze. âOr maybe youâre just looking for an excuse to complain.â
His brown eyes darkened, a dangerous glint in them. âI donât need excuses to point out incompetence.â He stepped closer, the tension between you thick.
âIncompetence? Youââ Your retort was cut short by Omegaâs innocent voice from her corner, breaking the charged atmosphere.
âWhy do you two always fight? Itâs like you actually like each other or something.â
Wrecker, lounging on a crate nearby, let out a booming laugh. âYeah, itâs like a schoolyard crush! You both just need to admit it!â
Your face flushed with embarrassment, heat rising to your cheeks. âWhat? No! Thatâs ridiculous,â you spluttered, glaring at the two of them. âCrosshair would be the last guy in all the galaxy Iâd ever get with.â
Crosshair crossed his arms, a smug smirk playing on his lips. âFeelingâs mutual.â
Tech glanced up from his datapad, adding his two credits. âStatistically, opposites do attract. Itâs not entirely out of the question.â
You and Crosshair turned on him in unison. âShut up, Tech!â
He raised an eyebrow, unfazed. âCharming. But that just proves my point.â
Your embarrassment deepened as the rest of the squad chuckled. âIâm done with this,â you muttered, turning on your heel and storming away from the others.
Omegaâs voice trailed after you, âWe were just teasing!â
The next day, you were tasked with scouting a base for Rex, determining the best points for a future infiltration. The dense jungle surrounded you, the air thick with humidity, leaves glistening with moisture and youâre still in a sour mood from yesterday which is only to worsen. As you navigated through the underbrush, Hunterâs voice cut through your thoughts.
âYou and Crosshair will go ahead together. Maybe sort out your differences while youâre at it.â Clearly, yesterdayâs bickering had reached his ears, and this was your punishment. Crosshair merely grunted, a typical response, and began moving ahead without waiting for you. Reluctantly, you followed.
The jungle was alive with the chirps and calls of unseen creatures, the air heavy with the scent of damp earth and foliage. At the coordinates, Crosshair suggested a lookout point, but you were less than convinced. âYouâre out of your mind if you think thatâs a good vantage point,â you stated, shooting him a stern look.
He raised an eyebrow, his face a mask of annoyance. âAnd where would you suggest, General?â he drawled, sarcasm dripping from every word.
You pointed to a higher spot, frustration evident in your voice. âThere, weâll have a better view of the perimeter.â
Crosshair crossed his arms, a mocking smile on his face. âThatâs weak. Weâll be seen.â
Your face flushed with annoyance because this wasnât the first time he disagreed with you, it was almost every single time.
âOr maybe you canât handle the climb and thatâs why youâre opting for the lower point?â You challenge.
His smirk faded slightly, and he took a deliberate step closer, invading your space. With a fluid motion, he removed his helmet, locking his intense eyes on you. âYouâre new here, Kitten. Maybe you should learn to trust my judgment.â His voice low and testing.
Your heart pounded, and you could feel the heat radiating from him. âTrust your judgment?â You scoff, doing your best to ignore the petname he just gave you. âYouâre so arrogant!â you retorted whilst also trying to ignore how his proximity affected you.
Crosshair leaned in even closer, his breath brushing against your face. âArrogant? Or just right?â His gaze flicked down to your lips, lingering. âYou should watch that pretty mouth of yours.â The air between you crackled with tension, and for a brief, electrifying moment, it seemed like he wanted to kiss you. Or maybe you wanted to kiss him.
But did he just call you pretty? Was he mocking you? Either way, you find yourself in a sudden daze as youâre hypnotised by his eyes. The realisation hits you hard, leaving you momentarily speechless and strangely drawn to him despite your better judgment.
His breath is warm, scented but breathing deadly silent. If you closed your eyes, you probably wouldnât even assume he was mere inches from you but he was and it was consuming.
Before either of you could react, a blaster shot rang out, shattering the moment. âCoverâs blown,â Crosshair snapped, his voice yanking you both back to reality. He sprang into action, and you followed, the adrenaline overtaking your argument.
Maybe, it was best to leave the arguing for after the mission.
Later that night, the squad had returned to Pabu, the mission a success despite the rocky start you and Crosshair had caused by not paying attention.
The others were inside the Marauder, their laughter and chatter a comforting presence. The warm, humid air wrapped around you as you stepped outside, needing space to clear your head, especially to think about what had happened earlier with a certain Sniper.
The tropical night was alive with soundsâcreatures chirping, leaves rustling in the gentle breeze, and the distant call of birds. You wandered down to the beach, the soft, damp sand cool beneath your bare feet. The waves lapped rhythmically at the shore, and the moon hung low in the sky, casting a silver path over the water.
As you walked along the shore, you noticed a lone figure lying on the beach. At first you panicked thinking someone was injured but upon closer inspection, silhouetted against the moonlit horizon, it was Crosshair.
He lay on his back, arms folded behind his head, staring up at the vast expanse of the night sky. His usually stern features seemed softer in the moonlight, lost in thought.
For a moment, you considered turning back, but something compelled you to approach him. The sand crunched softly beneath you feet you drew closer, stopping a few feet away. You donât say anything at first and then end up doing something unexpectedâyou lay down beside him, your eyes tracing the same stars he was watching. Did he do this often?
Supposedly all the time he spent in a cell made stargazing a rare luxury.
The usual tension between you seemed to vanish in the night air. Crosshair remained silent, his face expressionless as you both lay there, the silence stretching out, surprisingly comfortable.
After a few minutes, you turned your head slightly, your hair brushing against the sand as you watched him. His profile was illuminated by the moonlight dancing; casting sharp shadows and highlighting the lines of his face.
Just like you had noticed him staring at you the day before, he sighed. âWhat are you staring at?â he asked, his voice low and rough, like gravel.
âYou. Is that a problem?â you replied, tone challenging.
He shifted slightly, his eyes flicking towards you before returning to the sky. âAre you looking at my scar?â
âNo,â you replied with a small frown, not realising that might be a sensitive topic for him. You had heard about how he got it, but it wasn't something you consciously noticed.
âGood. Look away,â he grumbled, but there was no real anger in his voice. Instead of arguing, you did as he asked, not wanting to make him uncomfortable.
After a few minutes, Crosshair sighed once more. âTech was right.â
You turned your head, confusion knitting your brows together. âAbout what?â
His gaze remained fixed on the moon, his profile bathed in its soft light. âSometimes, opposites do attract.â
You were taken aback, eyes widening and quite unsure of how to respond. âReally?â
He nodded slowly, the movement almost missable. âI secretly admire how you take my comments on the chin and arenât afraid to speak your mind. Itâs... admirable.â His voice was awkward, as if admitting his feelings was a foreign concept. His usual mask of indifference slipped slightly, revealing a hint of vulnerability.
Surprise washed over you. All this time, you had thought Crosshair hated you. His constant criticism, the way he always seemed to challenge youâit had all felt like disdain. But now, you realized it was his strange way of showing respect, of acknowledging your strength.
âYou couldâve gone about it a different way, yâknow?â
âI know.â He responds stiffly.
You smile softly. âThatâs a strange way to apologise to me as well.â You jest.
Thereâs a very faint chuckle that parts his lips as he says, âdonât push it.â
A heartfelt silence settled between you, the sound of the waves the only interruption. But, you still had one thing on your mind.
Breaking the silence, you asked, âEarlier, during the mission... what do you think went wrong?â
Crosshair's expression hardened slightly, his eyes narrowing. âWe were distracted. We werenât focused.â
You bit your lip, gathering your courage. âI thought... for a moment, I thought you were going to kiss me. Would you have?â
Crosshair fell silent, his expression unreadable in the dim light.
Oh no. Why did you have to open your mouth?
Embarrassment flushed through you, and you began to sit up, ready to leave. âIâm sorry, I shouldnât haveââ
Before you could finish, his hand reached out, gently stopping you. He said nothing, his gaze intense and unreadable as he held onto your arm.
Slowly, he sat forward and tilted your face towards his, his touch surprisingly gentle. Without a word, he leaned in and kissed you, a brief but electrifying connection that left you breathless, your heart trying to leap out of your chest.
The kiss was soft, tentative, as if he was testing the waters. He pulled back before you could even comprehend what was happening, his eyes searching yours, and for once, there was no hostility, only a vulnerable sincerity.
âHowâs that for an apology?â he murmured, his voice barely more than a whisper, his breath warm against your lips.
You lick your lower lip, having to suppress a dreamy sigh as you could taste him on your tongue. âSurprising.â You say softly, completely smitten all of a sudden.
He smirks, eyes scanning your face. âIâve never seen you so bashful,â
âYes, well, kissing someone who you thought was your enemy tends to have that effect.â
He chuckles, lifting his hand and tucking some hair that was dancing in the soft breeze behind your ear. âHow about another one?â
You grin, leaning in close. âI wonât say no to that.â
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My mom named one of the street cats she feeds Tommy, so I thought to myself, "what if..."
@summer-of-bad-batch week 12 prompt 'Nightmares'
Fandom:Â The Bad Batch Characters:Â Hunter, Crosshair Set in Season 3, just before they go back to Barton IV in The Return Word Count:Â ~2585 Read Here on AO3
Synopsis: Since his return from Tantiss, things between Hunter and Crosshair have been nothing but tense. But even in his anger, Hunter is unable to ignore how distressed Crosshair is when he is trapped in a nightmare.
Written by request for @theproblemwithstardust after I made a throwaway comment in "Forget I asked" about Hunter holding Crosshair through his nightmares. Specifically, the request was phrased as "well if itâs in the hair braiding universe, and before Crosshair left Pabu⊠what about when he first got back to the squad with Omega (after Tantiss) and was still sort of fighting with Hunter. Maybe between them all meeting up again and The Return? I bet Crosshair might have nightmares while heâs stressed about returning to Barton IV đ€ (and Hunter wouldnât let him suffer even if theyâre fighting)"
Hunter was dragged from the edge of sleep by that ill-defined sense that told him something was amiss, even if he couldnât put his finger on quite what.
Tech had always told him that his trouble-sense was nothing to do with his enhancement, and everything to do with his leadership skills. Sometimes he wondered if it wasnât a bit of both.
Now, as he stretched his senses out through the sleeping ship, he was certain it was the manipulated genetics that were at play. He should be able to sense three sleeping bodies â Omega, Wrecker, Crosshair.
But he could hear erratic breathing. Feel the shudders of a trembling body vibrating through the stack of narrow racks to reach him.
Not Omega then.
Still, he cracked an eye open and glanced up at the curtained gunnerâs mount just to reassure himself. The curtain was motionless, and he could sense nothing from beyond it that would cause him concern.
One of his brothers then.
There was a time when heâd known all their life-signs so intimately that it wouldnât even have taken him this long to sense whose distress had woken him.
Momentarily derailed by regret, he covered his face with one hand, drawing in his own shuddering breath. Then, steeling himself, he pushed sleep from his mind and sat up.
He was in the middle rack. Wreckerâs breathing beneath him was deep and even, and when he peeked over the edge he could see his brother fast asleep in open-mouthed exhaustion.
That left Crosshair.
Hooking one hand under the rack above to steady himself, Hunter leaned out and peered up at the form on the bunk overhead. A thin grey blanket was wrapped around narrow shoulders which twitched and spasmed with whatever midnight haunting tormented his brother.
He wasnât awake, that was for sure. Just a nightmare.
Hunter paused, half-way to retreating back to his own narrow berth.
Just a nightmare.
Something bitter caught in his chest, so sharp it almost choked him. He was angry at Crosshair. So angry.
Yet at the same time the knife of guilt twisted in his gut, unable to ignore his distress.
Not now he could do something about it.
Hunter squeezed his eyes shut, breathed hard through his nose as he banished the feeling that stung unbidden at the edge of his conscience. He wouldnât feel bad. He wouldnât.
They had been separated. So many light years and the Empire a gulf between them. He didnât have to feel responsible for what Crosshair had been through at their hands.
Crosshair had chosen that for himself. Hunter had given him another option, and he hadnât taken it.
Leaving him on that platform, skyline streaked with destruction as Kamino burned, had torn his heart in two.
But it had been Crosshairâs choice.
No chips. No control. Hunter knew that now, no matter how heâd wanted to believe otherwise at the time. Crosshair had looked at him with that bruised expression, hurt and bitterness and spite etched into the stern lines of his face, and he had turned his back on them. Refused to consider rejoining them, even when the Empire had bombed the city out from under them.
Hunter tried to summon that core of anger and hold onto it. But it was a slippery thing, the spiky edges of his hurt made slick with the sounds of Crosshairâs suffering.
Because suffering he was, trapped at the mercy of whatever memory or vision stalked his sleeping hours.
If he could just quiet the rest of his senses enough, Hunter would be able to feel the lightning-storm of firing synapses that danced in the sniperâs mind, neural pathways surely altered by torture and conditioning that he couldnât even begin to conceive of.
Not his brotherâs mind any more. Not as heâd known it before.
But still his brother who tossed and whimpered in his sleep like he had when they were cadets.
Hunter clenched his teeth so hard that the tendons in his temples ached. Then finally he made his choice and swung out of his bunk once more, carefully tucking his feet onto the lower rack without disturbing Wrecker so he could stand up with his elbows linked on Crosshairâs bunk.
âHey. Cross.â
The nickname slipped out by accident. Some deep-rooted instinct had set it at the tip of his tongue without conscious thought, and it had slid out before he had time to click his teeth shut and bite back that instinct towards sympathy.
He didnât feel sympathy for his brother, he reminded himself. Crosshair had suffered, but no more than they had in his absence. No more than Omega had, taken captive by the Empire and held against her will.
âCrosshair.â The name was a grunt, and this time it was accompanied by digging his knuckles between Crosshairâs shoulder blades. An open hand to his back felt too soothing, and Hunter wasnât ready for that gesture yet.
Crosshair woke with a flinch, spinning towards the source of the perceived threat with his hands up defensively. He didnât cry out; was dead silent except for a breathy gasp inhaled as he surfaced from his nightmare, and the ragged breathing that followed.
And his eyes. Hunter had been waiting for a scowl at being woken, that same dark, closed glare that Crosshair directed at him for every one of his waking hours.
No. Crosshairâs eyes were wide and frightened, tear-glaze glinting in the darkness. Hunter startled at the way it constricted his heart, gaze locked on the look of slack panic on Crosshairâs pale, narrow face.
Several blinks cleared the child-like panic from Crosshairâs face, and Hunter watched in real-time as the veil of discontent settled back into place, defences quickly rebuilt. Crosshairâs shoulders hunched protectively, open hands which had shielded him on instinct as he woke bunching to fists and folding across his chest.
âWhat is it?â he hissed, some of the displeasure of his words lost between panting breaths that he still hadnât managed to regulate.
Hunter let his own frown fall into place to match Crosshairâs, wiping away any evidence of that intuitive concern he had felt to see his brother so distressed as he woke. He chewed on his answer a moment, then offered it gruffly into the silence between them.
âYou were having a nightmare.â Then, as though that werenât explanation enough, âThought Iâd wake you from it. Youâre welcome.â
He couldnât help the bitter sarcasm that leached into his voice. Crosshair had that effect on him, even when he was trying to be nice.
âI didnât ask you to,â spat Crosshair, eyes narrowing in suspicion. Like he was looking for Hunterâs angle of attack.
âNo, you didnât,â agreed Hunter with a bite of anger in his words. âBecause you were too busy whimpering like a tubie.â
It felt dangerous to be stood on the edge of the bunk like this, facing down Crosshairâs sharp tongue and acerbic mood. He couldnât predict how his brother was going to react.
Heâd done it often enough when they were cadets.
But theyâd known how to trust each other back then.
Crosshair made no move to lash out at him. Nor did he roll away, turn his back to Hunter and ignore him. His gaze might bleed with distrust, but he didnât look away from Hunterâs face.
Hunter waited for another agonising minute, both of them locked in mutual silence. Neither was ready to be the first one to break their rapport, however tense it may be.
He sighed and reached out again, this time lightly cuffing Crosshairâs shoulder.
âMove over.â
âWhat?â Crosshairâs question was acid even as he complied.
Hunter levered himself up onto the top bunk, shoving at Crosshairâs body until he sat, then settled himself alongside. On the top rack they didnât have space to sit up fully, so he slouched until he didnât have to bend his head to stop it hitting the roof of the Marauder and dangled his legs off the edge of the bunk.
A wordless snort of displeasure punctuated Crosshairâs own movements, but he copied Hunter until he too was slid down in the rack, arms folded across his body so he was hugging himself protectively.
âWhatâre the nightmares about?â Hunter asked, voice rough and low in the night.
A long, long pause before, âIt doesnât matter.â
âIt does.â
âIt doesnât concern you.â
âIf youâre back with us, it concerns me.â
Hunter wasnât sure if he allowed the edge of command into his voice, of if it happened subconsciously. All he knew was that with Crosshair back, wrapping himself in the distance of being the Sergeant made things easier.
It wasnât the right thing to say; there was no âright thing to sayâ between them right now, time and distance and hurt an unscaleable wall between them. He felt the electric thrum of tension through Crosshairâs body.
âThis really doesnât.â
Hunter let it rest for a moment, before trying a more direct question.
âIs it about the planet weâre going to?â
From the way Crosshair immediately stiffened, the answer was yes. But Crosshairâs reply was, âIt wonât affect the mission.â
Hunter wanted to curse. There were secrets hiding in the silences between Crosshair's words, and he would tear them out of him with teeth and nails if he had to.
Eventually.
For now, they needed Crosshair and what he knew about Tantiss. That meant he couldnât risk starting a fight; the kind of argument that would lead to Crosshair walking out, refusing to help them.
And Crosshair needed him.
âYou should sleep,â he said with a resigned sigh. âWe need you rested for whatever weâre going to find at this Imperial base tomorrow.â
Crosshair merely sniffed, and didnât move.
Hunter would have prompted again, but now he could feel a faint vibration through the bunk once more. He glanced down; noticed the shaking of Crosshairâs hand where it was tucked under his opposite elbow.
âCross.â This time the soft-spoken nickname was deliberate. âWant me to stay up here a while?â
âNo,â came the sullen response, although Crosshair made no move to pull away, or eject him from the bunk.
Hunter bristled, violence itching at his fingertips. He had consciously chosen to set aside his anger to wake Crosshair from his nightmares, only to be met with his brotherâs difficult behaviour. What he wouldnât give to be able to fight it out, like when they were cadets.
âFine,â he muttered, his words a low growl. âIâm going to sleep.â
He pushed to the edge of the bunk, ready to slip back down into his own rack. Hesitated, then grunted back over his shoulder, âWake me if you need me.â
Crosshairâs eyes gleamed in the darkness. He didnât reply.
Hunter slipped silently back into the middle rack, settling on his side with his back to the rest of the Marauder. He tried to let go of the tension that coiled through him from confronting Crosshair, breathing deeply in an effort to trick his body into relaxing.
All it achieved was to enhance how aware he was of his surroundings, the faint scent of cortisol permeating the air. He had always been able to sense his brothersâ stress, but now it made him ache with inner conflict.
Again, Tech had called it his leadership instincts, but Hunter knew how the line between his enhancements and his role as squad leader blurred. Being able to pick up on the most subtle signs of distress had given him a preternatural ability to appear at his brothersâ sides before they even knew they needed him.
And it was hard, so hard, to lay there and ignore the distress he could feel radiating from Crosshair, sharpened now he was awake. Guilt licked at his conscience once more, wondering if it would have been better to let the sniper remain in the grip of his nightmares, if waking him only meant he would dwell on things.
He had tried to do the right thing. Except everything seemed to be backfiring on him since Crosshair returned.
He heard shifting above him, listened closely to Crosshairâs movements. There was no question that he was planning to lay awake until he was sure his brother had settled into a dreamless sleep.
A light touch brushed against the back of his shoulder. Hunter jumped, turning so quickly that his legs tangled in his blanket.
Crosshairâs arm dangled over the edge of the bunk, fingers pulled back into a loose cage as though he had flinched away after touching Hunterâs shoulder.
Hunter let out of the breath heâd been holding, settling onto his back. He watched the edge of the bunk for a moment, waiting to see if any more of Crosshair would appear. When none did, he raised his forearm up, elbow finding a resting place on the edge of the rack, and let their fingers brush.
A nervous twitch greeted him, Crosshairâs hand convulsing as though he was going to pull away entirely. Hunter held his hand still; held his breath. Waited, agonisingly, for his brother to make the next move.
Slowly, as if he didnât trust the contact, Crosshairâs fingers threaded through Hunterâs â loosely at first, then as Hunter gave a faint squeeze, grabbing tightly enough to squash the bones of Hunterâs hand. Hunter merely rolled onto his side, bringing his other hand to cup his elbow and support his vertically held arm.
He didnât say anything. Nor did Crosshair.
But the grip of his hand was vice-like, thumb tracing a deliberate track along the back of Hunterâs knuckles. Hunter could feel the unbidden tremor ripple through their joined hands.
Something aching and hollow opened up inside Hunter at that simple point of contact. Things were broken between them. Their bond, once so strong, torn asunder by betrayal and separation.
Pillowing his head on his upper arm, Hunter slid his hand up inside Crosshairâs wrist to grasp his forearm.
âIâm here, Cross.â It was mumbled half-into his own arm, voice thick with conflicting emotions. ââM here.â
Crosshair wasnât okay. Hunter could hear it in his erratic breathing, in the racing of his heartbeat. He could feel in in the hand extended, seeking comfort.
And Hunter wasnât okay either. He hadnât been, for a long time, and had been doing a good job of squashing the uncertainty down to doggedly keep going, one day at a time.
He didnât trust Crosshair enough to open himself up about any of that. Wasnât sure if heâd ever trust Crosshair like that again.
But right now, in the dark and the quiet and with the tenuous bond of their joined hands, none of that mattered.
He hadnât forgotten the betrayal.
He hadnât forgotten the hurt.
But just for a moment, he could look past it and see that his brother needed him.
Hunter stroked his thumb across Crosshairâs pulse point, feeling the way Crosshairâs hand went tight around his own in response.
Holding hands wouldnât stop the nightmares. But with every passing moment Crosshairâs breathing calmed a little more, slipping into a more regular pattern as sleep tugged at him once more.
An undercurrent of anger still hummed through Hunterâs veins. There was so much he wanted to shake out of Crosshair.
But that would wait, until tomorrow at least.
For now, he would lay here, his hand wrapped around his brotherâs, and remember a time when Crosshair had been his world.
Lay there and achingly, yearningly, wonder if they would ever get back there.
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