It's Them !!

blue is a raven boy in the same way james is a derry girl

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after a few months, a broken arm, several ocd crisis and getting used to new medication guess who's posting again!! it’s something simple but hopefully i'll start posting more often :)

Thinking about Nicholas Esteban Hemmick, who for some reason did improv classes. Who would literally clap back at anyone in less than a second. School mascot thrusts at him? He thrusts right back. Some fans heckling the foxes? He didn't even hesitate to heckle back. Wymack had to stop him. He was literally so unhinged. what the hell. What a little shitster.

Marketing degree? Please go to hell. Thinking about how he overcompensated his personality to be even brighter and bubblier to balance out the twins doom and gloom. Thinking about him going to conversion therapy. Thinking about his future husband saving his life. Thinking about his black hair (that everyone forgets for some reason?) Thinking about how he was an overdramatic useless gay bastard on the court. If he wasn't so flashy he would be a better player and he literally gave no fucks.

who let this man outside. I love him.

Irish person here, yeah Kevin's name being "Caoimhín" but him going by "Kevin" is something people do 👍 I know a guy named Sean who goes by John in other countries cause it makes things easier. (Side note: "Caoimhín" would actually be pronounced like "kweev-een".)

Thanks for clearing that up!

no.1: dickieboy oldman

First impressions: he's nothing like me. he's a weird narrator, unreliable and all this account take on this dreamlike take of what happened. i mean seriously, his account of everything is almost a decade after the events and it's idealised and confusing, chock full of timeskips.

But. he's an incredibly written unreliable narrator. he leaves out key details, (like the fact he was drunk off his ass half the time) (or on drugs) and just really. he lets his own bias get in the way of everything. he still loves bunny and charles (charles somewhat less because he actually hurt someone he "cared" about) because he's a white man from california in the eighties. he doesn't care that they're but abusive hateful people because their prejudices don't actively hurt him. even though they harmed his friends.

and furthermore he kind of indulges in the same prejudices. he feels violent urges towards camilla (though it was really a passing remark and he doesnt act on them as charles does) and his internalised homophobia inhibits his relationship with francis whenever he's confronted with francis' gayness all over again. (although francis was flirting with him the entire time. so that may be a moot point.) so yeah. he's definitely a narrator alright.

the way he interacts with people is interesting because he feels the urge to lie about. well. everything to do with his past. and so he doesn't really HAVE a relationship with people until they realise he's penniless. which they notice pretty quickly. (even bunny does) (ie making fun of his offbrand ties etc etc) as the people around him spend mroe time with him and realise that Richard Papen is actually poor, they start treating him like a person.

Richard has a very distinct and interesting way of interacting with his friends individually. he builds up a distinct way to build rapport with each of them. (reassuring charles that he is liked, listening to francis and taking him to the doctors etc) because not only does he have a deep seated need to be like, BUT he wants these people to stick with him for life. he wants them to want him.

but onto the reason i wrote this. hes fuckin gay. the way he describes men is just out of this world. henry is described like he's a god. francis is beautiful and untouchable. charles is an all american dream. and camilla. is constantly described as boyish and looking exactly like charles. which means he's attracted to charles by proxy. he literally kisses francis back in the kitchen. he would've got on his knees for henry had he the chance. he was literally a charles apologist. he was so repressed it hurts my heart. he just didn't like women the way he described men. he wanted to grow old with francis in the countryside. camilla was the closest he was going to get to a man.

he's toeing the line between bicon and gay bastard but god does he walk it hard. he does it for us. i love and hate his junkie ass.

"I'm fine"

I'm literally obsessed with these fucked up motherfuckers

I'm currently reading the third book, but this is a snippet from the time before Christmas at the Ravens :)

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Wait

Here, gained a bit more trauma :))

I'll do more illustrations of the post-xmas-at-Riko's bit, I guess I'll just draw more of them in general

I'll draw some Andreil >:)

i guess i can't stop doing this lmaooo

you don’t realise just how much Andrew touches Neil in aftg until you reread it, brushing your fingers across the small of your emotional-support-Nothing’s back light enough to give him goose bumps isn’t necessary no matter what Andrew seems to think

why did you have to. call it an aquarium.

Never would've thought I'd be so emotionally invested in a bunch of problematicaly coded characters playing violent lacross in an aquarium.

rising from my grave to bring you this in light of recent developments