FEM HANNIGRAM HOW ARE WE FEELING

chillin’ on the rooftops

No, but let’s talk about how they sell us romance.

Let’s talk about how romance is packaged as Friendship But Better. Let’s talk about how getting into a relationship is always seen as a positive, and not an if, but a when. Romantic partners are supposed to be caretakers, best friends, personal chefs, cleaners, mothers, lovers. Who wouldn’t want one?

I put myself through terrible, stressful relationships, because no one taught me that romance wasn’t the quest everyone was tasked with at conception. Had I known that my warped perception of romance wasn’t truly romance, I would have realized I was aromantic sooner. I wanted the romance society sold me. That romance isn’t real.

We often blame ourselves for not seeing the signs of our aromanticism, but how could we? When love is packaged as the one thing we can all relate to and experience, of course we would bend definitions to fit.

silly little podcast men

sketchy warmups of some codependent horror podcast men

arthur and john (malevolent), david ward (i am in eskew), nate and steve (the cellar letters), warren and gordon (red valley), jon and martin (the magnus archives).

follow me on instagram!

i literally DIED when that girl was trying to get his number. girllll you dodged the biggest fucking bullet. that bullet being one andrew minyard, the butcher of baltimore and the moriyama crime family

hc that one day the upperclassmen bring up neil/marissa Incident while andrew is in hearing distance. the whole story is retold, complete with reenactments and typical fox dramatics as they howl at neil’s reaction to this poor girl just trying to get his number. 

importantly, this is the first and only time the other foxes see two things from andrew: ONE (1). how close he is to laughing at the absurdity of the entire story, of marissa being so silly, of neil being obtuse as a goose (but that’s ANDREW’S obtuse goose, tyvm), and generally the concept of neil not comprehending someone’s advances and TWO (2). how close he is to expressing real regret… regret that he wasn’t there in person to witness this glorious moment, of seeing someone else suffer from neil’s utter lack of awareness that andrew thought only he had to endure, of not seeing neil’s face and hearing his voice as he told marissa ‘i wouldn’t call you’. the ONLY time the upperclassmen see andrew that close to these emotions he claims not to feel.

FUCK THAT'S AMAZING

i think about him a normal amount

Aaron has been trying to get Andrew to stop smoking for years and years to no avail. He complains about it every time he talks to Andrew. If they are around each other, Aaron always comments on how Andrew smells like smoke; he's smoking too much, and the house will have smoke damage even though Andrew never smokes inside. If they are Facetiming and Andrew lights a cigarette, Aaron hangs up. It's a whole thing. Aaron tries everything to get him to stop. He even got Neil to agree to help get Andrew to at least cut back. Nothing works.

Until Aaron calls Andrew and tells him that Katelyn is pregnant, Andrew throws his brand new pack in the trash immediately after they hang up, picks up a pack of gum, and starts sucking on lollipops so frequently Neils thinks Andrews tongue will forever be blue.

By the time the Twins were born, Andrew has not smoked a single cigarette in almost six months. Three weeks after the girls are born, Andrew shows up on his brother's front porch. Aaron doesn't even get to say hello before Andrew pushes past him, the slightest bounce in his step.

“I haven't had a single smoke in six months. Give me a baby.”

My religion is kevin offering to watch neil so he can drink on thanksgiving. In french. And then nicky going "omg neil is making the face kevin can be nice?????!?!??!" Which is hilarious because it implies that Neil really isn't as stone cold as he thinks, and he basically canonically reacts like a deer in headlights whenever someone does ANYTHING remotely nice for him.

matt: oh neil i bought this soda i know you like when i went to the store earlier

neil:

Everyone is so Kevjean this, Kevthea that, Kandriel there. How about Kevin shouldn’t be with anyone who is associated with exy? How about Kevin finds a person in a class who doesn’t really know anything about exy? How about Kevin being loved for who he is without the immediate expectation of greatness? He deserves to find his worth and be loved and heal and simply exist outside of the game. He is more than just his performance on the court.

.

Okay so I'm watching Criminal Minds, right? And everyone's taking turns being kidnapped. And of course, my AFTG brainrot is like -- okay bet

A Fox gets kidnapped. Neil goes savage to get them back.

Not Andrew, that's too easy -- and I also want Andrew to be there to see it and also to help Neil and maybe protect the public from him.

Along that line, it can't be Kevin or Aaron or Nicky either -- because then I think Neil would bank his own rage to help Andrew navigate his panic.

Renee can handle herself. Neil & Andrew would worry, and they'd stop at nothing to get her back, but Renee is like them and that's different.

I think it's Dan.

Dan gets kidnapped and Neil goes into Dark Mode. He gets evil as shit. He uses all his survival skills in reverse to find her and doesn't give a fuck about the collateral damage he leaves in the wake of his warpath to get his sister back.

Is there really any wonder that he's named godfather to Dan & Matt's children? They know that no matter what he'll keep them safe.

a mimir

after a few months, a broken arm, several ocd crisis and getting used to new medication guess who's posting again!! it’s something simple but hopefully i'll start posting more often :)