Moth-feeet - K

Pause. The casual way baby rolls off his tongue 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

him:

me:

also:

yes, and i second that with my envy and distain.

is this a safe space to say I’m full of jealousy and hatred

kiss me on your chevrolet ੭୧

I don’t talk about my disabilities often on here because i like to escape from them when I can, but I think it’s a good time to say,

Able bodied people LOVE to hate disabled people.

I recently went to Disneyland for the day, i place i grew up visiting and still love. But for the first time in all my visits, i rented a wheelchair. Which I personally do not regret - im generally not a mobility aide user but I have needed ambulatory aides in the past, so as a precaution I got the wheelchair. The last time I visited without use of a chair I was so exhausted I couldn’t really use my ankles by noon, and I’m not leaving till the park closes. The wheelchair saved me from so much pain, fatigue and discomfort, it made the visit better for me and the people with me.

And I came to the conclusion, Disney is the one place you can really experience the true view people have on handicapped people.

Some park goers were very understanding and helpful, some literally walked into me, or pushed the chair out of their way as if I wasn’t in it. Some people didn’t look me in the eye, and some would only look at me in the eye.

Many conversations went something like:

👱🏻

“Hi!”

And the eye contact does get weird after maybe two uninterrupted seconds.

And others were more like:

🙄

And pretending like I’m not there is really awkward.

All in all, I know it fucking sucks i exist and can’t walk safely for extended periods of time! I know I should leave the wheelchair for people actually can’t walk! I know I shouldn’t stand up and walk because I’m wheelchair bound! I know you hate me!

But I’m not here for you, my wheelchair wasn’t specifically designed to be a problem for you! I just can’t walk.

You’re lucky you can, you’re lucky the pain I feel on an average basis is your emergency room level pain!

It’s important that able bodied people remember and recognize, you don’t have to treat people with walkers, crutches, canes, wheelchairs, scooters, or any other aides, like kids. Im a human, with a brain, thoughts, emotions, and opinions. And just like you, I can tell this interaction is going really bad.

Don’t stare to be polite, don’t stare to be rude. Don’t overly sympathize, or question. Don’t yell at us, or for us. I’m not a make a wish kid, if I were I’d be in Europe, not Disneyland.

Respect disabled people, remember they’re more person than disabled.

able-bodied people will claim to be disability activists and then they'll get pissed at you if you don't have the physical energy to respond 'timely'. or if you sleep a lot due to exhaustion. or if you can't get out much (or at all!) for an array of reasons. or if your hygiene isn't up to their standards because you can't wash yourself. or if you have 'inconvenient' allergies or dietary restrictions that they don't want to cater to. or if you're unemployed. or if you have a medical emergency that gets in the way of their plans (especially if you have to cancel last minute). or if you can't do any other 'normal' thing that is more difficult/impossible thanks to an array of disabilities because, get this, they are disabling. fuck that. disabled people don't owe the world an illusion of good health for the sake of the able-bodied. love disabled people without condition.

Praying for the job!!!

My baby

taking my adhd meds << letting the demons (editing schlatt) take over

genuinely don’t know what possessed me I miss 2019 bad guys 😞 crazy that this twink was behind some of his biggest controversies

song: I know I’m funny haha by faye webster

hi guys🤭

so full update of the current school situation i have.

i’m completely not going to school, i’ve missed so much of this semester and i’m not mentally or physically capable of attending, so we’ve switched me into a credit recovery class and i will probably do summer school (maybe?)

but that’s not what i’m here to say,

i emailed Mr.K and as we know, he’s the cutest thing on earth.

i emailed him, here’s the bullet points

im not coming to school anymore

are your new classes as good as my class

hehe that’s silly no class can compare to mine ;)

i went on a date with a boy who was in our shared class with mr k

it was awful

i miss you

hey do you think i’ll regret not going to prom and graduation and such

do you? (he didn’t finish high school he went through a GED course)

advice?

love you miss you

and i finished it with a wholesome meme/picture of two bunnies and it said “no bunny compares to you”

and the next morning he emailed me back with

omg i missed you too

sad to hear you aren’t physically capable to come in for school

classes are good

definitely not you tho ;)

sorry about that date

i never liked that kid either

i do regret not going to prom and those experiences

but it worked out for the better

no matter what you choose i know you’ll be great

miss you bye

and signed off with a ~Mr. K

all cutesy like 🤭

i just love the kindness he naturally exudes.

anyway i love love love him, i really wish i could see him every day like last semester but emailing will do for now