3 Monkeys Challenge

I am in the middle of an *eventually requited love* sitch rn with my first love and best friend. Both of us are married and I have a daughter. I am very much in love with my husband and happy beyond measure. We have our tough patches but what marriage doesn't?

First love and I have 20+ years of history and most of my stories are his stories, too. We've been through major shit but we had and have each other. There's 500 miles between us but we spent NYE "together" thanks to Facebook messenger and talked or sat together all day. He's mine and I love him.

But he's not mine and barring unforeseen troubles I would never leave my old man not even for him. Husband and I have been through bad times, too but he's mine and I love him. And he really IS mine.

Back to First Love; my heart actually aches for him at times and then I HAVE TO talk to him or I'm all out of sorts and my anxiety is thru the roof so I am working on that. Luckily he gets that and will walk me back in time and calm me down. I hate that he has so much power over me but I gave it to him so who am I to complain?

I obsessed over what him loving me means for way too long and talked myself into a negative thoughts downward spiral. Why does it matter what it means? There's just another person out there who loves you and wants the best for you.

We wouldn't work out and then when we broke up we'd lose each other and I can't go there. Maybe in our sixties..

A married couple went to the hospital to have their baby delivered. Upon their arrival, the doctor said he had invented a new machine that would transfer a portion of the mother's labor pain to the baby's father. He asked if they were willing to try it out. They were both very much in favor of it. The doctor set the pain transfer to 10% for starters, explaining that even 10% was probably more pain than the father had ever experienced before. However, as the labor progressed, the husband felt fine and asked the doctor to go ahead and kick it up a notch. The doctor then adjusted the machine to 20% pain transfer. The husband was still feeling fine. The doctor checked the husband's blood pressure and was amazed at how well he was doing. At this point, they decided to try for 50%. The husband continued to feel quite well. Since the pain transfer was obviously helping out the wife considerably, the husband encouraged the doctor to transfer ALL the pain to him. The wife delivered a healthy baby with virtually no pain. She and her husband were ecstatic. When they got home, the mailman was dead on the porch.

OH MY GOD I HAVE BEEN READING THIS FOR MONTHS NOW I GET IT

Read, think, write reponse.

“I would suggest that if you spend less time running away from problems and trying to rid yourself of them - and more time accepting problems as an inevitable, natural, even important part of life - you will soon discover that life can be more of a dance and less of a battle.”

— Richard Carlson

I've been having a case of the "tomorrow"s for abt a month now. To drive the point home, God let me forget abt trash day this week. Well played, sir.

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