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1. Cognitive Dissonance - the idea that when we hold two conflicting thoughts or beliefs, we unconsciously adjust to make one fit with the other. My social psychology professor gave an example of a student who values studying all the time, but slacks off when it comes to their favorite television show. So the student tells herself that watching the television helps her study later when it really doesn’t. However, telling herself that helped her eased the anxiety.
2. Hallucinations are common - one third of people report experiencing hallucination at some point in time. Similarly, normal people often have paranoid thoughts. So when was the last time you hallucinated?
3. The Placebo effect - this is when you think that something like a drug has an effect on you when really it doesn’t. It’s your thoughts that actually resulted in you getting better.
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All it takes is one small trigger. And I'm in a shit mood for awhile. And I have no idea how to change that. Is it even possible to change that in BPD? How do you stop the all over body inside and out feeling of a horrible mood shift after you've been triggered? It takes me a huge time out, meltdown, and hours long sleep just to snap out of it but I don't have time for that always.
Salman Akhtar (a psychiatrist) provided a comprehensive phenomenological profile of Schizoid Personality Disorder in which classic and contemporary descriptive views are synthesized with psychoanalytic observations. This profile is summarized below and lists clinical features that involve six areas of psychosocial functioning and are organized by “overt” and “covert” manifestations. “Overt” and “covert” are not meant as different subtypes but as traits that may be present simultaneously within one single individual.
Self-concept - OVERT
compliant
stoic
noncompetitive
self-sufficient
lacking assertiveness
feeling inferior and an outsider in life
Self-concept – COVERT
cynical
inauthentic
depersonalized
alternately feeling empty, robot-like, and full of omnipotent, vengeful fantasies
hidden grandiosity
Interpersonal relations – OVERT
withdrawn
aloof
have few close friends
impervious to others’ emotions
afraid of intimacy
Interpersonal relations – COVERT
exquisitely sensitive [disambiguation needed]
deeply curious about others
hungry for love
envious of others’ spontaneity
intensely needy of involvement with others
capable of excitement with carefully selected intimates
Social adaptation – OVERT
prefer solitary occupational and recreational activities
marginal or eclectically sociable in groups
vulnerable to esoteric movements owing to a strong need to belong
tend to be lazy and indolent
Social adaptation – COVERT
lack clarity of goals
weak ethnic affiliation
usually capable of steady work
quite creative and may make unique and original contributions
capable of passionate endurance in certain spheres of interest
Love and sexuality – OVERT
asexual, sometimes celibate
free of romantic interests
averse to sexual gossip and innuendo
Love and sexuality – COVERT
secret voyeuristic interests
vulnerable to erotomania
tendency towards compulsive perversions
Ethics, standards and ideals – OVERT
idiosyncratic moral and political beliefs
tendency towards spiritual, mystical and para-psychological interests
Ethics, standards and ideals – COVERT
moral unevenness
occasionally strikingly amoral and vulnerable to odd crimes, at other times altruistically self-sacrificing
Cognitive style – OVERT
absent-minded
engrossed in fantasy
vague and stilted speech
alternations between eloquence and inarticulateness
Cognitive style – COVERT
autistic thinking
fluctuations between sharp contact with external reality and hyperreflectiveness about the self
autocentric use of language
House Of 1000 Corpses (2003)
Thought disorders are when your thinking process is impaired, often affecting your speech! They’re common in ADHD and autism, but also can appear in those in the schizophrenia spectrum or psychosis spectrum. Let’s talk about them!
Remember, none of these are done on purpose!
Alogia - randomly stop talking in the middle of the sentence, slurred consonants, being unable to grasp the right word, and trailing off into a whisper before ending the sentence
Blocking - suddenly stopping in the middle of the sentence, forgetting what the sentence was about, and then starting a new topic after the blocking
Clang Association - Rhyming or doing alliterations in the middle of the sentence. An example would be “So yesterday when I went to the store door floor more … I mean, yesterday say lay may..”
Echolalia - Repeating what someone says right after they say it or repeating sentences heard earlier. An example would be a mom asking “Do you want icecream” and a child responding “Do you want icecream…. yes!”
Pressure of Speech - speaking rapidly without pausing, loud, and hard to understand
Word Salad - Using a series of words in an odd order making it impossible to understand the sentence, some of the words not having ti do with the sentense at all. An example would be a woman asking “What kind of coffee did you get?” and her friend responding “Several, several berries. Strawberries. Steaming, colours, fruits, red blue pink”
(word salad is often confused for manipulative behaviour, please know that nobody displays word salad on purpose. It is not manipulative. )
Tangentiality - going off topic before answering the question. An example would be, your friend asks “when did you start gardening?” and you reply “My garden has three main vegetables. I love vegetables but my brothers don’t. I haven’t seen my brothers in years, I should call them.”
Stilted Speech - spoken in a formal essay format rather than casual speech, more information than average when explaining, repeating information
(also common in autism spectrum disorder, if you’re on the spectrum you may find yourself doing this more while info-dumping about a special interest)
If I happened to miss any! Feel free to add on!
loving is the single most painful thing I've experienced
Not everything is fleeting. Some feelings are deep. The fact it isn’t close to me, that I can understand. But I find it sad it isn’t close to you.
Portrait de la jeune fille en feu (2019) // dir. Céline Sciamma
Andrew Cunanan (3 parts)
The Atlanta Child Murders (24 parts)
Herbert Baumeister (164 pages)
Ted Bundy (3 parts)
Jeffrey Dahmer (19 parts)
John Wayne Gacy (1 part)
Jack the Ripper (1 part)
Charles Manson (1 part)
The Zodiac Killer (6 parts)
I’ll never be enough for anyone