BUST SKETCH COMMISSION FOR HELPING MY CAT ~

I ADORE the "random/through the day" types of pictures. It just adds that feeling of going back through memories and reminiscing about some of the more everyday stuff that still fills your heart.

<life with saeyoung>

Ahh, I know, it’s been so long! I was working on my graduation project and it’s finally done! I graduated! 

no matter how much i say, i will never have said enough. no matter how much i love, i will never have loved enough. no matter how alive i am, i will never have lived enough.

there is so much of this world and of myself to give to it and everything on it but i will never have enough time because i will never run out of myself, of love and care and need and humanity.

i am so afraid i won’t have enough time to be with the people i want to be with but in the end, i am simply glad i don’t want my time to be done already anymore. i am glad i appreciate life and time and that i live to live now.

i am glad birds will sing and suns will rise and waves will crash and people will talk to me tomorrow and the tomorrow after that too. i am glad i breathe and think and smell and touch and taste and i love so deeply with all of me.

i am glad to be alive. i am glad to be me. i am glad to have the earth under my feet and my friends in my hands and my desire for everything in my mind. i am.

Hey love! Could I request some headcanons of Makoto and Hajime with an autistic s/o?

Totally cool if you’re uncomfortable with writing, I just thought it never hurts to ask! :3

Of course, lovely!

I want to look into it at least a little before starting though, so I can make sure not to misrepresent or just overall say something incorrect, hope you dont mind the bit of extra wait time for that :)

This is a Pass Post

If you see this post, you have a pass (therefore you are permitted) to not reblog anything you don’t want to reblog

No social issues, no political stuff, no nothing

You are allowed to scroll by no matter how many reblogs there are insisting you are a bad person if you do. You have a pass, they do not apply to you.

You are permitted to not think about donation pools you can’t afford to contribute to, no matter how far from their goal they are. You are allowed to put them out of mind.

You are permitted to take a break from any conversations that are stressing you out, any discourse you are involved in, any cancellations you’re being subjected to, this post gives you a pass to look away.

And you are allowed, implored to reblog this, so other people have permission to break whatever tumblr “good person rules” they need to break for their own mental well-being.

Because see, you could do these things already.

What you needed was permission.

And now, you have a pass, so you can pass it on.

Do you have any triggers?

Jello, Popsicles, Soup Broth. 

Nagito and Mikan with a depressed s/o

Word count: 907

Authors notes: small content/trigger warning for mentions of suggesting (non-specific) medications in both. I do hope you enjoy!

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Nagito:

The days just blended together, night and day full of wishing you could do nothing but sleep.

Of course Nagito noticed very quickly that you were staying in bed longer each day. 

He also noticed your lack of  energy, regardless of how much you slept the night before

I personally believe that Nagito is also depressed but hides it fairly well, aside from his self-deprecation

He may also feel fairly hopeless (I feel like that’s the reason he looks so hard for hope everywhere around him, so maybe he’ll start feeling more hopeful and feel better-) but you’re important to him

He doesn’t want you to also go through that

He’d be conflicted between making you get out of bed, or letting you stay in bed for longer

He’d settle for having you get up, because he knows that laying in bed won’t make you feel better, you’re just more comfortable

“Love, it’s time to get up..”

“..I’m awake.” 

“Can you at least stand up and give me a hug?”

He knows you’d stand up to cuddle him, which he hopes is enough to make you feel even a little bit better

But if you feel bad enough, he wouldn’t hesitate to get you a good therapist

Only if you’re comfortable talking to one, that is

He doesn’t want to force you, but he’s got plenty of money so he doesn’t mind paying high prices for the best in the business if it means his partner can feel better about themselves

At the very least, he would remind you that you can always talk to him about anything

He also tries to tell you how much you mean to him and how much he loves you so you know that he cares about you

If he’s taking any medications for depression, he’d offer them to you, if you’re willing to take them

Like with his therapy offer, he doesn’t want to force you so if you tell him you don’t want to take meds, he’d completely drop the suggestion

If you *do* take the offer, however, he’d make sure to set reminders and get you a glass of water so you don’t forget to take them

If you’re feeling up for it, he’d take you on walks to  give you some sunshine and hopefully serotonin from the fresh air

If you were less energetic, but still wanted fresh air, he’d take you for a drive with the windows down

On really bad days, he’ll do his best to make you feel better, but will also give you alone time if that’s what you need

He still brings you water and food throughout the day, because he knows you will probably neglect those necessities, even if you want to be alone

At night he makes sure to hold you tight so you know he’ll do his very best to keep you safe from every- and any -thing, including your own mind

Overall, he would do anything to help you feel better

Mikan: 

You don’t want to worry her, but you’ve been feeling pretty down lately

She would also notice pretty quickly.

She’d see that you’ve been taking care of yourself less and that you don’t seem to be as upbeat as usual

Because of her medical knowledge, she would try to suggest medication, and would even give you a breakdown of how the meds work and how each one helps with different things

If you deny medicine, she would heavily suggest a therapist, instead

Honestly, she wouldn’t want you to know, but she cried when she found out that you were depressed

She often suggests you two should go out to get the mail or water the few plants outside just so you can both get a bit of vitamin d, without you having to overwork yourself to do so

If you asked her to do anything, she’d do it if it makes you happier; even if it’s just for a minute

She would take you to go see friends whenever you feel up for it, because she knows the social interaction might boost your serotonin levels

“Hey S/o, I know you said you have more energy today, would you, maybe... Want to hang out with Chiaki and I today?”

“Yeah. I guess we could do that. Chiaki’s pretty calm, usually.”

She would try to buy you small things like a few more plants to take care of, just so you don’t get bed sores from laying in bed all day 

(On a side note, please tell her you appreciate that she’s trying to help you feel better because she really just wants to see you be okay)

Even though she isn’t a therapist, she’d try to help you work out what might be causing you to be so down; whether that be something that’s upsetting you, or just a chemical imbalance, and do what she can to help accordingly

She’d make sure to remind you to take care of yourself and to remember how much she loves and cares about you

She would also hug you, sit on your bed and just rub your back on really tough days, letting you cry on her shoulder and vent it all out

And afterwards, she would always have a glass of water for you so your throat doesn’t hurt

She’d also let you cuddle with her for a bit, and maybe even take a nap together, afterwards

Mystic Mesenger

Angst: 🖤

Fluff: ☁

Potentially triggering: ⚠️

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707/Saeyoung Choi~

Reacting to MC SHing ⚠️☁

Love is a Fragile Dance - Song Fic 🖤⚠️

I forgot to add it but here it is :)

heyy can i get some clingy shuichi hcs or just fluff in general anything shuichi i will consume

Of course!! I love our clingy detective!

Your Turn To Die fan....

this is entrapment

Love is a Fragile Dance- Song Fic

Authors notes: Okay! I’ve never written a song fic before but I figured it would be fun! But please be cautious because this has some possibly triggering topics (De//th, car crash, dr//nking)

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He's three drinks down and he's driving fast He's calling her up, but she took a cab

Saeyoung was furious. He was never one for drinking, but he couldn't handle another day like this. To make matters worse he couldn't believe she'd just leave him like that. He knew she knew how hard this time was for him, it'd been so long since he'd seen his brother, and today would be another painful anniversary of that day.

Back to their one room apartment Back to where it all started

The only place she knew in this town was the apartment from not-so long ago. Rika's apartment. He sped up, hoping to catch her before she did something she'd regret. He knew she had nowhere else to go but that God-forsaken apartment. He should've destroyed it the minute she left to live with him, he thought.

Walking up to the doorway Walking in just to realize She was long gone 'fore he got there Broken glass in the bathroom

His heart raced, and he avoided the glass shards that littered the floor. Whether she'd acted in outrage or the hacker got his hands on her, he didn't know, but he wouldn't let that mystery go unsolved for long. He couldn't let her go. Couldn't let her get hurt because of him. Not anymore.

Love is such a fragile dance This love is such a fragile dance

Sometimes he wondered if it was even worth it to keep her in his life. He felt like she only stayed with him because of his threat about the bomb. This argument proved it, he figured. If she would run off any chance they argue, maybe she never wanted to be here in the first place. But he was too selfish to let her go.

She's wondering if she was right to Leave before they got that Chance to talk it all over In a text message he wrote her

The arguments were too much. She would be lying if she said she wasn't scared. The hacker was after them, Saeyoung just got more and more closed off and angry with her. She needed to escape from all of the stress. But was it the right thing to do? Should she have just stayed and let him get everything off his chest? He was stressed, he was scared. But he only hurt her, pushing her away; the more he insisted any closeness would do it first. Even his texts were passive aggressive.

"Love is such a fragile dance Our love is such a fragile dance"

Constant reminders. They weren't supposed to fall in love, yet even after confessing, they still walked a thin wire trying to "make it work". They pretended well.

And no one knew that they were on the edge Cause life is short and love is sweet, so love until you're dead

The RFA members had no clue. Flirts in the chatroom, but never aloud; and loving words that never surfaced in reality. They thought everything was fine.

And no one knew that they were on the edge Cause life is short and love is sweet, so love until you're dead

The façade was cracking but lies came easy to him. Acting became her everyday skill. Nobody could know. But truth be told, she knew they were running out of time to make it work. She knew it could all be gone in an instant.

He's three drinks down and he's driving fast She's calling him back now he's reaching

Finally, they could talk. Finally they could work this out. Maybe they could save their relationship. Maybe they can make this work, and take it all back.

Car tires are screeching Car horns are screaming

He wanted to try, for her. He said he'd die for her.

He's wondering if he was right to Pick a fight just to argue

He just wanted to prove that she didn't really love him. He never wanted any of this to happen.

But he can't take it back now The last message he sent out Life is such a fragile dance This life was such a fragile dance

Tears spilled onto her screen. Her call unanswered, his texts, the last words.  He seemed to know. And yet, he couldn't stop it. She could never take back what she'd said. But did he know what was important? Did he know she never hated him?

Love is such a fragile dance Their love was such a fragile dance And no one knew that they were on the edge

Now he'd never know. She could never tell him. It was all her fault, and she couldn't tell him. She would live with this burden, this secret. They could never know they were struggling. They could never know she was the reason his beloved car became nothing more than rubble, and he- a memory.

Cause life is short and love is sweet so love until you're dead And no one knew that they were on the edge Cause life is short and love is sweet so love until you're dead

They never could vow "Till death do us part". They never would've meant this soon.

She's three drinks down and she's crying

Three down. Just like him. He knew better, and still he went driving. Why? Why hadn't she stopped him?

No fight is worth fighting

She was angry. Of course she wouldn't stop him.

No fight is worth dying

But she should've.

But all love is worth fighting for

He was going to see her. He was trying to explain, to change. He wanted to keep her safe, yet she still ran. She killed him. If she hadn't left him there...

And no one knew that they were on the edge Cause life is short and love is sweet so love until you're dead And no one knew that they were on the edge Cause life is short and love is sweet so love until you're dead So love until you're dead So love until you're dead