having a freeze response to stress is so funny in the context of normal adult stressors. millions of years of evolution are trying to tell me that the email will not find me if i stay very still and do nothing
Iced caramel mocha, no matter where I go
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HOLY SHIT THE LEGEND HAS GRACED MY DASH
Are fedoras really that bad?
YES YES THEY ARE
Sometimes we forget that while Merlin is one of Arthur’s most trusted advisers and best friends, he’s a servant first.
He is still belittled and punished and worked to the bone. He is still seen by most people as slightly less than human.
This is literally me
I feel like I don’t see enough about how one of Merlin’s first interactions about magic was about how if he can’t use his magic he might as well die- like he was absolutely passively suicidal for most things, fulling willing to die with very little concern for his own safety.
NOOO AO3 MY BELOVED
this is it, this is how I die
I just started something and the page reloaded 😭
“What if I fail?”
“What?”
The sun shone high above the tree tops, mottling the ground in shadows. The air was clear and warm as they rode towards the gathering grounds.
“What if I fail my assessments and Crowley takes my oak leaf? I mean I never technically earned it in the first place, and I still don’t have nearly as much training as the other apprentices, and I’m still not all the way healed from Skandia, I’m not nearly as strong as I should be, my hands still shake and-“
“Calm down Will. We’ve gone over this, Crowley is aware you haven’t gotten all of the proper their year training, that’s why your taking the second year assessments, and we will take into account count that your still sick. It’s only been three months since we’ve returned, your lucky your taking the assessment at all.” Halts tone is dry, fully aware that in an hour they’ll be having the same conversation, one they’ve had a dozen times over the last week.
“Ok ok I know.” The two ride in silence for a few minutes before- “But what if I fail anyway? What if I’m just that bad at being a ranger? What if I manage to miss all my sho-“
“WILL! You are not going to fail your assessments!” Halt turns in his saddle as he speaks, trying to look Will in the eye. Will on the other hand is looking anywhere but Halt. “If I didn’t have full confidence that you would pass your exams then I wouldn’t have you taking them right now, you have the skill and knowledge to pass, you’ll be fine.”
You say life is a game of chance and you are winning, but I say we are playing poker and you are wearing reflective sunglasses
When Lance stepped into that lion he wasn’t prepared for war, he didn’t think some dumb metal beast would drag him and his friends into a millennia old conflict. He’s not sure what he did expect, but it wasn’t this.
That being said, he doesn’t regret getting on that lion, getting swept up in the war, becoming a soldier. He’s saved lives changed things for the better, he has a purpose out here. Just, at a price.
Because for every life he’s saved, he’s taken one away. He’s killed hundreds of galran soldiers over time, doomed dozens of planets by saving a different one. He can’t help everyone, often not even his own team, his family. But sometimes he can help someone.
——
The first time Lance simultaneously saves someone and dooms someone is his first two weeks in space, the team is on Arus, small pill shapes aliens give them food and entertainment and worship them as heroes. Lance had been with Coran, chatting in the control room.
Pidge’s little robot friend, Rover, had been flying about the crystal. It was odd the little thing wasn’t with Pidge, the two had been inseparable since Rover came along.
Then it started beeping.
Louder.
Faster.
Time however moved slower, by the time Lance realized something was wrong he’d already reacted, pulling Coran to the floor and covering him with his own body.
Burning.
Everything was burning. His neck and neck and face, his skin was sizzling. But there were more important things. Sendak. He was here he had Shiro, Lance had to move, had to help, two shots are fired before the pain over takes him again.but Lance can’t tell if their from or someone else. Doesn’t matter.
Burning.
It’s duller this time. Like a sunburn rather than a he-just-lit-himself-on-fire kind of burn, there’s a pleasant coolness over the rest of him.
He’s falling.
He hits someone, their arms wrap around his torso. He’s more awake by the time they drag him to a chair. He asks what happened, he doesn’t know what to say. Sendak is prisoner, Lance had managed to hit him with both shots, the Arians are mostly unharmed, but frazzled. His injuries were the worst, burns covering 40% of his back, reaching up his neck and around his chin. H they thought he was going to die. He moved on, others were more important.
This is the attack that alerts the Galran empire that Voltron is operational, three planets and harvested and destroyed, the toll is 13 million people.
Pt1??