'man In Bloom' By Bruce Metcalf, 2001 In Corporal Identity Body Language: 9th Triennial For Form + Content,

Moth Room!

i NEED you to remember this: you are allowed to be angry at your doctors. you are allowed to be furious. you are allowed to be mad at your nurses and technicians and neurologists and psychiatrists and medical assistants. they are not god. they are human beings and they work in a system that wears them raw, and that is unfair, but it isn't an excuse to treat you badly. i'm not necessarily saying you should throw a brick through the window of their car, but you can, should, must be angry with them for ignoring you, demeaning you, dehumanizing you, dismissing you, acting like you're lying, talking only about your weight, failing to acknowledge you past your symptoms, etc etc etc. you are an equal to your doctor. you are a human being and so are they. do not treat them as beyond reproach. you are allowed to be angry at your doctors.

I ate chicken kidney for the first time some days ago, even as i tasted it i felt so far away from myself and still so raw the taste of blood lingered

Psychiatrist advice be like

everything is totally okay i just need to get hit by a car

Désolé

whats your favorite sea creature

That’s a hard question and depends on the week you ask but currently am obsessed with Shipworms (who live in mangroves and wood in marine environments so close enough to me), which are actually bivalves like clams and oysters and not “worms”…

Also love Conches, cetaceans, frogfish, stingrays, echinoderms in general..

As the ground right under me crumbles as if it wasn't there.

It's too much, my heart's crushed, i'm not alive.

I don't know who to call, alone.

I won't die.

My life has succumbed to hatred and death, alone

in the snow.

HERE IT IS, THE ART I'VE SEARCHED FOR AGES OMG AT LAST 😭😭

Known by their hands, for they are butchers; known by their eyes, for they are surgeons