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Tay : what's it like working together as a group?

Kinn : Imagine working with completely civilized, responsible and mature people

Tay : okay

Kinn : Now throw that idea out of the window

Pete : *handing Kinn a bottle of water* Here you go

Kinn : What's this for?* takes the bottle and starts drinking *

Pete : I was worried. Porsche says you usually get thirsty around him

Kinn : *suddenly choking on the water* He said WHAT?!

#fr tho #pete your duality is insane xD #kinnporsche #pete KinnPorsche #kinn Theerapanyakul #porsche pachara Kittisawad #incorrect KinnPorsche

Tankhun : *drunk* Hmmm too boring

*Kicking the g off the graveyard sign* much better let's get the party sTARTED!!!

Kinn : *panicking* Absolutely not!

VegasPete as Macau's parents incorrect quotes

Macau : I'm home!!

Vegas (in his sexy English accent) : How was school? Are you doing well?

Pete (storming in while yelling in his southern dialect/accent) : B-?? AGAIN?! How do you expect to go to Harvard med school with these grades, huh?

Pete : This may shock you, but not everyone here likes you

Porsche : Sounds ridiculous, but go on

Kim : So what's your type?

Chay : Handsome, musician, kind, good hair, oblivious, charming, mysterious and talented.

Kim : Sounds a lot like me...too bad we're just friends

Chay : Did I mention oblivious?

Kim : Yeah, why?

Chay : Okay, just making sure

Vegas Pete incorrect quotes

Vegas : Hold the fuck up!

Pete : ??

Vegas : I'm the fuck up

Vegas : hold me

Honestly VegasPete ship would never sail if Kinn had just paid more attention to the situation.

I'm not talking about him forgetting. It's when Vegas lies to him via text that Pete is going to see his grandmother who fell & probably got hurt .

Kinn you had the brains to ask her about his whereabouts but not her health?!🤦‍♀️ If only Kinn had even vaguely asked about how she fell he'd have discovered the lie.

And no grandma wouldn't have lied & agreed she's hurt. Because Vegas has told Pete had been given a vacation from the major family & not something he got from cooking up this excuse.

Seriously Kinn, if only you had remembered to be a little more courteous & paid attention to detail🤧🤦‍♀️

How Kim & WIK were 2 different people until Porchay came along.

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For the first time Kim almost immediately loses his composure on hearing Porchay didn't turn up for his college interview.

Let's take a moment to appreciate how deep Porchay's love was. 😭 He must have dreamt of joining music school after idolising WIK. The more he got to know him, his idol became his muse & first love. (There's a quote which says "Love is creating a religion with a fallible God") He loved him with all his heart so when WIK left so did Porchay's ability to make art 🥺🥺🥺🥺

The vexed person here is not Kim but WIK. He was surprised after hearing even teachers found Porchay as promising as he did. He did spend time tutoring Chay & as a teacher, he was hoping his student to do well.

He also knows Chay is neither incapable nor weak. He was not like regular kids whose main struggles were graduating high school or getting into college. Porchay was coping with their uncle's betrayal. Porsche abruptly leaving him alone with a letter & no way of communication. He was fighting his battles alone the whole time & still managed to stay positive.

Kim probably went thinking Porchay lost confidence & needs reassurance. But then he realized he had been a monster all along. Because it hit him that WIK was the reason Porchay learnt to dream. And KIM was the one who crushed it.

When Porchay tells him off, Kim realises for the first time that he's not in position to lecture anyone. Now that he let someone know about his double life, who was he to teach about separating personal & professional lives? What right did he have to tell anything, when Porchay reminded that he never interfered in Kim's life?

When Kim left warning "From now on, what you do is your darn decision" I don't think he meant, "I'm no longer going to care about you or protect you."

Rather, he must have meant, "You're growing into an adult who needs to take responsibility of his life. So don't do anything that you would regret later." He's right. Porchay should have prioritised college. He's got a long life ahead to wallow, date & break up.

But it doesn't look right when it's coming from Kim, who grew up the way he did, has almost no issues listening to his head over his heart, and is now failing to either hold on or let go. He first leads him on, breaks his heart, and still continues to show up like a knight in shining armor. Only walk away without even an elaborate apology. He can't nurse his broken heart & move on until you withdraw from his life P'Kim😪

Now ik we're all rooting for a happy ending for our y/n x celebrity in a mafia au 😂

It's unrealistic to expect Kim to turn into this openly affection person with good communication skills. It's also weird if Porchay adjusts seamlessly into the world of organised crime. Yes even I want Kim to go out of his way & give Porchay a grand apology. I also hope Porchay says that he understands but he's still hurt. That he takes his time to heal & forgive.

A believeable happy ending would be the one where Porchay agrees to make an effort to understand Kim & his life. Meanwhile Kim stops separating parts of himself and promises to love Porchay as Kimhan Theerapanyakul instead WIK or KIM.

Love is not an end result but the efforts made every single day.

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No thanks to Tawan for kidnapping Chay to use him as a pawn, it does in a way solidify the fact Kim hasn't & will probably never love a person like he loved Porchay. (And rightfully so)

He now sees no point in saving Porcahy from himself. (Considering Porchay's own elder brother is now Kinn's boyfriend so he's now inevitably linked to the major family & at risk for the rest of his life) This was exactly the situation he was trying to avoid in the first place. But now, it still occurred for different reasons. So he decides to do the next best thing. Follow his heart & fight for his love.

Note how Kim risks coming himself? Despite having professionals who could have done the job for him? It's not only his life that's in danger. He's risking Chay discovering his lies. He's going back to the life he tried so hard to avoid.

Kinn doesn't hesitate to shoot at Vegas, his own cousin. He came with one clear objective. Rescue the love of his life & kill everyone involved in harming him.

Kim is successful in not only saving Porchay but also in protecting his identity from him. He seems to hate confrontation & would rather ghost than dump somebody (which frankly makes him a big jerk but it's a show about criminals so)

Once Kim learns some ugly truth (which I think hasn't been completely disclosed as of ep12) & the fact that Porchay is now living in the main house; he is assured Porchay is going to be safe from physical harm. So he chooses to focus on his plan. He's still a little gentle in turning down when he could've been snarky & ended it sooner. But he's still a jerk :))

What happens next is interesting. While Porchay starts losing his innocence owing to heartbreak (He's Good boy gone bad y'all!!! Any MOAs in the house?!!) Kim stops separating WIK from himself.

It's like they're apart, but they're still growing together. Porchay is learning that love is not just roses but also the thorns while Kim is realising the rose's beauty & fragrance is worth the blood & thorns.

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How Kim & WIK were 2 different people until Porchay came along.

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Now that we have identified his 2 personalities let's go back a to where all the trouble started.

Kim being surprised that an experienced bodyguard like Big was replaced with a newbie due to his injury. The more he learnt about the preferential treatment Prosche received from both Kinn & Korn, he immediately smelled something fishy. So he decides to do the background check Korn deliberately didn't.

When he discovers Porchay is Porsche's brother he doesn't hesitate to take advantage of his fanboy. He never intended to be cruel, he considered it an exchange for the time he would invest in tutoring.

Disclosing that Kim & WIK are 2 sides of the same coin was a calculated move. He knew that the Kittisawads & Theerapanyakuls' fates would only get more intertwined in future. (Also notice how Kim mentions "sad love song" to Big in their conversation. Could that mean he knew about Big's feelings for Kinn without anyone telling?) However, he is not subtle in ways (lucky Kim that Porchay was too näive to suspect) possibly due to lack of social engagement.

Kim's only miscalculation was his budding feelings for Porchay. He is barely in touch with his feelings to be able to do something before it's too late. We see Kimhan smiling only when he discovers Chay fanboying over him (the texts & his room wall) or when Chay is singing. So it is not Kim, but WIK the artist & tutor falling for Porchay.

So in essence, Kim asked him to write a song on Porsche but WIK fell in love with the song. WIK asked him to write a love song & WIK fell in love with Chay.

Kimhan doesn't even realize his feelings until he can't help but smile at the song dedicated for him. (Let's just take a moment to appreciate it 🤭)

He acknowledges his feelings for the first time when the thought of Porchay clears his creative block. After all, for an artist, you know you're in love when they become your muse.

He is well aware that he has to stop seeing Porchay so that both their feelings don't get hurt. But WIK takes over Kim when Porchay shyly confesses. (Seriously, as if he wasn't cute enough already - Porchay reveals he promised God he would risk confessing to his celebrity crush. How could someone NOT melt at that innocence)

For the first time in the series we see Kim follow his heart over his head like most humans. Considering he let himself feel happy despite his overly practical self. It goes a long way to highlight the intensity of his feelings.

Like a well crafted character his personality doesn't change overnight. His original habits resurface very soon.

He stares at his own hand in happiness mingled with guilt. Yes he would love to vow to protect Porchay's innocent sunshine smile & teenage dreams. Forever. But he hates himself. Because he can't. Nothing can help him escape his reality. He's a Theerapanyakul. He's a threat to anyone he loves. He's not allowed to love.

He feels unworthy of someone who says "I love you" without expecting anything in return. He hates himself for letting himself be happy & forget all this worries. He would have left Porchay with a note that day if not for the mishap.

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Lets first look at the 2 personas of Kimhan Theerapanyakul

Kim

Third son of the major family

Shrewd, calculative & sort of a silent killer in human form

Has no difficulty stopping emotions from meddling with his rational mind

Grew up in a world of organised crime

Watched his eldest brother get kidnapped & suffer from unhealed trauma

Was encouraged to inculcate trust issues & never believe in the goodness that exists in the world

Extremely good at reading people

Introverted

The last 2 points could either be inherent or acquired. Witnessing his brothers struggle, the constant rivalry between major & minor family must have made him lose his innocence quite early without even trying. (Imagine how sick it can be when the adults encourage cousins to be rivals)

I strongly believe he discovered something disturbing about his family which made him choose to move out & isolate himself. His ability to shut down his emotions with ease could again be inherent or acquired, but it only makes him more dangerous if he were to actively get involved in crime.

He could be gathering information after moving out for either of the following reasons

He discovered a family secret he shouldn't have which even his elder brothers are unaware of

He is disinterested in the family business & power play; lucky enough to have Kinn who made the sacrifice

It's all a disguise to gather intelligence & protect his brother from far

He has a plan which should be executed without his father's knowledge

WIK

Student at a music school

Celebrity, singer & songwriter, plays guitar & piano

Perceived as a common civilian by public

Has a good fan following

Gets equally impressed & excited on meeting a dedicated fanboy

My stance is that he wouldn't agree to tutor Porchay even if he was not a mafia's son. Because he is a celebrity; he would want to keep a healthy distance from his fans.

He himself admits to Porchay that WIK is the side of him which he prefers. For someone who lives in self imposed isolation (privacy is now at double risk as a celebrity & mafia prince) his art is an outlet for emotions. Music is his safe space.

Kimhan Theerapanyakul has no trouble compartmentalizing his life & switching personas.... Until Chay enters his life.

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Thinking about how this poem referenced in Hometown Cha Cha Cha perfectly suits KimChay.💔 Quite literally 😔 considering their interactions happen near entrances 🥺 not to mention they were each other's muse 😭😭😭😭

"The Gatekeeper" by Kim Haeng Soon (tr. David Bowles)

It’s my job to say, “You can’t do that here.”

It’s my job to deny your objective.

It’s my job to deny you the next day, too.

It’s my job to wait for you the following day to deny you again.

It’s my job to wait for you the day after that and fall in love with you.

So it’s my job to deny my love.

“I won’t cry over my vocation,” I wrote.

But while writing in my diary,

I sometimes wept.

A fanfic of Vegas' villian origin story in KinnPorsche

Imagine Vegas being allowed to go on a field trip to a beach in a village when 13. It's got to do with his father's mission but he's grateful for the chance to use the school bus for once. Like other kids. Cut to Vegas sitting alone waiting for his father in the evening. His classmates have left for home.

He grabs fistfuls of sand & watches the grains slip from his hand while realizing the salt water on his chin is not the sea spray. Suddenly, a hand on his shoulder causes him to flinch. A cracked male voice enquires, "Are you lost?". He shakes his head sideways. On turning around he can't tear his gaze away from the sculpted features of a boy in oversized clothes & messy hair.

"Do you want a friend?" The boy asks again, flashing his dimples & eye smiles. Vegas nods in agreement. The boy sits beside him. "I'm Pete. Even I'm alone today. All my friends are away for vacation. Grandma will be back tomorrow morn. What's your name?" Vegas hesitantly responds, "Vienna. I'm just waiting for my father."

Vegas reads him a story and Pete listens to it with fascination. Pete picks & shows him various seashells but Vegas is only looking at his hands until he spots his father at a distance. Afraid of being spotted together he tells him to hide from his scary father & scurries away.

Since that day Vegas turns to that chest tingling memory for warmth & comfort. He even tries to find that boy but doesn't find any useful leads. Plus the nostalgia of first love also brings regret with it. The fact he didn't even say goodbye. To the boy who deserved to know his real first name at the least. So he tries to distract himself. By plotting against the major family to please his father (spoiler alert : he always fails to)

On a particular bad day the last thing he'd want to do was meeting the major family. But the minor family's heir didn't have the luxury to rest.

This time a new bodyguard greets them with a tight smile. Vegas catches himself thinking "He's cute" as the new recruit escorts them to the meeting room before taking a spot beside Tankhun and half of Vegas' attention.

As they're exiting the room Vegas picks up the new recruit's fallen ID card. He shakes his head in disbelief on seeing a familiar name. There's no way on Earth they could find the one only he knew & never found, right?

His face loses colour when he flips the case. It's like seeing the mirror of Erised. It was a face only he knew from seven years ago. With the same eye smile that had made him feel weak in the knees for the first & last time. There was an old woman in the picture too.

The major family somehow always seemed to have everything he wanted & never got. Loving parents, wealth, power, status, self esteem & respect. Life couldn't be more unfair. One boy, whose memory was only his, his first love, his sole comfort memory that didn't include his deceased mother. Somehow even this was bestowed upon the major family. The one he yearned for was now serving his rivals. They didn't even worship him like he did for 7 long years.

Vegas sought revenge. If he couldn't have his love then he'd never let his rival Kinn be in love either. So he pocketed the card & set out to trap Tawan.

Possible explaination for Vegas visiting a temple

It is a known fact that Vegas wears a million masks & has lost himself in the process. These could be one of the two reasons he visits a temple despite being a ruthless criminal.

Guilt : As his human side surfaces in ep 11, it now seems believeable that Vegas indeed feels a tinge of guilt for any of these reasons :

Taking away innocent lives

Manipulating people to fall in love with him only to kill them later (they could be the only form of affectionate touch he gets except from Macau)

Having to raise Macau, the only family he loves & trusts, in a toxic environment

Vegas probably wakes up every morning only to fulfil his duties as a son & heir without any self driven motivation. (He doesn't even seem to know himself as Vegas without the Theerapanyakul) He is probably clinging to this mafia life just because there is no alternative. Also there's a need to shield Macau from their toxic father.

Perhaps he goes gives offerings to the temple to beg forgiveness for the sins he's obliged to commit. He could've felt guilty for failing to protect Macau or constantly disappointing his father by always being the second best after Kinn. He might also believe he is paying for the sins of his past lives. Or fear the sins of this life shall carry on to the next.

Which leads me the second possible reason - Lack of purpose.

People commonly turn to spirituality to find answers for questions like - Who am I? What is the purpose of life? Questions which Vegas definitely seems inclined to find answers for. Because he feels unwanted. Unloved. Unworthy. And then in ep 7, he watches Pete.

Pete, who happens to be passing by, stops & bows when he notices a shrine. Earlier in the ep we see Pete asking Big to stop trashing a rival gang member afraid it would lead to his death. This shows Pete's compassionate side despite being in a job that demands you to be violent & merciless. (Yes they needed him to live to make him talk but he neither seemed to have bled nor fainted. We only see Big hitting him only a couple of times prior) Vegas must have considered if faith in God is what keeps a person like Pete from crumbling. So decides to give God a chance.

But someone makes him realize he wants something from life. Which for once, doesn't have to do with his family. Pete.

He might have tried talking to deal with the awkwardness of being caught while spying. But this sentence means a lot to Vegas who has probably never experienced platonic love. No one had ever asked him about his likes or dislikes without intending to use it against him. And now all he wants is someone to whom he can ask about interests & be asked back . So he answers.

However, the peace may not be from just hearing the sermon, but from hearing it alongside Pete. Vegas has never been treated like a commoner before. The absence of hierarchy in this conversation oddly liberates him. And for the first time, he admits to having desires; in his own way.

By next life he could have meant "In a life where we are not us". He wished Pete was his friend in a world where he could afford to have one. A life where he was not his father's son or the minor family's heir. An alternative universe where Pete was not one of his rival's fiercely loyal head bodyguard. Where Vegas didn't have to constantly switch personalities & Pete was still his non-judgemental self.

For the first time Vegas could sense a craving for a human relationship that didn't have to be bound by money, blood or blackmail. And he readily did a ritual if it meant something to his newfound desire.

But the type of love he craves can be found in any relationship. Considering his upbringing, he seems to believe blood or romantic relationships are utilitarian. Which only leaves friendships. A luxury he never had as a mafia prince.

Now to ruin the mood we all know what happens next😂 Pete is fucking attractive so Vegas couldn't hold back & needed an excuse to touch him I guess 🤣🤣

However it is worth noting that humans have multiple layers to their personalities. Moreover humans do tend to look for what they lack in their partners. So it's only normal for Vegas to find that comforting friend in Pete.

PS forgive me if I'm wrong this is my first time posting my own theory/interpretation 😛😅😭