Not Overdramatic, I Know What I Want!

Girl's talk girl's talk

Finally lesbians on the same picture

NSFW-ish Jeckole headcanon ahead

When Jecka's birthday comes around, she uses it as an excuse to play the "top" in her dynamic with Nicole.

Nicole, of course, refuses because she doesn't want to be "some bottom bitch", but Jecka says she's literally only doing what Nicole does on her birthday when asking for free stuff at stores.

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"I don't see what the difference is," she points out.

"There's a big difference, Jecka. I'm just asking for free shit at places like IHOP or Cheesecake Factory or whatever. You're asking to turn me into some submissive hoe."

"I'm not turning you into a submissive hoe," Jecka argues, rolling her eyes. "I'm just asking for..." she pauses for moment, figuring out how to word her birthday demands, "...satisfaction."

"If you want satisfaction, the Red Light District is just a few blocks away," Nicole answers, deadpan.

"Ugh, you're so difficult."

"Should've thought about that before you went for me. Having second thoughts now?"

"No," Jecka throws a glare at her. "You're stuck with me, and I'm stuck with you no matter what. Now, bitch. Let me be the top for once!"

But Nicole still wouldn't budge.

Jecka sighs and decides maybe she could pull up a bargain. "Fine, if you let me be the top for once...I'll even let you...uh put cigarettes out on my neck."

"Wait, really?" Nicole's eyes light up.

She might regret that the moment Nicole brings out the cigs in bed. But anything to get her emotionally fucked up friend to be more vulnerable, and this includes during sex.

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And then after Nicole gives into the bargain, Jecka goes down on her and sees the scar from getting shot by the mall cop. She's probably fucked up her leg even more by not following the doctor's orders and using her cane to walk around. Jecka has told her multiple times to use it, but Nicole always refuses because her life sucks enough already. The last thing she wants is to be seen as "some cripple" when walking around in public.

Jecka ends up focusing a lot on the scar on Nicole's inner thigh before she actually goes down there. But Nicole isn't stopping her.

Not so platonic roommates Jeckole where Nicole is still depressed while Jeckas at work all day so she starts to get really into cooking because it gives her something to do and she ends up getting really excited to cook for Jecka and make them dinner for when they get home :((

Kelly can move as the party girl.

HELP I FORGOT I WROTE THISSS 😭😭 bro came in when I NEEDED youuujj 😼😼😽

Literally the WEEK Ive had…

Ari’s made me giggle ngl 🫶 it was very nice (I read pms-img as pmo-img for like five minutes) 😋

Okay im like, spekial so im gonna keep asking the most absurd asks abt class of 09 girls because I actually have nothing better to do w my life (I need to be writing a speech for my English test rn)

Anyway

Bevause im like..dying right now from CRAMPS and craving (I fucking hate cravings so much like no I don’t want to eat leave me ALONE 🥸)

Awh at WID he class of 09 girls b like on their period 💔

Or alternately, what wud it b like if jecka was on her period and Nicole is very badly trying to help bevause shes just a trans 🦿 (is that offensive????) 😞😼😛🙏❤️💕🤪❤️🥰🤞😜🚬🚬🚬🥸🤪👩🏿‍🦰🚬🦿👉🏻🙂 I need to sleep

I hope you wrote your essay, and you ate some good food. (also your emoji use scares me but it adds character so go off)

Lmao I don't think the trans Nicole hc is offensive but I'm not a trans woman so who am I to say? I think a lot of the time, people take strong woman characters and headcanon them as trans and I personally don't know what that means as a community but that's a different convo.

Jecka: is super whiny on her period. Asking Nicole to go get her this and that and " No that's the wrong brand of chips." It's the one time Nicole will allow Jecka to boss her around so she let's her soak up the power for the week.

Nicole: becomes a recluse when she's on her period. Similar to when she's sick, she doesn't want to be bothered, she doesn't speak to anyone. She holes herself up in her room with enough snacks and water to last her the week and then comes back like nothing happened. When she was younger, she definitely used it as an excuse to be a bitch, get out of class, make men uncomfortable, etc.

Kelly: is so emotional. I don't think she's a big crier but she'll drop a piece of food on the ground and start sobbing like "This is the end of the world, I should just kms now." And she doesn't know why she's being insane until she checks her calendar like "Oh it makes sense now." I also think she uses it as an excuse to skip class and take a nap in the nurse's office or something.

Ari: gets super angry when she's pms-ing. She has a pretty silent anger to her but when she's on her period she'll just snap at anyone for any reason and then as she's coming off her period she pretends like it's completely normal as if she wasn't screaming at a teacher for giving her a B- on Tuesday.

Emily: Huge cry baby and even clingier than normal. In my universe where Jecka and Emily share Nicole as a partner, they sync up and Nicole has to deal with these two blubbering losers all week. Emily fully threatens to jump into oncoming traffic if her heating pad isn't perfectly right (and she's real for that).

At the end of the day, I know ill never be what they are to me to them

Unusually obsessive Jecka where she’s just a down right bitch to and about Ari unprovoked. Nicole will mention her in passing and it just comes over her like “Why are you talking about her?” “Do you still like her” and Nicole is just baffled bc wtf she’s the crazy one in the relationship. She can only respond with “What’s wrong with you? I NEVER liked her.”

and then they make up and make out the end

I hope someone sees my vision here jeez 😭

You don't see stars here, they're just city lights

I think back to where you live and how you can see the entire sky.

It's occasional, sometimes I'll see the moon

And I'll think of you

Jecka’s left for college, shes left home, cut contact with everyone, and starting over. However it’s not the same like it is back home, where she would sit on the roof with Nicole and look at the stars, and the moon. The moon she can’t see anymore. She tries hard to see it and the star once more, but she’s unable to.

My mom will convince me, and I'll get the courage to ask

We will get coffee in Canton and you'll nervously laugh

When we hug, 'cause we don't hug, we never used to do that

We don't do that

Nicole’s mom finally gets her to leave the house, and it ends up being when Nicole texts Jecka after 6 months asking to meet again, for coffee. She thinks it’s gay, but you gotta do what you gotta do. When they finally see each other again, they’re awkward and nervous and unsure in what to do, and that spirals into an awkward hug, that doesn’t feel like “them”. They never hugged (besides when they were drunk or high off of their tits) and it just doesn’t feel right because it wasn’t their thing and wasn’t about to become it either.

Sometimes I go to sleep

And I'm still 17

You still live down my street

You're not mad at me

Sometimes Jecka falls asleep in her shitty college bed, and if she thinks hard enough it’s like being back home. Home where she was able to walk a few minutes and she’d be at Nicole’s house. She misses this but Nicole isn’t good for her. Jecka had always thought Nicole was made at her for leaving, so when she starts thinking, Nicole isn’t mad. In fact, shes happy - something Jecka didnt normally see, but genuinely loved it.

And in that dream, I will say everything I wanted

That every day after May, I haven't found what I needed

No one has come close to you

And I don't think anyone will

The said thoughts become a constant dream for the next week, and Jecka’s able to spill her guts to Nicole. She’s rambling about anything and everything when she starts talking about how leaving her feels like a piece of her was missing, and she hasn’t found something to permanently fill it, because nothing will ever come close to Nicole. She was like a rare, one of a kind artifiact you could never replace.

Sometimes I go to sleep

And I'm still 17

You still live down my street

You're not mad at me

Nicole still lives at her mom’s house, paying rent but unemployed. Most nights she lays in bed, mind wandering but it always comes back to jecka. She falls asleep and shes once again in her prime era - being seventeen - and everything back to normal. Jecka is still a ten minute walk away (it would be five but Nicole cant be asked to walk faster). Ever since jecka left, Nicole blamed herself, for no particular reason. She just felt like it was fitting - everything was her fault anyway, this wasn’t anything special. Except it hurt worse when jecka stopped texting and calling. “Shes mad at me” was a constant thought, but now, in her stupid yet comforting make believe land, Jecka isn’t angry at her, and they’re smoking cigarettes in her bedroom again.

I have a feeling you got everything you wanted

And you're not wasting time stuck here like me

You're just thinkin' it's a small thing that happened

The world ended when it happened to me

Jecka always wanted to go to college, and do something with her life. She was getting everything she wanted - a well paying job, a rich husband, a new life with no toxicity or abuse or drugs. Nothing to ruin the perfect image she was slowly building brick by brick, chapter by chapter, line by line. She wasn’t wasting time like Nicole, who was still taking every pill in the medicine cabinet. Like Nicole, who was staying in bed until 6pm the next day, wasting away. Like Nicole, who couldnt move out of her mom’s house because she had learned to be depends on her. Jecka would say it was a small thing, her moving away “I’ll still call you, dumbass,” but being left alone with her thoughts, the only one left who hadn’t gotten their life together yet might if actually ended Nicole’s world.

I have a feeling you got everything you wanted

And you're not wasting time stuck here like me

You're just thinkin' it's a small thing that happened

The world ended when it happened to me

Jecka thinks back about Nicole, and that girl has what she wanted - no job, no school, drugs and alcohol and a bed. She had razor blades, and shit - maybe she would kill herself before she was 30. It didn’t seem much, and probably stupid to other people, but they didn’t know Nicole like Jecka did. College had been a slow, slow walk so far - Jecka felt like she had learned nothing, since she learned all this back in high school. It felt like she was wasting away at her desk, slaving over her laptop and a bit of A4 paper. Nicole always seemed uncaring or unaffected when jecka mentioned college. It was a small thing, supposedly. It didn’t matter, because they were only high school friends anyway - this was destined to happen. However Nicole didnt know how Jecka would lay there and sob, because she was fucking her life over. She didn’t want a career in the medical field. She didn’t want a rich husband. She didn’t want a new life; she wanted something small, but payed her rent - or something big like an actor, so she could get the attention she craved. She didn’t want a rich husband - shit, she didn’t even like guys! She wanted a wife. Or girlfriend or whatever you called it. She didn’t want a new life - she wanted the messy, toxic one she had before with Nicole. Her world collapsed inwards when she started her car, her own glassy eyes catching Nicole’s dead ones in the rear view mirror.

When it happened to me, when it happened to me

They both have no idea how much it’s affected the other, being apart and not talking. It’s like a telepathic sort of thing, or voodoo or whatever. It physically hurt them both.

I have a feeling you got everything you wanted.

Jecka got to go to college, and start over

And you're not wasting time stuck here like me

Nicole is wasting away in bed, doing drugs and getting drunk by midday

You're just thinkin' it's a small thing that happened

They both said it wasn’t a big deal

The world ended when it happened to me

Yet they feel empty and unfixable without each other. They had one fragment of themselves missing, and nothing was the right size to fix it, like a jigsaw puzzle. So until something happens, they’ll remain memories just out of reach.

Idk what this means but I could make a sick edit of them if it was a show 💔💔 @st4rlight-kayz @spaceboyden @silverwasafukintrainwreck @polomarco2

lowkey i might die from embarrassment

i posted something like this like a while ago with pineflowers pretend you didn’t know that