Encountering An Inconvenience While Cold: Damn That Sucks, Oh Well, I’ll Figure Something Else Out!!

Merlin Soulmate AU where there's a string of fate that only Sorcerers can see. He is obviously connected to Arthur, because two sides of a coin their destiny is intertwined etc etc.

He one day off-handedly mentions it in a conversation with Gaius, who suddenly seems Very Interested in what colour the string is.

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Merlin: It's red and gold because he's a Pendragon, that's like their whole thing. Even with your old eyesight you can see the banners around the castle come on-

Gaius, who stopped listening at 'Red' and is trying to process Merlin not only liking men, but his romantic soulmate being the Once and Future King: uh huh, yeah.

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Merlin, three weeks later: Hey, why is Lancelot and Gwen's string also Red? Is Lancelot actually a Pendragon?!

Gaius, who's life is flashing before his eyes:

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Merlin, after looking up soulmate strings in The Book, muffled through the wall of his chambers: WHAT?!

Arthur, being treated by Gaius when he took a hit in training:...um, Gaius?

Gaius: He's been at the tavern again your majesty.

Merlin: I love assassinating assassins, they always look so surprised.

Bakugo once called him a limp noodle, Shouto, not knowing exactly the connotations of that insult, finds that he agrees.

Source: unknown

some more Nimona!

Ok I’m having thoughts about the Uther / Arthur dynamic…

I think that Arthur was entirely raised by wet nurses / nannies / etc because Uther’s negative feelings were too strong.

I think for most of Arthur’s youth, Uther resented, regretted, and somehow blamed Arthur for the loss of Ygraine. And I think Uther essentially avoided his own son as much as he could get away with.

I think he got so desperate for an heir (and of course the problem couldn’t be with him, it had to be Ygraine’s reproductive system that was faulty), that he didn’t do his research, or didn’t listen to warnings, or somehow believed himself above the potential consequences.

I bet he knew that a life would be taken, but he assumed it would be some peasant of Camelot, maybe a knight, maybe one of his lords, but thought he and his family would be immune and would obviously be spared. Because, y’know, he’s the king of Camelot.

And I think he blamed Arthur for some messed up reason (I mean, ok, grief does weird things to people).

And I think every time he realised Arthur isn’t a carbon copy of him, isn’t the perfect heir (impossibly strong, talented, and stoic) he resents him and regrets that he traded the love of his life for “this disappointment”. Surely magic should have given him the absolute perfect heir? And person so amazing they’re beyond all human comprehension, right? Like Hercules, or Achilles.

Also, the way Uther loses his godamn mind when Morgana is dying in S3, the way he waxes lyrical about how important she is to him, how he can’t live without her… yet Arthur has been dying twice by this point and Uther gets no where near as upset. In fact, he sits with his dying son once, admits that his death is inevitable, then goes about his day without a second glance…

And because of the way his father couldn’t even spare him a glance, let alone a hug, or comfort, or an “I love you, I’m proud of you”, I don’t think Arthur knows what affection really is. I don’t think he truly understands how love feels.

I think that’s why he was so off-balance when he went to save Ealdor with Merlin and saw the way he and his mother interacted. It threw everything he’d ever known into doubt.

Maybe he thought that kind of love, affection, and physical comfort is for poor people, because that’s what his experience told him.

And maybe it made Arthur think - “what if my mother had survived? What if my father’s life had been taken instead?”

And what if Ygraine had lived and Uther had died? I mean, the spell gave Uther an heir to take over when he died, and he got what he wanted, right? So if Uther dies right away… well, you’ve got your heir you wanted, he’ll take your place like he’s supposed to!

Arthur has lived his whole life feeling like he wasn’t wanted - that’s what all the evidence told him. Then he finds out he’s “the reason” his mother is dead and his father is a heartless, emotionless, bitter man?

Holy shinsplints Arthur. No wonder he couldn’t accept the affection Merlin and Guinevere clearly had for him. Maybe that’s why he kept freaking out and throwing it back in their faces, getting angry, pushing them away.

He was scared because he had absolutely no idea how to react to it - no blueprint, no examples, no evidence that his own upbringing and his father’s mentality isn’t normal.

But my god did he try and give out all the love he had stored in his heart, all the love that was wasted on his father and was never reciprocated. My god did he try.

Bless you, Arthur. My heart aches so damn hard for you.

took two ap tests today

then had to do three homework assignments

find time to eat somehome

and still get to bed at a reasonable time

to wake up at the crack of dawn tommorow

i dont know how much longer I can do this

(tell me again how im lazy)

The “That’s immoral you shouldn’t write that, we need to get that taken down” discourse on tiktok right now is PISSING ME OFFF

Wdym you want censorship for a literal ARCHIVE are you fucking stupid

Ao3 was literally founded to preserve works that were largely getting taken down due to censorship

Censorship is the opposite of what Archive of Our Own stands for

The TAGS and WARNINGS are there for a REASON. Use them and stop complaining

The universal rule—don’t like, don’t read

It’s THAT simple

I love my blorbo so much I need him covered in blood and beaten within an inch of his life