Since It's OCD Awareness Month, I Want To Bring Up The Way A Special Interest (meant To Distract From

Since it's OCD awareness month, I want to bring up the way a special interest (meant to distract from real life and other things) can be negatively affected by OCD.

I've had intrusive thoughts before that I'm a hypocrite for enjoying a character because if I interacted with someone like that character irl I'd probably feel nervous around them, not get along with them, or not like them. I've had intrusive thoughts that whatever my current media interest is makes me a bad person (usually for just enjoying a harmless ship). I know I've done a ton of checking around these topics, trying to argue with myself that "no, here's proof this ship isn't abusive or bad. Or here's proof I could get along with this character if I knew them irl."

It probably sounds silly, but OCD can be extremely ridiculous in what it fixates on, and yet it's still incredibly annoying and painful for the person dealing with the intrusive thoughts. Its the worst when your brain gets stuck endlessly looping on something because you need to know for sure what you enjoy is morally sound or that you're not a hypocrite, etc.

I'm havent had a full autism test but my therapist and I suspect I am on the spectrum and therefore I think the way your special interest can be impacted by OCD intrusive thoughts (if you are both autistic and have OCD) should be something mental health professionals study more.